Abar Fire Eseche Sei Dinguli

20.12.2016

Abar sei dinguli, abar sei pothe amar hete cola. Kintu, shudui shunnota. Sei shunnotar vire tmake vebe jaoa. Haranu valobasha kub kom manushi naki fire pai, sadhona kore sei kom manushder katare nijeke dekhar apran cesta.

Goto 11 ta din kivabe keteche kaoke bujhate parbona. Dingolo joto goto hoyeche mathai shudu eker por ek cinta joro hoyeche. Cokher kache jei manushti, take dekheo na dekha. Sei 8 tarikhe FB te ekta message peyechilam. Tarpor eke eke 10 ta din goto holo R amar mathai ashte thaklo eker por ek vabna.

- Mobile e net nei, tai ashte parchena,

- Basai kono problem naki oi osostho,

- Bidesh theke se ashlo naki,

- Naki babu amake na bolei cole gelo,

- Naki amar lekha pore amar sathe kotha bolbena decide koreche.

Etogolo vabna goto 10 ta din amake kure kure kheyeche. Specially 3rd and last point ta. Ki mone kore sedin sokal bela tmr number e taka pathalam. Vablam mobile taka nei, or meyad nei. Dekhi jodi mobile e sms ashe. Kintu, nah r o 2 din kete gelo tumar khobor nei. Amio opekkha korchilam kichu ekta shunar jonno. Shimuke phone dibo seitao mathai ashchilo.

Oboseshe, aj sokale tumar message pelam FB te. Se esheche hut kore 15 diner chutite. Tmi valo acho. Tar thekeo besi obak holam, Tyter Baba esheche !!! Bah, babu. Matro der masher bebodhane aj OITA or OI Beta or OI Kutta theke aj emon sombhodone cole esheche. Eta amar Babu? Tumi amake promise korechile? Amake bolechile, somoi laguk tao amar kache ashbe? Tumar promise R amar promise different, taina babu? Tumi promise kore vanghte paro, R ami ki amar promise rakhte parina? Mone ache, ki bolechilam ami? Tumi jodi promise break koro, tobe ami ager life e fire jabo. Amake niye vabona, taina? Ami amar kotha MUST rakhbo, ami dekhte cai tumi amake koto opekkha korate paro, koto kosto dite paro, koto exam. nite paro.

FB amake ki bolecho, ki korecho, kichui bolini. Shudu vebechi aei kichudin, tmi family pressure e khubi upset. EKhon chup kore jai, tumi bujbe and amar kotha vabbe. Kintu, tumi dore niyecho, amio tumar moto hoye jabo, taina? Tumar sobkichu amar, etato tumari mukher kotha chilo. Aj sob kichu noi, samanno FB er password ta tumi change kore amake bujate ceyecho, oitateo amar permission nei. Bah babu. Kore jao, oije kichui bolbona. 

Dekha korte cailam, tao ajaira mane hoina bole kete gela. Tumar kache life ta emon taina? Samne ja dekhba tatei kosto, osojjo. R etodin dore jar jonno valobasha, aj 24th November 2016 e bolla, amake shantite thakte dao. Hmm taito dicchi tumake and opekkha korchi, tumi bujbe ekdin and kotha rakhar jonno, kaor opekkha sesh korar jonno fire ashba. Oije bolechila, tumake ami r jhur korbona. Shudui dekhe jabo.

R to kichudin, tarpor tumake sob bole ami ekhan theke chuti nibo. Tumar hatei tule dibo life! Totodin tar sathe ovinoi noi, bastob life tai par koro. Amar samne diyei to korba, koro. Kono Rag or Ovijug noi, hotasha thekei etogolo kotha bollam. Amar Babu to tumi, tumakeito sob boli. Tmar majhei to amar beche thakar prerona. Sei kotha bujar moto obosthai tumi r nei. Tumi shudu aj Tyter, sekhane ami aj abcha kuyasha. Aei j rater kusayar moto sokal holei ami hariye jai.

Sotti ami sokoler majhe hariye jai tumar deya kosto niye. Haranu pothe tumar opekkha kori. Jani, kono ekdin tumi tumar promise rakhbe. Asha to rakhtei hobe, noile dingolo jabe kivabe. Onek valobashi babu, ajo eto kosto deyar poreo valobashi onek onek. Valo thako.

