Another turn . . .

21.11.2015

Abar poriborton, abar sopno dekha. R ektibar kannar sagore vashar age, r ektibar pran vhore hasha. Etai budhhoi amar jiboner role hoye geche. Jokhon vhabi sob sesh, jokhon nijeke sesh korar juddhe nami, tik tokhoni tumar majhe poriborton ashe. Amar jonno feelings ashe!

Sei 15th October, last amar sathe valo kore kotha bolechile. Erpor shunechi sei kotha, sathe dekhechi tumar ariye jaoya, amake aghat korar potijogita. Deyale pith teke jaoa manushtake Allah ektu sosthi dilo. Tumi abar amar sathe hashle, abar fire ashle sei babu'r sorupe. Odvhut bepar holo, jedin theke ami sei kajta kora start korechi, tumar majhe poriborton ta sedin e ashlo. Sukria Allah. Tumake emon korei pete ceyechilam babu, na hole etodine r on onek kichu hoye jeto.

Tumi abar amar kache fire ashba, abar promise korla. Janina, ebaro ki amai mitthe assash dibe naki. Tobe, tumi asha na dile je ami beche thakar kono mane paina. Sei jonno jibone jesob kaj korini, ta korteo didha hoina. Self respect, seto tumar biyer porei hariye felechi. Se onek kotha, jante pare kono ekdin. Tobe, moner majhe ekta kushi kushi vhab. Saradin kaj kore esheow dekho, ektuow tired lagchena. Tumar mukher kotha, oi hashi, r kotha sesher kichu fixed word, amake jibon niye vabte help kore. Sei jonnoi tumake amar oxyzen boli.

Babu, kichu kotha bolbo bole likhte boshechilam. Kintu, nah. Aj r likhte ecche hocchena. Valo monta ekhon valoi thakuk, tumio valo thako. 

Life is really peculiar!

16.11.2015

Jiboner ek ekta din jacche, ami jeno totoi tumake notun kore abiskar korchi. Mathar vitor pokata shudu bole jai, kivabe parle tumi? Ki nirdidhai bole jao, upcoming days and your future plan er kotha. Sobceye mojar bishoi, tumar sathe jokhon oi topics ta niye kotha hoi, amar dui cokh beye toptop kore pani pore. Vaggish video call korina! Majhe majhe ekdike hashi, onnodike tumar kotha shune dui cokh beye pani pore. Aei jonnoi bollam, life is really peculiar.

Aj theke dui year age ki vebechilam, emon hobe or tumi emon korba? Aeito beshina, 2 mash ageow to kolpona korini emon kotha shunbo tumar theke. 2 mash age tumake deshe pathabe. Tumi ceyechile February te ashte, kintu kuttar baccha ta March e jete bole. R ekta mojar kotha, tumi take amar samne kuttar baccha bolo. Otocho tari future niye tumi eto concern, dedicated, aimed, strict. Koto jotno kore rakhcho nijeke, khaoa - daoya korcho thik moto, r ekjonke ante, onek ke happy korte. Tumar safe house hobe se, jake diye tumi nijeke protect korbe kuttar baccha theke. Ha ha ha vablei hashi ashe abar cokh ow vijhe jai. Boroi odvhut onuvhoti.

Mone ache tumar, last dekhai ki bolechila amake? Valo theko, ami ashbo kintu kobe janina. Amio janina, adho tumi r ashbe naki. Tobe eta thik, tumi amake mitthe bolona bolei aeita believe korechi, ashai achi. Aj khub ecche chilo, ekta jinish tumake bolbo. Pore dekhlam, na thak. Babutar mood off kore lav nei, ami nijeow osostho. Jor, sordi, kashi. Gotokal tumar kache ekta PP ceyechilam, daoni olto rag kore phone e rekhe diyechile. R tumi valo korei jano, emon korle ami ki kori. Jeneo tumi emon korecho. Amake kosto dite tumar onek valo lage ekhon. Amar ja kichui hok, tumake ta kosto deina. Sei feelings tai nei. Amake kosto tumi koto dite paro, sei exam diye colechi. Gotokal rat 11 tar dike room e dukechi. Onek thanda baire, room e o kichu nei je gaye dibo. Kapte kapte bed e shuye tumake eto dekhechi, shunte pao? Jani, sei dak r tumake hecki othai na, bicolito korena. Anicchakrito vabe amar sathe kichukhon kotha bolo. Sob kichui aj dai sara vabe. Aei ki amar babu?

Tumar bashai again probem. Tumar boro vhai, again bashai problem korche. Ammur kotha shunena. Onnora tai voye kichui bolena. Bashai jamela colche, tumi tension korcho jani. Mone ache tumar, ekdin tumake bolechilam, Aj tumar vhai-boner jonno amar sathe emon korla, ekdin erai dibe kosto. Hmm tumar biyer koek din age bolechilam. Tumake onek kore biyeta stop korte bolechilam, shunoni oder kotha vebe. Sylhet theke johon bashai ashla, mone ache tumar ki bolechila? Ami r kaor kotha vabbona. Amar kotha vabbo, amader kotha vabbe. Ouff ki sopno dekhiyechile. Amake sopner fanushe vashiye, onake bolechila, na amar bideshe ashte kono problem nei. Hahaha, kadchi r likhchi, 10 year exam tumar kothai gelo? Amar jonno 10 year wait korba, R 4 masher moddhei oi Kuttar bacchar future niye boshe acho. Odvhut jibon, vablei ga kepe panir fuyara ber hoi dui cokh diye. Amar babu, sob pare!

Babu, eto comfortable life chere ahste tumar boddo vhoi taina? Dekho, tumar jonno ami sob chere, sob hariye, odvhut jibon japon korchi. Ki korchi, ta bolbona. Tobe khub kosto hoi, age kokhono korini. Eto kosto koreo jodi tumar age prithibi theke jete pari, tobei kosto sarthok hobe. Tumader sathe new keo, sojjo korte parbona. Keno emon korle amar sathe - pokata amake sesh kore felbe bolte bolte. R tumi besh achi, ami keor na, onno sob jahanname jak - aei kotha nijeke bole valo thakar ovinoi kore jeo. Valo theko lokkhi babu. 

Aeivabei colbe tobe . . .

13.11.2015

Nijeke niye vaba chere diyechi. Amar jibon, tumar ecchemotoi colbe. Ami ja ecche ta kori kingba jahanname geleow problem nei tumar. Sei jonnoi goto 2 weeks dore onek kichu cepe jacchi. Thanda mane kahista cepe rakhar moto noi, tai prokash peye jacche. Jodio amar ja kichui hok, ete tumar kono agroho nei.

Goto kichudin dore onek cesta korlam, tumake ager moto kore pete. Tumar sb kotha shunechi, shudu tumar mukhe ektu hashi anbo, sei khilkhil kora hashita ektu shunbo. Vaggo kharap, ami ekai jhur kore heshe gelam. Result zero. Tobu, tumake ektu hoyto normal korte perechilam. Kintu, samanno wish ja shudu tumar kachei asha kori, sei kotha kingba pp r paina tumar kache. Boddo miss kori. Tarceyeo miss kori tumake onek din dore na dekhatake.

Future niye etoi acchonno hoye porle, ami sei future e nei. Valobasha jinishta ki - aj mukh fute bollam, pelam na tobe sesh? Babu, ami onno 10 ta cheler moto tumake valobashte parini. Tumar aei tarzan ta tumar poti kokhonoi serious chilona bole amake shudu vhul buje gecho. Tumi je sobsomoi amar mon jhure chila and acho. Tumi onar sathe life settle kore nile kingba amar kotha na vable jodi ami tumake vhule jai, tobe eta abar kemon valobasha holo? Tumi nei, tai bole ami tumake vhule jabo? Na babu, ami emon nah. Tumake 1st jedin propose korechilam, sedin thekei aei monta tumake diye diyechi. Aj etogolo bochor pore sei valobasha shudu bereche. Tumi kosto dao, R ami ekaki cokher pani feli. Tumake fire pabo bole baki jibonta emon kore dibbi katiye dite parbo. Amar kotha naiba vabla, ekdin to bujte parbe kotota kosto diyechile aei amake.

Ekhono 4 mash hoini, tumi oikhane gyecho. 4 mashei tumi etota change, etoboro news dila amake. Kake niye ami etto sopno dekhechilam, ke amake etto promise korechilo? Tumi na amake mitthe bolona, sei ashai ekhono opekhai achi fire ashbe bole. Na, tumake mukh fute bolbona, shudu dekhe jabo. Mukh fute bole ki lab? Goto soptahe onek kichui to bolechi, kono side effect chilona. Majkhane na bola kothagolo bole dilam. Ekhon ja korchi, ta na bollei holo. Asole majhhe majhe eto emotional hoye jai, tumake sb bole dei. Vabi, hoyto amar kotha ektu vabba. Kintu, nah. Amar jonno tumar r kono feelings e nei. Kotha bolcho, he na, kheyechi, ghumiyechi etc. Ami na kheye thakleo kichu jai ashena. Eta ki amar sei babu?

2 masher vara advance dibar moto capability nei kingba kichu kinar. Sob kichui ami hariye felechi. Tumake boddo akre dorar cesta kore jacchi, r vitore vitore harabar vhoi. Potiniyoto mone hoi, aei buji agamikal phone dorba na kingba r kotha bolbona eta bolba. Jani, etao amake shunte hote pare. Jedin shunbo, sedin amar mone ja ache, tai kore jabo. Na, tumake dakbona. Ekhon adhare ek pa bariyechi, tokhon dui pa niyei hariye jabo. Aei sotto toko tumar kache ojana thakbe. Tumar kache thekeo thakbona. Shuye shuye ami future life niye vabi. Bed e shuye tumar chobi dekha, recording er voice shuna, aei amar kaj. Eto porisromer por oitai amar medicine.

Mathar moddhe sarakkhon ekta poka gan geye coleche, Kivabe parle tumi? Ekbare to hoini, amar kotha ektuow vable na. Tumar majhe mishe achi, R amakei aeivabe hurt korte parle tumi? Sobar sathei valo, amar khetre eto badha, apotti. Sobar kache valo thakar montro path kore amake diye jaccho kosto. Boddo siter moddhe emon ekta life lead korte hobe, etajemon kolpona korini; temni amai na kheye achi shuneow tumi dibbi khaoaya daoya korte paro, vaba jaina. Asole tumi sob paro babu.

Janina, tumi deshe ashte ashte tumar sathe amar jogajug thakbe naki. Jodi na thake, tobe vebe nio, tumar babu sei jibone hariye geche. Tumar ekhane thekeo ocena hoye roibo. Tobu tumar ekhan theke jabona, dur theke tumake dekhar aei sujog ta harate parbona. Ajkal cokh golo auto hoye geche, again shudu pani pore. Cosmar power bereche, kintu cokh jacche rosatole. Jak, aei dui cokhe tumake onar pashe na dekhlei holo. Ekta to caoya chilo, r sei caoyata tumi r o na houyar apran cestai acho. Tao valo thako, dirgonisshash golo amar - tumar jonno kosto noi, shuvo hok. R parchina likhte . .

Aei Korecho Valo . .

06.11.2015:

Thik emon kichu hobe konodin kolponao korini. Emon kichu shunbo, ta sopneo vabini. Tobu aj shudu bolbo, aei korecho valo. Ekta manushke til til kore marar ceye hotat ekdinei take mere fella. Jemon obolilai sob bole felo, temon sohojei otiter ekta manushke nijer hatei sesh kore felecho. Hmm otiter manush, jake niye ohetok vabna vabteow tumar badhe!

Ekdik diye valoi hoyeche. Dore neya jai, agami koek bochor tumi aei dairy te cokh rakhar somoi pabena, so cepe jaoya sotti kothagolo tumar ojanai theke jabe. Jodio goto koekdine ami aeigolo ki korlam? Ami ki sotti narrow mind er achoron korchina? Mukhe ja ashche tai bole dicchi, ekti baro tumar situation bujar try korchina. Tumar moto amio je nijeke cinchina. Goto ekta bochor jeisob kotha cepe rekhechilam, seigoloi kina ami goto dui dine bole dilam. Ouff, amito ceyechilam tumi onekdin pore aei diary pore seigolo janbe. Bidhi bam, mukh foske kotha ber hoye jacche.

