To be OR not to be

31.10.2014

Aj soronio sei October masher sesh din. Onno karo kache aei masher kono mane thakte na pare, but amar onek onel sritymoi ekta mash. Koto kichu bolar moto ache aei mash jure.

Aei mashe amar Rajkonnar jormodin. Aei amshe amar Jeni ta nijeke tar aim thik kore neyar sahosh fire paiye diyeche. Aei mashe eshe amar babutar mone holo, ami tar life complicated kore tulchi. Aei mashei Babur Ammu, Vhai, Dulavai theke corom opoman holam. Oops Dulavai er bepar ta r clear kora jabena. Aei mashei Pori hath and Matha pure gelo gorom dud pore. Aei mashe khub baje ekta comment shunlam r ekjon theke ja amar mejo vhabi amar somporke bolechen. Aei mashe eshe bujhlam, amar family er sobai etodin amake use koreche and now sobar valo cinta kore jar jar aim niye besto hoye poreche. Aei mashei onek taka loose khelam. Aei mashe, r ki? Mone porche na, tobe joto toko likhechi tate aei mash take baki jibon mone rakhar motoi.

Khub ososthi hocche. Aj k amar agent er sathe kotha holo, bollo Budbarer dike FLIGHT date dite pare. Jodi tai hoi, tobe tumar sathe dekha korbo kivabe? Som and Mongol bar to hortal. Ki korbo bujte parchina. Ouff, tumake na dekhe ami je konovabei aei desh theke jete parbona. Karon mon bolche, etai hote pare tumar sathe amar sesh dekha. Jodio, abar mon bolche, amar promise ami rakhboi, tumi amar jibone fire ashbai. Sarakhon matha betha or ghar betha kore. Besh bujhte parchi, pressure bere ache. Regular Gorur mangsho khacchi. Cokher doctor ow bolche alergy jatio khabar na khete. Amar naki alegy problem ache. Cosma ta porte khub kosto hoi. Uneasy lage. Eta hate nilei mone hoi, tumi mukh tipe hastecho R amake siyal pondit boltecho. Sei jonnoi r o cosma ta pora hoina.

Babu tumake promise korte amar khub kharap lage, cause sei promise amar pokkhe amar rakha somvob noi. Mone ache tumar, tumar biyer 4 din age ami bolechilam, tumake age kora promise golo ami konodin ow vangte parbona. Kintu, aj theke tumar r kono kothai ami shunbona. Tarporeo, tumake happy korar jonno amar promise korte hoi. Hoyto, tumi thiki bujhte paro ami aei kothagolo shunbona. Tao cetsa koro amake line e anar. Kintu, jei line tumi olot-palot kore diyecho, tumake chara ta r konodin ow thik hobena. Hoyto ashbena amar jibone, tao opekkha kora. Opekkha jinish tar moto kharap r kichui nei.

Aei bashai amar dom bondho hoye ashche. Kotota osojjo lagche, tumake bujate parbona. Nijere baba-ma ke kharap lage, bujo tahole ami koto psycho hoye gechi. Shudu count down kore jacchi, kokhon ekhon theke jete parbo. Khub niribili thakte parbo. Keo amake dakadaki korbena. Shantite tumake niye vabte parbo, tumar chobigolo dekhte parbo, recording golo shunte parbo. Aeigoloi to amar baki jiboner patheo.

Jani, aj theke 1 year porei TUMI r tumi thakba na. Ekhon jao amar sathe ektu kotha bolo sojug pele, tokhon moneo porbena. Songsharer bestotai vhule jaba. Tumi-tunir songshar theke tumar moto lokkhi Allah kaoke diben jake niye tumar beche thakata hobe anondomoi. Ishh oi dintar jonno ami mukhiye achi. Tumi valo acho, mukhe hashi emon ektibar tumake dekhe jodi amar moron hoto. Kono ovinoy noi, tumar pran theke asha ekta hashi, ja proshantite voriye dibe tumar hridoy. Jekhane bosobas shudui amar, sei proshanti amio pabo, pete cai ........

Allah sob kichu thik rakhle in sha allah abar ashbo fire, aei AMAR DINGULI te. Valo thako tumi, valo rakho sobai ke ...... Valobashi lokkhi amar.

Ekta prosno kori, dekhi paro kina. Boloto nicher chobite ami kunta :D

Etai ki sesh soptaho aei deshe amar?

26.10.2014

Mathar neuron golo aste aste cinta korar manoshikota hariye felche. Din din ami kemon jani hoye porchi, sostho manush aeivabe beche thakte parena. Jodio ami moteo sostho nei. Tobuo bajjik dik diye to sostho, tobe amar majhe emon hocche keno?

Rat 12 ta baje. Tumar phone er jonno opekkha korchi. Jani tumi phone korba, eta amar bissash. Jodio aei bissash tumake ageo korechilam, ajo kori. Etotoko norcor hoini sei bissasher moddhe. Asole kaoke nijer thekeo bissash korte hoi, R amar sei manush ta hole tumi. Jake ami ondher moto bissash kori. Ekhono mon ke bujai, Tumi poristhitir cape baddho hoye emon korecho. tumar opor blam dile je amar nijeke ossthito osikar kora hobe. Tumar jonnoi to beche achi. Tumi amake r o kosto diba, sei kosto goloke sojjo kore tumar future life er sathe Chaya hoye mise thakbo.

Tumake bolbo na, bolbo na bole sob bole feli phone e jokhon kotha hoi. Kemon jani hoye pari. Jotoi cesta kori tumake r future plan er kotha bolbona, tao mukh diye cole ashe. Tumake joto kosto na diye kotha bolbo vhabi, totoi mukh diye tumake aghat korar moto kotha bole kosto dei. Ouff, etota kharap ami. Tumake kadai, tumar oi dui cokhe jol ene nije shanti pai. Etto golo kharap ami .....