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10.12.2016

Aeito pouche gechi prai. Pereo jacchi. R kichudin. Ki bolechile mone ache? Ami jid kore emon korchi. Etogolo bochor por amaketo cintei paroni, olto emon kotha bolteo tmi charoni. Aj theke 5 year pore amar dinguli tmk shunabe ami ki korechi. Ami amar dingulike mitthebadi noi, 5 year porei sottobadi hisebe pete cai.

Jano Babu, kokhono kono kichu niye jid korini. Tobe kichu proman korte hole jid korte hoi. Mone ache tmr, tmk ekdin Sharukh khaner ekta movie er kotha bolechilam jokhn tmi baire chile? Sei movie te SK always life niye bajhi dorto. Jate jekono somoi se here jai. Amio emon korchilam, but tmi mana korla. Amk norlam life e anla. Aj abar tmi amak sei life e fire jete bolcho? Nijeke shantite rakhte cao, taina? Rakho. Shudu jeno, tmi tmr hatei ekjoner life take elomelo kore diyecho. J ekhono tmr jonnoi opekkha korche. Koi bolinato or kotha na holeo to ager moto korina! Kichu pete hole naki sadhona korte hoi, amio sei pothei hatchi.

Last winter tmr ekhanei chilam, onno ekta sopno niye. Saradin seshe tmr kotha, voice, sopno chilo. R ebar, same ami, just tmi thekeo nei. Eto kache bt kokhonoi kichu bola hoina, kokhonoi jhur kora or caoya-paoya limited. Osthitto ki pao or onuvoti? Nah, seto aj moricika. Ki bolechila, jodi onek year opekkha korte hoi, tokhon ki korba? Gure fire sei kothagoloi mathai ase, chobigolo kotha bole, sms golo sakkhi dei. Tao boli, valoi rekhecho. Nije valo theke, kacher manushder valo rekhe Tmi valo thako.

I am in a way where somebody will come to me. Is it 5 years, 10 years, 20 years or ....  Not a problem, jid jodi korte hoi, tobe eta niye keno noi?

Valo thako tmi, sobaike valo rakho. Love you so much Babu. Love is not a game. And, I am not a player. You just told me to play and then, put me away. So, I am waiting here if ever your thoughts can be changed!

Obak Bisshoye Dekha ......

01.12.2016

Mishe jacchi ami sei michile. Hariye jacchi ami. Adharer majhe nijeke niye pichoner dorja diye palanu ek porajito soinik hoye nirbashone jabo vabchi. Abar onno kichu kora jai naki tao vabchi. Tobe aei mashei ekta destination finalized hobe.

Na, tmk r janabona. Obossho tmr janar ecchao nei. Ekdik diye valoi hoyeche tmr kotouhol or tradition theke tmi nijeke dure niye eshecho. Tobe, ami more geleo budhoi ekta afsos theke jabe. Dirgo 7 year er somporker poreo tmi amake bujte parlena. Always nijer or jader dekhcho tader kothai vebecho. Puranu kothagolo mone porle shudhu hashi ashe. Ki chile tmi R ki hola!

Sedin o bolechila, Ami ja vabi tai kori. Amar vabnagolo jeheto janoi, tobe amar sathe emon korle keno? Tmr mone jodi emon ekta plan thekei thake, tobe keno eto kache ene sopnotake nere dile? Hut kore emon siddhanto niyecho? Jodi tai hobe, tobe etobar bolar poreo, amar jonno jokhon feelings chilo, tokhono to boloni, tarsathe thakbena? Bahir theke ashar poreoto passport chirte bolate lukiye rekhecho bole ariye giyechile? Aj jar songho peye nijer ostittoke osikar korla, ekdin takeito ante caoni! Bolte gele onek kothai bola jai, kintu jar answer hoi, Kichui Korar Nei, ami Nirupai.

Asole aeisob kotha aj obantor. Emnitei to amar manoshikota niye question ache, so r o mean minded amake mone hobe. Aei prithibir niyomi emon. True bolle mean minded, R false bolle ahare ohore. Budhoi sei jonnoi mitthebadi houyar cesta korchi. Kintu, aei diary te mitthe thakbena. So, likha off kore ekta solution kora jete pare. Kintu, nijeke off korar way to amar jana nei.

Babu, tmk kadate or kosto dite ekhane r kichui likhbona. Ja hobe offline e, ja dekha jabena, feel o kora jabena. Karon, kostogolo always je pai sei shudu bujte pare. Amar kostogolo niye amio hariye jabar pothe nemechi. Shudu kichudiner opekkha. Opekkha . . . 

Valo thako sob somoi. Onek happy thako. Love you Babu.