Another turn . . .

21.11.2015

Abar poriborton, abar sopno dekha. R ektibar kannar sagore vashar age, r ektibar pran vhore hasha. Etai budhhoi amar jiboner role hoye geche. Jokhon vhabi sob sesh, jokhon nijeke sesh korar juddhe nami, tik tokhoni tumar majhe poriborton ashe. Amar jonno feelings ashe!

Sei 15th October, last amar sathe valo kore kotha bolechile. Erpor shunechi sei kotha, sathe dekhechi tumar ariye jaoya, amake aghat korar potijogita. Deyale pith teke jaoa manushtake Allah ektu sosthi dilo. Tumi abar amar sathe hashle, abar fire ashle sei babu'r sorupe. Odvhut bepar holo, jedin theke ami sei kajta kora start korechi, tumar majhe poriborton ta sedin e ashlo. Sukria Allah. Tumake emon korei pete ceyechilam babu, na hole etodine r on onek kichu hoye jeto.

Tumi abar amar kache fire ashba, abar promise korla. Janina, ebaro ki amai mitthe assash dibe naki. Tobe, tumi asha na dile je ami beche thakar kono mane paina. Sei jonno jibone jesob kaj korini, ta korteo didha hoina. Self respect, seto tumar biyer porei hariye felechi. Se onek kotha, jante pare kono ekdin. Tobe, moner majhe ekta kushi kushi vhab. Saradin kaj kore esheow dekho, ektuow tired lagchena. Tumar mukher kotha, oi hashi, r kotha sesher kichu fixed word, amake jibon niye vabte help kore. Sei jonnoi tumake amar oxyzen boli.

Babu, kichu kotha bolbo bole likhte boshechilam. Kintu, nah. Aj r likhte ecche hocchena. Valo monta ekhon valoi thakuk, tumio valo thako. 

Life is really peculiar!

16.11.2015

Jiboner ek ekta din jacche, ami jeno totoi tumake notun kore abiskar korchi. Mathar vitor pokata shudu bole jai, kivabe parle tumi? Ki nirdidhai bole jao, upcoming days and your future plan er kotha. Sobceye mojar bishoi, tumar sathe jokhon oi topics ta niye kotha hoi, amar dui cokh beye toptop kore pani pore. Vaggish video call korina! Majhe majhe ekdike hashi, onnodike tumar kotha shune dui cokh beye pani pore. Aei jonnoi bollam, life is really peculiar.

Aj theke dui year age ki vebechilam, emon hobe or tumi emon korba? Aeito beshina, 2 mash ageow to kolpona korini emon kotha shunbo tumar theke. 2 mash age tumake deshe pathabe. Tumi ceyechile February te ashte, kintu kuttar baccha ta March e jete bole. R ekta mojar kotha, tumi take amar samne kuttar baccha bolo. Otocho tari future niye tumi eto concern, dedicated, aimed, strict. Koto jotno kore rakhcho nijeke, khaoa - daoya korcho thik moto, r ekjonke ante, onek ke happy korte. Tumar safe house hobe se, jake diye tumi nijeke protect korbe kuttar baccha theke. Ha ha ha vablei hashi ashe abar cokh ow vijhe jai. Boroi odvhut onuvhoti.

Mone ache tumar, last dekhai ki bolechila amake? Valo theko, ami ashbo kintu kobe janina. Amio janina, adho tumi r ashbe naki. Tobe eta thik, tumi amake mitthe bolona bolei aeita believe korechi, ashai achi. Aj khub ecche chilo, ekta jinish tumake bolbo. Pore dekhlam, na thak. Babutar mood off kore lav nei, ami nijeow osostho. Jor, sordi, kashi. Gotokal tumar kache ekta PP ceyechilam, daoni olto rag kore phone e rekhe diyechile. R tumi valo korei jano, emon korle ami ki kori. Jeneo tumi emon korecho. Amake kosto dite tumar onek valo lage ekhon. Amar ja kichui hok, tumake ta kosto deina. Sei feelings tai nei. Amake kosto tumi koto dite paro, sei exam diye colechi. Gotokal rat 11 tar dike room e dukechi. Onek thanda baire, room e o kichu nei je gaye dibo. Kapte kapte bed e shuye tumake eto dekhechi, shunte pao? Jani, sei dak r tumake hecki othai na, bicolito korena. Anicchakrito vabe amar sathe kichukhon kotha bolo. Sob kichui aj dai sara vabe. Aei ki amar babu?

