Kotodin pore . . .

26.03.2017

Onek age ekta somoi chilo thik ajker moto. Koto somoi keteche ejker moto. Koto bikel sondha rat keteche ajker moto. Ajker moto chilo sob kichui, shudu ajke ekta shunnota chilo sob kichur majhe. Shunnota bolte buk vanghe tobu mukh futena type er. Ki sundor pari amra emon korte taina!

Tar sathe jokhon kotha boli, prithiba onek sundor jemon lage, thik temni nisthur o lage. Ki chilona amader majhe ta khuje firi. Etto golo bochor eksathe par kore debar por jokhon nijeke emon ekta obosthai khuje pai, sotti Coward hote ecche kore. Abar tar kotha vebe sei pothe pa barate didha hoi. Amake je partei hobe, emon ekta tarona ashe. Se hoito bujteo parbena konodin, othoba ami take r bujate jabona. Ajke ekta sujog chilo, aj oekdin por onekkhon kotha holo. Jodio etake kotha na bole tar sathe amar sei X kothopokoton bola jay.

Prithibite hoyto ami emon kopal e niye esechilam. Valobasha jinisti kaoke ojar kore diye tar opekkhai valobasha fire pete somoyer dike takiye thakbo. Tumi sedin thiki bolechila, amar life ta to emon houyar kotha chilona. Amra sobai nijeder dosh dekhina. Asolei tai, sei jonnoi nijeke always right vaba jai etto sohoje. Ami right kingba wrong, kunta ami nijeo janina. Tobe may be ettota wrong chilam na je tar kach theke etota shoch paoyar opojukto chilam. Jodio kosto sei dei je onek valobashe, sei sutro mene colle emon r o hazar kosto bochorer por bochor mene nibe je keo. Eto kache tao bujte na deyar kosto, rater adharer oi nikosh kalo jane sei adhare koto shobdohin kannar lona jhol jome porche.

Ajke sei somoyer prekkhapote etotokoi bola jai, take bissah koranu ta keno jeno majhe majhe amar kache nijer day mone hoi. Kintu, sei bujte caina. Jotoi vhabi jaha bolibo sotto bolibo, tar kache - tar samne orthohin hoye jay. Tobuo cestar kom thakena, jokhon dekhi choto choto kothagolo tar mone ache. Ecche korei baniye puranu kichu bolle, se line to line bole dei na eta kotha chilona. Promise ta emon chilo. Tokhon shudui vabi, simple aeigolo jodi mone thake, tobe 2015 er october kingba 2016 er March, April, May, June, July, August, September er promisegolo kothai gelo? Jani tar answer nei. Mobile e ekta sms gele je MAIR khete parar sonka niye bose thake, tar kache ettogolo masher promise mone rakhato to incident.

Khub ecche korchilo, kingba ber hoye jacchilo, oops bole ja katanu giyechilo. Hoyto ajke eto caoyar majhe kichu caoya opurno rekhe amritto pushe rakhar bebostha kora holo. But, amito take always happy rakhte ceyechi. Jokhon jevabe boleche, promise keep korechi. Tobe amar sathe keno hobe? Keno amar kach theke soriye rakhbe? Kokhono to bolini, oikhane jeona, eta korona. Boroncho, October 2016 teo nirobe mene niyechi amake eka thakte dao kothata. Tobu keno ajke ami emon behave pabo? Ki oporad chilo amar? Keno ami ajke Coward word shunte hobe tar kache je amake aei possition e dar koriyeche? Etto kenor answer ektai, ami emoni - tar vassho eta.

Ajke 2 hours + (5:48PM to 7:54PM) somoye ekta jinish ceyechilam, ta blank hoye roilo. Tateo khoti nei. Oi shunnosthan shudu amar hoye ache, etotoko bujte somossa hoini. Promise golo rakhte jeye jodi ami sostho thaki, savabik thaki, tumi ashbeto, aei kothata ask kora orthohin hoto, tai pash katiye jaoya. Kingba rege giye mood off kore fela - amar jonno, amar sathe etato common drissho. Barebar jokhon bolo, ki promise rakhtecho ta to dekhchi, lojja lagena kharap lagteche bolte. Monouta dekhiye shudu ektibar shunte ecche kore, sei promise er kothata. Jotobar tumi bolo, ami promise rakhina, totobari mone pore, tumar mone ache aei promise golo. Valo laga ase, destination tumi jano. Tumar diary er na bola kothagolo konodin pora hobe naki janina, shudu jani oi diary er potita patai amar jonno onek valobasha royeche. Sei valobashar karonei lojja na rekhe babu bole deke bose tmake bibroto kore tuli.

