6

21.04.2018

Onek din por fire elam amar vubone. Koto kotha, Koto gotona bolar thake. Kichui r bola hoina. Sukhi manush kingba vabuk manush poricoye poricito ami sobar kache. Aei vindeshe ager ami k khuje paoa khub duskor aj!

Nah, r bolbona kichui. Beche achi etai thakuk ajker srity hoye. Sobai valo thakuk, se valo thakuk, sobar valo thakate jiboner sarthokota khuje neyar apran sadhona kore jacchi, jetei thakbo.

5

30.12.2017

Bochorer sesh likha likhchi, ami jani. Ekhon to ager moto ashai hoina. Bestotar owshud diye kolijar khotoke ghum pariye rakhar apran cesta cole. Tao rokte mangsher sorir ta majhe majhe bbidroho kore Amar dingulite amake firiye niye ashe. Aeivabe colche, hoyto colbe . . .

Ekti bochor. Amr Babu k chara katiye dilam, Amar moner songinike robotic vabe songho diye gelam. Abeg, onovhuti, srity sob kichu ekpashe rekhe somoi aj 1 year pore ene daar koriyeche. Ami aei ekti bochore shudu hariyechi. Pothome tumake, Tarpore nijeke, Erpore Ammuke, R ekebare seshe ese Babake. Sesher haranu manushta onekta tumar motoi. Prithinite ache tobu ekta durotto. Sob shune i bola jai aei bochor take? Amar aei jiboner ekta omor bochor, hahahaha.

Shuye shuye vabi R hashi. Sotti, age cokher kone pani cole ashto. Edaning Nah taro besi, vabte vabte hashi ashe thoter kinarai. Etake ki hashi bole? Tumi amake micka bolta, tahole micka hashi e hobe taina? Amar aei hashir araler dukkho keo bujbena, kaoke bujateo jaina. Dukkho golo shudu ekar hoi, khushi golo sobar. Tumake diye jei koster shuru ta to sesh hobar noi. Aei betha j amake boye berate hobe ammur kache jabar ag porjonto.

Ek somoyer amar jonno etto valobasha, etto kosto, sob korte para, shudui srity aj. R amar khetre? Kichui na korte para aj sob kichui korate pare amake diye. Ami ekhon hashte hashte tumake vebe jibon dite pari, somoi amake aj emon jaigai eneche. Kintu,sei manushta to aj onek dure. Aei ekta bochore amar theke se dure jabar pothe egiyeche R ami tar kache ashar pothe aei vindeshe somoi khepon korchi. Love and War e kokhono sesh bole kichu nei, shudu aei ashatei abar shurur opekkhai achi. Na hok, tao ekta asha na thakle to tumar sei Coward hoye jabo. Koto kichu vabte hoi amake!!!

Ekta bochore dekhechi onek kichu, hariyechi, praptir khatai kichui nei. Amar jiboner may be aei ekta year e shudu hariyechi. Vangar khelai ami pore gechi, Gorar khelai porboto aei jibone? Nah ta to hobar noi. Page of Sorrow < tar pristhai shudu dukkho thakbe aei j nijeri ojante likha hoye geche amar maddome. R Smiley Babu ta hoye geche bastob. Hahahaha :D

Morovhumir majhe jokho dula jhor othe, cokh khula rakha jaina. Mukher samne khabar niyeo khaoya jaina. Amar jibon tao murovhumir jhorer agahte osprisso hoye geche, dora chuyar baire cole geche. Nishi rat Baka chad, chupi chupi R gaan gaina, Ganer pakhi seto ekti bochor hoye geche, amake opekkhai rekhe cole geche. Etai amar niyoti, sob mene niyechi. Opekkhai korchi. Matro to ekta bochori gelo. Aei poth sesh hote onek deri, ami jani ammu. Ami ashbo . . . amar j r kichui valo lagena. Bachte hobe bolei beche thaka, bochor ghure fire dekha. 

Valo thakuk sobai. Sobar jonno valokichu kore jaoyar broto niyei to pore achi. Seita hok familyr jonno, kingba tumar jonno. Sobai valo thako, bidai 2017 :'(

4

05.12.2017

Onekdin pore ashlam. Koto kichu gote jai, koto srity ashe jai cintai cetonai, tar kichui bola hoina. Khub besi sick na hole, asole Amar Dinguli vasha khuje paina. Shudui paliye beracchi, tai ekhane dora diteo mon sai deina.

