17

 14.08.2020

Onek kotha joma hoyeche, tai fire ashlam. Onek din hridoy cokher pata japsa hoi bristy nameni, aj namlo bolei fire ashlam. Corona sobar cinta cetona change koreche, life style change koreche, shudu amar noi.

Kichudin age Kurbanir Eid gelo. Tar ager din tuar sathe kichu kotha holo. Ekhon to mashe 2-3 barer beshi kotha hoina. Tao etake kotha na bole valo-mondo jiggesh kora bola cole. Jei deyal tumi sokto kore gore tulecho, tar samne amito nossi. R kichui korar sokti or ecche nei, nijeke to ami durbol vebe niyechi sei onek bochor agei.

2017 theke 2020, aei j poth gurlo, dui prithibite amra duijon. Capa kosto golow majhe majhe odoirjo hoye jai R cokh diye janan dei, ami supto achi. Ekhono tumake chere jai ni. Keo keo pare vhule thakte Na keo keo na, maximum e pare. Ami sei minimum manush budhoi je etogolo bochor geleo ekhono tumar chobi dekhi potiniyoto, kotha boli anmone kingba vebe jai sei dinguli.

Amar dinguli - emoni robe. Dur theke hotasha kingba otripti jore porbe R meki valo manush or valo achi dekhiye jabo jotodinjobonika potito na hoi amar. Tumar ekhane ashar somoi goniye asche, r to mone hoi kichudin. Eto kache thekeo sei 2016 er moto hoyto dekhbo lukiye cukiye, fire pabo ki sei cokher shanti? Na, bolbo na dekha dao or dekhechi. Abar ki paglami tabere jabe?

Aei vebei excited hoi abar porokkhone nijeke mounto thakar jonno boli. Amito kokhonoi tumar jibon k oguchalo korte caini, nijer jobon tocnoc hoye jak. Bola jai, aei etatei success holam jibone. Oboseshe tumake sukhi dekhe sosthi pai. Taito duty niye besto thaki, jate timing na mile, thakte pari tumar moto pathor hoye. Jani parina, tai to somoi-osomoi knock kore Justtalk er duniyai.

Babu, valo thako. Tayat, Zeysa sostho and valo manush hok. Tumar jibone r jate kosto na ase. Emon happy thako, always.

16

19.03.2020

Caridike sobai vishon atongke ache. Corona Virus er jonno. Hotat ki neme aslo prithibite. Eto eto medicine but, etar kono medicine nei. Tao amra onek kichu eta vebei koto ohongkar kori.

Kaj bondo, home quarinetine kore rekheche sobaike. Aeivabe shuye bose ki somoi kate. Sobar theke nijeke bichinno korar result hocche etai, emon muhurte nijeke boddo eka lage. Keo nei ektu kotha bolar, apon kore kichu share korar. Jeno sotti e sonnashi hoye pore achi ekhane.

Onekdin dorei tumar sathe kotha nei. Kichukhon agei jante parlam, barite theke esecho 4-5 din. Tarmane oni bari giyechen. Amio chuti peyechi, but, ami kothai jabo? Tumar jonno to sob e chere diyechi? R tumi valoi acho, permanently settle at last. Pichutan or srity bole kichui nei. Jodio borabori tumi nijeke control korete parta. So, ebarer beparta permanently hobe, etai onumeo chilo.

Thak, seisob kotha bole ki hobe. 2 babes niye and take niye valo thako. Kostogolo amari thak, hoyto tumake valobeshe etai amar paona chilo aei jibone. Valo thakuk sobai, tumi valo thako. 

15

22.02.2020

Onek din por likhete boshlam. Jodio temon likhar moto kichui nei amar. Ami to sei kobei nijeke ek pathor baniye felechi, shudu kosto boye beracchi.

Onek din por tumar sathe eto kotha holo. Ami dekhechi ekhon mase hoyto max. 3-5 bar kotha hoi jodio ta kotha noi, kusol binimoy bola cole. Tao valo ektu chat to hoy, kichuta to porosh lage.

Duty te chilam, tobe goto kichudin kajer presssure kom. Tai vablam tumake onno somy to paina, dekhi moddho rate pai naki - sei vebei knock and tumar reply. Eta seta kotha bole jante parlam, tumi ashar jonno preparartion niccho. Mane holo amaro ekhan theke cole jabar somoi hoye ashche. Ami agei decide kore rekhechilam, tumi ashlei tumar basar eto kach theke sei ager jaigai cole jabo. Jodio kosto barbe,seita sorire PLUS tumi ekhanei tar sathe eta vebe to r o kosto pabo. Tai dure giye kosto paoa e valo.

