Procondo manoshik caape achi

29.06.2015

Khub khub khub kharap somoi jacche amar. Jodio houyar kotha chilo olto. Matro 3 din age tumar sathe dekha kore ashlam. Tumar sathe dekha kora maneito amar jonno amar atta kingba mon shanto kore rakha. Kintu, ebar emon keno holo? Kichui bujte parchina.

Goto 26th and 27th June, tumar sathe dekha hoi and erpor theke Ek ekta din ami vhoye chupse thaki. Phone ta beje othlei koljeta cirik mere othe. Ebarer meetup e eto problem hobe janle at least tumake oikhane niye jetam na. Sob kichui keno jani ekta link ache mone hocche. Harun vai er amar kache taka dar caoya, erpor . . . . Thik buje otte parchina actually oidike ki hocche. Ishh keo ekjon jodi oikhane thakto ekta khobor nitam, tao plan kora kivabe nibo. Poricito ekjon manusher jonno kajta hocchena, R ami vhoye sukiye jacchi.

Ghum hocchena, khete parchina, jao ghum lege ashe porokkhone phn ta ki bajlo, aei voye lafiye othe mbl ta dekhi. Eto manoshik caape achi tao tumar sathe share korte parchina. Ami caina, tumake notun kore r o mental pressure e felte. Emnitei tumi valo nei ta ami jani.

Asolei ki tumi valo nei? Abar FB e ashcho, frnd der sathe chat korcho, profile picture diccho . . sobaike bole beraccho valo acho. R koidin pore amake chere cole jaba, sob thik hoye jabe. Amake jate somoi dei tao naki bolecho kacher manushgoloke. Jekhane tumari ecche nei, sekhane oder ki dhai poreche amake somoi dibe bolo? Jani, ja hobe valoi hobe tumar jonno. Komto holona, 1 year paar hoye geche. Tumar life take thik kora ochit. Amar jonno vebe vebe keno miche eto frnd, eto somoi, family member der mlan mukh dekhba bolo?

Jao cole jao. Amake niye vabte hobena. Amar jibon cole jabe thik ekhon jemon jacche. Tumake R ashar kothaow bolbona. Jemon kore sob cepe rakhi, tokhono hoito temoni rakhbo. Kingba r o beshi rakhbo. Morte morte hoito bolbo, Babu ami valo achi. Tumar babu besh ache, beche ache aeito beshi.

Valo thako lokkhita. Onek valobashi tumake . . .

R o osthir somoi . . .

22.06.2015

Din goriye jacche. Ek ek ta din amar kache onek mulloban. Ek ek ta din jacche, amar majhe ami sukiye jacchi. Othoco kaoke bujte deya jabena, specially tumake. Tao amake potiniyoto tumake happy rakhar jonno valo thakar, happy thakar try kore jete hoi. Jeitoko somoi kotha hoi, thik totokhon. Erpor ami abar sei vhoye kingba haranur suke shudui vitor vitor venghe porchi.

Dirgo ekti bochor por tumi FB e status diyecho, chat korecho. Moner vitor theke ke jeno bole othlo, aeito ager babu ta fire ashche. Sei status er fuyara kingba frnd der bestota chat er duniyai. Sob kichui fire ashbe, shudu amakei tumi sei prithibite thakte dibena. Sekhane amar jonno tumi opekkha korbena kingba amar jonno kono text ashbena. Amake pichone fele tumi agiye jaba samne, tai jao. Eto cesta kori tumake pichone dakbona, kintu phone e kotha bolar somoi eki kotha boli. Tumar vashai eki dialouge, aj dupureo bolechila. Kintu, moner kothatai to barbar ber hoye ashe, tumi ki seita bujo?

Tumi kokhonoi amake bujbena. Tumi ki kokhonoi amar kosto komanur try korbena? Jodi nai koro, tateow khoti nei. Tumar valo thakatai amar mukkho bepar. Eto valobashi, r tumar sukh dekhe jodi ami kosto pai tobe amar valobashar mollo thakbena. Sei jonnoi, tumi ja korte jaccho, tate badha dibona. Kichu bolbona. Valobasha seto amader mone mone ache, sei valobasha sotti hole tumi kono ekdin tar proman diba. Jotoi sikol thakuk, jotoi badha thakuk, amar jonno noi, amader valobashar jonno tumi fire ashbe tumar kache. jei prithibite shudu tumi eka thakbe, hoito seidin ami thakbona. Amake khoma kore dio. Jodi kokhono dekho ami kono sara dicchina, tobe vebe nio tumar babuta tumar theke sotti onek dure cole geche.