Asol kothai to bola hoini. Aj onekdin por likhte boshlam. Monta khub bikkhipto hoye ache. Goto koekta din khub manoshik jontrona hocche. Ami sruter dike sorir vashiye diyechi, ekhon shudhu veshe jacchi. Hoyto in sha allah, aei soptahe veshe jabo aei desh chere onno kothao. Oder sathe emoni kotha hoyeche, aei soptahe amake na nite parle R ami jabona. Ami jabo, just oagent k cape rakhar jonno. Dekhi ki hoi. Amake cole jete hobe. R o 2 masher opore tumi deshe thakba, ami r same vhul korte caina. Tumi savabik houyar cesta kore jaccho, abar ami tumake sei 6 masher moto koster somoigolote felte caina. Tumar life ta ami R complicated korte caina. Tumar mukher kothai, "Ami tumar life ta complicated kore felchi". Ami aei koidin aei kotha tai shudhu vebechi. Ami keno emon korchi? Amar to ochit tumar valor jonno dure thaka. Somossa holo, sobi bujhi. Kintu, amar mon take bujate parina. Valobeshi khub, R tai nijeke domiye rakhte parina. Ouff, aei jontrona amar aei jibone sesh hobena.

Goto 23 tarikhe tumar jormodin chilo. Allahor kache lakh lakh sukriya, tumake ami wish korte perechi. Mone ache tumar, tumi amar jormodine aei pothom wish koroni. Otocho, ekhon tumi jei situation e acho, tar theke onek valo obosthai chila. Tarpore amake wish koroni. Khub kosto peyechilam. Tumar jormodine wish korte pere sei kosto cole geche. Isshhh koto sopno chilo, birthday er dine tumake dekhbo. Sob plan okejo hoye gelo, bidesher bepar tar karone. Tachara hoyto valoi hoyeche othoba Allah can nah tumar sathe amar r dekha na hok. Jodi tai hotobe onar kache pratthona kori, jaoyar age ektibar jate tumar mukhta dekhe jete pari. 

Janina aei vagghe ki ache. Likha shuru korar age vebechilam onek kichu likhbo, kintu likhte boshe kichui mone porchena. Matha ta majhe majhe shunno mone hoi, bokar moto takiye thaki opolok vabe. Jai hok, likhbo r ekdin thanda mathai. Onek gotona gotche, ekhanei likhbo sob. Amar kotha shunar to keo nei. 

Kosto capar Mission

16.10.2014

Post er title thekei aj kotha shuru kori. Kosto capar mission shuru korechi. R joto kosto e ami pai, tumake ami kichu bolbona. Tumi to onek ovinoy korecho, ebar amio shuru korlam. Duijoner prithibi hobe ekta moncho, duijonei amra ovhineta. Tumi ovinoy kore jabe ettogolo manusher sathe, R ami shudhu tumar sathe.

Gotokal rate prai may be 3-4 month er pore tumar sathe phone e eto kotha bollam. Jodio kotha shuru hoyechilo ekta sad environment e. Tarpore so how eksomoi tumake happy korar shuru korlam. Tumar mukher hashita je onekdin shunina. R tai tumake hashanur jonno shuru korlam amar sei puranu dustami. Kintu, buker moddhe colchilo, ek osojjo jhor. Tumi r ashbena amar jibone, tumi seita clear kore bole dila. Tumi onar sathe regular phone e kotha bolcho, ami tumar jibon take complicated kore tulchi. Kotha ta ariye geleo buke tirer moto legeche. Tumake ektu valo rakhbo bole Dubai er bepar ta tumar sathe share korlam, just tumar ovhibekti ta bujar jonno. Tumi ki amake seikhane except koro naki. Dekhlam, tumi kushi hobe. So, ami aei chance ta nibo. Tobe, ekhon na. Tar age je amake onek kichu guchate hobe, nijeke bujanur sesh cesta korte hobe, tumar life ta jate ami complicated  na kore tuli. Janina, ami to shudu vhul kori, abar ki vhul korbo?

Amar main somossa holo, tumake chara ami thaktei parbona. Seita tumi jeikhanei jao, amar je seikhanei jete hobe. Dorkar hole Dubai teo jabo, tobe ekhon na. Age tumi r o nijeke guchiye nao. Jate amar jonno tumar kono khoti na hoi. Ami thakte parbo, amake niye. Amake niye vabar ekjon ache, seita hoccho tumi. Eta vebei shantite thakbo. Abar kosteo thakbo eta vebe, amar kolijar tukra r ekjoner sathe thakche. Kichu korar nei, tumar valor jonno amake je sob sojjo korte hobe.

Babu, prithibite amader ayu jotodin ache totodin amra bachbo. Amar cokher samne tumi r ekjoner sathe thakba, vabtei matha betha shuru hoye jai. Ekta manusher doirjo bole ekta kichu thake, jeita amar ektu beshi. Sei ami eto r doirjo dore tumar samner dingolor kotha vabte parchina. Hoyto, tumar deya aei kosto vhulte amake fire jete hobe puranu sei peshai. Tumake gotokal phone er ek porjaye ekta kotha bolechilam, Amar r Attosorman bole r kichui nei. Kotha ta tumi bujhte paroni. Bujbe 24 tarikher por. . . . .

Allahor kache sesh ekta pratthona. Jormodiner dine mane next Brihospoti bare jate tumake ek polok dekhte pai. Hoteo to pare, r kokhono dekha hobena. Aei wish ta jodi puron na hoi, tobe r ekbar amake Afsos korte hobe. Kintu, aei afsos ki amar konodin sesh hobe? 

Vhuler ki sesh nei?

15.10.2014

Vhul ki amar pichon charbena? Ami jeita valor jonno kori, seita keno sesh porjonto vhul bole promanito hoi? Sotti, eto vhul aei half life er jibone asholei mana jaina. Ekekta vhul aj amake kure kure khacche. Emon vhul korechi, ta shudranur rasta aj bondho, indirectly Babu bondho kore diyeche. Kichutei amar pokkhe somvhob na jodi se agree na hoi. Kintu, mon bolche sei asha kora gure-bali. Se to r nei ....

Aj saradin khub kharap keteche. Sarakhon nijeke bokaboki korechi, aei ami ki korlam? Ami janina keno ami emon korlam. Gotokal rate abar tumar sathe kotha holo. Kotha bolar ek porjaye abar tumake request korlam, amar kache cole ashte. Kintu, tumar pokkhe naki ta somvob noi. Sei kotha vebe aj saradin bishsoye katiyechi. Aei sei babu, jar rag komate amar koto ki korte hoto. Shiter rate mathe shuye thaktam campus er, bus stand er chipai jeye kotha boltam, na kheye thaktam, osostho holeo owshud khetam na .... shudhu ekta bar tar mukhe hashi shunbo bole. Nije vhul na koreo sorry boltam, tao jate kokhono apart hoye na thakte hoi tar theke. Sob chilo valobashar potirup, aj sei amar valobasha niye confused!!!

