Abar Fire Eseche Sei Dinguli

20.12.2016

Abar sei dinguli, abar sei pothe amar hete cola. Kintu, shudui shunnota. Sei shunnotar vire tmake vebe jaoa. Haranu valobasha kub kom manushi naki fire pai, sadhona kore sei kom manushder katare nijeke dekhar apran cesta.

Goto 11 ta din kivabe keteche kaoke bujhate parbona. Dingolo joto goto hoyeche mathai shudu eker por ek cinta joro hoyeche. Cokher kache jei manushti, take dekheo na dekha. Sei 8 tarikhe FB te ekta message peyechilam. Tarpor eke eke 10 ta din goto holo R amar mathai ashte thaklo eker por ek vabna.

- Mobile e net nei, tai ashte parchena,

- Basai kono problem naki oi osostho,

- Bidesh theke se ashlo naki,

- Naki babu amake na bolei cole gelo,

- Naki amar lekha pore amar sathe kotha bolbena decide koreche.

Etogolo vabna goto 10 ta din amake kure kure kheyeche. Specially 3rd and last point ta. Ki mone kore sedin sokal bela tmr number e taka pathalam. Vablam mobile taka nei, or meyad nei. Dekhi jodi mobile e sms ashe. Kintu, nah r o 2 din kete gelo tumar khobor nei. Amio opekkha korchilam kichu ekta shunar jonno. Shimuke phone dibo seitao mathai ashchilo.

Oboseshe, aj sokale tumar message pelam FB te. Se esheche hut kore 15 diner chutite. Tmi valo acho. Tar thekeo besi obak holam, Tyter Baba esheche !!! Bah, babu. Matro der masher bebodhane aj OITA or OI Beta or OI Kutta theke aj emon sombhodone cole esheche. Eta amar Babu? Tumi amake promise korechile? Amake bolechile, somoi laguk tao amar kache ashbe? Tumar promise R amar promise different, taina babu? Tumi promise kore vanghte paro, R ami ki amar promise rakhte parina? Mone ache, ki bolechilam ami? Tumi jodi promise break koro, tobe ami ager life e fire jabo. Amake niye vabona, taina? Ami amar kotha MUST rakhbo, ami dekhte cai tumi amake koto opekkha korate paro, koto kosto dite paro, koto exam. nite paro.

FB amake ki bolecho, ki korecho, kichui bolini. Shudu vebechi aei kichudin, tmi family pressure e khubi upset. EKhon chup kore jai, tumi bujbe and amar kotha vabbe. Kintu, tumi dore niyecho, amio tumar moto hoye jabo, taina? Tumar sobkichu amar, etato tumari mukher kotha chilo. Aj sob kichu noi, samanno FB er password ta tumi change kore amake bujate ceyecho, oitateo amar permission nei. Bah babu. Kore jao, oije kichui bolbona. 

Dekha korte cailam, tao ajaira mane hoina bole kete gela. Tumar kache life ta emon taina? Samne ja dekhba tatei kosto, osojjo. R etodin dore jar jonno valobasha, aj 24th November 2016 e bolla, amake shantite thakte dao. Hmm taito dicchi tumake and opekkha korchi, tumi bujbe ekdin and kotha rakhar jonno, kaor opekkha sesh korar jonno fire ashba. Oije bolechila, tumake ami r jhur korbona. Shudui dekhe jabo.

R to kichudin, tarpor tumake sob bole ami ekhan theke chuti nibo. Tumar hatei tule dibo life! Totodin tar sathe ovinoi noi, bastob life tai par koro. Amar samne diyei to korba, koro. Kono Rag or Ovijug noi, hotasha thekei etogolo kotha bollam. Amar Babu to tumi, tumakeito sob boli. Tmar majhei to amar beche thakar prerona. Sei kotha bujar moto obosthai tumi r nei. Tumi shudu aj Tyter, sekhane ami aj abcha kuyasha. Aei j rater kusayar moto sokal holei ami hariye jai.

Sotti ami sokoler majhe hariye jai tumar deya kosto niye. Haranu pothe tumar opekkha kori. Jani, kono ekdin tumi tumar promise rakhbe. Asha to rakhtei hobe, noile dingolo jabe kivabe. Onek valobashi babu, ajo eto kosto deyar poreo valobashi onek onek. Valo thako.