Kothai jeno porechilam, Prithiba ta goal, so hut kore dekha hoye gele tumi problem e porba plus amio. Tai aei cinta, dure sore jaoa. Tao valo hobe, tumi R ami r o kache eki deshe eta to feel kore shanti pabo. Hahaha, ki sob vachi dekhecho? Etai ami, tumar jonno ajo paglami ta gelona. Shoto sorirer eto pain niyeio tumar kotha shunle or vablei, 50% valo hoye jai ami.

Thak, tumi valo acho tai thako, etai pratthona kore jai and jabo. Tumar valo thakatei to ekhon amar shanti babu. Valo thako sob somoi. 

14

Sironamhin - 14

R o ekta bochor katiye dilam tumake chara! Hmm babu, k boleche parbona? Tumi ami dui jonei t boltam,dekho thiki perechi. Tumar jiboner gotir samne R caini speed braker hoye bada dite. Taito din k din nijeke kosto diye tumake aj tumi banate ceyechi. Sofol to hoyechi, taina?

Maybe etai amar aei bochorer sesh amar buker majher kotha share kora. Aj sokale ghum theke otheo hotati anmone vabchilam, kivabe katiye dilam ekti bochor. Goto bochor November e maybe Unar biye hoyechilo, tarpor theke duijonei r o dure sore gelam. Aei choto bontar jonno kingba or kotha vebei to tumi samne agiye ashte paroni jedin ami tumar kache tumar ami hoye hath bariye diyechilam. Khub mone pore sei dingolor kotha.

Mone pore tumake pothom moner kotha bolar rater kotha, tumar sathe pothom dekha or sesh dekha, sobi ajo cokher samne vese othe. Hoyto ami tumake niyei achi bidhai amar emon hoi. Tumar to aj sei somoi or ecche nei, tai to nijer sei ager chobi khujo nijeke ager moto kore jodi ektu vabte paro tai. Sedin dibo vebeo deini, amar sobto muchei felecho, aei pic golo deya maneto ekhane ese ekbarei hariye giyeo amar poticchobi khuje nebar cesta korba. Ami jani boka, valo korei tumake cini. Taito ruge-suke bethai nil hoyeo tumake valo dekhte ceyechi.

Janina porer bochor ki hobe. Hoyto r o dure cole jabo amra, amari dinguli shudu britha asfalon korei jabe jotodin dehe pran thakbe. Amar to kosto r o prappo ache, cokhe na dekhi shune holeo kosto amake peyei jete hobe. Khuriye khuriye buk vora dirgosash niye rutine mepe amar jibon aeivabei katabe boleito nimisei amake sopner ochu pahar theke aei morur prantore achre felecho, taina babu?

Nah ekhono 5 ti bochor o hoini, r o baki. 5-10 bochor to tumar kono problem chilona jokhon amake kotha diyechile kingba jokhon pothom deshe aso. Mone ache tumar? Nah mone rakhleto aj tumi emon hotena, amakeo sonnashi hoye jete hotona. Bochor sesh, tai sesh korchi onujug. Porer bochor jodi na bachi kingba agamikal.

Theke theke buker majkhane cincine betha jokhoni tumar kotha vabi, ekbare na parlei tumake soron kori. 4-7 din pore ekbar hoyto chat hoi, aeivabei to ekti bochor katiye dilam, taina babu? Aei digsash kingba buker bethar kono sesh nei, colche colbe typer.

Valo thako Babu. Z & T k niyei onek valo thako. Ami amar moto korei dur theke tumar sukh dekhe sukhi thakar apran cesta caliye jabo.

13

19.10.2019

Dekhte dekhte din kete jacche. Kotodin holo aei moru prantore. Nijeke morovumir oter moto ek klanto kongkalashar lage. Moner majhe osposto sritygolo sarakhon kure kure khai. Keo nei, tumi nei  sei tumi r amake niye ektoko cinta korte. Emon keno holo amar sathe?

Goto masher 12 tarikhe notun othiti eseche tumar vhubon jure. Shune jotona kushi hoyechi, taro besi shanti peyechi tumi valo acho eta shune. Hokna eto obohela amake, valobasi bolei ekhono shuneo happy hoi. Hoyto ebar r tumar char nei, ekahne ashtei hobe.1 year er majhei. Valoi hobe r o kache tobu onek dure eto jabo, tao shanti tumi thakba eki sohore. Vhul korei hoytoba kono ekdin tumake dekhe felbo kono ek jaigai. Amake to cinte parbena, kintu feel ki korte parba ami achi ase-pase.

