Eto pani kothai theke ashe?

13.07.2015

Abar shuru hoyeche amar. Ekaki thaklei cokhgolo japsha hoye othche. Anmonei panio beriye ashche. Cosmata use koreo solution hocchena. Ekta chele kivabe pare emon korte? Keno barebar 23 tarikher kothata mathai gurche? Jotobari mone porche, ojantei cokh duto panite vhore jacche.

Eto kosto keno? Tarceyeo boro kosto sei kostogolo lukiye rakha. Tumake happy rakhar and smiley rakhar apran cesta kore jaoa. Sorir or mone jai coluk, tumar sathe sei ager Trazan er behave kore jaoa. Ektuo bujte dite caina tumake. At least samner dingolo, jei koidin regular kotha hocche. Valo achi ami, etai to amar meki face.

Goto 09/07/2015 tumar sathe dekha holo. Ami er ager din office kore rater 9:30 tar bus e tumar oikhane jaoar jonno rowna diyechilam and vhor sare 6 tai pouchlam. Ekta hotel ow khula nei, oboseshe rastai rastai ghurar por 8 tar dike sei SHAPLA te othlam. Mone pore gelo sei dintar kotha. Tumar biyer 4 din age tumake nite eshechilam.Aei shapla te othechilam pothombar tumar elakai. Sedin onek kedechilam, tao tumar mon golate parini. Tumi amake firiye diyechile. Aei hoteler oi roomtate hoyto ajo amar kannagolo cikkar kore kade, koster cikkar jara tumake sedin tolate pareni. Amake mukher opor bolchila, tumi cole jao. Amar dukre dukre kannagolo koto osohai chilo, firti pothe bus er moddhe bosheo kedechilam. Sei Shapla hotel theke ber holam sare 9 tai.

Pothome gelam Saifuddin hall er samner market e. Tumake kokhono valo kichu dite parini. Sob somoi ecche chilo, kitu ami jabar porei somoi paina kichu kinbo. Kintu, ebar kinlam. Tumar jonno ekta nil shari. Dokane sharita dekhei etto valo laglo, ek kothai kine fellam. Kinar pore cinta korchilam, tumi porba to?

Seikhan theke tumar clg er gate e opekkha korte laglam. Sare 10 ta beje gelo, tumar ashar nam nei. Sharita kine ki bokami korlam? Tumi ashba to? Emonto kokhono hoini? Na, tumi pune 11 tar dike ashla sei dress e. Erpore duijoner cinta kothai jabo? Star e? Kintu . . recently last bar dekha korar por kichu hoyeche ja tumake bola hoini. Sei jonnoi vihon vhoi hocchilo amari. Tao oi jayga chara to opai nei. Jano, sara rasta ami doa porte porte ashchi shudu star er jonno. Jate ja vabchi ta na hoi. Jaoyar por Harun vaike na peye onek kushi holam.

Amra sei 11ta theke araita porjonto chilam. Amader sobceye sukher somoye. Aei somoitoko jodi theme thakto kingba sara jibon emoni thakto, mone mone ekhono boli. Tumake eto kach theke dekha, aei pothom samna samni sharite dekha, thik amar lokkhi babutar moto. Eto sundor lagchilo tumake, shudu chobi tolte ecche hocchilo. Tumar jonno tolteo parina. Tao tolechi besh kichu chobi. Jeigolo amake songho dibe samner dingolote.

2nd bar try koreo amra ki perechi ja ceyechi? Janina, jante ecche korbe sarata jibon. Tumake ordek rastai diye ami cole ashlam dhakate. Dhaka theke ctg. Tarpor, tumar sathe r ekbar dekha korar apran akuti. Kintu, jani ebar ontoto r dekha hocchena. Sei jonnoi kostogolo vishon jontrona dicche buktar vitor.

R matro 9 ta din. Ek pa ek pa kore shudu amar theke dure jabar din goncho. Aeito sesh hoye jacche. Cole jaba tahole, taina? Jao cole, ami ki kore tumake atkabo? Tumar biyer 4 din agei to atkate parini, r aj seto r o osomvhob. Thakna, cole jeye tumi jodi aste aste okay hoye jao, tatei hoyto kichuta shanti pete pari. Hmm rater adhare kingba ekaki somoigolote cokhgolo vijiye dibe kostogoloke. Amar moddhei to thakbe, dekhabona tumake. Tumake je valo thaktei hobe, amar jonno. Tumake sob kichu niye sostho thakte hobe, shudu amar jonno. Tumake sob valobasha niye amar kotha vabte hobe, vabba to?

