7

29.12.2018

Onek din por ashlam. Beche achi ta janan dite - amar dingulite. Dekhte dekhte r ekta bochor sesher dar-prante ami. R o ekta dirgo-nissash niye katiye deya 365 diner somapti. R koto baki?

Keno megh ase, Hridoyo akashe,

Tumare dekhite deina;

Majhe majhe to bo dekha pai,

Cirodin keno paina?

Asolei aei topto surjer deshe majhe majhe megh hoye tumi aso, amake vijiye abar cole jao. Amake r o ekta grissho trisna niye beche thakar prerona dite hoyto. Janina aeivabe kivabe katbe or katacchi. R koto?

Sobai valo thakuk, er ceye samner bochore caoyar moto to kichui nei amar. Ami chonnochara, aei jibon to amari beche neya. Ososthotar sathe lukiye -bachiye jotodin jaoya jai, tai jete thaki. Kinto r koto ta janina?

Tumake khub mone porche, emon mon kharaper somoi tumake ekhono thik ager motoi daki. Shunte ki pao? Valo achoto? Valo thako, sobai valo thakuk cena-jana sobai.

Valo acho to?

23.08.2018

Onekdin por somoi holo amar kichu likhar. Diner por din mathai eto kichu jome, tao ekhane likha hoina. Amito hariye gechei, tai amar kthagulu Amar Dinguli theke kromosho hariye jacche.

Aei moruvhumir buke amar 2nd eid katalam. EID mane jodi hoy anonndo, tobe janina aei kemon eid amar jibone ami par korchi. Special day mane to amar kadhe sokol puranu srity ra vhir kore. Kaj nei, tai amio tader naracar kori, laptop e chobigolo dekhe nijeke depression er kinarai niye jay. Cokher koner panira cholchol kore, nirobe jore pore. R keo nei amar asru kingba kosto hole ter pabe, Jiggesh korbe, ki mon kharap?

Duty Room > Room Duty = etai amar jibon. Shudu kaj amake baciye rekheche. Aei j kaj nei bole, koster vhut amake chepe dore ache. Taito shudui besto thakar apran cesta kori. Tumi amake prai bolta, ajaira thako j taito amake vabo, kaj koro. Tayat jokhon holo, tokhono bolta. Sob ekhono amar cokher samne vashe. Koto sopno, promise, sob amra ki sohojei vhule jai!

R koek mash pore kingba porer mashei main city te amar cole jabar kotha ekhan theke. Mone ache tumr park e berate giyechile ekdin tar sathe. Amar khub ecche sei park e, sei bench ta ektu chuye dekhar. Hoyto sigroi chute parbo. Kingba oi market, jeitate tumar pichu niye chilo ekta chele, amake bolta R hasta. Sokal, bikel balcony te kingba bed e shuye call dita, mone ache tumar? Sob vashche mathar opore amar.

Accha, tumi sotti valo achoto? Naki amar moto tumio soda valo acho amake dekhate cao? Age jao tumake kichu boltam, kintu sedin mana korar por tao off kore diyechi. Amar kono ovijug, ovhiman nei. Tumi, tumra, sobai valo acho eta dekhei ami koster majheo sothi feel kori. Taito ekhon r kotha baraina, besi kotha bolina. Tumar wish amr valo thaka, amio tai valo thakte try kori ami ekanto tumake niye. Amar r caoyar kichui nei.

Jeivabe amar din jacche, hoyto konodin nai hoye jabo. Hoyto bidai bolar somoi tokow pabona. Shudu sarthoka etai thakbe, tumake valo acho dekhe jete parchi kingba valo acho ta janbo. Jai hok amar, tumi valo theko. Valobashi ajo thik ageri moto. Tumar opoman kingba obohela soye jaoyar sokti pai oi valobasha theke. Jeita tumi kokhono bujoni kingba ami bujate parini Babu.

Cokh golo bidroho korche. Janina abar kobe ashbo kingba adhou asha hobe naki. Valo thako, sobai valo thakuk.

6

21.04.2018

Onek din por fire elam amar vubone. Koto kotha, Koto gotona bolar thake. Kichui r bola hoina. Sukhi manush kingba vabuk manush poricoye poricito ami sobar kache. Aei vindeshe ager ami k khuje paoa khub duskor aj!

Nah, r bolbona kichui. Beche achi etai thakuk ajker srity hoye. Sobai valo thakuk, se valo thakuk, sobar valo thakate jiboner sarthokota khuje neyar apran sadhona kore jacchi, jetei thakbo.