Se jotoi cai amake onnoder katare niye ashte, parbe se? Ami ki parbo? Kopal bole oikhane eta cross kora ache, tai jokhoni fire ashi, sei ceherai, sei matha kharap manush hisebe. Amar hridpinder volume tumake janan ditei thakbe, keep your promise. Jotoi ignore koro, jodio ba na thaki, se tumake alarm diyei jabe. Tumake emon ekta koto dite khub kharap lage, but, oi j likhar shurur kotha - amra amrai to, ekjon betha pele r ekjoner majhe vhumikompo hobei. Etato proved, etake osikhar kora jabena.

Sarirk kharap lagata jodi limitless hoye thake, tobe kostogolo ki?  Tader kintu limt ache, jekono somoi result ashe. Ami jodi tumar promise rakhi, kostogolor limit sesh kore tumi result niye ashbeto 10-15 years kingba r o pore. Jani mukh fute r bolbena. Matro 6 month amar absence, tumake janan diye dibe - tarzan r nei jemonti se kono ekdin diary er patate likhe diye giyechilo. Onek ceyechilam # ta, daoni hoyto aei voye. O na mair khaoyar voye. Hoyto duitai. Ajker sondheta asolei roye jabe diary te onek ajaira kothar vhire soronio hoye.

Sesh kobe ekhane tumake valobashi bolechilam, sotti mone nei. Tobe may be somoi jodi thik hoi, tobe aj bole jetei hobe. Etto bochoreo jemon tumake amar valobashar depth bujate parini, temoni ajo jani bujate parbona, sotti tumake deya kono promise ami vanghi ni. Khub ecche kore 5-10-15-20-25-30 years opekkha kore tumar promise ta fulfill korte. Valobashi to tai, valobashar manusher aei j nirob ovhiman bujte pari. Kintu, je adhare ami nijeke gutiye niyechi, tumake alo te rakhlei sarthokota. Jani ekhon tumi sojag, tao lukiye bachiye kothagolo amar adharei chure diye gelam.

Khub ecche chilo ekta muhurter. Ki sei muhurto? Bola hobena r. Onek na bola kothar vhire tara lukiye thakbe R tumake obiram bibroto korbe, ki ceyechilo? Tumake ragate jemon valo lage, jograkorte jemon valo lage, temni bakruddo murti banateo valo lage. Ekta sotti kotha bolbo, babu sotti onek valobashi tumake. Valobasha valobasha shunte shunte tumar to oruchi hoye geche, tai aeisob r tumake bola hoina. But, ajke boltei holo. Amar dingulite etai hote pare bolar opojukto muhurto. Noito, aji keno emon hobe, hoyto aeivabe likha chilo.

Valo thako sob somoi, nijer plan o baby niye plan. Fisfis kore boli, kotodin pore tumar mukhe hashi dekhlam. Kokhon hasla??? Mone kore dekhoto. Sotti, oi hashitar jonnoi to CTG theke 1st tumar oikhane jaoa. Tarpore ta hoye ache amader valobashar romio-juliet er final touch :-) Love you so much Babu, oikhane bola hoini, tai amar astanai ami Baag hoye valobashar gorjon kore gelam. Oumma kolija.

Mounota . . .

21.03.2017

Mounota! Nirob attosamorpon. R ki bola jay? Mathai aschena. Mathai kichui thakena, medicine diye jodi r o kichu kora jeto, r o valo hoto. Abcha abcha thakar ceye na thaka valo. Kichu ekta vablei mone hoy, ami jani. But, mone porchena, R eta vabte vabte r o sesh. Aei j olta palta likha shuru korechi ta r ekta proman.

20.03.2017 - at 5:30 PM, ki mone kore tumi phone korla! Beche achi naki ta check korla taina? Othoba onno keo dorle jante caita more giye amake oddhar kore geche naki? Nah, tumake deya promose rakhte jeye kichui olta -palta hoina amar sathe. Boroncho seigolo 100% fulfill korar cestai ache amar somoi, amar kopal. R Sei jonnoi tumar deya phn ta receive korei golar sor ta savabik rakhar apran cesta shuru holo, who care ekta vhab. Aeidike aei ekta voice shunar jonno kotto rat balish vijiyechi, deke deke rat par korechi, korchi, korbo. Amar khobor neyar somoi holo tumar? December, January te kothai chilo aei abeg? Tokhon to khub proyojon chilo aei sor, voice toko amar.