Etai ki sesh?

06.07.2015

Babu fire esheche. Dhaka theke aj sondhai fireche. Amake jodio khule kichu boleni, tobe visa er problem solve hoyeche nischoi. Etar jonnoi to dhaka jaoa. Sondhai fireche. Kintu, aei kothata ami duibar bollam keno? Karon, babu sondhai esheo amake ektibarer jonno call deini. Emonki aeito kichukkhon age ekta sms pathalo, tar onek matha betha korche. Parle rate phone dibe. Motamoti dore neoya jai aj r phone dibena. Ami eto kotha bolchi keno aei bishoye?

Babu, sei sondhai eshche. She facebook e onekkhon chilo, half an hour er opore. Se ekhon regular facebook e jai, tar friend der sathe adda dei. Kintu, se amake ekti baro bolena, babu facebook e asho kingba oi somoye facebook e aisho. Tar amar sathe kotha furiye jacche. Amake tar sojjo hoina, edaning shudu jogra kore. Otocho tarjonnoi aj amar kono friend nei, facebook bad, mig bad, sob bad. Shudu tar kotha vabtei valo lage. Kosto pacchi and pabo, eta amar niyoti. Tobe jokhon dekhi, babu amar sathe emon korche, tokhon sei kostogolo r o onekgun bere jai. Aj pc te boshbona vebechilam. Kintu, mon bolchilo, babu cole esheche. Mon r o bolchilo, facebook e check korlei bujbo. Jothariti moner daronai sotti holo!

Dekhte dekhte somoigolo sesh hoye jacche. Jani tumar onek kosto hocche, thik amar jotota. Ki korbo ami kichui vebe paina. Mukh fute tumake kichu bolteo parina. Mone mone shudu ekta kothai boli, aj theke 5 year er ager sei babuta kemon kore eto change hoi? Sob kichu mene nei! Amake chara onno kaoke jei jaygai vabtei partona, sekhane aj se onno ekjoner sathe thakte cole jacche onek dure. Amar sobi emotion, late valobasha aj tar kache. E o somvhob, aei sei babu amar.

Dekhi, kemon kore tumi paro amake chere jete. Kemon kore tumi amake kotha diyeo kotha na rakho. kemon kore amar sesh request ta tumi ograjjo koro. Amake deya sesh kotha tao ki rakhba na tumi? Sob kichuur answer er jonnoi ami opekkha korbo. Onar sathe somporko rekhe amake kotodin tumi kosto diye jete paro ta dekha je amar khub dorkar. Jake eto valobashi, je amake naki onek valobashe, sei manush tar ekta exam neyar right nishchoi amar ache. Shudu dur theke opekkhai korbo, konodin shunbo bole, tar sathe babu r thakena, relation nei.

Majhe majhe vabi, apur oni kharap chilo bole apu jayni. Tumi ki emon partena? Tumake ki basha theke ber kore dito? Tumi just mukhei rag dekhiye gecho, kono result ante paroni. Hoyto ecchei chilona. Sei jonnoito aj porjonto konodin onake ektibar bolte paroni, onar sathe tumi thakte parbena. Breakup cao. Olto, aj tumi matha nichu kore onar kachei cole jaccho. Valo babu, amar cokher panigolor hoyto aj kono dam nei tumar kache. Tobe, bujbe kono ekdin jedin ami r thakbona. Shudu doa koro oi dinta jate amar jibone druto ashe. Ami beche theke tumake onno karo sathe dekhte parbona. Dekho bukta fete jacche, dekhcho tumi? :'( 

Bidai Ghonta Beje Gelo

02.07.2015

Amar jiboner sei ondhokor dingolo abar fire ashche. Barbar mone pore jacche last year er sei dingolor kotha. Jodio sei dingolo seibar kichudiner jonno sthayi chilo. Kintu, ebar? Ebar amake sei ondhokar dingolote pore thakte hobe diner por din, hoyto ajibon.