Mul kotha theke dure sore jacchi. Kothar ek porjaye tumi prosno korla, biyer age keno ami emon korini. Jobab dilam, jani sei jobabe tumar mon vhoreni. Vhorbeo na r, tumi je paltiye gecho babu. Jei babu, amake chara onno kono cheler kotha vabte partona, sei babu aj onar sathe life par kore debar cinta kore. Ekta baro mukh fute bolena, Apur moto amio korchi, kichu diner bepar. Etai to chilo tumar kache amar sesh request. Jani ami jolanjolite geleo tumar r kichui jai ashena. Tumar family tumar kache important. Otocho aei family e tumi sojjo na korar kotha.

Amar vabte r o obak lage. jei jaigai tumi tumar family k dislike korar kotha, olta ami amar family theke paliye beracchi. Tader kaoke amar sojjo hoina. R tai ekhane eshe osostho hoye pore achi. R tumi family er jonno amake kosto diccho, dao joto kushi. Mritto chara tumar pichone chuta amar bondho hobena.

Barbar kothai kothai bolo, amake vhule jao. Amar pokkhe r somvob noi. Kivabe paro eta bolte? Ektibar ki bolte ecche korena, tumi emon korona. Tumi jokhon bolba ami tokhoni cole ashbo. Ouff shudhui obak hoi. Sarakhon mathai bishsoyer ghur lege thake. Majhe majhe ecche kore, ami nij theke tumar onake phone kore sob boli. Kintu, abar pichone fire ashi.Kar jonno korbo, je kina amake jiggesh kore, AMI ASHTE NA CAILE KI JHUR KORE ANBA NAKI? Bah, amar kotha bolatai off kore dila. Thikito, tumi ashte na caileto amar pokkhe ana somvob noi tumake.

Kothar majkhane hotat JC er kotha ask korla keno eta bujhlam na. Amito nervous hoye gelam, JC abar ki boleche. R tai mukh foske ekta mitthe bole felechi, sotti eta ecchakrito chilona. JC er sathe amar FB e kotha hoi, amito MIG er password e vhule gechi. Kintu, keno MIG er kotha bollam tokhon!!! Tumi ekta tacchiller hashi dila, valoto bolla. Eto kharap lagchilo, na parchilam again sotti ta bolte tai. Saradin ekta ososti kaj koreche. Vebechilam pore phone e kotha hole sotti ta bolbo, but sotti bolte gele tumi abar mone korba, ekhono ami tumar sathe mitthe boli. R tai vebe dekhlam, kono ekdin jodi amar aei online dairy ta poro, tobo sotti ta jante parba.

Mathai ekta plan gurche. Kintu, r tumar sathe kono plan share korbona. Share korlei, sei plan tumi venghe dao na jenei. Shudu etotoko boli, ami budhoi tumar sathe r beshidin contact korte parbona. Ami nissho hoye gechi etogolo taka loose kheye, hoyto ekhon amar laptop+phone sell kore felte hobe. Tumar aeikhane achi ekhon mehman er moto, tumar jormodiner por thekei to ami change hoye jabo. Aei mone kosto peyechi Sylhet e jeye, sei kotha r ekdin bolbo jodi bece thaki.

Nijeke niye vhoi hoi, ekhon jodi ami cole / mara jai tobe to tumar eto kotha jana hobena. Ekjon bisshosto manush dorkar, jake ami aei blog er link ta dite parbo. Rezuan k deya jete pare, JC k to obosshoi. But, tara keo jodi aei diary ta pore tumake kingba amake onek kharap vabte pare. Ami sei sujug ta dite chaina. Tao hoyto na caileo dite hobe. Tumar moto onicchakrito ......  

Shitol Chuya ....

14.10.2014

Ami ekta jinish kheyal korlam, jokhoni ami ekdom venghe pori Tokhoni tumi amar pashe eshe darao. Amar mone shantir porosh buliye dao. Ek onabil proshantite monta vore jai. Kintu, tumar songsporsho ami pai khub olopo somoyer jonno. R tai, ek poshla bristy hoye eshe tumi borong sei buker tribo jalata r o bariye dao potibar.

Ekaki ekhane pore achi, ek othoibo jor podharter moto. Ektoko sokti nei tumar bashar samne jeye tumake ek polok dekhar cesta korbo. Ami sorboshanto hoye porechi. Ekekta din jacche r vhoi amake r o ghire dorche, ekekta din jaoa mane tumar aei desh theke cole jaoyar din ghoniye asha. Ami to ekhon nissho, tumar kachakachi amar ki r thaka hobe? Janina, aei kopale ki ache, r parchina etai sesh kotha.

Gotokal saradin tumake vhebe katiyechi. Rate r sojjo na korte pere Facebook gelam, tumake ekta sms pathabo bole. Likhlamo kichu text, porokkhone BACKSPACE er capai sob kotha delete kore dilam. Edaning aei ekta notun rug hoyeche. Tumake jokhon khub miss kori, tokhon onek kotha likhi sms korbo bole. Kintu, likhar pore mone hoi, na pathanuta thik hobena. 

Ek somoi bed ashlam, mobile niye vabchi tumar ki ekta bar amar sathe kotha bolte ecche korena? Etota nishthur tumi kivabe hola? Tumar number golor dike takiye chilam. Emon somoi (11:49 PM) dekhi, Aunty'r number theke call. Amito vhoi peye gelam, abar ki holo? Kintu, dekhlam MISSCALL. Buktate dhop kore ashar prodip jole othlo. Tumi na to !!! Sathe sathei call back korlam (12:29 sec. kothao bollam), but vhoye kotha bolchilam na valo kore, jodi Aunty hoi. Tumar golatao shurute kemon jeno chilo, bujte parchilam na. Oboseshe bujhlam, hmm eta amar babu. Ouff ki je shanti. Kotodin pore amar Babur voice ta shunlam. Shuna matroi, Musarof Karimer moto "Abege Kandailaichi" :D ......