3 2 1 . . Go

10.12.2016

Aeito pouche gechi prai. Pereo jacchi. R kichudin. Ki bolechile mone ache? Ami jid kore emon korchi. Etogolo bochor por amaketo cintei paroni, olto emon kotha bolteo tmi charoni. Aj theke 5 year pore amar dinguli tmk shunabe ami ki korechi. Ami amar dingulike mitthebadi noi, 5 year porei sottobadi hisebe pete cai.

Jano Babu, kokhono kono kichu niye jid korini. Tobe kichu proman korte hole jid korte hoi. Mone ache tmr, tmk ekdin Sharukh khaner ekta movie er kotha bolechilam jokhn tmi baire chile? Sei movie te SK always life niye bajhi dorto. Jate jekono somoi se here jai. Amio emon korchilam, but tmi mana korla. Amk norlam life e anla. Aj abar tmi amak sei life e fire jete bolcho? Nijeke shantite rakhte cao, taina? Rakho. Shudu jeno, tmi tmr hatei ekjoner life take elomelo kore diyecho. J ekhono tmr jonnoi opekkha korche. Koi bolinato or kotha na holeo to ager moto korina! Kichu pete hole naki sadhona korte hoi, amio sei pothei hatchi.

Last winter tmr ekhanei chilam, onno ekta sopno niye. Saradin seshe tmr kotha, voice, sopno chilo. R ebar, same ami, just tmi thekeo nei. Eto kache bt kokhonoi kichu bola hoina, kokhonoi jhur kora or caoya-paoya limited. Osthitto ki pao or onuvoti? Nah, seto aj moricika. Ki bolechila, jodi onek year opekkha korte hoi, tokhon ki korba? Gure fire sei kothagoloi mathai ase, chobigolo kotha bole, sms golo sakkhi dei. Tao boli, valoi rekhecho. Nije valo theke, kacher manushder valo rekhe Tmi valo thako.

I am in a way where somebody will come to me. Is it 5 years, 10 years, 20 years or ....  Not a problem, jid jodi korte hoi, tobe eta niye keno noi?

Valo thako tmi, sobaike valo rakho. Love you so much Babu. Love is not a game. And, I am not a player. You just told me to play and then, put me away. So, I am waiting here if ever your thoughts can be changed!

Obak Bisshoye Dekha ......

01.12.2016

Mishe jacchi ami sei michile. Hariye jacchi ami. Adharer majhe nijeke niye pichoner dorja diye palanu ek porajito soinik hoye nirbashone jabo vabchi. Abar onno kichu kora jai naki tao vabchi. Tobe aei mashei ekta destination finalized hobe.

Na, tmk r janabona. Obossho tmr janar ecchao nei. Ekdik diye valoi hoyeche tmr kotouhol or tradition theke tmi nijeke dure niye eshecho. Tobe, ami more geleo budhoi ekta afsos theke jabe. Dirgo 7 year er somporker poreo tmi amake bujte parlena. Always nijer or jader dekhcho tader kothai vebecho. Puranu kothagolo mone porle shudhu hashi ashe. Ki chile tmi R ki hola!

Sedin o bolechila, Ami ja vabi tai kori. Amar vabnagolo jeheto janoi, tobe amar sathe emon korle keno? Tmr mone jodi emon ekta plan thekei thake, tobe keno eto kache ene sopnotake nere dile? Hut kore emon siddhanto niyecho? Jodi tai hobe, tobe etobar bolar poreo, amar jonno jokhon feelings chilo, tokhono to boloni, tarsathe thakbena? Bahir theke ashar poreoto passport chirte bolate lukiye rekhecho bole ariye giyechile? Aj jar songho peye nijer ostittoke osikar korla, ekdin takeito ante caoni! Bolte gele onek kothai bola jai, kintu jar answer hoi, Kichui Korar Nei, ami Nirupai.

Asole aeisob kotha aj obantor. Emnitei to amar manoshikota niye question ache, so r o mean minded amake mone hobe. Aei prithibir niyomi emon. True bolle mean minded, R false bolle ahare ohore. Budhoi sei jonnoi mitthebadi houyar cesta korchi. Kintu, aei diary te mitthe thakbena. So, likha off kore ekta solution kora jete pare. Kintu, nijeke off korar way to amar jana nei.

Babu, tmk kadate or kosto dite ekhane r kichui likhbona. Ja hobe offline e, ja dekha jabena, feel o kora jabena. Karon, kostogolo always je pai sei shudu bujte pare. Amar kostogolo niye amio hariye jabar pothe nemechi. Shudu kichudiner opekkha. Opekkha . . . 

Valo thako sob somoi. Onek happy thako. Love you Babu.