Babu'r desher baire jaoyata confirm hoye geche. Aei masher 23 tarikhe tar flight. Ki obolilai bole felchi. Kintu, amar vitore ki hocche ami shudu janchi, amar cokh shudu dekhiye jacche, amar sorir shudu janan dicche. Kotota kharap lagche keo e bujbena. Amar babutao bujbena, take bujar chance e to dibona. Besh achi, ekhono tar sathe hashchi, dustami korchi. Eto kosto cepe rekhe take shudu dekhanu, tar cole jaoa ta savabik. Ta ami mene niyechi. Asole ki mene niyechi?

Goto 29 tarikh rate tumi amake bad news ta dila. Tumar ticket confirm hoye geche, 23 tarikhe. Cole jaba amar kach theke onek dure. Janina erporer kotha. Ami kivabe thakbo, ager moto paglami shuru korbo. Jei paglamigolo tumi janbena, unless aei diary ta pothom theke pora shuru koro. Ami jani, amar paglamigolo shunle tumi amar opor onek rag korba. Kintu, ami nirupai. Tokhon ami nijei janina ami actually ki kori. Eto valobashi tumake, aj porjonto tumar theke ekta assash pelam na. Tahole bolo amar life ta voboghure hobena to ki hobe?

Agamikal tumi dhaka jaba. Hoyto embassy te final kotha bolte. Sob kichu ghuchanu sesh. Tumio hoyto aste aste nijeke ghuchiye niccho, jodio jani tumi valo nei. Tumar thote kichu ekta hoyeche. But, amar keno jani mone hocche, etai shudu noi. Tumi r o kichu amar theke lukaccho. Tumi eto sohoje doctor er kache jabar moto nou. R nischoi tumar ghum hocchena bolei tumi alatrol mane ghumer owshud khaoya shuru korecho. Sob e amar dharona. Janina, tumi kotota osostho. Duijonei ek onno theke shudu nijeder problem golo lukanur ek apran cesta. Mon kharap koranu off kora. Kintu, samne ki r parbo?

Tumi gele ami kemon kore thakbo? Tumake chara je amar colbena. Jogra korbo abar valobashbo. Sob to tumi amar. Sei tumi kivabe parba amake chere jete? Shudu nijer family er kotha vabla? Valobashar manushtar kotha ekbar vablena? Valobashar manush bolei r o kosto deya jai, taina? Sobai mukh buje sojjo korbena, shudu aei ekta manush chara, taina? R tai sobaike valo rekhe amakei beche nila kosto dibar jonno. R nijeo kosto paba. Keno eto sacrifice?

Amar mone ekta question onek age theke ghure. Sahosh kore tumake konodin bola hoina. Aj ekhane kore feli. Accha, tumi amar jonno family te eto torture or mental pressure e thakla, but keno onake ekbaro bollena tumar-amar kotha? Ammu ki tumake promise koriyechilo? Naki tumi nij thekei caona onake bolte? Khub ecche amar eta janar.. Tumake shurur dike ami onekbar bolcheilam, eta korte. Tumi koroni, emonki kono answer ow daoni. Kintu keno?

Tumi cole jabar sathe sathei job ta chere dibo. Agamikal office e bole dibo. Amar pokkhe somvob noi. Tumi onar sathe thakba, eta je ami mantei parina. R tai janina ebar ki korbo. Shudu vabchi, tumi kemon kore thakba? Onek kosto hobe jani. Tumar jonno shudu doa korbo, jei obosthai thaki. Thik jemon gotobar korechilam. Tumi valo thako, shudu valo thako. Sobai ke valo rakho. Valobashi bolei etai kammo kori.

Procondo manoshik caape achi

29.06.2015

Khub khub khub kharap somoi jacche amar. Jodio houyar kotha chilo olto. Matro 3 din age tumar sathe dekha kore ashlam. Tumar sathe dekha kora maneito amar jonno amar atta kingba mon shanto kore rakha. Kintu, ebar emon keno holo? Kichui bujte parchina.