Etota emoitional hoye porechilam je, tumake abar ku-montrona deya shuru korlam. Asole oigolo chilo amar moner kotha, kintu tumake to janate caini. Isshhh sob bole dilam, tumake r o kosto dite. Tumar ammu, Shoyeb vai er kotha bolla and tader jonnoi tumi emon korcho eta amake janala. Na, amar kono rag nei. Keno rag korbo, tumi valo thako etai to cai. Sob dosh oi mon er. Aei montai kichutei mante caina.

Tumar sathe dekha korte cailam, kintu tumi naki eka ber hote parbana. Apu or Ltl.Apu thakbe sathe. Jei thakuk tate kono somossa nei. Ami shudu dur theke tumake ekbar dekhte cai. Kotodin dekhina tumake. Ami jani, thikmoto na kheye tumi abar sukiye gecho. Friday te tumi dekha korba bolla, pore amake confirm korba. Ekhon shudhu opekkha korchi. Tumake dekhte parbo to??? 

Vhule Jaoa ki Etoi Sohoj !!!

12.10.2014

Kosto j kotota voyanok jontronadayok hote pare ta ami aj besh bujhte parchi. Sarakhon mone hoi, aei buker moddhe jolche, dom bondo kora betha, majhe majhe vahbi eto kosto niye keno beche achi? Emon ek kosto ja vuktovhugi chara r keo e bujhbena. Mojar bepar hocche, amake sei kosto sara jibon boye berate hobe, jemon kore amar babu bole "Shara jibon onar sathe katate hobe, kichui korar nei"

Vabte khub obak lage, ekta manush ke eto valabashar poreo kivabe se bole amar valobashai khut ache! Kivabe se manush ta pare, valobashar manusher kotha na vebe onnoder kotha vabte? Asolei aei juge sobai practical hoye geche. Ami e kebol ekhono emotional roye gelam. Kintu, tai bole amar jonno kono tan thakbena, ekta baro amake bolbe na, ami tumar kachei fire ashbo. Doirjo doro. Minimum aei kotha ta bole ki ekta manush k sopno dekhiye sostho thate deya jaina?

Jedin babur biye holo, dorei niyechilam take ami haralam. Kintu, nah abar ami sopno dekhlam amar babur kotha shune. Shei babu, aj amake abar bole vhule jao amake. Sotti, kaoke sopno dekhanu sohoj. Kothai jeno porechilam, "Kaoke Odhikar diye sei odhikar kere neoyata Nisthurota". Asolei tai, amar sathe tumi nisthorota korecho. Tobu, kichui bolar nei. Tumake je ami valobashi, tumar jonnoi j ami baki jibon opekkha korbo. Sopno na dekhle ami je sesh hoye jabo. Jodio sesh hobar r baki nei. Ami decision niye niyechi.

Babu, tumar jormodin tar jonno opekkha korchi. Oi din tumar aei prithibite agomon hoyechilo, r er porer din tumar Tarzan name manush take r keo khuje pabena.

Tumar mone ache, biyer age tumi family er kotha bole biyeta korechila. Ami tumake onek mana korechi, shunoni amar kotha. Biyer pore aj 6 mash pore abar sei family er dohai diye onar kachei fire jaccho. Bolte paro, ki dorkar chilo etogolo din tumi kosto paoyar? Shimu to dibbi ache, tumio tai thakta. Ishh, amari vhul hoyeche. Hobiganj e amar thakatai thik hoini, aei jonnoi nijer poti r o genna ashe. Er sasti to petei hobe. Tumi to janoi, ami sorir k kosto diye vhuler praschitro kori. Ebaro tai korbo. 24 tarikhe tumake sob bolbo.

Nijeke ami hajar bar jiggesh kori, babu ke ami ki valobashlam eto bochor dore? Hajar bari ottor ashe, tumar valobashar manush ke tumi bujate paroni she tumar jiboner ki. Aeito October mash r kichudin pore sesh hoye jabe, dekhte dekhte December cole ashbe. Babu, onar hath dore cole jabe amar theke onek dure. R ami Tarzan ta bokar moto tar poth ceye thakbo ..... Hoyto vor dupure mathai ekrash Gham niye tar cinta kore tokhono. Attosorman bole kichu nei r, sei kotha onnodin likhbo :'(

Aj Ami Boroi Nissho

11.10.2014

Prithibite, beche thakata oneker sopno, abar oneke joto taratari pare cole jete cai. But, dui pokkhoi to manush. Kintu, vaggho namok jaigai emon kichu likha thake, ja tader jibon take sukhomoi or durbishoho kore tole. Aj ami keboli ekjon nissho manush. Amar pashe keo nei, beche thakata nirotthok. Majhe majhe vabi, koto imporatnt manush mara jai, R amar moto ekta jongal cole gele to shudu prithibir na, Babur prithibitao shantipurno hoto. Khub dishehara hoye pori jokhon aeivabe cinta kori.

Valobasha niye ajkal vhabi. Valobashar jonno manush koto ki kore. Oneke mukhe bollei, onnojon sei valobasha bissash kore ney. R oneker jonno jiboner soto sopno bishorjon diyeo valobasha prove kora somvob hoina. Jemon, aj amar mone hocche sotti valobashar nikot aj ami porajito holam. Dirgo 5 year dore ekjon k valobasha bujate parini, Goto 6 mash doreo parini, ekhono parchina. Ekhono tar mone hoi, amar valobashate KHUT ache. Mitthe noi, valobashate khut ache, R tai sei valobasha k 100% pure korte baki jibon ami Praschitto kore jabo. Mrittor ager dineo jate ekbar shuni, Na tumar valobasha mitthe chilona. Eta chara je aei jibone amar r kichui caoyar nei. Ami buje gechi, ami decide kore niyechi amar porinoti.

 Amar bepare vebechi cesta korbo, joto kom kotha bola jai. Karon, noito pore aei lekha golo pore ami nijei onek kosto pabo. Koster kotha srity korte nei, srity keboli jontronamoi. Amar dirgo 5 year srity aj amake kurekure khai. Nijeke grina koreo charte parina, khun kore felte ecche hoi. But, Allah may be amake r o shasti deyar jonnoi baciye rekhechen. So, mukh buje sojjo kora chara amar hate r kichui nei.