Valobasha valobasha Valobasha !!!

18.11.2016

Goto koekmash dorei naki amar regular kotha chilo - Valobasha, valobasha, valobasha. Amar mathai naki valo kichu asena. Amake niye tai dream dekhiye sei dream venghe fela jai ek nimishei. EK NIMISHEI !!! Hmm 24 october theke matro 29 october, etato ek nimishei bola jai. Tahole to prai ordo masher opore holo amar dream take again kill kora holo. Ki kora ochit? Jaha se korte bole!! Hmm at least aei ekta jaigai ami perfect, ekonisto sruta !!

Onek kotha bolar ache kichu hobar age. Ami asbo sei ceherai Amar Dingulite. Kadate noi, lucky vabate. Keo shunbena r tai, keo janteo caibena kichu, koutohol or akorshon sob seto moricika. Amar morovhumite amar hete cola . . . .

Tumar oi montake ekta dulo makha poth kore dao

Ami pothik hobo . . . . . .

Birbir gaan gaoya, r pothik hoye morovhumite agiye jaoya.

Dorkar nei !!

30.10.2016

Jokhon likhte boechi, tokhono tribbo betha hocche. Tarpore likhte cacchi. Cause, r besidin jalabona aei diary take. Tar majhe mishiye diyechi amar koster kostogolo. Tumar moto seo cai mukti pete. Sostho vabe bachte.

Goto 25 tarikh thekei babu ta abar sei behave shuru koreche. Gotobar tar ammur kothai cole giyechilo. R ebar tar ammu and vaier obostha dekhe mind change korte hoyeche. Kichui bolini. J kina amar sathe kokhono mitthe bolena eta sob somoi bole, sei jokhon amake kaje busy rakhar jono mitthe bole, tobe r ki bolar ache. Sob e mene nei, mene nite hoy. Eta chara amar to ekhon kichui korar thakena.

24 tarikhe babur thinking e chilo, amake kichu bola mane amar pressure bere jabe. R sei babu 26 tarikh theke amar pressure or sick koranur jonno ja ache, tai korei jacche. Koi tao to kichu bolchina. Amito gotobarer moto ebaro kichu bolchina, tobe amar opor eto rag keno? Ami jodi wait kori, babur problem kothai?

Er kono answer nei. Kaoke kosto diye jodi bola hoi valo theko, eta tobe kun doroner valobasha. Valobasha Prep Wait - goto 7 year dorei colche. Tobe kokhono prokasse, kokhono chilo nirobe. Aj etodin pore ese ta gengen hoye jai. Sarthoporer moto shudu nijer vabna na vebe family er kotha vabte hoi. R nijeke shantite rakhar jonno aei amake kosto deyata aj kono kichutei porena?

Mobile charge nei, deyar proyojon ow nei. Goto 5 din ageo proyojon chilo. Gotokal rate bristy te vije room e ese ektai pratthona korechi, tumi change hou apotti nei. Kintu, aei amake aeivabe ariye jeona. Ariye jaccho bolei aj onekgolo khoto eksathe holo. Hoyto r koekdiner majhe hobe r o. Holeo ba ki. Charge deyar proyojon jemon nei, khotir poriman janar wish o tumar nei. So safe zone e achi.

Babu, Janina ki korle abar ami tumake pabo sei ager moto kore. Tyt houyate tyt tumake songho dicche, r tai tmi amake ignore korte parcho. Tobe ki tyt hole se tmr theke dure thakbe sediner sei kothata aj amar jonno apply kore dila? Tao valo, kaoke to akre dore acho. R ami seto janai ache next e ki hote jacche. Houyar age r ekdin ashbo, sob kichu ekhane srityr sagore vashiye diye jete. Hoyto vhul koreo konodin tate cokh porbe and bujte parbe shudu kannar jonnoi noi, valobashar jonnoi paglami or ajaira kajgolo kore giyechi sob somoi.

Valobashi babu onek beshi. R tai bochorer por bochor kostogolo sojjo kore emon korei beche achi. Valo thako. Love you so much Babu.

Sob Somoi keno emon hoy?

25.10.2016

Goto porshu Babur jormodin chilo. Rate room e eshei sms korechilam. Erpor sara din e koekbar sms pathalam, kono reply paini. Tokhoni moner ojante vebechilam, nischoi bashai kono problem. Sei thinking je mile jabe ekdom etota vabini. Cz tumar mbl e to charge thakena. But, recent F message amake emon vabiyechilo. Gotokal ektai sms peyechilam, tate shudu 3 ta line. Buja gelo, problem ta asole critial. October mash tai ashle ekhon buk ta kepe othe. Kono na kono news ase ja hoye othe amar procondo tension er karon.