Goto 26th and 27th June, tumar sathe dekha hoi and erpor theke Ek ekta din ami vhoye chupse thaki. Phone ta beje othlei koljeta cirik mere othe. Ebarer meetup e eto problem hobe janle at least tumake oikhane niye jetam na. Sob kichui keno jani ekta link ache mone hocche. Harun vai er amar kache taka dar caoya, erpor . . . . Thik buje otte parchina actually oidike ki hocche. Ishh keo ekjon jodi oikhane thakto ekta khobor nitam, tao plan kora kivabe nibo. Poricito ekjon manusher jonno kajta hocchena, R ami vhoye sukiye jacchi.

Ghum hocchena, khete parchina, jao ghum lege ashe porokkhone phn ta ki bajlo, aei voye lafiye othe mbl ta dekhi. Eto manoshik caape achi tao tumar sathe share korte parchina. Ami caina, tumake notun kore r o mental pressure e felte. Emnitei tumi valo nei ta ami jani.

Asolei ki tumi valo nei? Abar FB e ashcho, frnd der sathe chat korcho, profile picture diccho . . sobaike bole beraccho valo acho. R koidin pore amake chere cole jaba, sob thik hoye jabe. Amake jate somoi dei tao naki bolecho kacher manushgoloke. Jekhane tumari ecche nei, sekhane oder ki dhai poreche amake somoi dibe bolo? Jani, ja hobe valoi hobe tumar jonno. Komto holona, 1 year paar hoye geche. Tumar life take thik kora ochit. Amar jonno vebe vebe keno miche eto frnd, eto somoi, family member der mlan mukh dekhba bolo?

Jao cole jao. Amake niye vabte hobena. Amar jibon cole jabe thik ekhon jemon jacche. Tumake R ashar kothaow bolbona. Jemon kore sob cepe rakhi, tokhono hoito temoni rakhbo. Kingba r o beshi rakhbo. Morte morte hoito bolbo, Babu ami valo achi. Tumar babu besh ache, beche ache aeito beshi.

Valo thako lokkhita. Onek valobashi tumake . . .

R o osthir somoi . . .

22.06.2015

Din goriye jacche. Ek ek ta din amar kache onek mulloban. Ek ek ta din jacche, amar majhe ami sukiye jacchi. Othoco kaoke bujte deya jabena, specially tumake. Tao amake potiniyoto tumake happy rakhar jonno valo thakar, happy thakar try kore jete hoi. Jeitoko somoi kotha hoi, thik totokhon. Erpor ami abar sei vhoye kingba haranur suke shudui vitor vitor venghe porchi.

Dirgo ekti bochor por tumi FB e status diyecho, chat korecho. Moner vitor theke ke jeno bole othlo, aeito ager babu ta fire ashche. Sei status er fuyara kingba frnd der bestota chat er duniyai. Sob kichui fire ashbe, shudu amakei tumi sei prithibite thakte dibena. Sekhane amar jonno tumi opekkha korbena kingba amar jonno kono text ashbena. Amake pichone fele tumi agiye jaba samne, tai jao. Eto cesta kori tumake pichone dakbona, kintu phone e kotha bolar somoi eki kotha boli. Tumar vashai eki dialouge, aj dupureo bolechila. Kintu, moner kothatai to barbar ber hoye ashe, tumi ki seita bujo?

Tumi kokhonoi amake bujbena. Tumi ki kokhonoi amar kosto komanur try korbena? Jodi nai koro, tateow khoti nei. Tumar valo thakatai amar mukkho bepar. Eto valobashi, r tumar sukh dekhe jodi ami kosto pai tobe amar valobashar mollo thakbena. Sei jonnoi, tumi ja korte jaccho, tate badha dibona. Kichu bolbona. Valobasha seto amader mone mone ache, sei valobasha sotti hole tumi kono ekdin tar proman diba. Jotoi sikol thakuk, jotoi badha thakuk, amar jonno noi, amader valobashar jonno tumi fire ashbe tumar kache. jei prithibite shudu tumi eka thakbe, hoito seidin ami thakbona. Amake khoma kore dio. Jodi kokhono dekho ami kono sara dicchina, tobe vebe nio tumar babuta tumar theke sotti onek dure cole geche.

Mone ache tumar, kono ekdin tumi bolechile, "Aei prithibite naiba pelam, opare jate tumake pai". Sei opar thekei tumar sathe ami thakbo. Tumi chara amar k ache? Aei sotti ta ki bujo? Amar sob kotha, sob abeg, sob valobasha sob to tumake ghire. Jani, eshob sob tumar kache vhab (amar). Kintu, ami jani kono ekdin tumi thik bujbe amai.