5

30.12.2017

Bochorer sesh likha likhchi, ami jani. Ekhon to ager moto ashai hoina. Bestotar owshud diye kolijar khotoke ghum pariye rakhar apran cesta cole. Tao rokte mangsher sorir ta majhe majhe bbidroho kore Amar dingulite amake firiye niye ashe. Aeivabe colche, hoyto colbe . . .

Ekti bochor. Amr Babu k chara katiye dilam, Amar moner songinike robotic vabe songho diye gelam. Abeg, onovhuti, srity sob kichu ekpashe rekhe somoi aj 1 year pore ene daar koriyeche. Ami aei ekti bochore shudu hariyechi. Pothome tumake, Tarpore nijeke, Erpore Ammuke, R ekebare seshe ese Babake. Sesher haranu manushta onekta tumar motoi. Prithinite ache tobu ekta durotto. Sob shune i bola jai aei bochor take? Amar aei jiboner ekta omor bochor, hahahaha.

Shuye shuye vabi R hashi. Sotti, age cokher kone pani cole ashto. Edaning Nah taro besi, vabte vabte hashi ashe thoter kinarai. Etake ki hashi bole? Tumi amake micka bolta, tahole micka hashi e hobe taina? Amar aei hashir araler dukkho keo bujbena, kaoke bujateo jaina. Dukkho golo shudu ekar hoi, khushi golo sobar. Tumake diye jei koster shuru ta to sesh hobar noi. Aei betha j amake boye berate hobe ammur kache jabar ag porjonto.

Ek somoyer amar jonno etto valobasha, etto kosto, sob korte para, shudui srity aj. R amar khetre? Kichui na korte para aj sob kichui korate pare amake diye. Ami ekhon hashte hashte tumake vebe jibon dite pari, somoi amake aj emon jaigai eneche. Kintu,sei manushta to aj onek dure. Aei ekta bochore amar theke se dure jabar pothe egiyeche R ami tar kache ashar pothe aei vindeshe somoi khepon korchi. Love and War e kokhono sesh bole kichu nei, shudu aei ashatei abar shurur opekkhai achi. Na hok, tao ekta asha na thakle to tumar sei Coward hoye jabo. Koto kichu vabte hoi amake!!!

Ekta bochore dekhechi onek kichu, hariyechi, praptir khatai kichui nei. Amar jiboner may be aei ekta year e shudu hariyechi. Vangar khelai ami pore gechi, Gorar khelai porboto aei jibone? Nah ta to hobar noi. Page of Sorrow < tar pristhai shudu dukkho thakbe aei j nijeri ojante likha hoye geche amar maddome. R Smiley Babu ta hoye geche bastob. Hahahaha :D

Morovhumir majhe jokho dula jhor othe, cokh khula rakha jaina. Mukher samne khabar niyeo khaoya jaina. Amar jibon tao murovhumir jhorer agahte osprisso hoye geche, dora chuyar baire cole geche. Nishi rat Baka chad, chupi chupi R gaan gaina, Ganer pakhi seto ekti bochor hoye geche, amake opekkhai rekhe cole geche. Etai amar niyoti, sob mene niyechi. Opekkhai korchi. Matro to ekta bochori gelo. Aei poth sesh hote onek deri, ami jani ammu. Ami ashbo . . . amar j r kichui valo lagena. Bachte hobe bolei beche thaka, bochor ghure fire dekha. 

Valo thakuk sobai. Sobar jonno valokichu kore jaoyar broto niyei to pore achi. Seita hok familyr jonno, kingba tumar jonno. Sobai valo thako, bidai 2017 :'(

4

05.12.2017

Onekdin pore ashlam. Koto kichu gote jai, koto srity ashe jai cintai cetonai, tar kichui bola hoina. Khub besi sick na hole, asole Amar Dinguli vasha khuje paina. Shudui paliye beracchi, tai ekhane dora diteo mon sai deina.

Goto kichudin dore kub sick ami. Tarsathe mon tao vishon kharap. Tumar sathe share korte jai, kintu tumi to sei tumi nei etai mone thakena. Sei jonnoi bolte jeyeo fire ashi barebar. Jokhoni valo ekta mon niye goto koek mashe giyechi tumar kache, tumar kotha kingba kucha amake r o mormahoto kore amari adhar jibone achre feleche.