Kivabe ki korbo or tumake bujabo ami janina. Tumi onek manoshik tension e acho. So, ami ekhon bujaleo tumi bujbena. Sei jonnoi kichu kotha bolte jeyeo borabori na bole rekhe dei. Hoyto konodin ekhane bolbo, jodi beche thaki. Shudu etotokoi bolbo, Babu, Ki bolcho aeisob? Ami Jid kore emon korchi? Tumake valobeshe kichu koratake tumi jid bolcho? Aj etodine tmi tai bujla? Tumake sostho poribeshe, sostho obosthai rakhar jonno etto porisrom korata ki Jid? Tumake valo poribeshe rakhata, kokhono kosto dibona bole kaj kore jaoata jid. Kintu, tumake paoya ta noi. Oitai to valobasha. Ami jodi tumake valoi na bastam, tahole tumake paoyar jonno, tumake valo rakhar jonno, tumar kothai sob sunno theke abar shuru kora, sob ready kore opekkha korte partam?

Tumi nijer mukhei to bolechila, vhul ekbar korechi. R korbona. Baby houyar ageo bolechila. R aj amar sob kajrokolap tumar kache nichok jid, ojotha hoye gelo? Amake santona dite jeye barebar amake emon korba? Accha, ami jodi jid kortam, tahole aj dintato onnorokom hote parto taina? Oije bollam, onek kotha bolte jeyeo bolina. Tumi bole felte paro, jemonti amake narrow minded or sick people bolteo tumar didha hoina.

Accha, Tumake vabbo na to ki korbo? Pothom jedin tumake valobashi bolechilam, erpor thekei to tumakei shudu vebechi. Hmm kaj niye cinta korte jeye sei vabna golo share kora hotona. Kintu, jokhon vhul ta dora porlo, tokhon thekei sei vhul r korbona vebei to ashchi. R tai tumar kothar moto, vhul r korbona vebei colechi. Babu, tumake paoa amar kono jid, lalosha noi. Sref valobashi bolei eto kore tumake boli, eto paglami kori, eto depress hoye pori, eto kore tumake daki, etota kosto niye opekkha kori.

Life to ektai. Tumi na bolo. Jar caoya shudu ektai, se oi ekta niyei thakuk. Tumi na bolla, sob caoya puron hoina. Abar etao to sotti, je jeita aim kore cole, se seitai pai. So, ami na hoi amar sei ek caoya niyei thaklam. Ekta life tumake pelei hobe sarthok. Mitthe hok R sotti hok, opekkhai kori. Tumi na bolechile, aei jibone na peleo porer jibone hole jate pai. Ami age aei jibonei opekkha kori. Tumio amar valobashar exam ta nao. At least tumar mone amar jonno jate koruna noi, feelings thake sei ager moto. Valobashar manush theke keoto koruna caina.

Ecche korlei ami valo thakte pari. Kintu, sei ecchetai to r nei, ashbeona. R onno kaoke vaba, seto r o jujondur. Jeikhane tumi acho, jake ondher moto believe kori, jar potita kotha follow kori, jake emon kore valobesheo mone hoi kom korchi, tar jaigai to takei rakhte hobe, So, please babu, koruna koro, tao aeisob bolona. Mitthe hok, sotti hok, opekkhai to korte bolecho, oitai valomoto kori. Amito to kichui korte parina bolechila, so aeita onototo kore dekhai.

Ami vhul korechilam, sei dush tumar opor chapaini. Bolechilam, blv korechilam bolei eto vabini. Cz tumake barebare boli, tumake onek blv kori. So, tumi jokhon bolechile, opekkha korte hote pare, ek kothai raji hoye gechilam. Vhultake songsodoner ashai. So vhul koreo jodi opekkha kori, tobe amar life ta nosto hobena. Cz bujte parbo, vhuler pore sothik kichui to pabo. So, please babu emon kore lav khotir hiseb kosona. R tumar opor amar vhul capiye dibona. Tumi nije strong hou. Ekdin bolechi ajebaje kotha bolba na. Again morar kotha. Tumar age jate amar mritto hoi, always aei doa kori. So vhuuleo emon kore think korbana. Tumake onek valo thakte hobe babu.