Jibontake ekta single room e niye eshechi aj koekdin holo. Sobar theke dure. Bolte paro amar postoti nicchi. Bakita jibon jotodin pran ache, kivabe jibonta katabo seita vebe neyar try korchi. Sei jonnoi, sobar theke dure eshe ekaki kotha bolar ekta asroi kuje niyechi. 9-5 ta duty kore, hate amar ofuronto somoi tumake niye vabar. Sondha theke vebe jai, r koto kolpona kori. Mojar bishoi poti bare tumi sei kolponai rong dele diye amake bastobe niye asho.

Vabchi, shudu vabchi. In Sha Allah tumar sathe dekha hobe. Kintu, din k din tumi onek strong hoye jaccho, keno jani amar mon onno kotha bolche. Thak kichu bolbona, dekhi amar moner darona ta sotti hoi naki. Aei jemon ektu age tumar sathe kotha holo. Kothai jeno ekta badha, ami kichu bollei tumi amake past niye barebar kucha dao. Amar kono kotha ekhon somapti khuje paina tumar samne. Tumi amake ek dakkhai kotha break korte baddho koro. Tao valo, tumi ekhono ager moto acho.

Aei babutake ami amar motoi cini. Tar opor amar onek astha. Tar opor onodhikar corca korteo badhe na. Karon, tumi je amar babu. Tumake je onek valobashi. Valo thako sob somoi.

Rujar Mash ta Eshei Gelo .....

15.06.2015

R koek din por ruja shuru hobe. R koekta din por theke ekta ekta din hobe amar moner opor pressure baranur din. Emnitei valo nei. Tao, tumake na dekhanur apran cesta kore jai. Tao majhe majhe dora pore jai R tumi amake vhul bujo.

Goto porshu tumar sathe abar dekha hobar kotha chilo. Kintu, durvagghobosoto ebar plan er bastabayon holona. R etei tumi amake ki bolla? Tumake ebar amar moto kore pabona bolei ami jete caini. Aei bujle amake? Babu, sotti bolchi tumi ja vebacho ta noy. Shuru thekei kokhono ami emon caini. Tarporeo mitthe bolbona, tumar kache gelei ami onnorokom hoye jai. Tumake onek miss kori bolei etto ador korte ecche kore. Ami asole nijer opor control hariye felechi. Tumi joto dure sore jaccho, totoi ami depression e pore jacchi.

Babu, dekhecho tumake ami jei kotha dei, ta rakhi. Tumake kotha diyechilam, ami job korbo abar. R tai, job e join korlam. Aj ctg te ashlam. But, tumar kotha etobeshi mone pore je amar pokkhe r jobta kora somvob hocchena. Sotti, bukta dukduk kore. Tumi hariye jabe .... Keno amar moto kore tumi tumar kothagolo rakhcho na? Oikhane na gele hoina?

Aei matro tumar sathe phone e kotha holo. Again same vhul korlam. Jeshob kotha kokhono tumake bolbona bole thik korechi, seisob kothau bole dilam. Dhet.Ki je hoi amar, tumake amar shob gopon plan janiye dicchi. Eta thik hocchena. Ete je tumi r o beshi kosto paba, ami ta jani. Eto cesta kori, khub savabik thakar try korbo. But, tumar sathe kotha bollei sob control power hariye feli mon theke. Ouff, ki korchi ami?

Babu, ajke amake raganur jonno ki bolla, "Ami r fire ashbona"? Jodi nao fire asho, tobou ami emoni thakbo. Tumar jonno opekkharoto. Dekhi tumi amake koto opekkha korate paro or koto kosto dite paro oi onar sathe theke. Sotti bolchi, etai tumar last exam amar pokkho theke.

Goto rat ektuow ghum hoini. Sara rat vebechi ki hobe amar? R to kichudin. AMi ki kore thakbo? Babu parona, tumar sei ager ekgeyemi rag ta r ekbar dekhate? Parona oikhane na jeye ekhane thakte? Amake emon poristhite fele tumio je valo thakbena. Eta ami ki kore mani?