Ki dorkar chilo, dulavai er sathe dekha korar kotha, tumar se amake ki boleche ta tumake bolar? Ami ki ektu sympathy pete ceyechilam? Ki dorkar chilo, tumar happy news take barebar negative korar cesta calate? Tobe ki ami amar sesh ashatao veste jabe bole emon korechi? Hoyto tai. Tumi take mene neoya mane je, tumi srinkhole joriye pora, r kono poth thakbena. Na thakuk, tumi to valo thakba sobaike niye. Ta jeneow ami keno barebar shudu vhul kore jacchi?

Goto 25 tarikhe news ta shunar por monke santo korar jonno vebechilam hoyto mitthe bolcho. Tarpor jotoi din jacche, tumar kotha shune buja jacche, kotha ta sotti. Shudu sotti noi, bepartake tumi mene niyecho. Tumar logic, ami kotha bolina, hashina, aei kothagolo r shunte hobena, take niye busy thakbe, tumi tumar moto thakte parba. Aei na hole jukti. Tumar oikhane onno kichu korar cesta kora illegal, emonki 3 masher age plain e othao naki nished. Bah, sob jene boshe acho. 3 mash pore r kichu kora jabena, tao jano dekhlam. Eto kichu jano, r eta janona ..... thak r bollam na. Emnitei aei topics niye tumake kom jalalam na aei koidin.

Tumar kothagolo mone porlei cokher dui kun diye jol goriye pore. Ki mone kore aj shimuke phone korechilam. Nana kothar majhe jante parlam, kono happy news nei. Ager motoi ache, ekhono tanjirer sathe kotha hoi, dekha hoi. Otocho shimu kintu biyer por thekei tar hb er sathe thake and 1 year opore hoye geche. R tumi? Tinta mashei sob mene niyecho. Future plan kore felecho. Nah, shimur sathe compare korchina, just eta chilo apekkhik ekta toluna. Ami jani, tumi tumi e, kono tolona colena karo sathe. Sei jonoi to etto valobashi tumake.

Prosno holo, tobe amar ekhon ki kora ochit? Vebe chilam aei diary te kono mitther asroi dibona. Kintu, ekta mitther asroi dite holo. Bolbona ki seita. Tumi shudu ekhon nijeke niye vabo, r sobai jahanname jak tateo naki kichu jai ashena tumar. Valoi bolecho, amar jonno positive. R kichudin, thik ja vebechilam, tai korbo. Tumake tumar moto thakte deya amar ochit, mental pressure ekdom thik na tumar jonno.

Janina, kobe aei diary te cokh porbe tumar. Adho porbe naki tao janina. Tobe babu, boddo onnay kore felle amar sathe. 15 Tarikhe amar VISA eshechilo Oman er. Koto sopno chilo, oman theke tumake dekhte jete parbo prai somoi. Emonki deshe boshei oman er travel agency diye motamoti sob settle kore felechilam. At first 18 tarikh and pore 26 tarikh flight er date set korechilam. Kintu, 21 tarikhe tumi amar puro prithibita elomelo kore dila. Cancel kore dilam sob, again 3 Lakh taka gelo. Ekebare arthik dik diye shunno holam, R moner dik diye ekdom nissho kore dila. Ekek ta jhor boiye dao, R amake nisshes korte korte aj aei situation e dar koriyecho, r bikolpo kono poth rakhoni.

Sopno chilo kono ekdin bolbe, babu ami sob chere diyechi. Kingba, ami ekhon eka. Tumake dekhar jonno ami chilam. Pashe thakbe bole promise korechila, R tumi tar pashe thakar bebostha kore niyecho. Valo korecho. R kichudin, amake ektu sokti dao. Tumar ekhanei ami thekeo nei hoye thakbo, tumar samne diyei jabo, cinte parbena. Potidin tumar bashar samne theke ekbar ghure ashi, tokhono ashbo. Kintu, tumi r khuje pabena. Ekebare sesh kore diyecho tumi tumar tarzan ke.

Valo theko, sobaike niye valo thako. Tumar agoto dingolo hok tension hin, tumar vashai tumi tumar moto jate thakte paro. Jodi bindu matro valobasho aj theke 5 year pore, amake savabik korte cao, tobe fire eshe - ekta message dio tumar amar cena jaigai. . .

Onekgolo prosno mone . .

25.10.2015

Aj may be sesh diary likhchi kingba onirdhissto somoyer jonno bondho. Aj ki r o ekta red letter day amar jibone? Manusher jibone red letter day ki duita hoi? Janina! Tobe, aj seirokomi ekta din amar jibone. Nijeke new life somporke strict hote, aj dinta mone robe ajibon.

Mone mone ekta vhoi niye chilam goto koekta din. Tumi amake ki bolba? FB e kokebar giyechilamo, hoyto seikhane likhecho. Jodio ami guess korechilam tumi ki bolte caicho. Kintu, koekta jinish amake barebar prosno korche. Tar age boli, tumi ki bolecho? Sukhobor! Hmm etai ami guess korechilam. Jei tumi 21st e amake ekbar nij theke phone korecho, aj abar sokal 11 tai phone dile, tokhoni vebechilam, tumar kichu bolar ache. Kothar sesh porjaye ami barebar rakhte bolchilam, kintu tumi amta amta, chup hoye jacchila. Tokhoni vablam, sei kotha ta shunte jacchi ami . .

Babu, congratulation. Tokhoni amar aei kotha ta bola dorkar cilo. R ami aeisob ki question korlam? Eto gadha keno ami? Eta to kushir kotha, tumi nijer life take apon kore nite jaccho, bachar ekta obolombon paccho, aeirokom ekta poribeshe happy ekta life tumar jonno await korche. Ami bokata olta odvhot question kore tumake r o mood off kore dilam!

Matro 3 mash. Aj theke 3 mash age amar theke oi dure cole gecho, tumar kono somossha nei aei kotha bolechile onake, mone ache tumar? Jabar age amake ki bole giyechila? 3 ta masher bebodhane aj aei kotha? Kotha ta mone porche, r pagoler moto hashchi. 7 bochor dore jake cini, jar kache ami chara onno purosh manush sob jogonno, tar mukhei aei kotha? 2-3 din hocche, and gotona 10-12 din age, ektuow badhlona bolte? Ami jani eta willingly chilona, tao tar sathei abar friend er bashai berate jaoa, manager er bashai vhor 5 ta porjonto party attend kora! Hmm asolei tumi sob paro babu, jeita ami parina.

Kotogolo prosno mone gurche. Ami to tumar sob e jani. Tumar sathe amar last 15 tarikhe normal kotha hoyechilo. 10-12 tarikhe tumi amake pet betha bolechila, and oita chilo tumar problem er somoi. Tahole jodi 15 tarikheow problem hoi, 22 tarikh tumi valo houyar kotha. Tumar sathe 15 tarikhe por amar 21 tarikhe kotha hoi. So, aei somoye kichui houyar kotha na. But, tumi bolecho, yes hoyeche. Tobe tumi ki amake mitthe bolcho???

Amar mon bolche, tumi amake dure sorate aei kotha bolcho? Ekhono believe hocchena, tumar kotha. Tumar jei rag, jodi emon kichu hoto tobe tumi must amar sathe 21 tarikhe kotha boltena, and onar satheow eto normal thakte na. Sob kichui kemon jeno confusing.

Jodi hoyei thake, tateo ami kushi. Oi je bollam, tumi aste aste normal hoba, life niye vabba, etai to amar ekhon kamona. Ami to gadha. Sei jonno agamikal theke paglamir jibone probesh korchi. Janina, kivabe tumar deya kostogolo niye thakbo. Tobe eta jani, oi life e physical kostogolo kichu holeo amake sosthi dibe. Tumi jeikhane AC bashai shuye TV dekhbe, seikhane prokhor rodhe amar diner khabar jugate besto thakte hobe.

Aj sokale amar sob kichu jar jar accout e pathiye diyechi. Amar bolte r kichui nei. Nah, kichu taka rekhechi shurur dingolo settle korar jonno tumar oikhane.  Nah, tumake janabona ki korbo, kothai thakbbo. Jotodin onar sathe thakba, vebechi r mukh dekhabona. Amake emoni valobashte tumi, aj sob peye valobashar kichu mul sortoi vhule gele? Tao valo, valo thako.

Ekta mitthe sesh muhurte sikar kore nilam, oikhane ami job peye jacchina. Oikhane amake keo cinena, so ager life ta lead korte amar problem hobena. Vaggish tumi phone ta rekhe diyechile, noito r o onek na bola kotha bole dilam. Valo na thekeow tumar samne valo thakar ovinoy kingba r koto kosto diba amake, aeigolo bole dicchilam. Ki gadha ami dekhecho?

Sesh kori ebar. Jodi konodin aei diary te cokh pore, tobe amake khoma koro. Tumar moto ami hote parbona, tumar sob kotha onek believe kori bolei opekkha korbo zero result pabo ta jeneow. Eta chara r kichui to korar nei amar. Onno sobar moto amina, ami sotti tumake chara osohay. Onek beshi valobashi tumake babu. Tumar area te hoyto tumar ase pashei amake khuje pabe kono ekdin, cinbe to amake sedin?

Valo theko, sobai ke valo rekho. Tumar kotha vablei cokh japsa hoye othe, likhte boshle r o beshi. So, ekhanei bidai. I love you babu, will wait for you to my death . . . .

Special day for me

23.10.2015

Shuvo Jormodin. Shuvo Jormodin Babu, onek onek good wish tumar jonno. Agami dingolo onek valo katuk tumar. Sob somoi sostho thako, and in sha allah happy tumake hotei hobe.

Jano, monta vhison kharap. Aei bishesh dintate tumake wish kora holona. Etai pothom birthday, tumake wish kora hoini. Last year e eto problem er moddheow kintu thiki wish korechilam tumake. R ebar dekho, soptahe derta din chara baki somoi tumi bashai eka thako. Tarporew shudu dure sore jaccho. Just 3 months, tumake amar theke kromei dure soriye niye jacche.

Babu, janina tumar mone ki colche or ki plan korecho. Tobe eta bujte parchi, tumi hoyto hard kono decision niba. Nao, problem nei. Amio amar destination thik kore felechi. Mone ache tumar, tumake ekdin bolechilam, ami totokhon porjonto savabik cinta korte pari, jotokhon tumi amar sathe pran khule kotha bolo. Tumake hashanur jonno amar jhur kore hasha, tumake okay rakhar jonno amar nijeke sobsomoi valo rakha. Kintu, tumi hoyto ager sob kothar moto aei kotha tao vhule gecho.

October 15th, tumar sathe normal kotha hoyeche, tumi chile savabik. Janina, tumar ekdiner moddhe ki holo, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Thursday - 5 din amake call na diye tumi thakte parle? Kivabe parle tumi? Koi, bashai to kotha bola off koroni? Sob kosto ki tumar amakei dite ecche hoy?

5 din pore Wednesday te nijei phone korechila. But, eta to amar babu noy? Nirdidhai bole dila, karon charai aei koidin phone daoni. Samne r dibana. Ki sohoje bole dila. Otocho tumar oi voice ta je amar oxyzen er moto. Tumi emon kore ki lab holo? Hoyto tumar nijeke guchate help hocche. But, amar sob sopno sesh kore dila.

Koekdiner moddhe amake naki FB e ki message pathaba. Kichuta hoyto bujte parchi abar vabchi, dekhi tumi r ki koro. R kichudin pore tumake ami paltate help korbo. Tumar moto thakte cao to, thako. Tobe tumar tarzan ke tumi nijer hate sesh kore felecho, eta mone rekho. R kichu bolbona, hoyto porer post e ki korecho ta janiye sesh korbo . . .

Ami ki tumar kache beshi kichu ceyechilam? Shudu ektu sosthir jonno tumake ager moto kore ceyechilam, potita din oxyzen hisebe tumar kache tumar voice ta ceyechilam. Amar prithibite amaketo eka korei diyecho, dur theke ektu alo jaliye rakhte parlena? Amake eto kotha diye, aj emon korcho? Kortei paro, kokhono to amar kotha vaboni. Vebecho sobar kotha, r dinseshe amar jonno rekhecho kosto. Hmm kosto, koster ek jibone permanently cole gelam. Aj Friday, agami sunday theke.

