Valobasha valobasha Valobasha !!!

18.11.2016

Goto koekmash dorei naki amar regular kotha chilo - Valobasha, valobasha, valobasha. Amar mathai naki valo kichu asena. Amake niye tai dream dekhiye sei dream venghe fela jai ek nimishei. EK NIMISHEI !!! Hmm 24 october theke matro 29 october, etato ek nimishei bola jai. Tahole to prai ordo masher opore holo amar dream take again kill kora holo. Ki kora ochit? Jaha se korte bole!! Hmm at least aei ekta jaigai ami perfect, ekonisto sruta !!

Onek kotha bolar ache kichu hobar age. Ami asbo sei ceherai Amar Dingulite. Kadate noi, lucky vabate. Keo shunbena r tai, keo janteo caibena kichu, koutohol or akorshon sob seto moricika. Amar morovhumite amar hete cola . . . .

Tumar oi montake ekta dulo makha poth kore dao

Ami pothik hobo . . . . . .

Birbir gaan gaoya, r pothik hoye morovhumite agiye jaoya.

Dorkar nei !!

30.10.2016

Jokhon likhte boechi, tokhono tribbo betha hocche. Tarpore likhte cacchi. Cause, r besidin jalabona aei diary take. Tar majhe mishiye diyechi amar koster kostogolo. Tumar moto seo cai mukti pete. Sostho vabe bachte.

Goto 25 tarikh thekei babu ta abar sei behave shuru koreche. Gotobar tar ammur kothai cole giyechilo. R ebar tar ammu and vaier obostha dekhe mind change korte hoyeche. Kichui bolini. J kina amar sathe kokhono mitthe bolena eta sob somoi bole, sei jokhon amake kaje busy rakhar jono mitthe bole, tobe r ki bolar ache. Sob e mene nei, mene nite hoy. Eta chara amar to ekhon kichui korar thakena.

24 tarikhe babur thinking e chilo, amake kichu bola mane amar pressure bere jabe. R sei babu 26 tarikh theke amar pressure or sick koranur jonno ja ache, tai korei jacche. Koi tao to kichu bolchina. Amito gotobarer moto ebaro kichu bolchina, tobe amar opor eto rag keno? Ami jodi wait kori, babur problem kothai?

Er kono answer nei. Kaoke kosto diye jodi bola hoi valo theko, eta tobe kun doroner valobasha. Valobasha Prep Wait - goto 7 year dorei colche. Tobe kokhono prokasse, kokhono chilo nirobe. Aj etodin pore ese ta gengen hoye jai. Sarthoporer moto shudu nijer vabna na vebe family er kotha vabte hoi. R nijeke shantite rakhar jonno aei amake kosto deyata aj kono kichutei porena?

Mobile charge nei, deyar proyojon ow nei. Goto 5 din ageo proyojon chilo. Gotokal rate bristy te vije room e ese ektai pratthona korechi, tumi change hou apotti nei. Kintu, aei amake aeivabe ariye jeona. Ariye jaccho bolei aj onekgolo khoto eksathe holo. Hoyto r koekdiner majhe hobe r o. Holeo ba ki. Charge deyar proyojon jemon nei, khotir poriman janar wish o tumar nei. So safe zone e achi.

Babu, Janina ki korle abar ami tumake pabo sei ager moto kore. Tyt houyate tyt tumake songho dicche, r tai tmi amake ignore korte parcho. Tobe ki tyt hole se tmr theke dure thakbe sediner sei kothata aj amar jonno apply kore dila? Tao valo, kaoke to akre dore acho. R ami seto janai ache next e ki hote jacche. Houyar age r ekdin ashbo, sob kichu ekhane srityr sagore vashiye diye jete. Hoyto vhul koreo konodin tate cokh porbe and bujte parbe shudu kannar jonnoi noi, valobashar jonnoi paglami or ajaira kajgolo kore giyechi sob somoi.

Valobashi babu onek beshi. R tai bochorer por bochor kostogolo sojjo kore emon korei beche achi. Valo thako. Love you so much Babu.

Sob Somoi keno emon hoy?

25.10.2016

Goto porshu Babur jormodin chilo. Rate room e eshei sms korechilam. Erpor sara din e koekbar sms pathalam, kono reply paini. Tokhoni moner ojante vebechilam, nischoi bashai kono problem. Sei thinking je mile jabe ekdom etota vabini. Cz tumar mbl e to charge thakena. But, recent F message amake emon vabiyechilo. Gotokal ektai sms peyechilam, tate shudu 3 ta line. Buja gelo, problem ta asole critial. October mash tai ashle ekhon buk ta kepe othe. Kono na kono news ase ja hoye othe amar procondo tension er karon.