Eto kosto keno? Tumake eto valobashi tao keno tumi aj ammake eto kosto diccho? Kono somoi ki amake bujbana? :'(

Koto kotha jome geche . . .

01.06.2015

Aj onekdin pore likhte ashlam. Asole eto kichu gote jacche, likhbo likhbo kore likha hoye otchilona. R tai jomte jomte kothar vandhar hoye geche. Notun ekta mash shuru holo, vebe dekhlam r kichudin pore bigoto dingulor srity'r opor bsrity's astor pore jete pare. Sei jonnoi r o beshi fire asha amar ostitter majhe, diary er patai.

10.05.2015 < Amar jormodin chilo. Aei pothom oops na ditiyo bar tumar theke 1st wish ta pelam na. Olto tumar sathe rag ovhiman holo phone receive kora, na kora niye. Goto bochor jei agun jolchilo buker moddhe, ebaro sei agun chilo. Kintu, ager moto noi. Keno jani, mone hocchilo, amar babuta ekhono to amake valobashe. Jormodine etai amar sera opohar.

Tarpore, majher dingolo keteche khub kharap. Khub ostho hoye porechilam, may be etota sick amar life ekhono porjonto r hoini. Traporeo cesta kore giyechi tumake kichu na bujte dite. Onek kichu lukiye rakhte. Tao phone e kotha bolar somoi mukh foske onek kotha ber hoye jeto, r tai kichu kichu tumi jene jeta. Aste aste ektu sostho holam, and tumake dekhar jonno osthir hoye porlam. Jabo jabo kore shudu date pichacchilo.

19.05.2015 < Oboseshe 18 tarikhe plan moto ami tumar oikhane gelam. Ebari pothom tumar oikhane pouche sondhar pore tumar bashar samne janini. mathar opor onek cinta gurchilo. Hotel othlam and sarakhon vabte laglam, agamikal ki korbo? Kothai jabo babuke niye . .

Sokale kothamoto ami clg er samne jeye wait korte laglam. Tumar M.A. admission er form joma deyar last date chilo. So, eta korata important chilo. But, clg er staff e asheni, so amra kichu time pelam. Baki somoi seto dream chilo. Amader jiboner sobceye anondo and sukher somoi. Abar seikhane and same feelings with kichu na paoyar afsos. Amader majhe borabori emon ekta afsos niye dekhar porbo sesh hoi. Tobe, tumake kushi kingba mon valo kore dite parlei amar onek anondo hoi. Sei anondo niyei tumake bashar pothe chere amio fire ashlam amar bashai. Etto valobashi, hoyto ajo tumake bujatei parini.

Kono jormodin e tumi amake gift chara rakhoni. Ebaro pelam, ekta watch, onek sundor. Thanks babu.

Tumar oikhan theke ashar por theke monta osthir hoye ache. R o tumake dekhte cai, pashe thakte cai. Taropor basha theke barbar bolche, ebar ekta job korte. Mezo vaiar office e new post create hoyeche, CTG office er senior admin. Onek na na kore vablam 1-2 weeks kore dekhi ki hoi. Aj amar dhakai jaoyar kotha chilo. But, aj jaoa holona, in sha allah agamikla jaoa hote pare.

Amar life e ekhon porjonto class neini or lecture ow deini. But, last week ekhane Government ekta traning center e 2 hours er ekta class nilam. Ouff, eto kosto. Tao, valoi laglo. Oikhaner manager onek request korlo poti week e ekta class nite. But, again ami pichiye ashlam. Oi class er por oi pothe r pa baraini. Dekhi, samne ki hoi. 

Kichui valo lagena. Aste aste je sei somoi kache cole ashche. Aeito r kichudin por ruja shuru hoye jabe. Tarpor, tumi .... Kichutei mene nite parina tumar emon siddhanto. Abar vabi, dekhi babu amar jonno ki kore? Kichu bolbona. Amar jonno firre ashbe ki babu? Naki, seo bolbe sikol paye lege ache, kichui korar nei tar.

Janina, ki korbo tumi cole gele. Shudu jani, amake tumi valo thakte dibena. Abar hoyto odvhot cintar bastobayon korbo. Abar hariye jabo seisob dingolote. Kintu keno? Tumake onek onek valobashi bole. Amar mon or hridoy jure shudu tumi acho. Onek valobashi tumake babu :'(