Khub tension e achi. Tumar cintar sathe r ekta cinta jug hoyeche. Ammu cole jaoyar pore basai khub jamela jache, ami ekhan theke kichui korte parchina. Shudu shune jai, r amar pressure er lokocuri khela kheli. Tumake bolle hoyto ektu relife petam, sei sujug tumi daona. Tumake bolbo keno - emon kothao bolte charona amake!

Mojar bisoy ki jano, ekhono sei paglamigolo amar majh theke jaini. Age bole kortam paglami, r ekhon bolar to way nei, sei jonnoi niribili paglami kore nijei abar bichanai pore thaki. Tumi amake hurt kore kotha bolo, r ami ager motoi kaj kori, shudu bola hoina. Na kheye kingba na rest niyei cole jai poroborti muhurtogolo. Jai hok, kosto deyar jonnoi to ami achi, R tumi dite didha korona. Kosto deya neya niyei amar jibon colbe. Page_of_sorrow hobe kivabe amar dinguli.

Ekta year kete gelo taina babu. Tumar kache hiseb nei, R amar kache potita din hoye ache ek ek ta bochor. Ki dusshoho dinguli amake opohar diyechile, ekhono diccho. Cokher samne theke amar sopnogolo kere niye amader sopnoke tumar ekar sopno kore niyechile. Santona dite jeye ekbaro vaboni keno oke niye ami emon korchi, ami to oke cini, ami to jani amar jonno o ki korte pare. Na eto vaboni, vabar ecchei chilona, taito aj tumar din kete jai kono hiseb chara. R amar, se to bollami.

Ami k kingba ami kemon korchi, ta ask kori ami nijeke. Kokhono kokhono answer paina, tokhon mone hoi ami budhoi asolei sonnashi hoye gelam. Eto porisrom koreo, buker vitor eto kosto niye kingba sorire bethar cinho niyeo tumar kachei sokol sukh pai. Tumar deya santona dekho aj amake kothai ene daar koriyeche. Tao pratthona, tumi valo thako.

Sedin bolechila, 20 years keno 10 years o bachar somvabona nei amar. Hoyto tumi thik. Amar jekono din saak cole ashte pare. Aeivabe more theke beche thaki kingba sotti e cole jai, sorbabosthai bolbo, babu tumi valo thako. At least tumi sukhi hou amader majh theke.

Amar ekla jibon, aei vindeshe cole jabe. Ekhane taka hole sob paoa jai, so cole jabe ekhon jemon jacche. Shudu caoa ektai, tumake emon valobasha jeno sesh muhurto porjonto bese jete pari. Ektai amar tumi chile jake valobeshe sob charte pari, ta jeno sesh somoi porjonto proman kore jete pari.

Valo thako Babu, Onek valobashi tumake ajo. Kolijar tukra to tumi, valibashi tai ettogula :-)

3

08.10.2017

Onekdin por ashlam. Amake jhor elemelo kore diyeche. Jhorer aghate ami aj r o mritoprai. Janina aei nishtur prithibi amake niye keno emon korche. Sob kosto golo shudu amar jonnoi budhoi alada kore rakha. Taito eker por ek aghat amake manoshik rugi na baniye charbena. 2010 kingba 2012 teo konodin ki vebechilam aj amake emon ekta din dekhte hobe?

17.09.2017 < Amar ammu prithibi chere cole gelo. Aei prithibite amake niye cinta korar sesh manush tao cole gelo. Amake ekebaresikhor chara kore diye gelo. Aei ekta manusher jonnoi hoyto fire jetam kono ek somoi. Kitu, nah amar kopale Na firai likha hoyto. Sei jonnoi nijer mayer sesh mukh tao dekhte parlam na. Ohh aei j ki kosto, ki tribbo jontrona keo bujbena. Se cole jaoyar por, aei mayer sathe koto onai korechi, kotha shunini, kothar obaddho hoye ekhane cole ashlam. Aj der mash pore se nei, aei kotha likhar jonno budhoi :'(

Amar ammur kotha bolte gele ekta boi e sesh hoe ki? Ekta manush kotto porisrom korte pare tar sontander valo rakhar jonno, ta dekhechi potiniyoto. Kaj korte korte sorire eto ruger basha baniyechilo j seshe kono owshud e kaj kortona. Shunechi tana ghumato owshud kheye, last jedin amar sathe video call e kotha hoi, sedin clear dekhte parini. Janalar opposite side e boshechilo khate, ak adhar oboyob dekhechi. Sesh dekhatao clear chilona, ohhh Allah ami j r parina :'(