Mone ache tumar, kono ekdin tumi bolechile, "Aei prithibite naiba pelam, opare jate tumake pai". Sei opar thekei tumar sathe ami thakbo. Tumi chara amar k ache? Aei sotti ta ki bujo? Amar sob kotha, sob abeg, sob valobasha sob to tumake ghire. Jani, eshob sob tumar kache vhab (amar). Kintu, ami jani kono ekdin tumi thik bujbe amai.

Jibontake ekta single room e niye eshechi aj koekdin holo. Sobar theke dure. Bolte paro amar postoti nicchi. Bakita jibon jotodin pran ache, kivabe jibonta katabo seita vebe neyar try korchi. Sei jonnoi, sobar theke dure eshe ekaki kotha bolar ekta asroi kuje niyechi. 9-5 ta duty kore, hate amar ofuronto somoi tumake niye vabar. Sondha theke vebe jai, r koto kolpona kori. Mojar bishoi poti bare tumi sei kolponai rong dele diye amake bastobe niye asho.

Vabchi, shudu vabchi. In Sha Allah tumar sathe dekha hobe. Kintu, din k din tumi onek strong hoye jaccho, keno jani amar mon onno kotha bolche. Thak kichu bolbona, dekhi amar moner darona ta sotti hoi naki. Aei jemon ektu age tumar sathe kotha holo. Kothai jeno ekta badha, ami kichu bollei tumi amake past niye barebar kucha dao. Amar kono kotha ekhon somapti khuje paina tumar samne. Tumi amake ek dakkhai kotha break korte baddho koro. Tao valo, tumi ekhono ager moto acho.

Aei babutake ami amar motoi cini. Tar opor amar onek astha. Tar opor onodhikar corca korteo badhe na. Karon, tumi je amar babu. Tumake je onek valobashi. Valo thako sob somoi.

Rujar Mash ta Eshei Gelo .....

15.06.2015

R koek din por ruja shuru hobe. R koekta din por theke ekta ekta din hobe amar moner opor pressure baranur din. Emnitei valo nei. Tao, tumake na dekhanur apran cesta kore jai. Tao majhe majhe dora pore jai R tumi amake vhul bujo.

Goto porshu tumar sathe abar dekha hobar kotha chilo. Kintu, durvagghobosoto ebar plan er bastabayon holona. R etei tumi amake ki bolla? Tumake ebar amar moto kore pabona bolei ami jete caini. Aei bujle amake? Babu, sotti bolchi tumi ja vebacho ta noy. Shuru thekei kokhono ami emon caini. Tarporeo mitthe bolbona, tumar kache gelei ami onnorokom hoye jai. Tumake onek miss kori bolei etto ador korte ecche kore. Ami asole nijer opor control hariye felechi. Tumi joto dure sore jaccho, totoi ami depression e pore jacchi.

Babu, dekhecho tumake ami jei kotha dei, ta rakhi. Tumake kotha diyechilam, ami job korbo abar. R tai, job e join korlam. Aj ctg te ashlam. But, tumar kotha etobeshi mone pore je amar pokkhe r jobta kora somvob hocchena. Sotti, bukta dukduk kore. Tumi hariye jabe .... Keno amar moto kore tumi tumar kothagolo rakhcho na? Oikhane na gele hoina?

Aei matro tumar sathe phone e kotha holo. Again same vhul korlam. Jeshob kotha kokhono tumake bolbona bole thik korechi, seisob kothau bole dilam. Dhet.Ki je hoi amar, tumake amar shob gopon plan janiye dicchi. Eta thik hocchena. Ete je tumi r o beshi kosto paba, ami ta jani. Eto cesta kori, khub savabik thakar try korbo. But, tumar sathe kotha bollei sob control power hariye feli mon theke. Ouff, ki korchi ami?

Babu, ajke amake raganur jonno ki bolla, "Ami r fire ashbona"? Jodi nao fire asho, tobou ami emoni thakbo. Tumar jonno opekkharoto. Dekhi tumi amake koto opekkha korate paro or koto kosto dite paro oi onar sathe theke. Sotti bolchi, etai tumar last exam amar pokkho theke.

Goto rat ektuow ghum hoini. Sara rat vebechi ki hobe amar? R to kichudin. AMi ki kore thakbo? Babu parona, tumar sei ager ekgeyemi rag ta r ekbar dekhate? Parona oikhane na jeye ekhane thakte? Amake emon poristhite fele tumio je valo thakbena. Eta ami ki kore mani?