Emon shuvo dineo ajebaje kotha bole fellam. Sorry Babu. Onek valobashi tumake, konodin bujate parini. Asha kori ebar parbo. Tumar jormodine janai, agami dingolo onek sundor hok. Tumar kachakachi thekeo odrissho hoye valobashi valobashi bole jabo jotodin tumi tumar kotha na rakho. Joke korlam, valo thako babu. Shuvo jormodin and I love you Babu. 

* tumake ekta mitthe bolechi, pore konodin sotti ta bolbo. Ekhane mitthe thakuk ami caina, sei jonno.

Ki Hoyeche Tumar?

18.10.2015

Accha, kostogolo shudu ki tumar amakei dite ecche hoi? Jei koste rekhecho, R o kosto deoyar moto jaiga rekhecho ki? Nah, budh hoy. Tumar amake r o kosto debar baki royeche. Sobar kache valo thakar jonno, nijeke paltanur jonno, amake sotti mone hoy r o kosto opohar diba tumi? Sei jonnoi goto 3 din age dupure phone kore bolla, ami phone na dile phone diona. Aeidike tumio phone diccho na, amakeo stobdho kore rekhecho. Besh acho taina?

Kichudin age kothar majhe bolechila, jodi r konodin phone na dei to ki korba? Ki korbo seto amar mone mone ache. Sokol sopno, asha ek pashe chure fele diye, fire jabo ek ondhokar jibone. Vebechilam, tumar theke kichuta support pabo sob somoi. Ekhon to amar r kichui caoyar nei, ektu kotha bolte caoya seitaow tumar kache ojotha hoye gelo? Tumi koruna kore jototoo somoi dao, seitai nei R opekkhai thaki sei asha niye.

Pochondo pressure bere ache. Ghar narte parchina. Amar high pressure tumi jano. Tarporo amar sathe emon korte tumar kharap lagena. More gelei tumi nistar pabe, taina? Rater 5 tai party theke ashba eki garite pasapashi seat e boshe, holiday golo kataba nana jaigai ghure. Sukh seto tumar jonno. Kichu manusher jibone badluck kokhonoi charena. Ami tader ekjon. Sei jonnoi kaoke kichu bolar nei, emonki tumakeo nao. R kichudin, tarporei hariye jabo.

Vebechilam, ager job ta jeheto chere diyechi, Kamal vaiyer office e time dibo. Sekhan theke tumake Skype theke call ow kora jai. Rater 9-10 tai bashai ashi. Tumar kotha mone porlei moneybag theke tumar oi chobita dekhi. Mone ache tumar? Onar kache jaoyar jonno chobi tolechile jedin, amake ek copy diyechile. Sedin theke sob somoi amar sathe acho, thakba sob somoi.

Aei mashe tumar jormodin. Koto plan chilo R ki korcho tumi? Ekta phone dite ecche hoina tumar? Kivabe paro tumi? Valobashar manushtake kosto dite tumi kivabe paro? Sobai ke valo rakhte jeye nijer (aei amakei) diner por din nissesh kore diccho. Tao valo, tumito valo ekta poribesh e acho. Sei thako, sob somoi valo thako :(

Onnorokom lagche tumake!

10.10.2015

Onekdin pore kadlam. Kadlam na bole kadale tumi amake. Eker por ek kosto diccho, r aei pashe ami kostogolor mukh cepe sojjo kore jacchi. Amar kotha ajkal tumar valo lagena, ektu kotha bolei rekhe dite ecche hoi. Aeito mash khanek ageo 30-40 minute er age call rakhte caitena. R aj 15 minute holei rakhi, majhe majhe bye bolei onayeshe line kete dao.

Tumake aj duibar ask korechilam, amar sathe keno emon koro? Answer diyecho, kichui koroni and porer bar nischup thekecho. Tumi ki abar sei vabna vaba shuru korecho, emon korle ami hariye jabo dure? Naki sotti tumi ager kono kotha mone rakhte caona?

Aj tumake pothom Skype theke call korechilam. Ami $10 dukiye call korechilam, ami r thakte parchilam na tumar voice na shune. Call diye shunte pelam, r kichudin pore jodi phone ekebarei na dei, tokhon ki korba? Tumar mathai aeisob cinta ashe, taina? Din k din tumi nijeke paltanur cetsa kore jaccho, amar theke je dure sore jaccho. Ki kore bujai tumi, please paltiona. Tumi paltiye gele ami ki niye sopno dekhbo? Tumar deya kotha, amar pottasha sob je mitthe hoye jabe.

Recently, mone santona peyechilam tumake net er connection dicchena eta shune. Kintu, sei shanti tao budhoi r roilona. Tumake net er line dicche, new set ow naki kine dibe. Hotat eto change? Sob kotha shuncho tar? Tar jor hoyeche, office korche. Ekta baro ki feel korecho ami valo nei? Amar table er opor rajjer owshud er vandar. Ektar por ekta legei ache, kichui bujte paroni. Kosto kore hashi, seitao ki bujte paroni? Eto normal ami kivabe thaki, taki tumake vabai?

Net er connection manei friend der niye busy, aeije obosore amake vhabo, ta ki vabba r? Hoyto aeidik seidik theke majhe majhe khobor niba, r besir vag e rat jege chat kora. Hariye jaba sobar majhe, amake niye vabar somoi hobena. Chure felte cao amake, taina? Amio kichu bolbona, dekhi ki paro tumi. Din seshe amake tumar pashei paba, hoyto cinbena amake. Khoti ki, tumi valo acho etai to cai.

Valo thako babu. Onek valobashi tumake. Kintu, matro 2 ta mashei deyal esheche amader majhe, samne r ki ache? 10 ta bochorer exam er kotha vhule gecho?

Somoi jacche, Kostogolow barche

05.10.2015

Babu, soulmate bujo? Soulmate mane attar somporko. Ekjoner kichu hole r ekjon bujte pare. Ekjon kharap thakle r ekjon ow kharap thake. Tumar amar somporko thik emon. Jani, tumi mukh fute sikar korbena. Kintu, ami eta besh buji. Tumi amake dakle kingba ami tumake mone mone feel korlei, amader majhe mon bole othe, keo tumake dakche.

Ami valo nei kingba tumi valo nei, duijonei jani. Kintu, valo thaka dekhanur ek apran cesta kore jai duijone. Aei je ami 5 ta tablet, ekta drop, ekta crim nicchi, tao tumake bolte caina. Lukiye rakhi tumake tension mukto rakhbo vebe. Tumake happy rakhbo bole ager sei dustamigolo korar cesta kori. Kintu, tumi ager moto nou, sei jonnoi barebar amake mone koriye r o kosto bariye dao. Keno emon koro? Vabnagoloke ekpashe rekhe tumi R ami ki ager motoi thakte parina? Jeitoko somoi kotha hoi, at least tokhon mone koro, ami R tumi sei ager motoi achi.

Tumake ekta mitthe bole jacchi besh kichudin dore. Aei jaigai seita sikar kore nilam. Hoyto kono ekdin jante parbe. Ami job ta chere diyechi. R parchina. Tumi konodin bissash korbena, tumake kotota miss kori, kotota kosto hoi amar. Tumi to TV dekhe time par koro, R amar somoigolo sthir hoye thake. Tumar vabna amake sesh kore dicche otocho tumake ta bolina. KI hobe bole? Dhong or ajaira kotha ta shunte ecche korena tumar mukhe.

Babu, keno emon koro? Tumi janona amake tumi dure soranur try korle amar matha nosto hoye jai, paglami bere jai. Ebar jei paglamita korte jacchi, seitai ki cao tumi? AMi dekhte cai, tumi amake koto kosto dite paro? Koto amake aghat korte paro?

Kotodin hoyeche tumake dekhina. Vebechilam aei eid e hoyto kichu picture FB e ashbe. Nah, ashlona and tumake dekhao holona. Khub dekhte ecche korche tumake. Etodin tumake na dekhe thakini kono somoi. Aj sokale phone kore bolla, balance sesh. Janina, abar kobe phone diba. Sei opekkhai achi R tumake dakchi. Babu, shunte parcho? Tumar tarjan tumake valobashi valobashi bole dakche, shuncho tumi? :'(

Keno emon hoi amar sathe?

08.09.2015

 

Khub besto koekta din katalam. Kintu, jar result again SHUNNO. Keno emon hocche amar sathe? Keno barebar tire eshe tori dube jacche? Ami je r parchina. Sukh jeheto kopale nei, dukkhogolo sathe korei to palate cacchi, tao ki amar kopale nei? Aei jontrona niye sobar majhe amake emon bish kheye hojom korar moto ovinoy kore jete hobe?

Dhakai giyechilam koekbar, ekta result jate ebar hoi. Kintu, bidhi-bam. Sob thik thakar por, nimishei sob abar elomelo hoye gelo. Abar, eid er porer jonno opekkha. Mane r o at least 1 month. Ami jokhon chute beracchi, tumi tokhon besh acho. Diner por din tumar adjust kore neoya dekhchi R vitore vitore jontrona golo r o prokot hocche.

Babu, jano ekdik diye ekhono sosthi te achi. Jodio tumake barebar boli net er connection nite, kintu niccho na bolei hoito ekhono amake niye vabar somoi pao. Ami jani, net er line neoya mane holo tumar frnd der sathe addai mete thaka. Amake r tumi feel korbana ekhon jemon koro. Tumake onno kaor sathe kotha bolte dekhlei to amar mejaj thik thakena, eta tumi jano. Sei jaigai tumi ekhon onar sathe acho, eta je kotota pain diye jacche, tumi bujbena. Bujar to dorkar nei, besh acho. Gurte jaccho, ek sathei thakcho! Jano, shimu naki floor e gumato, janina ekhono ghumai naki. R tumi . . .

Pothom jedin tumar-onar pic dekhechilam, sedin khub rag hoyechilo. Ekhon vabi, valoito hoyeche. At least tumake to dekhte pacchi. Aeito sedin tumar cousine ra eshechilo, sei pic. ow dekhechi. Tumake ektu ki mota mota lagchilo? Tobe mukhta fekashe dekhe jotrona golo nara diye otheche. Jai hok, tumake kichudin porpor dekhte parchi, so pic. share korata ekdik diye valoi hocche amar jonno.

Babu, tumake niye ami jotoi vabi, totoi obak hoi. Sei jonnoi budhhoi amar vabna golo eto ghovir hoi. Kolponao korte parini konodin, tumi sob kichu aeivabe mene niba. Emon kichu korte parlena, jate oi tumar sathe relation break korte cai nij thekei? Na tumar to kichui korar nei, etai tumar answer. Sei jonnoi valo meye hoye gele 1 ta year na jetei. Tumi jokhon bolo, aj berate giyechilam, Rater 1 ta, 2 tai bashai firechi, shuni R nijei hashi. Ami jodi pagol hoye jetam, valoi hoto. Paglami korei din cole jeto, tumar o amake niye eto vabte hotona. Hut kore hariye jetam sobar theke. Sobar kache thekeo ami nei.

Valo acho, valo thako, Allah tumake valo rakhuk. Amar jei exam colche, Allah dekhi kobe ta sesh koren. Amar kostogolo amari thakuk, aeivabe cepe cepe jotodin jete pari.

Somoi egucche, R ami . . .

29.08.2015

Din jacche, somoi jacche. Ek ekta din katche bishon jontronai. Moner sathe palla diye sorir tao jontrona bariye coleche. Sei buker betha ta ekhon sakha-prosakha cariye jacche. Somvhoboto aei karonei kashita jacchena. Tar opor ghum, khabare oruchi to achei. Aei niyei ami beche achi. Tumi amake jeivabe rekhe gecho. R tumar sathe ovinoy kore jacchi, valo thakar.

Aj Shonibar. Sei Brihospoti bar theke Shonibar sokal tar jonno opekkha amar. Aj je tumar sathe kotha hobe. Kar jonno opekkha? Week er aei dui din tar onek valo kate. Party, Marketing, bashar baire ber houya. Poti week e emon colche. Ebar to marketing chilo r o valo, Kaner dul kinecho, household items kinecho. Slowly life take maniye niccho. Valo babu, very good.