Goto kichudin dore kub sick ami. Tarsathe mon tao vishon kharap. Tumar sathe share korte jai, kintu tumi to sei tumi nei etai mone thakena. Sei jonnoi bolte jeyeo fire ashi barebar. Jokhoni valo ekta mon niye goto koek mashe giyechi tumar kache, tumar kotha kingba kucha amake r o mormahoto kore amari adhar jibone achre feleche.

Khub tension e achi. Tumar cintar sathe r ekta cinta jug hoyeche. Ammu cole jaoyar pore basai khub jamela jache, ami ekhan theke kichui korte parchina. Shudu shune jai, r amar pressure er lokocuri khela kheli. Tumake bolle hoyto ektu relife petam, sei sujug tumi daona. Tumake bolbo keno - emon kothao bolte charona amake!

Mojar bisoy ki jano, ekhono sei paglamigolo amar majh theke jaini. Age bole kortam paglami, r ekhon bolar to way nei, sei jonnoi niribili paglami kore nijei abar bichanai pore thaki. Tumi amake hurt kore kotha bolo, r ami ager motoi kaj kori, shudu bola hoina. Na kheye kingba na rest niyei cole jai poroborti muhurtogolo. Jai hok, kosto deyar jonnoi to ami achi, R tumi dite didha korona. Kosto deya neya niyei amar jibon colbe. Page_of_sorrow hobe kivabe amar dinguli.

Ekta year kete gelo taina babu. Tumar kache hiseb nei, R amar kache potita din hoye ache ek ek ta bochor. Ki dusshoho dinguli amake opohar diyechile, ekhono diccho. Cokher samne theke amar sopnogolo kere niye amader sopnoke tumar ekar sopno kore niyechile. Santona dite jeye ekbaro vaboni keno oke niye ami emon korchi, ami to oke cini, ami to jani amar jonno o ki korte pare. Na eto vaboni, vabar ecchei chilona, taito aj tumar din kete jai kono hiseb chara. R amar, se to bollami.

Ami k kingba ami kemon korchi, ta ask kori ami nijeke. Kokhono kokhono answer paina, tokhon mone hoi ami budhoi asolei sonnashi hoye gelam. Eto porisrom koreo, buker vitor eto kosto niye kingba sorire bethar cinho niyeo tumar kachei sokol sukh pai. Tumar deya santona dekho aj amake kothai ene daar koriyeche. Tao pratthona, tumi valo thako.

Sedin bolechila, 20 years keno 10 years o bachar somvabona nei amar. Hoyto tumi thik. Amar jekono din saak cole ashte pare. Aeivabe more theke beche thaki kingba sotti e cole jai, sorbabosthai bolbo, babu tumi valo thako. At least tumi sukhi hou amader majh theke.

Amar ekla jibon, aei vindeshe cole jabe. Ekhane taka hole sob paoa jai, so cole jabe ekhon jemon jacche. Shudu caoa ektai, tumake emon valobasha jeno sesh muhurto porjonto bese jete pari. Ektai amar tumi chile jake valobeshe sob charte pari, ta jeno sesh somoi porjonto proman kore jete pari.

Valo thako Babu, Onek valobashi tumake ajo. Kolijar tukra to tumi, valibashi tai ettogula :-)

3

08.10.2017

Onekdin por ashlam. Amake jhor elemelo kore diyeche. Jhorer aghate ami aj r o mritoprai. Janina aei nishtur prithibi amake niye keno emon korche. Sob kosto golo shudu amar jonnoi budhoi alada kore rakha. Taito eker por ek aghat amake manoshik rugi na baniye charbena. 2010 kingba 2012 teo konodin ki vebechilam aj amake emon ekta din dekhte hobe?

17.09.2017 < Amar ammu prithibi chere cole gelo. Aei prithibite amake niye cinta korar sesh manush tao cole gelo. Amake ekebaresikhor chara kore diye gelo. Aei ekta manusher jonnoi hoyto fire jetam kono ek somoi. Kitu, nah amar kopale Na firai likha hoyto. Sei jonnoi nijer mayer sesh mukh tao dekhte parlam na. Ohh aei j ki kosto, ki tribbo jontrona keo bujbena. Se cole jaoyar por, aei mayer sathe koto onai korechi, kotha shunini, kothar obaddho hoye ekhane cole ashlam. Aj der mash pore se nei, aei kotha likhar jonno budhoi :'(