Tumar sathe naki JC er onek kotha hoyeche. Tumar aei change er pichone naki karon ache, but amake bollona. Bollo, vaia shudu eta jeno tumar babu valo nei, abar tar kichu koraro nei. Tobe, amar naki corom berthota, tumake ajo ami amar valobasha bujate parini. R tai tumar majhe ekhono amar valobasha niye sondheho, amar jonno vableo hoyto amakei r caona. Amio vebe dekhlam ekta jinish. Eto valobashi tumake seita jodi nai bujhate parlam, tumake eto jontrona dicchi keno ami? Keno barbar tumake fire pete cacchi jekhane tumi decide kore niyecho Shara jibon onar sathei thakba. Jani, eksomoi tumi vhulei jaba tumar jonno kono ekta manush diner por din opekkha kore, kostokor ekta jibon japon korche. Ortho, pachurjo manushke dukkho vhuliye dei.

Tuimi naki decide kore niyecho Oi barite jaba and oni ashle Dubai ow cole jaba. Oikhane oni r tumi aste aste maniye niye notun jibon shuru korba. Saradin onar jonno ranna korba, tumader baby er jotno niba, aste aste songsharer mayai joriye jaba. Amio cai tai hok. Ami r tumake kichui na bolar try korbo, dekhi amake tumi koto kosto dite paro kingba ami koto kosto sojjo korte pari.

Koto kichu likhbo vebechilam. Kintu, nah cokh amar kotha shunche na. Edaning cokh duita kokhon j eto pani niye ashe, ter e paina. Thiki to lukiye lukiye koto kadha jai. R tai bashar keo dekhe felle bolte hoi, na Cokhe problem, khali pani ashe. :D

Valo thako tumi, valo rakho tumar family k. Ami kokhonoi tumar attar manush hote parini. So, amar jonno noi, tumar family'er jonnoi tumi cinta korba etai pottasha kori. Tarzan gele somossa nei, tumake songo deyar jonno r ekjon ache. Tumar family ache, orai tumake sokti dibe, sob vhuliye dibe. Amake tumi sesh porjonto hariyei dila :'(

Kosto nibe, Kosto?

06.10.2014

Aj Kurbanir Eid. Aei pothom, tumar wish pelam nah kono Kurbanir eid e. Eta jotota na aj saradin kosto diyeche, tar beshi kosto aj 3 din dore pacchi tumar oi sms paoyar por theke FB e. Kichutei mante parchina tumar aei poriborton. Sarakhon mathai tumake niye cinta, ki kore tumar sathe ektu contact kora jai.

Aj gramer bari theke ashar somoi, Mezo vabi hotat ask korlo amar ki hoyeche? Karo sathe kotha bolini. Bashar sobai mejo vhabi k dayitto diyeche, eta janar. Amar j ki holo, tuta pakhir moto sob bole dilam. Tumar eto kosto sojjo kora, amar ekhon obodi cetsar kotha sob. Ami vebechilam, vabi react korbe. But, nah. Vhabi amake ki bollo jano? Bollo, tumake biye kore felte. Bakita on R mejo vaiaya dekhben. Amar R tumar eto kosto sojjo korar kono mane hoina. Ami keno etodin eta bollam na, tai bokao dilen. Bashai dorkar hole janaben na, pore jananu hobe.

Ami ki korbo, bolte paro? Tumar sathe konovabei ami contact korte parchina. Shimu k call korechilam, o CTG te, Dhakai back kore pore amake call korbe. Ouff, ki j osthir lagche. Tumi kivabe parcho, amar sathe kotha na bole thakte? Emon ekta eid e, tumi parla amake call na kore thakte? Tumi ki etoi change hoye gecheo Babu?

Tumake amar mejo vaia k niye jei vhoi ta chilo, oita ekhon r nei -Ta bolte parchina. Babu, please ekta bar amake call dao or FB e sms dao. Dekho, ami ki kori. Amar opor ektu astha rakho. Tumake potarona korar kono wish amar nei, tumake je ami vishon valobasji. Tumi hoyto parbe, ovinoy kore jete. But, ami ki korbo? Eka ekta manush ke sarata jibon tumar kosto dite valo lagbe?

Ami ekta decision niyechi. Aei October er moddhe tumar sathe amar contact na hole, ami oita korbo. Hoi Suicide or onno r ekta jinish. Ami parbona tumake onno karo sathe thakte dekhte. Tumar jemon 2 mashei doirjer vadh venghe geche, amaro temon. Ami aei jibon R rakhbona :'(

Kono ottor paina ....

05.10.2014

Keno amar sathei shudhu emon hocche? Keno, bolte paro babu? Koste bukta fete jacche. Cikkar kore kadteo parchina, sotti vishon dom bondho kora kosto hocche. Shudhu mone hocche, ebar budh hoi tumake ekebarei hariye fellam. Sara rat bichanai epash-opash kore etai vebechi. Tumi to oi barite now eka, partena amake ekta call korte?

Babu, tumar opor vishon rag hocche. Tumi amar sathe emon korte paro!!! Tumi keno amake bolechila nicher kothagolo?

1. Eki vhul ami r 2nd time korte caina,

2. Tumake chara amar pokkhe onno karo sathe thaka somvob noi,

3. Ami to bolechi oi barite ami r jabona, dekhi ki hoi,

4. Apur moto ghotona aei family te abar hobe,

5. 3 tarikhe amar hath chuye bolechila, shudhu amari thakba,

6. Tumar sontan hobe amar (sorry kharap kotha tao bollam),

7. 1 year keno, 10 year pore holeo tumi amar jonno opekkha korba,

8. Ami daklei tumi cole ashba, tumi valobashar exam e harbana.

etogolo promise kingba kotha keno bolechila amake, jeigolo tumi rakhte parbena? Keno amake sopno dekhala? Amito besh chilam, kosto vhulte Hobiganj e RICKSHA caliye besh to din katiyechi. R o noi katatam, dorkar hole sara jibon katatam. Tao, tumake to dekhte partam. Sotti kichutei mante parchina tumar aei hotat poriborton. Amar potio ki tumar r kono maya hoina? Naki, tumar kothata now olta hoye geche? karo jonno R maya hoina, eta ekhon sobar jonnoi maya hoi shudu Tarzan chara.