Jano, goto kichudin age CTG te jaoyate Chapol er sathe dekha hoyechilo. O biye korar por aei pothom. Wife ki niye valoi ache. Amar ki obostha ask kortei jokhon shunlo "I have no plan or dream" jogra shuru korlo. Ami keno theme jabo ta niyei or joto rag. Sokale or sathe dekha hoyechilo and sondhai abar dekha hobar kotha chilo. But, sondhai r dekha korlam na, again onek advice shunbo bole.

May be goto porshu Habib phone korechilo. Habib k tumar mone ache? Oi j age comilla te job kortam and amar sohokormi chilo. Or kotha mone porate sediner kotha again mone pore gelo. Office e kaj korchilam, emon somoi (may be dupurer dike) tumi phone kore kadte lagla and bolla, tumar abbu nei. Matha ta nosto hoye gelo, kemon jeno hoye gelam. Cokher niche pani ashchilo barbar, aei habib amake office theke bashai cole jete bolechilo. O tumar r amar beparta janto. Oops kun kotha theke kun kothai cole gelam. Habib ekhon Oman e thake. Chutite deshe esheche and amake call korlo. Phone korei ask korlo, amar ki obostha, biye koreche naki? Answer dilam na. Tumar kotha bollam. Amar kotha shune vishon rege gelo, bollo kar jonno emon korchish? Toke ki so real valobashto, jodi bashto tobe konodin ow emon korte partona. Ekhon to besh ache toke emon rekhe. Oke bujatei parchilam na, tumar kono dosh nei. Rag kore phone tai rekhe dilo.

Keo e bujbena tumar situation ta ami chara. Ami buji bolei nirobe kosto goloke niye beche achi R opekkha korchi. Ashbe to sei dinta kingba sei news ta. Majhe majhe mone hoi, tumi to used to hoye jaccho, jodi sujog ashleo r pichone na takate cao. Tumi ki emon korte paro amar sathe?

Tumi gela to gela emon deshe, jei deshe BD people restricted. Onek try korchi, kintu good news pacchina. Janina sesh porjonto ki korbo? Amar pokkhe savabik jibone asha somvob noi, jotodin tumake na pabo kingba tumi onake leave korbe. Jano babu, sotti bolchi amar onek kosto hoi. Phone e kotha bolar somoi ami cesta kori jototoko somvob savabik thakar. Ecche korei puranu dustomigolo kori, shudu matro tumar kache amake sei ager Tarzan lagar jonno. Emon vhab korte hoi amake, tumi onar sathe acho amar kichui hocchena. Kintu, aei mon jane kotota koste tumar sob kotha shune se. Kotota jontrona hoi jokhon shuni onar sathe tumi ghure berao, party te jao.

Janina amar kopale ki ache. Tobe may be ebar ekta crucial decision nite hobe. Aeivabe sobar sathe theke etto jontrona moner vitor niye, ami r tikte parbona. Ekta news er jonno wait korchi. R tai tumake kichu mitthe bolechi. Naiba shunle sei mitthegolo, na shunei amake khoma khoma kore dio.

Valo thako babu, r o tumake Allah sokti dek, sob mene niye valo thakar.

Ek mash purno holo

23.08.2015

Aj sei 23 tarikh. Aj sei din, sei rat jei rate tumi amar theke onek dure cole gecho. Sob kichu mene niye tar kache fire gecho. Tumar poribarer sobar kotha vebe tar kachei fire gecho. Aj ek mash purno holo. Aei ek mashe onek kichu dekhlam, sunlam. R mone hocche amar poti tumar birokti barche.

Mone ache babu, sei rater kotha? Bimane othar ageo amar jonno tumar cokhe jol chilo. R aj matro ekta masher bebodhane kotokhani palte gecho tumi. Amar jonno somoi nei tumar. Samanno ektu kotha bolateo kotona ojuhath. Ajke sokale phone diye bolla, aj theke sokale call dibana, bikele diba. Ami r ki bolbo? Ekhon tumi jeivabei bolbe, taito hobe. Amake koruna kore ja dibe, tai dui hath vore nibo.

Sedin kotha prosonghe ask korechilam, kobe firbe? Asnwer chilo, firbena othoba shudu exam dite ashbe next year e. Asolei to keno firbe? Ke kothai tumar jonno boshe ache, tate tumar ki? Er ceye sachondhomoi jibon r hote pare naki tumar? VIP area te thakcho, AC er batashe tumar jor othe rater bela, Nijeder garite kore Party te jaccho onar sathe, bashai nimontron kore khaoyaccho . . prithibir sorgo bola hoi jei deshke, sei deshe thakcho. Eto kichu rekhe ashba keno?

Ami asolei boka kingba tumar kothai, bujeo na bujar vhan kori. Din k din nijer jibon take niye khelchi. Tao tumake sotti bola hoina, osostho thekeo bolte hoi valo achi. Hoyto samne r o bolte hobe, kingba hoyto kono ek somoi sob bola off hoye jabe. Amake kujba tumi? Jante ecche hobe kothai achi ami? Mara gechi naki beche achi?

Hoyto vitore vitore vabba. Tumito ekhon situation buje colo. Amar sathe kotha bola obosthai waiting e peleo somossa, ami ekhan theke call korleo somossa. Koto bujo tumi ekhon. Eto kichu bujo, r aeita bujona koto kosto hocche aei buke. Aei goto ekta mash kivabe keteche? Bujbena tumi, bujar sujog dibona tumake. Bujbena tumi jokhon nijer mukhe bolo, aj party giyecho, onar sathe pic tolecho, ki hoi aei buke. Er ceye beshi jontrona r kichu hote pare bole jana nei.

Thako, tao valo thako. Aj ek mash holo, dekhte dekhte ek bochor hobe. Kintu, aei somoigolote amake tumi kotota kosto diye jabe, ta bujbena tumi. Sobar kotha tumi vabo, tai tumar valoi hobe. R ami nijer kosto niye sobaike amar theke soriye diyechi. Aj ami tumar ekhane, abar fire jabo. Hoyto etai amar niyoti. Dao kosto, koto dite paro. Kichui bolbona.

Tumar agami dingolo valo katuk. Onek valo thako babu.

Beche achi ekhono

21.08.2015

Aj onekdin por likhte boshlam. R o agei likhbo vebeow likhte boshe othe gechi. Ki hobe likhe? Abar porokhone vabi, likhe rakhle at least pore mone porbe dingolor kotha. Jokhon amar pashe keo thakbena, era amake firiye niye jabe fele asha dingolote.

Tumi cole jaoyar por aj pothom likhte boshlam. Aj prai ek mash hoye gelo. Tumi besh acho. Valo acho. Tumake joto dekhi toto ami obak hoi. Aei ki amar Jeni?

Sokale othe nasta dichho ghum theke othe, ranna korcho, gor poriskar korcho. Baire jaccho, party te attend korcho. Guest ashle tader ranna tao tumi korcho! Sotti konodin kolpona kora jayni ja ta tumi korcho.

Otocho ami ki vebechilam jano? Oikhane jaoyar por kichui korbena, chup kore boshe thakba, kichudin pore deshe ashba bole bole onar matha betha kore diba. R tumar bashar kaor sathe kotha bolbana. Kintu, korcho sob olto? Bahsar sobair sathe kingba friend der sathe kotha bolar jonno, amar satheo beshi kotha bolte caona. Amake santona sochok sokale ekta phone call korei sesh. Etai amar onek paoya, taina?

Tumi bashai thakte sobak ke lukiye amake thiki 2-3 bar phone korte parta, R ekhon sokale ekta call korei sesh! Hmm mobile er balance simito. To 5 minute kore venghe venghe kotha bolo. Amakeo phone korte dibana. Tumi caccho ta ki? R o nijeke gutiye niba?

Sara rat ghumao na, jor othe. Kintu, kono medice khacchona. Abar bed er ek pashe naki sthir hoye shuye thako. Sob eto mene niyecho, eta korar ki dorkar? Onar sathe party te jaccho, duijone ek ice cream khaccho, seitar abar picture ow FB e share korcho. Ami tumake aei bepare ask kore cintai pore giyechilam pore. Tumi jodi abar onake ask kore jogra koro. Nah. Tumi to sei ager Jeni nei, ekhon onek kichu bujo. Sob kichu vebe koro, valo laglo tumar cinta vabna shune.

Tumi jedin jao tumake khub dekhte ecche korchilo. Kaktoliovabe Torun tumar ekta picture share korlo FB e. Tumi, torun and Tanin car e boshe acho. Abar tumi oikhane jaoyar por, tumi kothai thako, kemon acho tao jante ecche hocchilo. Abaro Allah rohomot dilen. Tumar cousine ra ashlo, aabar picture pelam. Tumar basha tar somporke ekta idea holo. Bed ta dekhlam, jeitate tumi shouw. Onek poripati room. Tumi onek sukiye gecho, onar pashe tumi aei pothom dekhlam. Tarpor goto 16 tarikhe party er onushthane. Ager theke tumar sorirta ektu thik hoyeche. Aste aste savabik hoccho bujai jacche. Valo babu.

Aj friday. Aj tumi call dibana. Aj tumar party ache, abar jaba and hoyto abar ekta picture dekhte pabo. Jeita amake ektu shanti diye kosto dibe digun. Tao valo, tumake to dekhte pai.

Amar kotha. Hmm onek valo achi etto etto osukh niye. Tumar oikhane eshe pore achi. R sei ager dinei pore achi. Ager kaj e korchi. Tao besh achi. Tumi valo acho, amio achi. Tumi AC room shuye jor othe, R amar vanga room e gorome osthir lage. Din ratri - seo different aj tumar r amar.

Valo thako, onek valo thako. Vor holo, nasta kore kaje jete hobe. Tumio hoyto ektu pore othe nasta banaba. Tai koro, thikmoto koro tumar sob dayitto. Nijer sathe sathe sobaike valo rakho.

Onek valobashi babu tumake R tai eto kotha boli ekhane. Rag korona. Valo thako.

Aj Shei Din, Haranur Din

23.07.2015

Sesh hoye elo amar somoi gonona. Shuru hoye gelo amari exam. Tumar exam nite jeye aj ami nijei exam er samne dariye gelam. Aj theke shudui opekkha. Aj theke shudhui kostogolo cepe rekhe sei dintir jonno opekkha. Hoy mritto noito tumar fire asha. Janina, kunta amar kopale ashbe age. Aj aei dintate eshe sotti nijer future niye ami nijei hotash.

Sondha 6 ta baje. R matro 5 ta ghonta. Erpor tumi cole jaba amar theke onek dure. Ashaba to fire? Nah, mukh fute r bolbona. Tumar kosto bare. Tumake kosto dei, ja shune kingba korle, ta korleow tumake janabona. Tumake kosto deoya mane je nijeke kosto deoya. Tarceye nijer koster sathe niribili boshobash koratai sreo. Kintu, kivabe ami thakbo?

Sei dingolo khub mone porche. Jokhon tumar biye holo, tumi onar sathe chila. R ami ki korechilam (amar shurur post golote ache) sei somoi kosto vhulte. Kotota abnormal hoye gechilam. Nijeke ondhokare thele diyechilam. Ek ek ta din katiyechi tribbo jontronai R tumar sathe kore giyechi sostho manusher achoron. Hoyto sei dingoloi abar fire ashbe. Hoyto ebar r sesh hobena jotodin tumi onar sathe thakba.

Jano babu, sediner tumar kothagolo khub mone porche. Tumi amar jonno 5-10 year ow opekkha korte raji acho, jodi ami tumar exam nei. Otocho aj dekho, sei exam ami e dite jacchi. Keno jacchi, kono folafol hoyto pabona. Kintu, ektai to jibon. Ami jodi savabik jibone fire jai, to ki hobe? Busy hoye jabo, r o kharap hoye jabo. Tarceye tumake niye pore thaki, etai valo hobe. At least onno vabna ashbena, hoyto thikthak moto thakbo buker majhe etto etto kosto niye. Dekhi, ami jiboner aei exam e ki result pai.