Kivabe ki korbo or tumake bujabo ami janina. Tumi onek manoshik tension e acho. So, ami ekhon bujaleo tumi bujbena. Sei jonnoi kichu kotha bolte jeyeo borabori na bole rekhe dei. Hoyto konodin ekhane bolbo, jodi beche thaki. Shudu etotokoi bolbo, Babu, Ki bolcho aeisob? Ami Jid kore emon korchi? Tumake valobeshe kichu koratake tumi jid bolcho? Aj etodine tmi tai bujla? Tumake sostho poribeshe, sostho obosthai rakhar jonno etto porisrom korata ki Jid? Tumake valo poribeshe rakhata, kokhono kosto dibona bole kaj kore jaoata jid. Kintu, tumake paoya ta noi. Oitai to valobasha. Ami jodi tumake valoi na bastam, tahole tumake paoyar jonno, tumake valo rakhar jonno, tumar kothai sob sunno theke abar shuru kora, sob ready kore opekkha korte partam?

Tumi nijer mukhei to bolechila, vhul ekbar korechi. R korbona. Baby houyar ageo bolechila. R aj amar sob kajrokolap tumar kache nichok jid, ojotha hoye gelo? Amake santona dite jeye barebar amake emon korba? Accha, ami jodi jid kortam, tahole aj dintato onnorokom hote parto taina? Oije bollam, onek kotha bolte jeyeo bolina. Tumi bole felte paro, jemonti amake narrow minded or sick people bolteo tumar didha hoina.

Accha, Tumake vabbo na to ki korbo? Pothom jedin tumake valobashi bolechilam, erpor thekei to tumakei shudu vebechi. Hmm kaj niye cinta korte jeye sei vabna golo share kora hotona. Kintu, jokhon vhul ta dora porlo, tokhon thekei sei vhul r korbona vebei to ashchi. R tai tumar kothar moto, vhul r korbona vebei colechi. Babu, tumake paoa amar kono jid, lalosha noi. Sref valobashi bolei eto kore tumake boli, eto paglami kori, eto depress hoye pori, eto kore tumake daki, etota kosto niye opekkha kori.

Life to ektai. Tumi na bolo. Jar caoya shudu ektai, se oi ekta niyei thakuk. Tumi na bolla, sob caoya puron hoina. Abar etao to sotti, je jeita aim kore cole, se seitai pai. So, ami na hoi amar sei ek caoya niyei thaklam. Ekta life tumake pelei hobe sarthok. Mitthe hok R sotti hok, opekkhai kori. Tumi na bolechile, aei jibone na peleo porer jibone hole jate pai. Ami age aei jibonei opekkha kori. Tumio amar valobashar exam ta nao. At least tumar mone amar jonno jate koruna noi, feelings thake sei ager moto. Valobashar manush theke keoto koruna caina.

Ecche korlei ami valo thakte pari. Kintu, sei ecchetai to r nei, ashbeona. R onno kaoke vaba, seto r o jujondur. Jeikhane tumi acho, jake ondher moto believe kori, jar potita kotha follow kori, jake emon kore valobesheo mone hoi kom korchi, tar jaigai to takei rakhte hobe, So, please babu, koruna koro, tao aeisob bolona. Mitthe hok, sotti hok, opekkhai to korte bolecho, oitai valomoto kori. Amito to kichui korte parina bolechila, so aeita onototo kore dekhai.

Ami vhul korechilam, sei dush tumar opor chapaini. Bolechilam, blv korechilam bolei eto vabini. Cz tumake barebare boli, tumake onek blv kori. So, tumi jokhon bolechile, opekkha korte hote pare, ek kothai raji hoye gechilam. Vhultake songsodoner ashai. So vhul koreo jodi opekkha kori, tobe amar life ta nosto hobena. Cz bujte parbo, vhuler pore sothik kichui to pabo. So, please babu emon kore lav khotir hiseb kosona. R tumar opor amar vhul capiye dibona. Tumi nije strong hou. Ekdin bolechi ajebaje kotha bolba na. Again morar kotha. Tumar age jate amar mritto hoi, always aei doa kori. So vhuuleo emon kore think korbana. Tumake onek valo thakte hobe babu.