Amar ammur kotha bolte gele ekta boi e sesh hoe ki? Ekta manush kotto porisrom korte pare tar sontander valo rakhar jonno, ta dekhechi potiniyoto. Kaj korte korte sorire eto ruger basha baniyechilo j seshe kono owshud e kaj kortona. Shunechi tana ghumato owshud kheye, last jedin amar sathe video call e kotha hoi, sedin clear dekhte parini. Janalar opposite side e boshechilo khate, ak adhar oboyob dekhechi. Sesh dekhatao clear chilona, ohhh Allah ami j r parina :'(

Nijer sorir tao edaning valo jacchena. Gonogono problem hocche, aj aeita kal aeita.Amar to ekhoni owshud khete valo lagena, tai budhoi problem golo barche. Tao mone thakle khai, amake mone koriye debar manushtao nei. Oi j 2 jon manushi chilo, amake niye cinta korto. Tarao nei, amaro oguchalo jibon colche elemelo vabei. Vebechilam doctor dekhabo. Tarpore kajer cape R noito doctor er nam nile sorir valo hoi, pore abar sei. Aeivabe jacche, kaj r mon kharaper jontro, ami.

Onek kotha likhar chilo aj. Kintu, likhte boshlei matha theke sob hariye jay. Tumar kotha! Nijeke niye hoyto valoi acho. Hoyto bolchi karon ager moto kotha bola hoina, tai kothar marpeche kichui ber hoina. Ohh ekta kotha mone porlo. Kichudin agei jante parle amar sei accident er kotha. Mojar bisoy, abar sei sondheho tumar mone. Kintu, nah ami r kichui tumake proman korte caibona. Onek to hoyeche, eker por ek proman diye ki peyechi? Santona kingba du-shopno. Jar nirmom porinoti aj amar jibon.

Khub bolte ecche kore, tumar ki ektu lojja hoina amake ekhono obissash korte? More geleo hoyto sobaike ask korba, asolei ki se moreche? Vaggish sedin ami thakbona, aei drissotao dekhte. Old memory vhulte giye nijer sotta k fele diyecho. Tao valo, tumi valo acho. Aei sudur mile dure, ekhono to aei ektai prottasha kore jai.

Sarakkhon mathai gure berao, etto dakadakir shobdo tumake chui na. R tai ami nijei nijer sathe kotha boli, ager sms pori, buk pocket e tumar chobi niye guru, ektu betha pele ohhh babu bole tumake daki, bed e shuye babu amake joriye doro bole kanna kori, sob ami eka ekai kore jai. Amar sei ekaki onuvhuti golo tumake chuina, tumi acho digital life with analog home life niye. Jake etto valobashi, jar jonno koster pahar nieyo hashi mukhe bolte pari, babu valo achoto, tar jonno noyto emon vabei life cole jak. Aei achi, valo achi. Sukhi hok se.

Tumi, Ammu amake maf kore dio. Tumader kosto diyechi bolei aj ami return pacchi. Ta chara r kono answer paina. R tai eta vebei nijeke santona dei. Hmm tumar moto santona dite parina, taito kostogolo majhe majhe bicchinno kore fele tumar kach theke. Owshud kheye abar fire ashi, abar valo thakar ovinoy korte, tumar valo thaka life dekhte.

Matha vonvon korche. Ki likhechi etokhon nijeo jaina. Shudu jani, ami valo nei. Din k din klanto hoye porchi. Amake ami hariye felchi shudu . . . .

2

01.09.2017

Dekhte dekhte almost 3 mash hoye gelo. Aei ek odvhut jibone nijeke maniye nicchi. Potiniyoto kajer majhe nijer asol ostitto k nijei osikar korchi. Aj eto dure ese srity er patagolo shudu dirgonissash hoye ase thik moner majkhan theke. Ceye dekhi opolok r nijei boli, aei jibon to amar noi, amake deya hoyeche.

Rat din somane kaj kore jaoya R pain killer kheye beche thakar sarthokota kothai? Nijer exam nijei deoya? Hmm hoyto sei jonnoi din par hoye mas, tarpore bochor gure hudu mone koriye dibe, aei exam diye jetei hobe. Ekahne asar somoi nijeke thokanur apran cesta korechilam, deshe thekei to ami na thakar moto thakte partam. Kintu, nah answer ashlo, deshe thakle hoyto abar paglami kore tumake tumar moto thakte deya hobena. Jani, bolba ebar to ami ager motoi nei. Kintu, tao jani ami hoyto ektu holeo achor felte partam. Nijer jonno noi, abaro tumar kotha vebe cole elam dure. Jani coward bolba or ajaira dhong. Tumi jemon tumake jano, amio amake buji. Shuru thekei jei paglami, tar sesh hoini ekhono. R noito keo eto taka koroch kore ese emon ekta life kataina. Tao sosthi pai, take tar moto thakte dite perechi aei vebe.