Nijer sorir tao edaning valo jacchena. Gonogono problem hocche, aj aeita kal aeita.Amar to ekhoni owshud khete valo lagena, tai budhoi problem golo barche. Tao mone thakle khai, amake mone koriye debar manushtao nei. Oi j 2 jon manushi chilo, amake niye cinta korto. Tarao nei, amaro oguchalo jibon colche elemelo vabei. Vebechilam doctor dekhabo. Tarpore kajer cape R noito doctor er nam nile sorir valo hoi, pore abar sei. Aeivabe jacche, kaj r mon kharaper jontro, ami.

Onek kotha likhar chilo aj. Kintu, likhte boshlei matha theke sob hariye jay. Tumar kotha! Nijeke niye hoyto valoi acho. Hoyto bolchi karon ager moto kotha bola hoina, tai kothar marpeche kichui ber hoina. Ohh ekta kotha mone porlo. Kichudin agei jante parle amar sei accident er kotha. Mojar bisoy, abar sei sondheho tumar mone. Kintu, nah ami r kichui tumake proman korte caibona. Onek to hoyeche, eker por ek proman diye ki peyechi? Santona kingba du-shopno. Jar nirmom porinoti aj amar jibon.

Khub bolte ecche kore, tumar ki ektu lojja hoina amake ekhono obissash korte? More geleo hoyto sobaike ask korba, asolei ki se moreche? Vaggish sedin ami thakbona, aei drissotao dekhte. Old memory vhulte giye nijer sotta k fele diyecho. Tao valo, tumi valo acho. Aei sudur mile dure, ekhono to aei ektai prottasha kore jai.

Sarakkhon mathai gure berao, etto dakadakir shobdo tumake chui na. R tai ami nijei nijer sathe kotha boli, ager sms pori, buk pocket e tumar chobi niye guru, ektu betha pele ohhh babu bole tumake daki, bed e shuye babu amake joriye doro bole kanna kori, sob ami eka ekai kore jai. Amar sei ekaki onuvhuti golo tumake chuina, tumi acho digital life with analog home life niye. Jake etto valobashi, jar jonno koster pahar nieyo hashi mukhe bolte pari, babu valo achoto, tar jonno noyto emon vabei life cole jak. Aei achi, valo achi. Sukhi hok se.

Tumi, Ammu amake maf kore dio. Tumader kosto diyechi bolei aj ami return pacchi. Ta chara r kono answer paina. R tai eta vebei nijeke santona dei. Hmm tumar moto santona dite parina, taito kostogolo majhe majhe bicchinno kore fele tumar kach theke. Owshud kheye abar fire ashi, abar valo thakar ovinoy korte, tumar valo thaka life dekhte.

Matha vonvon korche. Ki likhechi etokhon nijeo jaina. Shudu jani, ami valo nei. Din k din klanto hoye porchi. Amake ami hariye felchi shudu . . . .

2

01.09.2017

Dekhte dekhte almost 3 mash hoye gelo. Aei ek odvhut jibone nijeke maniye nicchi. Potiniyoto kajer majhe nijer asol ostitto k nijei osikar korchi. Aj eto dure ese srity er patagolo shudu dirgonissash hoye ase thik moner majkhan theke. Ceye dekhi opolok r nijei boli, aei jibon to amar noi, amake deya hoyeche.

Rat din somane kaj kore jaoya R pain killer kheye beche thakar sarthokota kothai? Nijer exam nijei deoya? Hmm hoyto sei jonnoi din par hoye mas, tarpore bochor gure hudu mone koriye dibe, aei exam diye jetei hobe. Ekahne asar somoi nijeke thokanur apran cesta korechilam, deshe thekei to ami na thakar moto thakte partam. Kintu, nah answer ashlo, deshe thakle hoyto abar paglami kore tumake tumar moto thakte deya hobena. Jani, bolba ebar to ami ager motoi nei. Kintu, tao jani ami hoyto ektu holeo achor felte partam. Nijer jonno noi, abaro tumar kotha vebe cole elam dure. Jani coward bolba or ajaira dhong. Tumi jemon tumake jano, amio amake buji. Shuru thekei jei paglami, tar sesh hoini ekhono. R noito keo eto taka koroch kore ese emon ekta life kataina. Tao sosthi pai, take tar moto thakte dite perechi aei vebe.