Kono kotha shunina or na bujar vaan kori, aeigolo amar name fixed hoye geche. Sei jonnoi r jege jege ghumanu hoina. R tai ebar kore dekhate hobe, sei jonoi sesher patai ekta amar dingulir perfect ending anate hobe. Just kichu somoyer opekkha. Opekkha korte raji or nijeke sesh kore dibo, emon kotha to sobai bolte pare. But, koijon pare. Duitar ekta to kore jete hobe. Promise to sobai korte pare, rakhar mentality niyei hete jai amar dingulike niye . . .

Na bola kothagolo opekkha korche sei dintir jonno. Shudui opekkha, Mounota . . . . . . . . 

Shesher Patagulo . . .

02.03.2017

Shes hoiyao hoilona sesh. Asolei tai. Prodiper alo shudu kapche, aei buji off hoi sei voyei budhoi r beshi elomelo, oguchalo sobkichu. Sheser patagulite joriye thakbe na bola onek kotha, onek prosno, onek sopno vongher jontroa. Ami gaan gaibo bollei jemon gaan gaoya jaina, thik temni vhule jao bollei ki vhule thaka jai? Sheser patagolo thiki shurur srity niye ashbe barebar.

Aj aei dintar ekta specialty ache. Last year aei dine ekta bolar moto gotona gotechilo. Kintu, na bolar kothar vhire take vasiye rakhi. Kuno ekdin sheser patai veshe othbe hoyto.

Etodin kothai chile? Nijeke nijei gaane gaane shudhai R oceton sorirer nishfol, nishobdo kannagolo veshe othe samne. Asolei ki ami sei ami? Jiboner 7 ta bochor takei bujate giye aj nijekei nije bujte parina. Ami keno onnoder moto holam na? Amake onnoder sathe compare korbena bole bole aj jei manush goto arai mash dore dibbi onnoder moto hoye jete parlo, R ami? Nah, afsos nei, ache shudu onek onek nil bedona. Sheser patagolo sei bedonake vashiye niye jak.

Hmm, boiyer seshe cole eshechi R tai shudu sesher patagolo bolchi. Jei patagolo porbena keo, nishiddo shobo-vandhar hoye robe web er jogote. Amio shudui miliye jabo - oneker maje nil bedona hoye.

Valo thako, shudui valo thako. Asolei tegei sukh, goto 1ta mash teg kore r o strong kore dilam tumake. Kache thaklei bedona, eta to tumi amake sikhale. Kacher manushder jonnoi sob. R o dure jete hobe, onek dure, jekhan theke sobdo ashleo vhoi pabena tumi Thik totodure . . .

Amar ekta bikkhato kobita chilo, mone ache tumar? Kobitar naam chilo "Shudu Mone Rekho". Kobita ta jedin tumake pore shuniyechilam, onek kedechile tumi. Ami ki sob cai-pas likhi bole onek boka diyechile. Sei abegi kanna, aj abeg hariye shudui mounota hoye geche. Sei jonnoi sesher patai kichu sesh dag diye jacchi . . .

Miracle . . .

30.01.2016

Mirakel. Hmm jokhon proyon chilo kaor, tokhon se paini. R aj ami na ceyeo peye boshe achi. Hut kore etoboro ekta osukh hobe R ami jiboner seshe dariye ceyechi, tumi valo thako. Sei mirakel er jonno aj 1 mash pore abar likhte parchi. Jodio etake sostho maush bola jabena. Ekhono thik hoini. Sorir take sesh kore felechi mone hocche. Ki jeno bolechile, mash khanek age? Aei sorire r valo kichu nei. Amake peye ki korba? R aj amio same. Kintu, tmk bolar sujugta amar nei.

Hospital er bed e jokhon shuye chilam, tokhon vebechi hoyto r tmk dekhte parbona, aei buji sesh. R tmi tokhon new life e FB e sukh srity biliye beriyecho kacher manushder sathe. Kacher manush! Hmm aei ami hoye gelam durer manush! Etodin khobor nei dekheo mone bindumatro jante ecche hoini, kemon ache? Vhoi peyecho, taina? Abar contact korte jeye jodi hite biporit hoi. Sei jonoi sob vhule theke family reunion niye busy chila. Valoi korecho. Goto kichudin jabot amio vebchi, valoi korecho. Sob valoi koreco. Sedin ami more gele valo hoto. R ektuo vabte hotona, mathai ashtona amar kotha. Ki korbo, mirakel ta ami peye gelam j.