Tumar bashai again probem. Tumar boro vhai, again bashai problem korche. Ammur kotha shunena. Onnora tai voye kichui bolena. Bashai jamela colche, tumi tension korcho jani. Mone ache tumar, ekdin tumake bolechilam, Aj tumar vhai-boner jonno amar sathe emon korla, ekdin erai dibe kosto. Hmm tumar biyer koek din age bolechilam. Tumake onek kore biyeta stop korte bolechilam, shunoni oder kotha vebe. Sylhet theke johon bashai ashla, mone ache tumar ki bolechila? Ami r kaor kotha vabbona. Amar kotha vabbo, amader kotha vabbe. Ouff ki sopno dekhiyechile. Amake sopner fanushe vashiye, onake bolechila, na amar bideshe ashte kono problem nei. Hahaha, kadchi r likhchi, 10 year exam tumar kothai gelo? Amar jonno 10 year wait korba, R 4 masher moddhei oi Kuttar bacchar future niye boshe acho. Odvhut jibon, vablei ga kepe panir fuyara ber hoi dui cokh diye. Amar babu, sob pare!

Babu, eto comfortable life chere ahste tumar boddo vhoi taina? Dekho, tumar jonno ami sob chere, sob hariye, odvhut jibon japon korchi. Ki korchi, ta bolbona. Tobe khub kosto hoi, age kokhono korini. Eto kosto koreo jodi tumar age prithibi theke jete pari, tobei kosto sarthok hobe. Tumader sathe new keo, sojjo korte parbona. Keno emon korle amar sathe - pokata amake sesh kore felbe bolte bolte. R tumi besh achi, ami keor na, onno sob jahanname jak - aei kotha nijeke bole valo thakar ovinoi kore jeo. Valo theko lokkhi babu. 

Aeivabei colbe tobe . . .

13.11.2015

Nijeke niye vaba chere diyechi. Amar jibon, tumar ecchemotoi colbe. Ami ja ecche ta kori kingba jahanname geleow problem nei tumar. Sei jonnoi goto 2 weeks dore onek kichu cepe jacchi. Thanda mane kahista cepe rakhar moto noi, tai prokash peye jacche. Jodio amar ja kichui hok, ete tumar kono agroho nei.

Goto kichudin dore onek cesta korlam, tumake ager moto kore pete. Tumar sb kotha shunechi, shudu tumar mukhe ektu hashi anbo, sei khilkhil kora hashita ektu shunbo. Vaggo kharap, ami ekai jhur kore heshe gelam. Result zero. Tobu, tumake ektu hoyto normal korte perechilam. Kintu, samanno wish ja shudu tumar kachei asha kori, sei kotha kingba pp r paina tumar kache. Boddo miss kori. Tarceyeo miss kori tumake onek din dore na dekhatake.

Future niye etoi acchonno hoye porle, ami sei future e nei. Valobasha jinishta ki - aj mukh fute bollam, pelam na tobe sesh? Babu, ami onno 10 ta cheler moto tumake valobashte parini. Tumar aei tarzan ta tumar poti kokhonoi serious chilona bole amake shudu vhul buje gecho. Tumi je sobsomoi amar mon jhure chila and acho. Tumi onar sathe life settle kore nile kingba amar kotha na vable jodi ami tumake vhule jai, tobe eta abar kemon valobasha holo? Tumi nei, tai bole ami tumake vhule jabo? Na babu, ami emon nah. Tumake 1st jedin propose korechilam, sedin thekei aei monta tumake diye diyechi. Aj etogolo bochor pore sei valobasha shudu bereche. Tumi kosto dao, R ami ekaki cokher pani feli. Tumake fire pabo bole baki jibonta emon kore dibbi katiye dite parbo. Amar kotha naiba vabla, ekdin to bujte parbe kotota kosto diyechile aei amake.