Aj onek kotha bolbo, onek na bola kotha ja r konodin bola hobena. Bola hobena, babu tumar tarzan tar sotti onek kosto hoi tao tumake bujhte deina. Jokhon se nijeke control korte pare, tokhon tumar majhe birokti anar jonno tumar opochonder jinishgolo kore. Job chere dilam, jani onek rag korecho. Oi je bollam tumar birokti hote pare amar theke tumar dure sore jaoyar opai. Thik jemonti tumi majhe majhe amar sathe koro. Etto staright answer dao, koste mushre pori. Jotobar ask korechi, ashba to fire? Bolecho, nah, r ashbona. Shudui amake nirash korar jonno. Kintu, amar mon bole tumi amar kosto komabai. Janina, mon ja bole ta tumi korbe kina.

Goto sondhai ektu kotha hoyechilo. Rate phone diba boleo daoni. Bashai onek guest plus kisher jeno jamela bolla. R kono kotha hoini tumar sathe. Hate ache r matro 5 ta ghonta. Tumar voice ta ki shuna hobena? Amake eto kichu theke miss korabe? Ekhono naki bus e tumi, sms diyechila. Hoyto etokhone fufur bashai pouchecho. Somoi hobe ki amake ekta phone korar? Ami j ekhane chotfot korchi. Sara rat keteche nirghum, sara sokal dupur shudu ektu porpor mobile ta hate niye dekhechi, kono sms ki ashlo?

Babu jano, aj vishon ecche korchilo oi loktake ekta call kori. Tarsei baje oktigolo take firiye diye tar manoshik jontrona bariye dei. Tumake ki bolbo tar bola sei kothagolo? Na thak, jei loktar sathe thakte hobe tumake tar mukhe aeisob kotha shunle tumar grinna r o barbe. Thakna take chere dilam tumar jonno. Kintu, take sotti manoshik ekta pain dite ecche korche. Tao maf kore dilam tumar jonno.

Khub kosto hocche, keo bujbena. Tumi sotti bolecho, ami asolei baccha hoye gechi. Bacchader moto kadchi, cinta-vabna golo tao taderi moto. Tumi bujbena aj theke tumi amar jibonta ki kore dila. Sobsomoi shudu family er kotha vebecho. Aei ekta munusher jonno shudu aralei cokher jol felo, ami tumar secret hoyei roilam sarata jibon.

Goto 20 tarikhe tumar sathe last meet korte giyechilam. Etake meet na bole vaggher opor chere diyechilam. Amra duijonei jantam na asolei dekha hobe naki. Sristikorta amader ebarer jonno last meet up korte diben naki. Erporer din sokal 10tar dikeo jantam na asolei tumar sathe ami ekaki dekha korchi.

21/07/2015 - vagghoke donnobad dei. Tumar sathe dekha holo ekaki. Cole geclam amader safe place e. Duijoner kostogolo, dustamigolo, kichu na bola kotha, future er kotha, share holo sei 3 ghonta somoyer moddhe. Hate mehedi diyecho, kotto sundor lagchilo. Mukh fute bollam na, koidin porei jaba onar kache, oni boluk. Tumar mukher spotgolow cole geche, eta niyeo kichu bollam na. Oni bolbe. Asole sotti bolte, spotgolo chilo bole ami onek happy chilam. Amar babu safe e ache, ami shudu dekhbo tumake. Ami shudu jani amar babur sundorjo. Kintu, tumi othepore lagla clean face er jonno, and sofol. Ekhon to tumar theke keo cokh e firate parbena. Ami nijei to parina, takiye thaki R tumi lojjai matha nuiye nao. Ki dekho, lojja lagena na buji, tumar sei great dialogue. Tarpor sopnomoi somoyer somapti. Tumake diye ashlam tumar gontobbe. R ami fire ashlam amar room e. Tumake chere ashtei ecche korchilona, sei jonno 22 tarikheo thakbo thik korlam.

22 tarikh sara sokal tumar opeekhai chilam R bichanai shuye shuye ki hocche ta bujar try korchilam. Vabnar sathe cokher panirao jorjor jorchilo. Onekdin por emon jhum bristy dekhlam. Ekta jinish kheyal korlam, sedin thik emon bristy hoyechilo jedin tumi amake firiye diyechile.

Oboseshe dupure amake phone korla and amio sathe sathe tumar bashar samne oposthit. Tumi bolechila tumar chade otte, amio ceyechilam ektu jodi tumar hath ta dorte pari kingba tumar gayer gran ta. Nah, thik tokhoni ammu baire elen, amar chade otha holona. Sei 13th march er moto sei eki jaygai dariye tumake dekhlam. Nil jama porecho, hatcho olosh vonghite. Pa diye bristy er pani narcho, keo ekjon chade otheche kotha bolcho, sob valo lagche, moner khatai gethe rakhchilam. Abar kobe dekhbo ki jani? R dariye thakte parchilam na, cokhgolo jalaton shuru korlo. R tai ami e agei bollam hater esharai, jao. Tumi hath nere bidai dila. Ebar tumar cokh vijte dekhlam na. Hoyto vijechilo ami dekhte paini, cokher obostha ta valona.

Sedin ow thakte mon caichilo. Kintu, nah tumi bolla cole jete, thik sediner moto. Barbar mone hocchilo sei dintai ki amar life e 2nd bar repeat hoye ashlo? Eki jinish, eki bebohar pelam tumar kach theke. Cokhgolo ke boddo besto rekho thki sare 4 tai beriye porlam tumar theke dure cole ashar pothe. Sara rasta ekta ghurer moddhe chilam. Ki kore nijeke control korbo, ki kore tumake na bujiye kostogolo niye kothao hariye jabo. Eta chara amar opai nei and tumakeo bola jabena.

Rat 11 tai flight. Fufur basha theke jaba. Dirgonissash kingba ekta bibrom amake kothai jeno hariye nicche barebar. Janina, abar kobe likhte boshbo, adho likhar moto obosthai thakbo naki. Sei jonno eto kotha bolechi eto kosto niye. Keno likhechi? Hoyto emni, nijeke ektu jahir korar jonno. Jei valobasha diye tumake amar kore rakhte parini, sei valobashar berthotar kothagolo shunate ceyechi.

Moddho dupure jokhon tumar sathe dekha kore ashchilam, pa colchilona. Nijeke prithibir srestho looser mone hocchilo. Matha nichu kore ek ek ta kodom felchilam, R nijeke grinna korchilam. Ami here gelam babu. Jibon juddhe herei gelam. Amar valobashar kache here gelam. Tumi khoma kore dio amake.

Joto durei thaki, jekhanei thaki, tumi robe amar mone, amar sei Jeni hoye. Prithibita goal, hoyto tumar nijer sohorei amake khuje paba notun ek ceherai. Valo theko, nijer sorirer jotno nio. Mone acheto, amar jonnoi tumar sostho thakte hobe? Valobashar manush ke valobashei bolei opekkhar somoye nijeke vashiye dibo. Ashbeto amake tene tulte?

I love you Jeni. Onek valobashi tumake, konodin bujate parini. Aei sesh sujugta hatchar korbona. Valo theko, r likhte parchina. Allah hafiz babu :'(

Ekta Prosner Ottor Pelam

18.05.2015

Aj Eid-ul-Fitar, ekta kushir din. Aj sobar mone ekta kushi kushi vhab. R prithibite may be amra duiti prani osukhi. Khubi kostokor somoi par korchi, ecche korche somoi ghoritake thamiye dite. R matro koekta din, tarpor shuru hobe osojjo kostokor somoi, ek ek ta din hobe amar boddo oguchalo.

Na, aei diary ta te r kichu likha jabena. Shurute vebechilam, sob ekhane likhe rakhbo, jei kothagolo tumake bola hoina. Amar ovinoy or mitthegolo ekhane likhbo, jate kono ekdin sottigolo tumi jante paro. Amake jate vhul na bujo kingba amake niye jate kono prosno na thake tumar mone. Aei diary er link ta tumar sathe share kore bokami korechi. Agami dingolor obostha tumake ami jante dite caina. Sei jonnoi hoyto khub sigroi kichu kotha ekhaneo hide kora shuru korbo.

Hide kora ekta kotha sedin jante parlam. Aei kothata bohudin tumake ask korte jeyeo korini, goto kal korei answer ta peye fellam. Sotti, eta janar jonno koto try korechi, ta amar ager post golo theke bujte parba. Ki shei prosno?

Amar ektai question chilo, keno tumi onake ektibar amar kotha kingba tumi onar sathe thakte parbena eta boloni? Pelam sei asnwer, dui apur jonno tumi sob mene niyecho. Tumake oni oikhane nebar agei ask korechilo, kono problem ache naki? Tumi asnwer diyechile, kono problem nei. Hoyto tumi thik, asolei to kono problem nei. Tumar opurno ecchegolo to puron hobe. Amake niye vebe keno nijer life e problem deke anbe bolo? Answer ta shune onek kosto peyechei, tobuo tumake show korini. Aei ekta bepar niye tumar kache onek lukochuri amar.

Majhe majhe nijeke jokhon control korte parina, tokhon moner vitorer sob kotha bole feli tumake. R tumar straight asnwer shune kostogolo r o bariye tuli. Janina, ami ki korbo r koidin por tumi cole gele. Sotti, nijer opor control hariye felbo. Hoyto ager jiboni amar niyoti. Tumi to amake asha e dekhate parchona. Jano to ekta kotha, asha chara manush beche thakte parena. Jodio ba bace, seita hoi mrito manuhseri namantor.

Janina, adho tumar sathe r ektibar dekha hobe naki. Tobe dekha houyata amar jonno khub dorkar. Tumake chere ami je thakte parbona, hoyto Habiganj e amar next abashsthol. Opekkha korei ki jabe amar jibon naki tumi amar exam niba? Jai koro, kichui bolbona r. Obossho bolbona bolbona koreow to sob tumake bole feli. Sei jonnoi nijer opor control nei eta besh bujhte pari.

Aj tumi onar barite Eid korte giyecho. Agamikal in Sha Allah cole ashba. Tarpor naki abar gramer bari jaba. Erpore hate thakbe r matro 3 din. Tarmoddhe ki amar jonno somoi hobe tumar? Khub tension hocche, tumake dekhte parbo to?

Tumi onar sathe thakle ami ki ba korte pari bolo? Shudu nijeke kosto deya chara. Thik agerbar jemonti korechilam. Sei jonnoi jhur korina. Thakna valo thako. Sobar kotha to vabo, nijer R amar kotha naiba vabla. Tumi kore jaba compromise or adjust and ami kore jabo life destroy or waiting for death . . . 

Valo thako babu, sob kichu thik hoye jak tumar life er. Kosto hocche and er sesh nei, so coletei thakuk. Etai amar prappo . . . . .

Kichu kotha ja hoyni bola

15.07.2015

Kichu jinish onek kosto kore lukiye jacchilam. And, besh parchilam ow. Kintu, sotti seito ekdin ber hobei. Jantam emon hobe kono ekdin. Kintu, amar apran cesta ke bertho kore aei sesh belai eshe sei secret golo keno ber hobe? Ki sei kotha?

Amar bashai tumake R amake niye khub jamela colche. Ek kothai, tumar bepar ta niye amar bashai ami khub jontronai achi. R sei karonei goto mashe basha theke cole eshechilam and office er bashai othechilam. Amar nijeri aeivabe lukiye kotha bolte valo lagena. Tumake ami valobashi, tumake pabar jonno proposal pathiyechilam, sob kichu live chilo. Lukanur proyojon chilona. Aj tai kotha bolte hobe lukiye, eta amar sojjo hoina. But, bashai sei kajta korte parchilam na sosthite.

Amar mejo vabi, tumar r amar sob kotha janen. Emonki tumar present situation. Amake age tumar kotha ask korto. majkhane amar obostha dekhe, ammu naki amar ki hoyeche ta jante bolechilen. Sedin amar mukh theke sob shune, oni bolechilen, tumi raji thakle tumake niye ashte. Aei bashai ante hobena, jeikhane amader valo lage seikhane thakte. Mot kotha amake inspire korechilo, amake normal life e ashte bolechilo. Tumake aei planta share korar agei tumi ki jeno ekta jamela korechila. So, tumake bola hoini. Indirectly, mejo vabio tumake vhul bujlo. Sathe amakeo. Tarpor theke amar sathe temon ekta kotha bolen na. R amito parotpokkhe bashai thekeo nei.