Aj off jai. Valo lagle ektu, abar likha jabe. Valo thako babu.

Abar Fire Eseche Sei Dinguli

20.12.2016

Abar sei dinguli, abar sei pothe amar hete cola. Kintu, shudui shunnota. Sei shunnotar vire tmake vebe jaoa. Haranu valobasha kub kom manushi naki fire pai, sadhona kore sei kom manushder katare nijeke dekhar apran cesta.

Goto 11 ta din kivabe keteche kaoke bujhate parbona. Dingolo joto goto hoyeche mathai shudu eker por ek cinta joro hoyeche. Cokher kache jei manushti, take dekheo na dekha. Sei 8 tarikhe FB te ekta message peyechilam. Tarpor eke eke 10 ta din goto holo R amar mathai ashte thaklo eker por ek vabna.

- Mobile e net nei, tai ashte parchena,

- Basai kono problem naki oi osostho,

- Bidesh theke se ashlo naki,

- Naki babu amake na bolei cole gelo,

- Naki amar lekha pore amar sathe kotha bolbena decide koreche.

Etogolo vabna goto 10 ta din amake kure kure kheyeche. Specially 3rd and last point ta. Ki mone kore sedin sokal bela tmr number e taka pathalam. Vablam mobile taka nei, or meyad nei. Dekhi jodi mobile e sms ashe. Kintu, nah r o 2 din kete gelo tumar khobor nei. Amio opekkha korchilam kichu ekta shunar jonno. Shimuke phone dibo seitao mathai ashchilo.

Oboseshe, aj sokale tumar message pelam FB te. Se esheche hut kore 15 diner chutite. Tmi valo acho. Tar thekeo besi obak holam, Tyter Baba esheche !!! Bah, babu. Matro der masher bebodhane aj OITA or OI Beta or OI Kutta theke aj emon sombhodone cole esheche. Eta amar Babu? Tumi amake promise korechile? Amake bolechile, somoi laguk tao amar kache ashbe? Tumar promise R amar promise different, taina babu? Tumi promise kore vanghte paro, R ami ki amar promise rakhte parina? Mone ache, ki bolechilam ami? Tumi jodi promise break koro, tobe ami ager life e fire jabo. Amake niye vabona, taina? Ami amar kotha MUST rakhbo, ami dekhte cai tumi amake koto opekkha korate paro, koto kosto dite paro, koto exam. nite paro.

FB amake ki bolecho, ki korecho, kichui bolini. Shudu vebechi aei kichudin, tmi family pressure e khubi upset. EKhon chup kore jai, tumi bujbe and amar kotha vabbe. Kintu, tumi dore niyecho, amio tumar moto hoye jabo, taina? Tumar sobkichu amar, etato tumari mukher kotha chilo. Aj sob kichu noi, samanno FB er password ta tumi change kore amake bujate ceyecho, oitateo amar permission nei. Bah babu. Kore jao, oije kichui bolbona. 

Dekha korte cailam, tao ajaira mane hoina bole kete gela. Tumar kache life ta emon taina? Samne ja dekhba tatei kosto, osojjo. R etodin dore jar jonno valobasha, aj 24th November 2016 e bolla, amake shantite thakte dao. Hmm taito dicchi tumake and opekkha korchi, tumi bujbe ekdin and kotha rakhar jonno, kaor opekkha sesh korar jonno fire ashba. Oije bolechila, tumake ami r jhur korbona. Shudui dekhe jabo.

R to kichudin, tarpor tumake sob bole ami ekhan theke chuti nibo. Tumar hatei tule dibo life! Totodin tar sathe ovinoi noi, bastob life tai par koro. Amar samne diyei to korba, koro. Kono Rag or Ovijug noi, hotasha thekei etogolo kotha bollam. Amar Babu to tumi, tumakeito sob boli. Tmar majhei to amar beche thakar prerona. Sei kotha bujar moto obosthai tumi r nei. Tumi shudu aj Tyter, sekhane ami aj abcha kuyasha. Aei j rater kusayar moto sokal holei ami hariye jai.

Sotti ami sokoler majhe hariye jai tumar deya kosto niye. Haranu pothe tumar opekkha kori. Jani, kono ekdin tumi tumar promise rakhbe. Asha to rakhtei hobe, noile dingolo jabe kivabe. Onek valobashi babu, ajo eto kosto deyar poreo valobashi onek onek. Valo thako.