Jano, amar jonno Jessi koto kosto korche, tumar onar sathe FB e she kotha bole shudhu information nicche. Kintu, tumi naki Phone number kaoke dite mana korecho, R tai aei ekta jinishi se ekhono ber korte pareni. Sotti bolchi, tumar sathe ami ekbar kotha bolte cai, shudhu ekbar. Tumar nijer mukh theke shunte cai, tumi ki sotti onar sathei thakba? Amar dake sara diba na R? Ami dakle ashbana? Hmm shudhu etai.

Agamikal Eid. Oi barite eid korba. Vhul kore holeo ki amake ekta phone diba? Ami je khub cacchi shudhu ekta bar tumar sathe kotha bolte. Eid er 2-3 din por tumi Habiganj e back korba, taina? Sobai k happy kore felecho, oi barite jeye. Amar moto ekta manusher mon vangle kar ki? Tumar ki? Kokhonoi to amake bujte parlena. Kharap shunaleo, sotti kotha holo, tumi vebecho kamona puroner jonnoi tumake cacchi ami. Specially 3 tarikher gotonar por tumar etai mone hoyeche, ami besh bujte parchi. Vebecho, ami jeta ceyechi, seita amake diyecho, so ebar tumi tumar life niye vabtei paro, taina?

Babu, jano tumake eto beshi valobashi je tumi jodi amar theke sotti aeivabe cole jao, tobe sara jibon amake emon boba kanna kede jete hobe. Ekhon amar to r kichui korar nei. Dekhi, Dulavai er sathe sesh dekha kore. And, tumar bashar samne sesh barer moto podo duli rekhe. Jodi aei vagghe tumake sesh dekhar suvaggho toko hoi :'( Dukkho shudhu ektai, amake kichu bolar sujug ta tumi dilena, ekta sms pathiye sob sesh kore dila :'(

Sesh Plan ta Ki kaj Korbena?

04.10.2014

Babu, tumi eta ki korla? Amar sesh plan take ekebare elomelo kore dila? Manush change hoi, but etota changed hut kore!!! Ki kore parle tumi? Sotti, ektu age shune obek lagche. Ekhono amar bissash hocchena, ja shunechi ta sotti!!!

Ekta sms pathiye tumi tumar dayitoo sesh kore fella? Matro 2 mashei tumar sob cesta sesh, tumar potirodh sesh!!! Tumi sobkichu mene niye Soshur bari cole gela Eid korte? Kivabe tumi eta parla? Tumi j amar sesh plan take sesh kore dila. Ouff babu, koste bukta fete jacche. Kivabe parla tumi oi barite jete?

Tumake FB e sms pathalam, ora eid e ashle oder corom opoman kore diba, R tumi kina oder barite jeye boshe acho EID korte!!! Tumake aei eki kotha 2 mash age bolechilam, but keno tumi oder bollena? Tobe ki tumi age thekei cacchila, tumar shushur barir rasta jate thik thake? Amar sathe thakar try korba, but jodi na paro than jate oidiker rasta ta bondho na hoye jai??? Amar vabtei to obak lagche!!! Tumi kivabe parla, babu tumi amake r kotobar marba?

Bolte paro, ekhon ami Dulavai er sathe dekha kore ki bolbo? Amito vebechilam, Dulavai k voi lagabo oni jodi kichu na koren tobe tumi r sojjo korbana. Olta-palta kichu ekta korba. And, ami jantam kaj hole etatei hoto. But, tumi sob sesh kore dila :'(

Na, ami here jabona tumar moto eto sohoje. Ami Dulavai er sathe dekha korboi. Ki bolbo, ta niyei vabte hobe. Ekta kichu korboi. Ami tumake kokhonoi kichu dite parini. Ami jeivabei hok, tumake amar jibone anboi. But, ki kore? Tumi potibar amar sob plan elomelo kore dao :'( Keno emon koro? Ektu doirjo dorona, kosto to korecho, r ektu koro. Amake ektu plan onujayi kaj korte diba, please :'(

Koto technique khatiye Dulavai er address and tumar sob update information collect korte hocche, ta to tumi janona, kotojoner hath-pa dora baki rekhechi. Tumi j amar dhen gen, amar sokol somoi tumar kotha vabte vabte kete jacche. R tumi acho tumar future life niye? Bah valo, aei na hole amar babu. Amake aei jibone na peleo, porer jibone cao aei valobasha niye? Aei valobashar sokti tumar? 2 mashei sob promise, sob doirjer badh venghe gelo? Hashbo na kadbo kichui bujte parchina.

Ja kichui hok, ami jei koidin achi amar saddomoto cesta kore jabo. Dorkar hole tumake ami bideshe jeye ciniye niye ashbo. Eta amar promise. Tumar moto hole to amar colbena :'(

Eto promose korchi, but jake ante jabo She ashbe to??? :'(

He Allah, amake r ektu sahajjo koro :'(

Kichui Bolar Nei .....

02.10.2014

Tirther kaker moto tumar khobor janar jonno opekkha korchilam. Ajke janalam, but emon kichu shunbo!!! Babu, tumi etota palte gela 2 masher moddhe??? Na, nij theke kichui bolbona, Aeita to amar sritir vandar. So, tumar amar kothagoloi ekhane likhe rakhi Facebook theke ....