Janina tumi r ki vebe rekhecho. Aj jemon bolla, amake santona deyar jonno, amake kaje busy korar jonno opekkha koriyecho, seita ami kintu agei halka bujte perechilam. Specially, Baby houyar age tumar hotat turn back kora. Jei tumi airport theke amar kache cole asho, sei tumi jokhon amar sathe 5 ta minute kotha bolar time nei bole recently bashai cole giyechile. Actually, tumake niye saradin vabi bolei, tumar small stepgolow amar cokhe pore. Tao kichu bolina, dosharop se to noi e. Ababro, life ta ektai, ami sei life tumar opekkhai katiye dibo bolei decide korechi. Now, opekkha coluk. R amio dekhi tumi r ki bolte paro amake. Sick mentalityr manush, tai tumar kothagolo amar medicore hsebe kaj kore.

Ouff, r ki korar ache. Shudu pratthona kori, valo thako babu. Baby k valo rakho. Onek valobashi bolei barebar eki kotha repeat kori. R jotodin thakbo, bolei jabo. Love you so much babu.

Puranu cinta abar ki samne ashbe?

22.10.2016

Onekdin dorei kichu likhbo. Onek kichu likhar ache. But, ekta didha kaj kore ekho. Jedin jante parlam tumi diary ta porecho. Janina puro diary tai porecho naki only ager ongshotoko. Jeitokoi poro, amar opor je tumar onek rag ta besh bujte parchi. Sei jonnoi arale rakhi diary er prosongota. Tao kichu likhbo aj.

Ki likhbo, FB e lekha kothagoloi ekhane likhe rakhlam. Babu, tumi ki abar shuru korla? Abar sei eki kotha, ekivabe amake abar tumi aghat korte caccho? Ami johoni sob kichu guchiye niye asi, jokhoni vabi aei buji opekkha sesh hobe, tokhoni tumi abar pichone sore jaba? Ami moteo oguchalu vabina, sobkichu vabi. Specially negeative tai besi tumi eta jano. Kintu negative er vire positive ta pai bolei to sob kichu ghuciye opekkhai royechi. R tumi abar shei puranu soto dore taan diccho?

Tumake ami keno bujate parchina, ami onnoder moto noi. Amar pokkhe somvob noi, tumake chara. Hmm ami hoyto ekhon ektu paltiyechi, kintu tumake chara ajo ki ektuo vabte pari. Ami bolle tumi rag korbe, tao boli. Sob kichui to tumar jonno kori. Na bolchina oi past e ja korechi tumar oikhane, sob depression theke korechi. Ami decide kore niyechi, tumake petei hobe, seita time lagle laguk. And, ami life niye deep cintao kori. Taito dhaka thekei sob settle korchi, jate kono somoi tumi amar lackings na pao. Jate gadhami na bole eksomoi bolo, sotti tumi amake eto valabsho babu. Oi ekti kotha shunbo bolei to eto kosto kore jacchi. Kintu, jokhoni tumi amake onno cinta korte bolo, tokhon kemon lage boloto? Amio to ekta manush, tumi keno barebar sob seshe ese emon kore bolo?

Tumar kotha ami sunechi naki ekdin bujba. Tumar sob kotha suni bolei ekhono ami achi, ekhono tumakei dinrat vabi, ekhono tumar kotha deoya kotha dore din par korchi. Sudu ekbar dekhei bujta, ami tumar sob kotha kotota mullayon kori. Hmm kichu jinish hoyto tumake hurt koreche, but amito tumar sathe contact na thaklei emon hoye jai. Nijer opor control thakena. Sei jonnoi always dure thekeo kache takar try korechi, korei jacchi.

Basai ki again jamela? Again oi bari theke kono news? Naki se kichu boleche? Gotokal onekbar try korlam sms pathate, giyechilo? Mbl e charge na thakle ki sms jaina?

Babu, tumi always right vabo. But, sob vabar majheo kichu vhul thake, kichu manush thake jara vhul proman kore dei. So, please aeivabe na vebe amar moto ektibar vabo. Jahid chapol ora stl hoyeche bole amakeo same hote hobe? Amioto hobo, jokhon tumar amake opkkha koranu sesh hobe. Aei kotha ta shudu amar noi, amader duijoneri. Somoi lagbe, laguk. Aei jibone aei ekta kaj ontoto thik moto kori. Amar poti amar nijeri aei caoya. So please babu aeivabe vebona. Ami achi babu always. Love u so much.

Valo thako babu. Tayat o valo thakuk. Tmra duijone valo thaklei ami valo. Miss u duijonkei.