Eto kotha bolar ki karon? Gotokal ami ctg theke ashar por mejo vabi tumar phone dorechilo. And, tumake emon ekta kotha bolechilo, jeita shune tumi sthombito hoyechila. Hoyto again amake suspect korao shuru korechila. Asole tumar sathe ami kotha boli or jogajog thakuk, keo caina. Thik tumar bashar moto obostha amaro. Kintu, tumake r amake alada kora osomvob. So, ja ache amar monei ache and ami ja korchi, ta korei jabo. Ke ki bollo ta shunina or shunteo caina. Shudu tumi amake emon kore valobeshe jeo, etaito amar santona.

R kichudin, tumar mon kharap ami jani. Amaro boddo beshi kharap lage. Kintu, tumake ami mon kharap kore thakte dite caina. Sei jonnoi jotokhon kotha boli, ektai cesta thake tumake happy rakhar. At least kotha bolar somoitokote tumar mukhe hashi thakuk. Tumar oi hashitai to amar hridspondon. Oi hashita shunle nijer mukher ovhibekti change hoye hashi hashi ekta face hoye othe.

Valo thako babu, beshi vebona. Shudu nijeke niye vabo, amakeow noi. Ami achi, thakbo. So, jedin mon caibe, fire esho amar buke. Ami to r mukh fute caibona. Kostogolo amari thakuk.

Eto pani kothai theke ashe?

13.07.2015

Abar shuru hoyeche amar. Ekaki thaklei cokhgolo japsha hoye othche. Anmonei panio beriye ashche. Cosmata use koreo solution hocchena. Ekta chele kivabe pare emon korte? Keno barebar 23 tarikher kothata mathai gurche? Jotobari mone porche, ojantei cokh duto panite vhore jacche.

Eto kosto keno? Tarceyeo boro kosto sei kostogolo lukiye rakha. Tumake happy rakhar and smiley rakhar apran cesta kore jaoa. Sorir or mone jai coluk, tumar sathe sei ager Trazan er behave kore jaoa. Ektuo bujte dite caina tumake. At least samner dingolo, jei koidin regular kotha hocche. Valo achi ami, etai to amar meki face.

Goto 09/07/2015 tumar sathe dekha holo. Ami er ager din office kore rater 9:30 tar bus e tumar oikhane jaoar jonno rowna diyechilam and vhor sare 6 tai pouchlam. Ekta hotel ow khula nei, oboseshe rastai rastai ghurar por 8 tar dike sei SHAPLA te othlam. Mone pore gelo sei dintar kotha. Tumar biyer 4 din age tumake nite eshechilam.Aei shapla te othechilam pothombar tumar elakai. Sedin onek kedechilam, tao tumar mon golate parini. Tumi amake firiye diyechile. Aei hoteler oi roomtate hoyto ajo amar kannagolo cikkar kore kade, koster cikkar jara tumake sedin tolate pareni. Amake mukher opor bolchila, tumi cole jao. Amar dukre dukre kannagolo koto osohai chilo, firti pothe bus er moddhe bosheo kedechilam. Sei Shapla hotel theke ber holam sare 9 tai.

Pothome gelam Saifuddin hall er samner market e. Tumake kokhono valo kichu dite parini. Sob somoi ecche chilo, kitu ami jabar porei somoi paina kichu kinbo. Kintu, ebar kinlam. Tumar jonno ekta nil shari. Dokane sharita dekhei etto valo laglo, ek kothai kine fellam. Kinar pore cinta korchilam, tumi porba to?

Seikhan theke tumar clg er gate e opekkha korte laglam. Sare 10 ta beje gelo, tumar ashar nam nei. Sharita kine ki bokami korlam? Tumi ashba to? Emonto kokhono hoini? Na, tumi pune 11 tar dike ashla sei dress e. Erpore duijoner cinta kothai jabo? Star e? Kintu . . recently last bar dekha korar por kichu hoyeche ja tumake bola hoini. Sei jonnoi vihon vhoi hocchilo amari. Tao oi jayga chara to opai nei. Jano, sara rasta ami doa porte porte ashchi shudu star er jonno. Jate ja vabchi ta na hoi. Jaoyar por Harun vaike na peye onek kushi holam.

Amra sei 11ta theke araita porjonto chilam. Amader sobceye sukher somoye. Aei somoitoko jodi theme thakto kingba sara jibon emoni thakto, mone mone ekhono boli. Tumake eto kach theke dekha, aei pothom samna samni sharite dekha, thik amar lokkhi babutar moto. Eto sundor lagchilo tumake, shudu chobi tolte ecche hocchilo. Tumar jonno tolteo parina. Tao tolechi besh kichu chobi. Jeigolo amake songho dibe samner dingolote.

2nd bar try koreo amra ki perechi ja ceyechi? Janina, jante ecche korbe sarata jibon. Tumake ordek rastai diye ami cole ashlam dhakate. Dhaka theke ctg. Tarpor, tumar sathe r ekbar dekha korar apran akuti. Kintu, jani ebar ontoto r dekha hocchena. Sei jonnoi kostogolo vishon jontrona dicche buktar vitor.

R matro 9 ta din. Ek pa ek pa kore shudu amar theke dure jabar din goncho. Aeito sesh hoye jacche. Cole jaba tahole, taina? Jao cole, ami ki kore tumake atkabo? Tumar biyer 4 din agei to atkate parini, r aj seto r o osomvhob. Thakna, cole jeye tumi jodi aste aste okay hoye jao, tatei hoyto kichuta shanti pete pari. Hmm rater adhare kingba ekaki somoigolote cokhgolo vijiye dibe kostogoloke. Amar moddhei to thakbe, dekhabona tumake. Tumake je valo thaktei hobe, amar jonno. Tumake sob kichu niye sostho thakte hobe, shudu amar jonno. Tumake sob valobasha niye amar kotha vabte hobe, vabba to?

Etai ki sesh?

06.07.2015

Babu fire esheche. Dhaka theke aj sondhai fireche. Amake jodio khule kichu boleni, tobe visa er problem solve hoyeche nischoi. Etar jonnoi to dhaka jaoa. Sondhai fireche. Kintu, aei kothata ami duibar bollam keno? Karon, babu sondhai esheo amake ektibarer jonno call deini. Emonki aeito kichukkhon age ekta sms pathalo, tar onek matha betha korche. Parle rate phone dibe. Motamoti dore neoya jai aj r phone dibena. Ami eto kotha bolchi keno aei bishoye?

Babu, sei sondhai eshche. She facebook e onekkhon chilo, half an hour er opore. Se ekhon regular facebook e jai, tar friend der sathe adda dei. Kintu, se amake ekti baro bolena, babu facebook e asho kingba oi somoye facebook e aisho. Tar amar sathe kotha furiye jacche. Amake tar sojjo hoina, edaning shudu jogra kore. Otocho tarjonnoi aj amar kono friend nei, facebook bad, mig bad, sob bad. Shudu tar kotha vabtei valo lage. Kosto pacchi and pabo, eta amar niyoti. Tobe jokhon dekhi, babu amar sathe emon korche, tokhon sei kostogolo r o onekgun bere jai. Aj pc te boshbona vebechilam. Kintu, mon bolchilo, babu cole esheche. Mon r o bolchilo, facebook e check korlei bujbo. Jothariti moner daronai sotti holo!

Dekhte dekhte somoigolo sesh hoye jacche. Jani tumar onek kosto hocche, thik amar jotota. Ki korbo ami kichui vebe paina. Mukh fute tumake kichu bolteo parina. Mone mone shudu ekta kothai boli, aj theke 5 year er ager sei babuta kemon kore eto change hoi? Sob kichu mene nei! Amake chara onno kaoke jei jaygai vabtei partona, sekhane aj se onno ekjoner sathe thakte cole jacche onek dure. Amar sobi emotion, late valobasha aj tar kache. E o somvhob, aei sei babu amar.

Dekhi, kemon kore tumi paro amake chere jete. Kemon kore tumi amake kotha diyeo kotha na rakho. kemon kore amar sesh request ta tumi ograjjo koro. Amake deya sesh kotha tao ki rakhba na tumi? Sob kichuur answer er jonnoi ami opekkha korbo. Onar sathe somporko rekhe amake kotodin tumi kosto diye jete paro ta dekha je amar khub dorkar. Jake eto valobashi, je amake naki onek valobashe, sei manush tar ekta exam neyar right nishchoi amar ache. Shudu dur theke opekkhai korbo, konodin shunbo bole, tar sathe babu r thakena, relation nei.

Majhe majhe vabi, apur oni kharap chilo bole apu jayni. Tumi ki emon partena? Tumake ki basha theke ber kore dito? Tumi just mukhei rag dekhiye gecho, kono result ante paroni. Hoyto ecchei chilona. Sei jonnoito aj porjonto konodin onake ektibar bolte paroni, onar sathe tumi thakte parbena. Breakup cao. Olto, aj tumi matha nichu kore onar kachei cole jaccho. Valo babu, amar cokher panigolor hoyto aj kono dam nei tumar kache. Tobe, bujbe kono ekdin jedin ami r thakbona. Shudu doa koro oi dinta jate amar jibone druto ashe. Ami beche theke tumake onno karo sathe dekhte parbona. Dekho bukta fete jacche, dekhcho tumi? :'( 

Bidai Ghonta Beje Gelo

02.07.2015

Amar jiboner sei ondhokor dingolo abar fire ashche. Barbar mone pore jacche last year er sei dingolor kotha. Jodio sei dingolo seibar kichudiner jonno sthayi chilo. Kintu, ebar? Ebar amake sei ondhokar dingolote pore thakte hobe diner por din, hoyto ajibon.

Babu'r desher baire jaoyata confirm hoye geche. Aei masher 23 tarikhe tar flight. Ki obolilai bole felchi. Kintu, amar vitore ki hocche ami shudu janchi, amar cokh shudu dekhiye jacche, amar sorir shudu janan dicche. Kotota kharap lagche keo e bujbena. Amar babutao bujbena, take bujar chance e to dibona. Besh achi, ekhono tar sathe hashchi, dustami korchi. Eto kosto cepe rekhe take shudu dekhanu, tar cole jaoa ta savabik. Ta ami mene niyechi. Asole ki mene niyechi?

Goto 29 tarikh rate tumi amake bad news ta dila. Tumar ticket confirm hoye geche, 23 tarikhe. Cole jaba amar kach theke onek dure. Janina erporer kotha. Ami kivabe thakbo, ager moto paglami shuru korbo. Jei paglamigolo tumi janbena, unless aei diary ta pothom theke pora shuru koro. Ami jani, amar paglamigolo shunle tumi amar opor onek rag korba. Kintu, ami nirupai. Tokhon ami nijei janina ami actually ki kori. Eto valobashi tumake, aj porjonto tumar theke ekta assash pelam na. Tahole bolo amar life ta voboghure hobena to ki hobe?

Agamikal tumi dhaka jaba. Hoyto embassy te final kotha bolte. Sob kichu ghuchanu sesh. Tumio hoyto aste aste nijeke ghuchiye niccho, jodio jani tumi valo nei. Tumar thote kichu ekta hoyeche. But, amar keno jani mone hocche, etai shudu noi. Tumi r o kichu amar theke lukaccho. Tumi eto sohoje doctor er kache jabar moto nou. R nischoi tumar ghum hocchena bolei tumi alatrol mane ghumer owshud khaoya shuru korecho. Sob e amar dharona. Janina, tumi kotota osostho. Duijonei ek onno theke shudu nijeder problem golo lukanur ek apran cesta. Mon kharap koranu off kora. Kintu, samne ki r parbo?

Tumi gele ami kemon kore thakbo? Tumake chara je amar colbena. Jogra korbo abar valobashbo. Sob to tumi amar. Sei tumi kivabe parba amake chere jete? Shudu nijer family er kotha vabla? Valobashar manushtar kotha ekbar vablena? Valobashar manush bolei r o kosto deya jai, taina? Sobai mukh buje sojjo korbena, shudu aei ekta manush chara, taina? R tai sobaike valo rekhe amakei beche nila kosto dibar jonno. R nijeo kosto paba. Keno eto sacrifice?