Ekhono 4 mash hoini, tumi oikhane gyecho. 4 mashei tumi etota change, etoboro news dila amake. Kake niye ami etto sopno dekhechilam, ke amake etto promise korechilo? Tumi na amake mitthe bolona, sei ashai ekhono opekhai achi fire ashbe bole. Na, tumake mukh fute bolbona, shudu dekhe jabo. Mukh fute bole ki lab? Goto soptahe onek kichui to bolechi, kono side effect chilona. Majkhane na bola kothagolo bole dilam. Ekhon ja korchi, ta na bollei holo. Asole majhhe majhe eto emotional hoye jai, tumake sb bole dei. Vabi, hoyto amar kotha ektu vabba. Kintu, nah. Amar jonno tumar r kono feelings e nei. Kotha bolcho, he na, kheyechi, ghumiyechi etc. Ami na kheye thakleo kichu jai ashena. Eta ki amar sei babu?

2 masher vara advance dibar moto capability nei kingba kichu kinar. Sob kichui ami hariye felechi. Tumake boddo akre dorar cesta kore jacchi, r vitore vitore harabar vhoi. Potiniyoto mone hoi, aei buji agamikal phone dorba na kingba r kotha bolbona eta bolba. Jani, etao amake shunte hote pare. Jedin shunbo, sedin amar mone ja ache, tai kore jabo. Na, tumake dakbona. Ekhon adhare ek pa bariyechi, tokhon dui pa niyei hariye jabo. Aei sotto toko tumar kache ojana thakbe. Tumar kache thekeo thakbona. Shuye shuye ami future life niye vabi. Bed e shuye tumar chobi dekha, recording er voice shuna, aei amar kaj. Eto porisromer por oitai amar medicine.

Mathar moddhe sarakkhon ekta poka gan geye coleche, Kivabe parle tumi? Ekbare to hoini, amar kotha ektuow vable na. Tumar majhe mishe achi, R amakei aeivabe hurt korte parle tumi? Sobar sathei valo, amar khetre eto badha, apotti. Sobar kache valo thakar montro path kore amake diye jaccho kosto. Boddo siter moddhe emon ekta life lead korte hobe, etajemon kolpona korini; temni amai na kheye achi shuneow tumi dibbi khaoaya daoya korte paro, vaba jaina. Asole tumi sob paro babu.

Janina, tumi deshe ashte ashte tumar sathe amar jogajug thakbe naki. Jodi na thake, tobe vebe nio, tumar babu sei jibone hariye geche. Tumar ekhane thekeo ocena hoye roibo. Tobu tumar ekhan theke jabona, dur theke tumake dekhar aei sujog ta harate parbona. Ajkal cokh golo auto hoye geche, again shudu pani pore. Cosmar power bereche, kintu cokh jacche rosatole. Jak, aei dui cokhe tumake onar pashe na dekhlei holo. Ekta to caoya chilo, r sei caoyata tumi r o na houyar apran cestai acho. Tao valo thako, dirgonisshash golo amar - tumar jonno kosto noi, shuvo hok. R parchina likhte . .

Aei Korecho Valo . .

06.11.2015:

Thik emon kichu hobe konodin kolponao korini. Emon kichu shunbo, ta sopneo vabini. Tobu aj shudu bolbo, aei korecho valo. Ekta manushke til til kore marar ceye hotat ekdinei take mere fella. Jemon obolilai sob bole felo, temon sohojei otiter ekta manushke nijer hatei sesh kore felecho. Hmm otiter manush, jake niye ohetok vabna vabteow tumar badhe!

Ekdik diye valoi hoyeche. Dore neya jai, agami koek bochor tumi aei dairy te cokh rakhar somoi pabena, so cepe jaoya sotti kothagolo tumar ojanai theke jabe. Jodio goto koekdine ami aeigolo ki korlam? Ami ki sotti narrow mind er achoron korchina? Mukhe ja ashche tai bole dicchi, ekti baro tumar situation bujar try korchina. Tumar moto amio je nijeke cinchina. Goto ekta bochor jeisob kotha cepe rekhechilam, seigoloi kina ami goto dui dine bole dilam. Ouff, amito ceyechilam tumi onekdin pore aei diary pore seigolo janbe. Bidhi bam, mukh foske kotha ber hoye jacche.