2:09 am

Babu

kmn achi ta na hoy na e bollam, kokono r jibone valo thakbo kina ta o janina. Etodine ekta kotha bujte parsi j vaggo jodi khrp hoy taile evbei hoy. Ami tomake kuno excuse dibo na, coz tmr r amr rltn houar por thke tumar sate kichu nia rag ba jhogra hole tmi bolta j amr kase sob somoy sob kisur jonno ekta excuse thakei so r kuno excuse nai. Tmi onk try korso amk paite, amio j ekdom e korinai tao na. Korsi bt tmr thke kom hoyto. Tmr r amr jura allah banay e nai hoyto tai amdr ajk ai obosta. Koto kisu korlam tao kuno kaj hoyna tar mane amdr kopale eksate thaka likha nai. Ontoto ai jibone. Amdr dure thkei koshto korte hobe aita bujhe nio r ki bolbo. Amk tmi kuno din o map koirona, joto bod dua ase dio, emne o hppy hobo na, temne o hobo na. Shes kotha ektai j ai life e to tmk paua holona bt morar por jodi kuno din allah oi shujug dey j tar pochonder manusher shate thakar taile oidin ami shudu tmkei chaibo r kauke na. Akn shudu morar opekkha kore kore din katabo. Onk koshto kore apur mbl thke net a duklam r sms ta dilam. Valo thko. R tmr jonne ja valo hoy tmi tai koiro Alwys. Tc

7:50pm

Eta ki tumi likhecho? Tumar text pore pothomei jei question ta mathai gurche, eta ki amar shei babu? Eto taratari here gelo, changed? Amar cesta to ekhono sesh hoini. Ami sesh cesta kore dekhbo, ami Dulavai er sathe dekha korbo. Tumar ammuke phone korechilam, but oni amake khub bokaboki korlen. Tumi shunechila? Disha k phone korechilam, 29 tarikhe tumar last exam er din tumar sathe dekha hole jate amar sathe ekbar kotha bolai. But, disha kotha rakhe ni. Phone ta porjonto r doreni. Sobai mukh firiye nicche. 27 tarikhe tumar oikhane giyechilam, but tmk ektu ow dekhte parlam na.

Babu, vebechilam kichu bolbona. But, moner kotha golo bolei feli. tumi na amake promise korechila, tumi shudu amari thakba? Tumi r 2nd bar sei eki vhul korte caona? Dorkar hole eka thakba? Ekhon tumi aei kotha bolcho? Tumi final exam. dila, othocho amar sathe ektibar contact korlana? 3 tarikhe keno amake sopno dekhala? Tumi shudu ekbar bolo, basha theke cole ashba. Ami dekhbo ki kore amader alada kore

Jani, tumar onek kosto hocche and korecho. Tumi cestar kono komti koroni. Kintu, tumi jodi sotti eka thakte chaita, tobe oder family member der bolta, amar dara somvob noi, ami r ekjon k valobashai. Apnara amar sathe r contact korbana. Amar mone hoi, eta korlei beshi kaj hoto. Eid er somoi to ora ashbe, parba eta korte? Parba na, karon tumi vhoi pao. Onar sathe tumar kotha hoi ekhon, onake ektibar bolecho tumi cao aei relation vangte? Goto 2 mashe tumi etota change hoye gela je amake tumi firiye diccho? Ekti baro vablena, tumake chara ami amar valo kokhonoi chaibona. Parbena tumi, ami jeita bolechi seita korte? Tumar opor etota manoshik jontrona deya hocche, tumi er potibade aei kothagolo onar family and onake cikkar kore bolte parbena? Tumi shudu ekbar bolo, tumi eta korba. Ami j tumake chara thakte parbona. R koto kadabe amake? Amake sara jibon emon kostokor jibone chure felte tumi parba?

Jodi decision niye thako, baki jibon onar sathe katiye diba, than amar kothagolo kane niona. Ami sorry aeigolo bolar jonno. Oni to December er dike ashben tomake nite, cole jeo. Hoyto, oni parben tumar sob kosto vhuliye savabik jibone niye ashte. Borolok manush, dubai te thakba, aei amake mone porbena. Hoyto eksomoi vhule jaba, keo ekjon tumar opekkhai ache, jodi vhul kore holeo kokhono take tumar jibone fire pete cao. Jani, emon cinta ashbena tumar mathai. 2 mashei to sei cinta matha theke jhere felecho. Vebechilam, tumar sathe r ektibar dekha kore jabo. But, amar sei babu to amar jonno r nei. She monosthir kore niyeche aei niyoti. Valoi korecho, duijoni unhappy hole kivabe hobe? Ami na hoi eka, so amake niye keo vabbena tumar moto kore. Majhkhane tumar etogolo din oguchalo kore dilam. Amake khoma kore dio, valo hok tumar agami dingolo. Shudu ekta kosto niye baki jibon ekaki katate hobe, R seta holo tumar pashe je onno kaoke ami sojjo korte parbona. Shudu ektai caoya chilo, tumi eka thako jodio bujchi ekta meyer jonno eta kora onek kostokor. Kintu, ki korbo, tumake je onek valobashi. Tumar jonno amar cokher potita jol, hoyto tumake kokhon decision change korate parbena. But, asha kori tumar mongol boye anbe.

Onek boro text likhe fellam. Ki korbo, ami j r parchina. Tumi to jano, tumake chara ami koto chonnochara, osthir. R allah jate tumake amar age prithibi theke na nei aei doa kori. Tumi morbe keno? Tumar sobai ache. Amari taratari cole jaoa dorkar. Sarakhon tumari cinta, ghumer owshud kheyeo ghumate parina. Janina samne ki hobe. Shudhu pratthona kori, tumi jate amake vhule jete paro songsharer bestotai. Tumar onagoto dingolo sundor hok. R ami jate tumake emon kore sara jibon velobeshe jete pari. Somoi thakte to tumake bujate parini, r ekhon bujiyeo lav nei. But, self satisfaction er jonno tumake emoni valobeshe jabo. Hat jur kore ektai onurod, jokhoni dekhba R parchona, ekbar deko. R ami kichu vabbona. Onar sathe tomar kagoj potrer relation thakuk. Tao ami tumake niye hariye jabo dur ojanai. Pore ja hobar hobe. Tumi ekhoni chaile, ekhoni. 10 year pore chaile, tokhono. Onek beshi valobashai, valobashi, valobashi Tumi j amar Kolijar tukra

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Aj eta ki shunlam ami? Oporer text ta likhechilam tumar sms paoyar porei. But, aei ki shunlam ajke? Ekta sms pathiye tumi tumar dayitoo sesh kore fella? Matro 2 mashei tumar sob cesta sesh, tumar potirodh sesh!!! Tumi sobkichu mene niye Soshur bari cole gela Eid korte? Kivabe tumi eta parla? - Khaoa daoa na kore, - Kotha na bole, - Mukh fute amar kotha bolei tumi onek kichu kore felcho?