Eto kosto keno? Tumake eto valobashi tao keno tumi aj ammake eto kosto diccho? Kono somoi ki amake bujbana? :'(

Koto kotha jome geche . . .

01.06.2015

Aj onekdin pore likhte ashlam. Asole eto kichu gote jacche, likhbo likhbo kore likha hoye otchilona. R tai jomte jomte kothar vandhar hoye geche. Notun ekta mash shuru holo, vebe dekhlam r kichudin pore bigoto dingulor srity'r opor bsrity's astor pore jete pare. Sei jonnoi r o beshi fire asha amar ostitter majhe, diary er patai.

10.05.2015 < Amar jormodin chilo. Aei pothom oops na ditiyo bar tumar theke 1st wish ta pelam na. Olto tumar sathe rag ovhiman holo phone receive kora, na kora niye. Goto bochor jei agun jolchilo buker moddhe, ebaro sei agun chilo. Kintu, ager moto noi. Keno jani, mone hocchilo, amar babuta ekhono to amake valobashe. Jormodine etai amar sera opohar.

Tarpore, majher dingolo keteche khub kharap. Khub ostho hoye porechilam, may be etota sick amar life ekhono porjonto r hoini. Traporeo cesta kore giyechi tumake kichu na bujte dite. Onek kichu lukiye rakhte. Tao phone e kotha bolar somoi mukh foske onek kotha ber hoye jeto, r tai kichu kichu tumi jene jeta. Aste aste ektu sostho holam, and tumake dekhar jonno osthir hoye porlam. Jabo jabo kore shudu date pichacchilo.

19.05.2015 < Oboseshe 18 tarikhe plan moto ami tumar oikhane gelam. Ebari pothom tumar oikhane pouche sondhar pore tumar bashar samne janini. mathar opor onek cinta gurchilo. Hotel othlam and sarakhon vabte laglam, agamikal ki korbo? Kothai jabo babuke niye . .

Sokale kothamoto ami clg er samne jeye wait korte laglam. Tumar M.A. admission er form joma deyar last date chilo. So, eta korata important chilo. But, clg er staff e asheni, so amra kichu time pelam. Baki somoi seto dream chilo. Amader jiboner sobceye anondo and sukher somoi. Abar seikhane and same feelings with kichu na paoyar afsos. Amader majhe borabori emon ekta afsos niye dekhar porbo sesh hoi. Tobe, tumake kushi kingba mon valo kore dite parlei amar onek anondo hoi. Sei anondo niyei tumake bashar pothe chere amio fire ashlam amar bashai. Etto valobashi, hoyto ajo tumake bujatei parini.

Kono jormodin e tumi amake gift chara rakhoni. Ebaro pelam, ekta watch, onek sundor. Thanks babu.

Tumar oikhan theke ashar por theke monta osthir hoye ache. R o tumake dekhte cai, pashe thakte cai. Taropor basha theke barbar bolche, ebar ekta job korte. Mezo vaiar office e new post create hoyeche, CTG office er senior admin. Onek na na kore vablam 1-2 weeks kore dekhi ki hoi. Aj amar dhakai jaoyar kotha chilo. But, aj jaoa holona, in sha allah agamikla jaoa hote pare.

Amar life e ekhon porjonto class neini or lecture ow deini. But, last week ekhane Government ekta traning center e 2 hours er ekta class nilam. Ouff, eto kosto. Tao, valoi laglo. Oikhaner manager onek request korlo poti week e ekta class nite. But, again ami pichiye ashlam. Oi class er por oi pothe r pa baraini. Dekhi, samne ki hoi. 

Kichui valo lagena. Aste aste je sei somoi kache cole ashche. Aeito r kichudin por ruja shuru hoye jabe. Tarpor, tumi .... Kichutei mene nite parina tumar emon siddhanto. Abar vabi, dekhi babu amar jonno ki kore? Kichu bolbona. Amar jonno firre ashbe ki babu? Naki, seo bolbe sikol paye lege ache, kichui korar nei tar.

Janina, ki korbo tumi cole gele. Shudu jani, amake tumi valo thakte dibena. Abar hoyto odvhot cintar bastobayon korbo. Abar hariye jabo seisob dingolote. Kintu keno? Tumake onek onek valobashi bole. Amar mon or hridoy jure shudu tumi acho. Onek valobashi tumake babu :'(