Amar mone ekta question onek age theke ghure. Sahosh kore tumake konodin bola hoina. Aj ekhane kore feli. Accha, tumi amar jonno family te eto torture or mental pressure e thakla, but keno onake ekbaro bollena tumar-amar kotha? Ammu ki tumake promise koriyechilo? Naki tumi nij thekei caona onake bolte? Khub ecche amar eta janar.. Tumake shurur dike ami onekbar bolcheilam, eta korte. Tumi koroni, emonki kono answer ow daoni. Kintu keno?

Tumi cole jabar sathe sathei job ta chere dibo. Agamikal office e bole dibo. Amar pokkhe somvob noi. Tumi onar sathe thakba, eta je ami mantei parina. R tai janina ebar ki korbo. Shudu vabchi, tumi kemon kore thakba? Onek kosto hobe jani. Tumar jonno shudu doa korbo, jei obosthai thaki. Thik jemon gotobar korechilam. Tumi valo thako, shudu valo thako. Sobai ke valo rakho. Valobashi bolei etai kammo kori.

Procondo manoshik caape achi

29.06.2015

Khub khub khub kharap somoi jacche amar. Jodio houyar kotha chilo olto. Matro 3 din age tumar sathe dekha kore ashlam. Tumar sathe dekha kora maneito amar jonno amar atta kingba mon shanto kore rakha. Kintu, ebar emon keno holo? Kichui bujte parchina.

Goto 26th and 27th June, tumar sathe dekha hoi and erpor theke Ek ekta din ami vhoye chupse thaki. Phone ta beje othlei koljeta cirik mere othe. Ebarer meetup e eto problem hobe janle at least tumake oikhane niye jetam na. Sob kichui keno jani ekta link ache mone hocche. Harun vai er amar kache taka dar caoya, erpor . . . . Thik buje otte parchina actually oidike ki hocche. Ishh keo ekjon jodi oikhane thakto ekta khobor nitam, tao plan kora kivabe nibo. Poricito ekjon manusher jonno kajta hocchena, R ami vhoye sukiye jacchi.

Ghum hocchena, khete parchina, jao ghum lege ashe porokkhone phn ta ki bajlo, aei voye lafiye othe mbl ta dekhi. Eto manoshik caape achi tao tumar sathe share korte parchina. Ami caina, tumake notun kore r o mental pressure e felte. Emnitei tumi valo nei ta ami jani.

Asolei ki tumi valo nei? Abar FB e ashcho, frnd der sathe chat korcho, profile picture diccho . . sobaike bole beraccho valo acho. R koidin pore amake chere cole jaba, sob thik hoye jabe. Amake jate somoi dei tao naki bolecho kacher manushgoloke. Jekhane tumari ecche nei, sekhane oder ki dhai poreche amake somoi dibe bolo? Jani, ja hobe valoi hobe tumar jonno. Komto holona, 1 year paar hoye geche. Tumar life take thik kora ochit. Amar jonno vebe vebe keno miche eto frnd, eto somoi, family member der mlan mukh dekhba bolo?

Jao cole jao. Amake niye vabte hobena. Amar jibon cole jabe thik ekhon jemon jacche. Tumake R ashar kothaow bolbona. Jemon kore sob cepe rakhi, tokhono hoito temoni rakhbo. Kingba r o beshi rakhbo. Morte morte hoito bolbo, Babu ami valo achi. Tumar babu besh ache, beche ache aeito beshi.

Valo thako lokkhita. Onek valobashi tumake . . .

R o osthir somoi . . .

22.06.2015

Din goriye jacche. Ek ek ta din amar kache onek mulloban. Ek ek ta din jacche, amar majhe ami sukiye jacchi. Othoco kaoke bujte deya jabena, specially tumake. Tao amake potiniyoto tumake happy rakhar jonno valo thakar, happy thakar try kore jete hoi. Jeitoko somoi kotha hoi, thik totokhon. Erpor ami abar sei vhoye kingba haranur suke shudui vitor vitor venghe porchi.

Dirgo ekti bochor por tumi FB e status diyecho, chat korecho. Moner vitor theke ke jeno bole othlo, aeito ager babu ta fire ashche. Sei status er fuyara kingba frnd der bestota chat er duniyai. Sob kichui fire ashbe, shudu amakei tumi sei prithibite thakte dibena. Sekhane amar jonno tumi opekkha korbena kingba amar jonno kono text ashbena. Amake pichone fele tumi agiye jaba samne, tai jao. Eto cesta kori tumake pichone dakbona, kintu phone e kotha bolar somoi eki kotha boli. Tumar vashai eki dialouge, aj dupureo bolechila. Kintu, moner kothatai to barbar ber hoye ashe, tumi ki seita bujo?

Tumi kokhonoi amake bujbena. Tumi ki kokhonoi amar kosto komanur try korbena? Jodi nai koro, tateow khoti nei. Tumar valo thakatai amar mukkho bepar. Eto valobashi, r tumar sukh dekhe jodi ami kosto pai tobe amar valobashar mollo thakbena. Sei jonnoi, tumi ja korte jaccho, tate badha dibona. Kichu bolbona. Valobasha seto amader mone mone ache, sei valobasha sotti hole tumi kono ekdin tar proman diba. Jotoi sikol thakuk, jotoi badha thakuk, amar jonno noi, amader valobashar jonno tumi fire ashbe tumar kache. jei prithibite shudu tumi eka thakbe, hoito seidin ami thakbona. Amake khoma kore dio. Jodi kokhono dekho ami kono sara dicchina, tobe vebe nio tumar babuta tumar theke sotti onek dure cole geche.

Mone ache tumar, kono ekdin tumi bolechile, "Aei prithibite naiba pelam, opare jate tumake pai". Sei opar thekei tumar sathe ami thakbo. Tumi chara amar k ache? Aei sotti ta ki bujo? Amar sob kotha, sob abeg, sob valobasha sob to tumake ghire. Jani, eshob sob tumar kache vhab (amar). Kintu, ami jani kono ekdin tumi thik bujbe amai.

Jibontake ekta single room e niye eshechi aj koekdin holo. Sobar theke dure. Bolte paro amar postoti nicchi. Bakita jibon jotodin pran ache, kivabe jibonta katabo seita vebe neyar try korchi. Sei jonnoi, sobar theke dure eshe ekaki kotha bolar ekta asroi kuje niyechi. 9-5 ta duty kore, hate amar ofuronto somoi tumake niye vabar. Sondha theke vebe jai, r koto kolpona kori. Mojar bishoi poti bare tumi sei kolponai rong dele diye amake bastobe niye asho.

Vabchi, shudu vabchi. In Sha Allah tumar sathe dekha hobe. Kintu, din k din tumi onek strong hoye jaccho, keno jani amar mon onno kotha bolche. Thak kichu bolbona, dekhi amar moner darona ta sotti hoi naki. Aei jemon ektu age tumar sathe kotha holo. Kothai jeno ekta badha, ami kichu bollei tumi amake past niye barebar kucha dao. Amar kono kotha ekhon somapti khuje paina tumar samne. Tumi amake ek dakkhai kotha break korte baddho koro. Tao valo, tumi ekhono ager moto acho.

Aei babutake ami amar motoi cini. Tar opor amar onek astha. Tar opor onodhikar corca korteo badhe na. Karon, tumi je amar babu. Tumake je onek valobashi. Valo thako sob somoi.

Rujar Mash ta Eshei Gelo .....

15.06.2015

R koek din por ruja shuru hobe. R koekta din por theke ekta ekta din hobe amar moner opor pressure baranur din. Emnitei valo nei. Tao, tumake na dekhanur apran cesta kore jai. Tao majhe majhe dora pore jai R tumi amake vhul bujo.

Goto porshu tumar sathe abar dekha hobar kotha chilo. Kintu, durvagghobosoto ebar plan er bastabayon holona. R etei tumi amake ki bolla? Tumake ebar amar moto kore pabona bolei ami jete caini. Aei bujle amake? Babu, sotti bolchi tumi ja vebacho ta noy. Shuru thekei kokhono ami emon caini. Tarporeo mitthe bolbona, tumar kache gelei ami onnorokom hoye jai. Tumake onek miss kori bolei etto ador korte ecche kore. Ami asole nijer opor control hariye felechi. Tumi joto dure sore jaccho, totoi ami depression e pore jacchi.

Babu, dekhecho tumake ami jei kotha dei, ta rakhi. Tumake kotha diyechilam, ami job korbo abar. R tai, job e join korlam. Aj ctg te ashlam. But, tumar kotha etobeshi mone pore je amar pokkhe r jobta kora somvob hocchena. Sotti, bukta dukduk kore. Tumi hariye jabe .... Keno amar moto kore tumi tumar kothagolo rakhcho na? Oikhane na gele hoina?

Aei matro tumar sathe phone e kotha holo. Again same vhul korlam. Jeshob kotha kokhono tumake bolbona bole thik korechi, seisob kothau bole dilam. Dhet.Ki je hoi amar, tumake amar shob gopon plan janiye dicchi. Eta thik hocchena. Ete je tumi r o beshi kosto paba, ami ta jani. Eto cesta kori, khub savabik thakar try korbo. But, tumar sathe kotha bollei sob control power hariye feli mon theke. Ouff, ki korchi ami?

Babu, ajke amake raganur jonno ki bolla, "Ami r fire ashbona"? Jodi nao fire asho, tobou ami emoni thakbo. Tumar jonno opekkharoto. Dekhi tumi amake koto opekkha korate paro or koto kosto dite paro oi onar sathe theke. Sotti bolchi, etai tumar last exam amar pokkho theke.

Goto rat ektuow ghum hoini. Sara rat vebechi ki hobe amar? R to kichudin. AMi ki kore thakbo? Babu parona, tumar sei ager ekgeyemi rag ta r ekbar dekhate? Parona oikhane na jeye ekhane thakte? Amake emon poristhite fele tumio je valo thakbena. Eta ami ki kore mani?

Eto kosto keno? Tumake eto valobashi tao keno tumi aj ammake eto kosto diccho? Kono somoi ki amake bujbana? :'(

Koto kotha jome geche . . .

01.06.2015

Aj onekdin pore likhte ashlam. Asole eto kichu gote jacche, likhbo likhbo kore likha hoye otchilona. R tai jomte jomte kothar vandhar hoye geche. Notun ekta mash shuru holo, vebe dekhlam r kichudin pore bigoto dingulor srity'r opor bsrity's astor pore jete pare. Sei jonnoi r o beshi fire asha amar ostitter majhe, diary er patai.

10.05.2015 < Amar jormodin chilo. Aei pothom oops na ditiyo bar tumar theke 1st wish ta pelam na. Olto tumar sathe rag ovhiman holo phone receive kora, na kora niye. Goto bochor jei agun jolchilo buker moddhe, ebaro sei agun chilo. Kintu, ager moto noi. Keno jani, mone hocchilo, amar babuta ekhono to amake valobashe. Jormodine etai amar sera opohar.

Tarpore, majher dingolo keteche khub kharap. Khub ostho hoye porechilam, may be etota sick amar life ekhono porjonto r hoini. Traporeo cesta kore giyechi tumake kichu na bujte dite. Onek kichu lukiye rakhte. Tao phone e kotha bolar somoi mukh foske onek kotha ber hoye jeto, r tai kichu kichu tumi jene jeta. Aste aste ektu sostho holam, and tumake dekhar jonno osthir hoye porlam. Jabo jabo kore shudu date pichacchilo.

19.05.2015 < Oboseshe 18 tarikhe plan moto ami tumar oikhane gelam. Ebari pothom tumar oikhane pouche sondhar pore tumar bashar samne janini. mathar opor onek cinta gurchilo. Hotel othlam and sarakhon vabte laglam, agamikal ki korbo? Kothai jabo babuke niye . .

Sokale kothamoto ami clg er samne jeye wait korte laglam. Tumar M.A. admission er form joma deyar last date chilo. So, eta korata important chilo. But, clg er staff e asheni, so amra kichu time pelam. Baki somoi seto dream chilo. Amader jiboner sobceye anondo and sukher somoi. Abar seikhane and same feelings with kichu na paoyar afsos. Amader majhe borabori emon ekta afsos niye dekhar porbo sesh hoi. Tobe, tumake kushi kingba mon valo kore dite parlei amar onek anondo hoi. Sei anondo niyei tumake bashar pothe chere amio fire ashlam amar bashai. Etto valobashi, hoyto ajo tumake bujatei parini.