3 2 1 . . Go

10.12.2016

Aeito pouche gechi prai. Pereo jacchi. R kichudin. Ki bolechile mone ache? Ami jid kore emon korchi. Etogolo bochor por amaketo cintei paroni, olto emon kotha bolteo tmi charoni. Aj theke 5 year pore amar dinguli tmk shunabe ami ki korechi. Ami amar dingulike mitthebadi noi, 5 year porei sottobadi hisebe pete cai.

Jano Babu, kokhono kono kichu niye jid korini. Tobe kichu proman korte hole jid korte hoi. Mone ache tmr, tmk ekdin Sharukh khaner ekta movie er kotha bolechilam jokhn tmi baire chile? Sei movie te SK always life niye bajhi dorto. Jate jekono somoi se here jai. Amio emon korchilam, but tmi mana korla. Amk norlam life e anla. Aj abar tmi amak sei life e fire jete bolcho? Nijeke shantite rakhte cao, taina? Rakho. Shudu jeno, tmi tmr hatei ekjoner life take elomelo kore diyecho. J ekhono tmr jonnoi opekkha korche. Koi bolinato or kotha na holeo to ager moto korina! Kichu pete hole naki sadhona korte hoi, amio sei pothei hatchi.

Last winter tmr ekhanei chilam, onno ekta sopno niye. Saradin seshe tmr kotha, voice, sopno chilo. R ebar, same ami, just tmi thekeo nei. Eto kache bt kokhonoi kichu bola hoina, kokhonoi jhur kora or caoya-paoya limited. Osthitto ki pao or onuvoti? Nah, seto aj moricika. Ki bolechila, jodi onek year opekkha korte hoi, tokhon ki korba? Gure fire sei kothagoloi mathai ase, chobigolo kotha bole, sms golo sakkhi dei. Tao boli, valoi rekhecho. Nije valo theke, kacher manushder valo rekhe Tmi valo thako.

I am in a way where somebody will come to me. Is it 5 years, 10 years, 20 years or ....  Not a problem, jid jodi korte hoi, tobe eta niye keno noi?

Valo thako tmi, sobaike valo rakho. Love you so much Babu. Love is not a game. And, I am not a player. You just told me to play and then, put me away. So, I am waiting here if ever your thoughts can be changed!

Obak Bisshoye Dekha ......

01.12.2016

Mishe jacchi ami sei michile. Hariye jacchi ami. Adharer majhe nijeke niye pichoner dorja diye palanu ek porajito soinik hoye nirbashone jabo vabchi. Abar onno kichu kora jai naki tao vabchi. Tobe aei mashei ekta destination finalized hobe.

Na, tmk r janabona. Obossho tmr janar ecchao nei. Ekdik diye valoi hoyeche tmr kotouhol or tradition theke tmi nijeke dure niye eshecho. Tobe, ami more geleo budhoi ekta afsos theke jabe. Dirgo 7 year er somporker poreo tmi amake bujte parlena. Always nijer or jader dekhcho tader kothai vebecho. Puranu kothagolo mone porle shudhu hashi ashe. Ki chile tmi R ki hola!

Sedin o bolechila, Ami ja vabi tai kori. Amar vabnagolo jeheto janoi, tobe amar sathe emon korle keno? Tmr mone jodi emon ekta plan thekei thake, tobe keno eto kache ene sopnotake nere dile? Hut kore emon siddhanto niyecho? Jodi tai hobe, tobe etobar bolar poreo, amar jonno jokhon feelings chilo, tokhono to boloni, tarsathe thakbena? Bahir theke ashar poreoto passport chirte bolate lukiye rekhecho bole ariye giyechile? Aj jar songho peye nijer ostittoke osikar korla, ekdin takeito ante caoni! Bolte gele onek kothai bola jai, kintu jar answer hoi, Kichui Korar Nei, ami Nirupai.

Asole aeisob kotha aj obantor. Emnitei to amar manoshikota niye question ache, so r o mean minded amake mone hobe. Aei prithibir niyomi emon. True bolle mean minded, R false bolle ahare ohore. Budhoi sei jonnoi mitthebadi houyar cesta korchi. Kintu, aei diary te mitthe thakbena. So, likha off kore ekta solution kora jete pare. Kintu, nijeke off korar way to amar jana nei.

Babu, tmk kadate or kosto dite ekhane r kichui likhbona. Ja hobe offline e, ja dekha jabena, feel o kora jabena. Karon, kostogolo always je pai sei shudu bujte pare. Amar kostogolo niye amio hariye jabar pothe nemechi. Shudu kichudiner opekkha. Opekkha . . . 

Valo thako sob somoi. Onek happy thako. Love you Babu.