Aei shobe kaj hobe tumi eta vable ki kore? Tumar ochit chilo, tumar oi barite and onake tumar amar bepar jananu, hole etatei kaj hoto. But, tumi sei barite eid korte cole gecho? Tumi j amar sesh plan take sesh kore dila. Ouff babu, koste bukta fete jacche. Kivabe parla tumi oi barite jete?

Tumake FB e sms pathalam, ora eid e ashle oder corom opoman kore diba, R tumi kina oder barite jeye boshe acho EID korte!!! Tumake aei eki kotha 2 mash age bolechilam, but keno tumi oder bollena? Tobe ki tumi age thekei cacchila, tumar shushur barir rasta jate thik thake? Amar sathe thakar try korba, but jodi na paro than jate oidiker rasta ta bondho na hoye jai??? Amar vabtei to obak lagche!!! Tumi kivabe parla, babu tumi amake r kotobar marba?

Bolte paro, ekhon ami Dulavai er sathe dekha kore ki bolbo? Amito vebechilam, Dulavai k voi lagabo oni jodi kichu na koren tobe tumi r sojjo korbana. Olta-palta kichu ekta korba. And, ami jantam kaj hole etatei hoto. But, tumi sob sesh kore dila. Na, ami here jabona tumar moto eto sohoje. Ami Dulavai er sathe dekha korboi. Ki bolbo, ta niyei vabte hobe. Ekta kichu korboi. Ami tumake kokhonoi kichu dite parini. Ami jeivabei hok, tumake amar jibone anboi. But, ki kore? Tumi potibar amar sob plan elomelo kore dao Keno emon koro? Ektu doirjo dorona, kosto to korecho, r ektu koro. Amake ektu plan onujayi kaj korte diba, please

Koto technique khatiye Dulavai er address and tumar sob update information collect korte hocche, ta to tumi janona, kotojoner hath-pa dora baki rekhechi. Tumi j amar dhen gen, amar sokol somoi tumar kotha vabte vabte kete jacche. R tumi acho tumar future life niye? Bah valo, aei na hole amar babu. Amake aei jibone na peleo, porer jibone cao aei valobasha niye? Aei valobashar sokti tumar? 2 mashei sob promise, sob doirjer badh venghe gelo? Hashbo na kadbo kichui bujte parchina.

Ja kichui hok, ami amar saddomoto cesta kore jabo. Mejo vaia and Vhabi k raji koriyechi, tumake ami biye korte. Tumi cailei ami ekhoni tumake habiganj theke niye ashbo. Amake tumi poro jibone noi, aei jibone paba. Just tumi amar sathe ektu contact koro please. Tumi jodi cao, Dorkar hole tumake ami bideshe jeye ciniye niye ashbo. Eta amar promise.

Babu, vishon obak lage ki kore tumi amar sathe contact na kore thakle? Oi barite to kono problem chilona, tumi partena amar sathe contact korte? Tumar phone er pottikkhai koto rat nirgum katiyechi jano? R tumi onar sathe phone e kotha bolo!!! Aei, tumi take and tar poribar ke sojjo korte parona, taina?

Jai hok, Tumar moto hole to amar colbena Tumar paye pori, tumi emon korona, shudhu ami ja boli ekto koro, aeivabe amake hariye diona. Tumi janona, tumi jodi amar sathe contact na koro, ami ki korte colechi. Tumar paye pori, just ekbar amar sathe phone e contact koro. Aei bashai problem hole, oi barite jao. Than amake kichu bolar sujog dao. Please. eto koste sob ready korechi, tumi amake hariye diona :'(

Mitthar Asroi Nilam

01.08.2014

Vebechilam aei blog er kono post e kokhono aei shobdota ke probesh korar sujug dibona. Kintu, sotti ta ber korte jeye amar je Mitther asroi na neya chara kono opai nei. Deyale pith theke geche. September month purata keteche tumar sathe jogajoghin. Ami je sotti r parchina.

Na, tomake jontrona debar jonno noi. Tumi jodi decide kore thako, onar sathe tumi baki jibon katiye diba, ami tomake kichui bolbona. Kintu, amar j aei kotha ta tumar mukh theke shuntei hobe. R tumar mukher kotha shunar jonno ami aj vhul poth diye sothik pothe dukar cestai nemechi. Vabcho, ki ami korechi, taina? Ekhon bolbona, jodi kajta sothik hoi, tobei bolbo ekhane. Obossho britha holeo ekhane share kora chara to moner cinta golo srity korar amar r jaiga nei.

Ki j hoyeche amar. Shudhu mone hocche tumi valo nei. Kothai jeno porechilam, "Amra jokhon kaoke khub miss kori, amra vebe nei shei manuh tao amake same miss korche. Beparta amader sompornu omolok darona". Asole ki tai? Tumi ki amake thik emon vabe miss korchona?

Jano, namaj pore shudu ekta doa e kori, Allah amar babu take valo rakho. Or mukhe sei hashita firiye dao. R ekta doa ow kori. Ami aei desh theke jabar age jate kompokkhe ektibar tumar sathe kotha bolar souvaggho hoi amar. Jodi sob kichu plan-mafik hoi, tobe in sha allah aei pothe sei sujug paboi. Now shudhu opekkha eid er porer dingulur jonno. Amar hate je khub olpo somoi . . . . . 

Babu, ekta bar ki para jaina amake just ekta miss deya or sms diye jananu, amar problem. Ami pore tumar sathe contact korbo. Tumi cinta korona. Jeita korechile gotobar. Naki, sei 3 tarikher kotha vebe sotti tumi nijeke gutiye niyecho. Vabcho, ami tomake vhule gechi. Ami jemonti vabi tumi amake vhule gecho, temonti tumio vabte paro, etai savabik. Ki j kori, matha ta purai nosto hoye jacche. Goto sara rat shudhu tumar sathe jogajog korar jonno ki ki pothe ami agate pari, tai vebechi. Matha jim mere ache, tao aei cinta sesh hocchena. 

Allah please ekta bar tar sathe amar kotha bolar sujug kore dao. Jani, ami onek pap korechi, tao aei papi ke r sasti diona. Amar jonno r ekjoner jibon ta nosto korona. Amar thekeo ami je take beshi valobashi. She amake deoa promise vhule geleo problem nei. Shudhu cai, she valo thakuk :'(