Ki kotha theke ki bolchi. Asole ek geye jibon theke hotat amar dingulite ese ager ami jege othchi. Ager ami jagroto holeo sei tumi to nei, tai ager amar o value nei. Shudu vabi,ki theke ki holo, ki shuni dekhi tumar kach theke. Amar bisshoyer sesh seto bohu agei hoyeche, jedin tumi bolechile ami abar Pgnt. Bissash korte kosto hocchilo, onicchakrito theke ecchakrito vabei ebar amar kobor hoyeche. Hahaha.

Na, valo lagchena, valolagena. Kichui sojjo hoina. Ondokar roomer majhe shudu lukiye thakatai valo lage, tai niye din kate, katbe and sob sesh hobe kono ekdin. Totodin valo thakar kotha shuniye dekhiye jao babu, valo thako.

12

24.05.2019

Din to jacche, tar sathe moner kostogolo kingba ososthota golo barche. Er budhoi kono sesh nei, taito vhule thakar apran cesta. Tobou din seshe sei abar puranu srity der sathe lukuchuri colchei . . 

ব্যস্ততা আমারো আছে,
তবু সারাদিনের কাজ শেষে
নিজের একান্ত মুহূর্তটাতে
জানতে ইচ্ছে হয় -
তুমি কেমন আছো?
ক্লান্তি আমারো লাগে,
তবু হাজারো ক্লান্তির পরেও
দেখতে ইচ্ছে হয় -
তোমায় নিয়ে লেখা
উপাখ্যানটার কতোদূর হলো?
অভিমান আমারো হয়,
তবু সব ভুলে গিয়ে অন্তরালে
ফোনটা হাতে নিয়ে দেখতে ইচ্ছে হয়
তোমার কোনো ফোন কল অথবা
এস এম এস যদি পাই।
অভিযোগ আমারো আছে,
তবু আমি এটাই ভাবি
প্রানের চেয়ে প্রিয় মানুষটাকে
নিয়ে কার কাছে অভিযোগ চাই?
শুধু নেই যেটা তা হলো - অনুশোচনা;
সত্যি আমার কোনো অনুশোচনা নেই,
কোনো আফসোস নেই,
নেই কারণ- তোমাকে ভালোবাসার
কোনো কমতি নেই।
আমি মন ভরে আমার সবটুকু দিয়ে
তোমাকে ভালোবেসেছিলাম,
তাই নিজের আয়নায় নিজের কাছে
নিজে নিরেট স্বচ্ছ,
আর তোমার যে প্রতিচ্ছবিটি

সেটা অনেকটা ঝাপসা আর অস্পষ্ট!

Japsa hoye asha srity golo kostogolokeo ki osposto korte parena? Tumar moto valo thakar ovinoi korate assist korte parena? Ouff!  

11

28.04.2019

Sorir ebong mon ek sathei onek kharap. Besh kichudin thekei colche emon. Janina etodin bade keno mone abar jhor oteche. Sorirer kotha to bole r lav e nei.

Chele houyata o asolei jamelar. Aei koidine seita besi feel korchi. Buker kosto golo asru hoye jorate parle valo hoto, seita o parchina. Khub dom bondo lagche, khali dirgosash ashche. Oxyzen er ovab, tumar ovab. Tumi ager basai esecho koidin hocche. R amar shudu sei srity golo mone porche.

Hoyto tumaro mone porche. R tai aei kodin amar theke budhoi aei karonei r o besi dure dure thakcho. Tumar basar samne shudu chute jete mon caiche. Mone hocche, ami cailei pari, sondha bela thik ager moto tumar basar samne hatahati. Tumi janalar pase ese bosba, R ami dur theke tumake dekhe cole jabo amar sei room e. Mone ache tumar, ami nich theke tumake thiki dekhtam but, ami ondhokare thaktam bole tumi amake dekhte petana. Aj sotti ami ondhokare hariye gechi. Tumake sob somoi dekhi, tumi amake dekhte kingba feel korte parona.

Nijeke khub osthir lagche. Ekhaneo shantite nei. Jamela amake charena R tumar kosto seto amar nitto songhi. Manush je eto pressure niye tikte pare, ami nijeke diyei vabi. Ki chilam, ki korchi or ki porinotir dike ami jacchi. Doctorer kache giyechilam. Koekdin dore blodd jacche, test korate bollo. Janina abar ki news opekkha korche. Hoyto sesher bashir sur ashte shuru koreche. Tumake bolbo ki, na thak. Shuru te tumi chila, majeo tumi chila, amar seshe na hoi tumi naiba thakle :'(

Valo thako babu, emon kore amake ignore kore sukhi hou.

*aj oboseshe amar location ta share kore dilam tumar sathe.