Ki dorkar chilo, dulavai er sathe dekha korar kotha, tumar se amake ki boleche ta tumake bolar? Ami ki ektu sympathy pete ceyechilam? Ki dorkar chilo, tumar happy news take barebar negative korar cesta calate? Tobe ki ami amar sesh ashatao veste jabe bole emon korechi? Hoyto tai. Tumi take mene neoya mane je, tumi srinkhole joriye pora, r kono poth thakbena. Na thakuk, tumi to valo thakba sobaike niye. Ta jeneow ami keno barebar shudu vhul kore jacchi?

Goto 25 tarikhe news ta shunar por monke santo korar jonno vebechilam hoyto mitthe bolcho. Tarpor jotoi din jacche, tumar kotha shune buja jacche, kotha ta sotti. Shudu sotti noi, bepartake tumi mene niyecho. Tumar logic, ami kotha bolina, hashina, aei kothagolo r shunte hobena, take niye busy thakbe, tumi tumar moto thakte parba. Aei na hole jukti. Tumar oikhane onno kichu korar cesta kora illegal, emonki 3 masher age plain e othao naki nished. Bah, sob jene boshe acho. 3 mash pore r kichu kora jabena, tao jano dekhlam. Eto kichu jano, r eta janona ..... thak r bollam na. Emnitei aei topics niye tumake kom jalalam na aei koidin.

Tumar kothagolo mone porlei cokher dui kun diye jol goriye pore. Ki mone kore aj shimuke phone korechilam. Nana kothar majhe jante parlam, kono happy news nei. Ager motoi ache, ekhono tanjirer sathe kotha hoi, dekha hoi. Otocho shimu kintu biyer por thekei tar hb er sathe thake and 1 year opore hoye geche. R tumi? Tinta mashei sob mene niyecho. Future plan kore felecho. Nah, shimur sathe compare korchina, just eta chilo apekkhik ekta toluna. Ami jani, tumi tumi e, kono tolona colena karo sathe. Sei jonoi to etto valobashi tumake.

Prosno holo, tobe amar ekhon ki kora ochit? Vebe chilam aei diary te kono mitther asroi dibona. Kintu, ekta mitther asroi dite holo. Bolbona ki seita. Tumi shudu ekhon nijeke niye vabo, r sobai jahanname jak tateo naki kichu jai ashena tumar. Valoi bolecho, amar jonno positive. R kichudin, thik ja vebechilam, tai korbo. Tumake tumar moto thakte deya amar ochit, mental pressure ekdom thik na tumar jonno.

Janina, kobe aei diary te cokh porbe tumar. Adho porbe naki tao janina. Tobe babu, boddo onnay kore felle amar sathe. 15 Tarikhe amar VISA eshechilo Oman er. Koto sopno chilo, oman theke tumake dekhte jete parbo prai somoi. Emonki deshe boshei oman er travel agency diye motamoti sob settle kore felechilam. At first 18 tarikh and pore 26 tarikh flight er date set korechilam. Kintu, 21 tarikhe tumi amar puro prithibita elomelo kore dila. Cancel kore dilam sob, again 3 Lakh taka gelo. Ekebare arthik dik diye shunno holam, R moner dik diye ekdom nissho kore dila. Ekek ta jhor boiye dao, R amake nisshes korte korte aj aei situation e dar koriyecho, r bikolpo kono poth rakhoni.

Sopno chilo kono ekdin bolbe, babu ami sob chere diyechi. Kingba, ami ekhon eka. Tumake dekhar jonno ami chilam. Pashe thakbe bole promise korechila, R tumi tar pashe thakar bebostha kore niyecho. Valo korecho. R kichudin, amake ektu sokti dao. Tumar ekhanei ami thekeo nei hoye thakbo, tumar samne diyei jabo, cinte parbena. Potidin tumar bashar samne theke ekbar ghure ashi, tokhono ashbo. Kintu, tumi r khuje pabena. Ekebare sesh kore diyecho tumi tumar tarzan ke.

Valo theko, sobaike niye valo thako. Tumar agoto dingolo hok tension hin, tumar vashai tumi tumar moto jate thakte paro. Jodi bindu matro valobasho aj theke 5 year pore, amake savabik korte cao, tobe fire eshe - ekta message dio tumar amar cena jaigai. . .