Abar Sei Ekaki Jibone Fire Asa

14.09.2016

Eid mane Anondo. Gotokal chilo eid-ul-azha. Sesh kobe eid e anondo peyechilam, ta vhulei gechi. Vhule jaoyate  jei sunnosthan golo create hoyeche mostiske, sei jaigai shudu kostogolo berei coleche. R ami dindin ek matha mota manushe porinoto hocchi.

Emon dine, tumi ami eto dure, Babu and Baby - ovhoi k vishon miss korchi. Tumader pashe thakte ecche kore, hoi sollor korte ecche kore. Emon boba hoye nischup life lead korbo tumi thakte? Aei jonnoi r o kharap lage.

Opekkha, shudui opekkha. Kobe amar opekkha tumi sesh korba? Shudu chup kore tumar sob kotha shune jai R opekkha kori. Tumi jemon cao, temon vabe coli. Setateo tumar problem. Bekttito nei, meyeder moto hoye gechi. Sob kichui mene nei, tumar rag golo jate tao pani hoye jore pore amar jonno. Sesh obodi to valo kichu pabo aei vebei opekkha. Shudui opekkha.

Paye ki jeno hoyeche. Kotogolo treatment diyeche. Jaoa hoina, jabo jabo kore. Dhakai cole jabo kal-porshu. Tarpore somoi kore dekhabo. Tao dekhale problem ber hobe, ami jani. Goto 2-3 ash dore besi syndrom dekhchi. Sei jonnoi jani negative kichu hoyeche. Na janaar try kore jacchi. Abar janteo hobe, tumake to kotha diyechi. So, thik ekdin cole jabo, tumi vebona. Tumake deya potita kotha ami rakhte cai. Tumi jate ontoto ebar kotha rakho tai. Dekhi, ebar paro naki!

Sedin shunlam, tumi amar diary ta porecho. Thik bujte parlam na, kototoko porecho. Sob porle to ..... abar jodi kichu pore thako tobe thik kobe theke porcho, tao jante ecche korche. Aei diary te ekhon kichu likhatao mone hoi thik hobena. Abar na likhe rakhle, bujabo kivabe ami kemon achi. Kichui to bola hoina tumake. 1 ta sms tao 1-2 din porpor, sei ek sms e ki r bola jay? Kichu bola hoina kingba tumake dekhar sujug paina bolei hoito etota beshi kharap lage. 

Babu, valo thako tumi, baby takeo valo rekho. Tension korona. Tumi opekkha korte bolecho, amio opekkha korei jacchi. Jete thaki, dekhi er sesh kothai. Onek valobashi babu tumake. Miss you so much .... 

Amar Dinguli - sotti khub oguchalo

19.08.2016

Sotti khub khub bishonno lagche. Aj etodin hoye gelo amar chele take dekhlam na. R tumar kotha ki bolbo? Vishon tumar sathe kotha bolte ecche kore, tumar pashe bose tumake dekhte ecche kore. Jodi aeisob boli tumake, rag korba. Sei jonno bola hoina, onno onek kothar vhire capa pore roi. Kintu, vitore vitore ami chupse thaki.

Ami Ashbo - kintu wait korte hobe. Janina tumar aei wait koranu kobe sesh hobe. Tumake r cheletake niye onek dure cole jete ecche kore. Emon ekta plan ready o korechilam. But, tumi sob elomelo kore dila. Amake opekkha koriye ekhon tumi ki vabcho allah jane. R tai, ami mone mone onno ekta siddhanto niyechi. Aeivabe dhakai na theke tumar oikhane thaklei to hoi. Tahole sujug pele tumake dekhte parbo. R oikhanei kichu ekta korar try korbo. Tahole tumar kachakachi thakte parbo.

Babu, vishon tumake dekhte ecche korche. Sahosh kore bolteo parchina. R tumi to potidin 2 ta sms diyei gayeb. R ami ekhane tumar sms er jonno opekkhai thaki. Sobkichu chapiye, opekkha kori -- kobe ashba amar kache. Amar oguchalo jibon take duijon mile ektu shanti dite? Jodi kichui na hoi, tobe sei cinta, sei past hobe future ..... janina tumi ki cao...

Miss you babu, onek onek miss korchi. :'(

Ektu paoyar maje onekta sunnota

14.08.2016

Amar jibonta ekhon kochu-patar oporer panir moto hoye ache. Jol tolmol obosta. Ekbar center e ashchi, abar ekbare kinare cole jacchi, pori pori obstha. Manoshik obsthar sathe physical obosthao same. Jibontake jokhon emon kore vabchi, tokhoni ekta news pelam. Tumar exam, baire ber hoba. Shuna matroi bola jai jur kore dekha korte ashbo bole tumake confirm korlam.