1

20.07.2017

Desher baire pa bariyechilam musafirer moto. NIjeo jantam amar gontobbo ki, amar jonno asole ki opekkha korche. Desher baire ashatai chilo oddessho and hoyeche. Shudu ovinoy theke mukti caichilam. Ektu valo kore kostogolo opovug korte ceyechilam. Opovug!!! Hmm koster majheo sukh ache jokhon kosto deya manushta hoi valobashar manush. “Jiteo j here jai sei eto asol bijoyi” onekta seirokom. Take jitiye diye ami ekhane ese nijeke bijoyi vabte ceyechilam. Kintu, nah. Matha vorti eto eto srity amake kore tolche r o osostho.

Shohor theke onek dure achi ami. Ekhane aeigoloke gram bole, jodio eta amader desher ekta city er moto. Niribili, sob kichu koto guchanu. Shudu groom ta onek beshi. Normal temperature 40 degree er opore. Aei goromei amake sei vor theke sondha obodhi baire kaj korte hoi. Sorir tar vitore jei koila jolche, aei tapeo sei koilar kichui hoina. Minus Minus naki Plus hoi, tobe eteo ki ektu thanda hote parena sei khoto. Sondhar por room e ese ranna banna and tarpor jokhon ghumanur kotha, amar tokhon bichanai epash opash kore rat kate. Aj almost ek mash hoyeche, ekti din o tana 3 gonta ghumate parini. Cokher niche kalo dag pore geche, sorrier kotha nai ba bollam. Taka nei tai net o kinte parchina. Mash seshe beton pele hoyto kinte parbo. Kotodin Babur sathe kotha hoina. Mobile e call dibo vebechilam kintu, Jodi mobile silent na thake tobe to problem hobe. Aei vebe pichiye esechi onekbar. Ashar somoi valo kore kothao bolte parlam na.Othocho se jokhon desher baire jai, koto kotha, koto promise, koto kanna, koto asha niye kotha hoyechilo. Amar belai shudu shunnota, solpota . . .

FB te dukte parchina. Coz wifi diye ashle Jodi ID tar problem hoi, sei voye wait korchi nijer net connection er jonno. Jani, ami ashar pore amar jonno ami jototoko tumake vebechi, tar 10% o tumi vaboni. Vabar somoi kothai tumar. Koto cena manush, koto frnd, koto anonder opolokkho tumar. R aj dekho, amake tumi ek bicchinno dip baniye diyecho. Amar kono frnd nei, poricito munush nei. Amar sob kotha bolar manush ekjoni ekhon. Aei diary, amar dinguli. Jekhane likhbo bole ashi onek kotha, pore kichu bolei likhar r kichu khuje paina. Sob kotha jeno tumi kere niyecho, shudu digosash kingba hotasha golo amake diye gecho. Tao valo anondotoko to tumi niyecho. Happy thako, sobaike happy rakho.

R koekdin pore ekhan theke cole jabo. Tumar r o kache. R o koster kaje. Dekhi, ami koto porisrom korte pari, koto kosto tolerate korte pari. Aei jibon to eto sohoje jabena. Kata diye kata tulte hoi Jodi tobe kosto diyei koster jibontar nash hobe. Tumi dekho, hotat kore 1 year aei diary er buke r o kono likha ashbena. Tokhoni buje niba, oboseshe amar nash hoyeche. Tumake r kosto deyar keo nei. Ami joto ososthoi thakina keno, amar koster kingba japito jiboner rosh tumi ekhanei khuje paba. Shudu pran na thaklei aei amar dingulir somapti hobe.

Bed e shuye chilam ghumanur jonno. Nah, ghum tao kere niyecho tumi amar. Tumar sob kichui ekhon amar. Kosto, ghum, nirob kanna, amar sompotti ekhon. Othe bose abol-tabol likhchi R wait korchi Fazar er azan er jonno. Namaj porei cole jabo kaje. Abar jokhon kostogolo amake hash-pash korbe, ashbo chute amar dingulite. Depression katanur aei ekta way khula ache amar jonno. Dekhi samne ki hoi. Abar ashbo janate, jani setao hotashar deo hoye achre pore amar dingulir buke.

Valo thako babu. Sobaike valo rakho. Miss u so much. Love u a lot.

Notun vhubone amar shuru

02.07.2017

25th June, thik sokal 5 tai ami land korlam. Onekkhon delay hoyechilo. Janina keno, hoyto amakei charte caichilona amar desh. Hoyto keo bujte na parleo se bujeche, amar matrivhumi bole kotha. Se bujeche, tar ekta sontan cole gelo take chere ekebarei. Jar jonno gelam, seki kedeche?