Janina tumi r ki vebe rekhecho. Aj jemon bolla, amake santona deyar jonno, amake kaje busy korar jonno opekkha koriyecho, seita ami kintu agei halka bujte perechilam. Specially, Baby houyar age tumar hotat turn back kora. Jei tumi airport theke amar kache cole asho, sei tumi jokhon amar sathe 5 ta minute kotha bolar time nei bole recently bashai cole giyechile. Actually, tumake niye saradin vabi bolei, tumar small stepgolow amar cokhe pore. Tao kichu bolina, dosharop se to noi e. Ababro, life ta ektai, ami sei life tumar opekkhai katiye dibo bolei decide korechi. Now, opekkha coluk. R amio dekhi tumi r ki bolte paro amake. Sick mentalityr manush, tai tumar kothagolo amar medicore hsebe kaj kore.

Ouff, r ki korar ache. Shudu pratthona kori, valo thako babu. Baby k valo rakho. Onek valobashi bolei barebar eki kotha repeat kori. R jotodin thakbo, bolei jabo. Love you so much babu.

Puranu cinta abar ki samne ashbe?

22.10.2016

Onekdin dorei kichu likhbo. Onek kichu likhar ache. But, ekta didha kaj kore ekho. Jedin jante parlam tumi diary ta porecho. Janina puro diary tai porecho naki only ager ongshotoko. Jeitokoi poro, amar opor je tumar onek rag ta besh bujte parchi. Sei jonnoi arale rakhi diary er prosongota. Tao kichu likhbo aj.

Ki likhbo, FB e lekha kothagoloi ekhane likhe rakhlam. Babu, tumi ki abar shuru korla? Abar sei eki kotha, ekivabe amake abar tumi aghat korte caccho? Ami johoni sob kichu guchiye niye asi, jokhoni vabi aei buji opekkha sesh hobe, tokhoni tumi abar pichone sore jaba? Ami moteo oguchalu vabina, sobkichu vabi. Specially negeative tai besi tumi eta jano. Kintu negative er vire positive ta pai bolei to sob kichu ghuciye opekkhai royechi. R tumi abar shei puranu soto dore taan diccho?

Tumake ami keno bujate parchina, ami onnoder moto noi. Amar pokkhe somvob noi, tumake chara. Hmm ami hoyto ekhon ektu paltiyechi, kintu tumake chara ajo ki ektuo vabte pari. Ami bolle tumi rag korbe, tao boli. Sob kichui to tumar jonno kori. Na bolchina oi past e ja korechi tumar oikhane, sob depression theke korechi. Ami decide kore niyechi, tumake petei hobe, seita time lagle laguk. And, ami life niye deep cintao kori. Taito dhaka thekei sob settle korchi, jate kono somoi tumi amar lackings na pao. Jate gadhami na bole eksomoi bolo, sotti tumi amake eto valabsho babu. Oi ekti kotha shunbo bolei to eto kosto kore jacchi. Kintu, jokhoni tumi amake onno cinta korte bolo, tokhon kemon lage boloto? Amio to ekta manush, tumi keno barebar sob seshe ese emon kore bolo?

Tumar kotha ami sunechi naki ekdin bujba. Tumar sob kotha suni bolei ekhono ami achi, ekhono tumakei dinrat vabi, ekhono tumar kotha deoya kotha dore din par korchi. Sudu ekbar dekhei bujta, ami tumar sob kotha kotota mullayon kori. Hmm kichu jinish hoyto tumake hurt koreche, but amito tumar sathe contact na thaklei emon hoye jai. Nijer opor control thakena. Sei jonnoi always dure thekeo kache takar try korechi, korei jacchi.

Basai ki again jamela? Again oi bari theke kono news? Naki se kichu boleche? Gotokal onekbar try korlam sms pathate, giyechilo? Mbl e charge na thakle ki sms jaina?

Babu, tumi always right vabo. But, sob vabar majheo kichu vhul thake, kichu manush thake jara vhul proman kore dei. So, please aeivabe na vebe amar moto ektibar vabo. Jahid chapol ora stl hoyeche bole amakeo same hote hobe? Amioto hobo, jokhon tumar amake opkkha koranu sesh hobe. Aei kotha ta shudu amar noi, amader duijoneri. Somoi lagbe, laguk. Aei jibone aei ekta kaj ontoto thik moto kori. Amar poti amar nijeri aei caoya. So please babu aeivabe vebona. Ami achi babu always. Love u so much.

Valo thako babu. Tayat o valo thakuk. Tmra duijone valo thaklei ami valo. Miss u duijonkei.