09.08.16 < aei tarikhe dekha korbo. R tai tar ager din bikele tumar ekhane ashlam and jothriti ager sei hotele othlam. Hotel ta te othlei serial er punnoprocar er moto cokher samne pichoner dingolo veshe othe. Wasroom e jacchi, cokhe vashe rater 10 tai gosol korte jaoa onek porisromer por room e fire. KIngab tumar basar samner goli diye jokhon gure ashi, veshe othe sondhar por sei goliyte janalai kaoke khujar somoigolo. Sara rat ghum hoina, aeisob vabte vabte.

Pordin sokal thekei cotfot korchilam, kokhon 10 ta bajbe. Tumi ashba. R jodi asho ow ammu ke nia ashba naki. Eto kichu vebe college e jeye opekkha korte laglam. Tumi ashla, r amar mon vhore othlo anonde. Kache ashate dekhlam, mutiye gecho specially pet ta. Dekha korei exam er jonno chutla. Majhe somoi kore 3 talai dariye amake ektu somoi dila. Kotha bollam, tumar obostha ask korlam. Ki korba jiggesh kortei kemon jeno neutral ekta answer dila. Ki hobe kingba somoi lagbe. Kichu kotha bolar por ami e tumake exam dite pathalam. Vablam pore kotha boli. Paser room e wait korchilam. Kichukhon pore tumi phone dila, ber holam. Bolla ami cole jacchi, baby kadche. Amake kichu na bolar chance diyei cole gela. Ami bisshito hoye takiye roilam. Eta amar babu? Jar jonno 14 hours journey kore gelam, amar jonno tar time nei? Matro 2 masher majhei change.

Kichui bollam na. Asole bolar to kono rastao nei. Sedin tumi syl giyechila doc dekhate. Amio rag kore dhakai cole gelam. Sara rastai vabte laglam, eta amar babu? Kar opekkhai ami din katacchi emon kore? Aeisobi cintai dube roilam sara rasta.

Bashai esei osostho. Pressure high. Tarmajhe tumi sylhet, tai extra tension. Sob kichu caphiye, tumi jedin syl theke ashla, sedin e ekta GP number theke phone kore bollo, E to suicide korte giyechilo. Obostha khub kharap. Taratari khobor nen. Shunetei ami sesh. Pressure bere obostha kharap. Vaggish Sakib chilo, sei amake taratari hospitalize korlo. 2 din chilam. Vebechilam vudhoi morei jabo. Iss more gelei valo chilo, eto tension nia baca jaina. Jokhoi vabi aeito r kichudin, tokhoni tumi sob elomelo kore dao. 2 din hospitale thakar por basai ashlam. Vaggish dhakai ami, tai keo janena. But, ami jai ami asolei valo nei. Emonki tumio janbena konodin.

Jano babu, ososthota niye jokhon aei kothagolo likhhi, tokhon mathai tumar sei kotha golo vashche.

- Baby houyar por ashbo. Ekhon ashle tumar problem hobe

- Baby houyar porei oi barite bole dibo, ami r jabona.

- Oi beta Beshi barabari korle, baby rekhei cole ashbo.

- Ekdom besi problem hole, tumake phn dile tumi cole aisho. Cole jabo.

- Ami ashboi, jodi ektu wait korte hoi, tumi koiro.

- Jodi tao na pari, tobe airport theke holeo amar kache ashba.

Sei kotha golor sathe tumar recent character milate gelei pressure bere jai. Amar thekeo now Baby important beshi tumar kache. Seita mayeder khetre savabik. Tai bole tumi amar sathe emon korba? Aeivabe vebtei gelei kharap lagche r o beshi.

Janina, ki hobe future e. Tobe ami sotti vishon vishon sick hoye jacchi. Class neya kingba ekta pothistan calanur motivation pacchina. Eto porisrom kore jokhon tumar theke emon behave pai, asolei ta onek monobol komiye dei. Tarsathe vabchi, jedin body r parbena, ami e dure cole jabo. Tumar ekta tension komiye cole jabo sei cena jogote jekhane amake keo cinena, cinbena. 

Dekhte dektei to jacchi. Dekhi tumi r ki korte paro. Onek age thekei to tumar decision er opor plangolo colche amar. So dekhi ebar ki hoi. Tao kichu bolbona. Kichu bollei tumar hoy mejaj kharap hoi R noito jogra koro. Sei jonnoi onek kichu na bole hojom kori. Tao tumi valo thako. Baby k niye sostho thako. R ami wait kori, valobashar manushtar jonno.