Ekhane pa diye shunlam, aj ekhane eid. Middle east er sobai eki din eid palon kore. Amake je nite eshechilo, oni eid er namaj porar jonno ekdom ready hoye eshechen. Amake bollo, colen age eid er namaj pore ashi tarpor rume jabo. Otoyeb bag somet eidga te hajir and namaj porlam. Pothom abaiskar korlam, amar desher eid r ekhaner eid onek parthokko. Eid mane anondo, sei jinistai nei. Sobai ki amar moto abeg fele esechhe naki? Amar sokol anondo to ami take diye eshechi. Se nishchoi notun jama pore, gurte ber hobe, koto anondo korbe. Hmm tar oi occhol hashir jonnoi to eto kichu. Ki odvhut bepar tar anonder kotha vebe cokh duita pani aslo keno? Eri nam ki valobasha?

Sokal belai eto tap? Amar desher highest tapmatra! Ouff mone hoccchilo, rokto togbog korche.  Namaj seshe onar room e ashlam and r o onek bangali pelam. Amake koekdin naki ekhane thakte hobe, amar albab eid er chutite naki kothai geche. Shunei vitore vitore uneasy laga shuru holo. Jei ami ekai ekta flat niye thaktam (jodio Babuke vebei niyechilam), sekhane etojoner sathe thakte hobe. Kichui korar nei, oikhanei thaklam. Adjust kora matro to shuru.

Amar albab asche gotokal mane 1 tarikh. Lomba forsha. Ceherai ekta nurer avha. Jobba pore thake. Onek sundor lage. Arabi te kotha bole. Ami kichui bujina. Ami English e bolle se abar kichu bujena. Porlam moha jamelate. Allahor rohomote Hindi abcha abcha buje. Amar sei hindi-bangla boli, ja shunle tumi hashte. Dhur gadha ki bole, eta chilo tumar common dialog. Hahaha. Ekhon Albab Dekhte valoi kintu kaj chara kichu bujena buja gelo. Ajke amake niye asche medical korate. Ekhane naki niyom, eshei medical koranu lage kaje jabar age. Ohh work permit o naki lage. Aj medical hole tarpor amar work permit ber korbe. Ki sob notun niyom ber koreche. Jai hok, sim nai, net nai, sathe takao besi nei, R tai Free wifi peye aei dairy likhchi. R o kichukhon lagbe, tarpor ajke albab or basai niye jabe. Oikhanei amar thakte hobe. Ki kaj korbo ekhono sure na, tobe bolechilo or naki dates er company ache, oikhane plus or kaj o korte hobe. Vari kaj na holei holo, pet e betha kore oi operation er por theke.

Hospital ta onek sundor. Guchanu. Kono hui hollor nei. Mone mone vabchi, etatei ki tumi esechila? Hahaha. R o Ekta kotha mone porlo. Baby asle, oita kutta ta amar kache r ashbena, valoi hobe. Aei kothata bolechile, mone ache tumar? Aj amakei sei pranita mone hoche R hashi ashche. Pagol hoye jacchi naki ami!

Ohh valo kotha. Albab amake tar phone ta diyechilo kaoke phone korar thakle korte. Koekbar vebechilam tumake ekta call kori. Tumi hoyto cinta korcho. Abar vabi amar jonno cinta korte tumar time kothai. Tao phone korte jeyeo korini. Jodi mobile silent na thake, Jodi tumi jamelai poro. Abar mon bole phone korle to bideshi or unkown number othbe, so problem hobena. Abar boli, tao Jodi problem hoi. Sesh mesh eto kichu vebe phone kora holona. Barbar bollam tumar phone number ta dite. Dilena. Ami ki sei ager ami achi naki, tumar problem bujbona. Aei tarzan ekhon r shudu nijer kotha vabena, tar thekeo beshi tumar kotha vabe. Seita ki bujo tumi?

Amar serial asche. Abar kobe sujug hobe net e ashar janina. Work permit na houya porjonto sim o dibena. So out of network. Ekhan theke suja albaber barite. Seita kothai ekhono janina. Pore janabo amar ami k. Aei dairy ta chara amar kotha bolar kingba shunar manush to keo nei. Babu shunbe? Hmm shunbe kintu mouno thakbe. Amader kotha je ekhon mone mone hoi. Ami besh bujte pari. Babu ami dakchi, shuncho tumi? Valo thako. Love you so much kolija.