Kono jormodin e tumi amake gift chara rakhoni. Ebaro pelam, ekta watch, onek sundor. Thanks babu.

Tumar oikhan theke ashar por theke monta osthir hoye ache. R o tumake dekhte cai, pashe thakte cai. Taropor basha theke barbar bolche, ebar ekta job korte. Mezo vaiar office e new post create hoyeche, CTG office er senior admin. Onek na na kore vablam 1-2 weeks kore dekhi ki hoi. Aj amar dhakai jaoyar kotha chilo. But, aj jaoa holona, in sha allah agamikla jaoa hote pare.

Amar life e ekhon porjonto class neini or lecture ow deini. But, last week ekhane Government ekta traning center e 2 hours er ekta class nilam. Ouff, eto kosto. Tao, valoi laglo. Oikhaner manager onek request korlo poti week e ekta class nite. But, again ami pichiye ashlam. Oi class er por oi pothe r pa baraini. Dekhi, samne ki hoi. 

Kichui valo lagena. Aste aste je sei somoi kache cole ashche. Aeito r kichudin por ruja shuru hoye jabe. Tarpor, tumi .... Kichutei mene nite parina tumar emon siddhanto. Abar vabi, dekhi babu amar jonno ki kore? Kichu bolbona. Amar jonno firre ashbe ki babu? Naki, seo bolbe sikol paye lege ache, kichui korar nei tar.

Janina, ki korbo tumi cole gele. Shudu jani, amake tumi valo thakte dibena. Abar hoyto odvhot cintar bastobayon korbo. Abar hariye jabo seisob dingolote. Kintu keno? Tumake onek onek valobashi bole. Amar mon or hridoy jure shudu tumi acho. Onek valobashi tumake babu :'(

Ki kora ochit amar?

08.05.2015

Bukta dukduk korche. Sei dupure tumar sathe kotha bolar por theke. Ebarer ososthotar por theke olpotei ami tired or osthir hoye pori. Self control budhhoi hariye felchi. Aj hok, kal hok, ja ekdin hobei ta vebei ami din din vitore vitore sesh hoye jacchi. Kichutei nijeke control korte parina.

Jao sob kichu theke nijer akorson kome ashchilo, ebarer ososthota r o amake life somporke akorshonhin kore feleche. Beche theke lab ki? Ekek ekek ta din baca manei to pap kore jaoa, r buk vora afsos pushe rakha. Sorir ta jao ektu valo hocchilo, again may be fall korbe. Khub betha hocche buker moddhe. Ki onayeshe tumi bole felo, amake ektu santonao dite ecche korena?

Sediner gotonar por theke tumar sathe valo kore kotha bola hoina. Alpo somoi porei tumi rakhi rakhi shuru kore dao. Aj kothar fake ask korechilam, jaoyar ki holo? Bolla, eid er pore (july er seshe). Bah, ki valo news. Odhik sukhe amar buk kapteche, matha jhim dore ache.  Amake chere oi tar sathe thakba, tao oikhane. Aei jinishta ami keno mante parina? Aei je tumi deshe eka acho, amar keno nijer moddhe ekta sosthi kaj kore? Tumar pashe ami j onno kaoke vabte parina. Parona tumi ekta jamela lagate onar sathe? Aj porjonto bolte parlena, tumar pokkhe onar sathe thaka somvob noi. Sob kichu mene niye amake chere cole jaba, taina? Jao, tao valo thako. R kichu tumake bolbona. Aei jonnoi to amar ososthota kingba bad news golo tumar sathe kom share kori. Tao jorer ghore ebar sick er beparta tumake janiye felechilam.

Babu, tumake je onek valobashi. Onek miss kori. Amar nijer jaoyar bepartao jule ache. Keno emon hocche amar sathe? Jeitatei hath dei, shudu problem. Allah ki aei ekta bepare amake help korte parena? Janina, r o ki opekkha korche. Tobe ami cesta korei jabo. Amake je partei hobe, tumake ami kotha diyechi. Tumar moto ami hote parbona. Amake koto promise kore tumi konotai rakhoni. Sesh tumar kache caoya, tumi fire asho amar kache, at least tumi eka thako. Tumake emonvabe onno kaor sathe somporke joriye thakte dekhle amar vishon kharap and rag hoi. Amio to manush, kivabe ami sojjo kori ekbar vaboto?

Kichudin age shunechilam, onar sathe tumar jogra hoyeche and oni boleche tumake oni niben na oikhane. Shune ki kushi hoyechilam vitore vitore. But, aj abar olta kotha shune sei vhoi amake sesh kore felche. Onar sathe tumar kotha bolte kemon lage, jante ecche kore? Parona onar sathe jogajog off korte? Na, ta korle ki hobe? Tumar to bideshe jete hobe, nijer life settle korte hobe family er jonno. Sobar kotha vabo, shudu amar kotha chara. Valo, khub valo, kichu bolar nei :'(

Khub miss korchi tumai

03.05.2015

Babu, khub miss korchi tumake. Dirgo 10 din por aj ektu valo lagai PC te boshte parlam. Aei ostho sorir niye goto rat 1 ta porjonto tumar jonno wait korechi. Aj saradin, sara sondha phone ta niye boshe achi. Amar life e may be emonvabe sorir kokhonoi venghe poreni. Tao, kichuta valo hoyeo shanti pacchina. Besh to goto 10 ta din ghumiye kingba jimiye katiyechilam. Aj cetona golo jagroto hoye ami ki dekhchi?

Amar babu amake phone korchena! Otocho 29 tarikhe bikele se oi ID er password change koreche, amake ektu bolar proyojon ow mone koreni! Abar ki tumi amake paglami korar jonno odvhukto korcho?

Mathata sotti thik nei, janina ki korbo. Tobe eta thik abar ami ashchi. Ebar na hoy tumi na bolatei ashlam. Tumito jano, tumar sathe kotha na bolle amar matha kaj korena. Ami onno rokom hoye jai. But, ki holo, kenoi ba emon korcho? Amar sorir take dekhle bodhhoy emon korte partena babu :(

Emmnite sediner gotonar por theke amar matha thik nei. Tao jedin veblam aei osostho sorir niyei tumar oikhane jabo, sedin tumi phone dila. Valoi to kotha bollam. Erporer koidin ami hospital e admit chilam, jor komchilona. Eta tumake bolini, cause tumi onek mon kharap and vhoi peta. Sei jonno ami phone receive ow korte parini. But, tumi eta niye amar sathe ragaragi shuru korla. Onek bujalam. kichui bujte chailena. Sob amar kopal. Ouff nijer life ta niye ami etota depress, sotti amar life ta ami nijer hatei nosto korbo.

Tumar bashai problem bole sedin phone rekhe dila. But, sei brihospoti bar theke tumar kono khobor nei. Aj robibar, tao phone pelam na. Aeidike kichuta sostho houyar por theke tumar voice ta shunar jonno mon kemon korche. Babu, daona ekta phone. Khub kosto hocche to amar.

O accha, amar ki hoyeche shunba? Rokto shunnota, chest e problem, and may be diabetics ow. Main problem hocche, reportgolo amake dekhte dicchena. Shudu bolche, 7 din aei anitibiotic er course caliye jete hobe and then again oi doctor ke dekhate hobe. Hok, ja kushi. R o hok, ami to tai cai. Sesh hoye jai ami. Emnitite jokhon moron hobena, ruger basha badhiye sesh hoy. Nah, kaoke jontrona dibona. Jokhon beshi sick hobo, dure kothao cole jabo.

Moner vhoita to amake ghire dorche. Tobe ki tumi cole gecho? Naki cole jaba kichu diner moddhe, tai emon gutiye niccho  nijeke? Ouff, valo lagena. Ekhon ektu cinta korlei matha vishon betha kore. Gharer rogta chire jabe mone hoi. R parina babu, fire asho amar kache. Amake aei kosto theke rehai dao babi, please :'(

Abar bishal problem !!!

20.04.2015

Eta ki holo abar amader sathe? Ouff, keno barebar emon hoi? Potita bar keno tumi emon bokami golo koro, jar kosto golo pete hoi amader duijon kei. Kichudin valo thakar pore emon houya ta thambe na? Naki ebar ekebare sesh e kore dila?

Etto etto prosno, keno emon holo? Khub to valo chilam. Moner moddhe ekta vhoi, kokhon tumi cole jaba R tumake pashe pacchi aei somoigulute (hokna kichu somoyer jonno). Sob abar tumi elomelo kore dila. Nah, budhoi ami e korechi. Ouff osojjo.

Sediner por theke aei cintaci cintaci etotai sick hoyechi, aj 3 din pore sei diner kotha ta ekhane likhte boshlam pain killer and golai kapor pechiye. Allah, keno amder duijon ke eto kosto diccho? Eker por ek aghate je duijonei tal-matal hoye porchi. Jodi sostho thaktam, tobe sotti agamikal e tumar oikhane cole jetam. At least amake jodi ekta bar dekho, hoyto tumar monta ektu change hobe kingba kotha bolar ekbar cesta korba. Tao parchina aei muhurte. Tobe, ektu sorirta valo holei, cole ashbo. Ebar na hoi tumake na janiyei tumar oikhane ashlam. Kopal valo hole hoito janala diye ekbar dekhte parbo.

17 tarikh rat 12 tar kichu por. Valoi to kotha bolchilam. Hotat korei mobile tipatipir sobdho shunlam and tumi line kete dila. Amio wait korte laglam tumar phone back er jonno. Ektu porei phone dila, ami call kete call back korlam. Kintu, eki? Aei j aunty er gola. AMi chup hoye roilam and kichukhon pore line kete dilam. Bujlam, sorbonash hoyeche. Tarpore r o 2 bar phone diyechilo, but dorini. Er por rate arai tay airtel number theke call ashlo. Last e 106. Tao receive korlam na. Totokhone mathai tufan colche, ekhon ki hobe? Babuta ki korche? Eto oshanti lagchilo ki korbo ta vebe vebe.

Sokale shunlam JC bd te esheche. Taratari ekta plan korlam. JC ke sob khule bollam and bujiye bollam ki bolte hobe. JC sujon vaiyer sathe kotha bollo and janalo, phone ta se korechilo. But, tumar basha theke onno karo sathe kotha bola nished, sei jonnoi se chup korechilo. Keo jate tumake vhul na buje. R tokhoni se jante parlo, tumi karo nam boloni, R sei jonnoi tumake sobai sondheho beshi korche. Tai sujon vaike naki o request koreche, oni jate tumake help koren. But, sujon vai barbar onar sathe kotha bolte caichilo. But, JC esheche or baba sick dekhe. O prai ICU te thake or babar pashe. Phone dorata possible na. 18 tarikhe oi airtel number theke again call korechilo oke, o naki silent korte jeye call ketediyechilo. Tarpor, FB e sujon vaike eta bolte eshe dekhe, onar profile disable. Oni JC k delete koreche naki profile temporarily off koreche, ta bujte parchena.

Jai hok, ekhon ami ki korbo? Tumar sathe aj 4 din kotha hoina. kemon acho? Ekta bar ki ekta sms pathanu jaina, call na hoi bad e dilam. Please babu, eto toko koro. Ami je parchina.

Notun bochor ta shuru hoyechilo tumar sathe jogra diye. R tar 3 din porei emon ekta gotona. Tobe ki tumar sathe abar amar jogajog off hoye gelo? Na hobena, ami ashtechi tumar oikhane. Dorkar hole again ager moto hoye jabo . . .

Shuvo noboborsho 1422 Babu . .

16.04.2015

Noboborsher aj 2 din pore tumake ekhane shuvo noboborsho janalam. Jodio Bangla notun bochorer dinei tumake wish korar souvaggho kingba durvaggho amar hoyeche. Jodio etake ki bola ochit, janina. Cause, phone dorei tumi shuru korla jogra. Sesh porjonto to r phone e dilena oidin. Emonki er porer din ow valo kore kothai bollena amar sathe. Khub mon kharap kore diyechile amar oi duita din.

R o ekta new bochor shuru holo. Pohela boishaker din khub mone porchilo last year er srity golo. Ki na korechi sei rodh fata dingolote. Hut kore bristy nama, R ami vije vije hotel eshe dekhi current nei. Tarpor ondhokare room e boshe boshe ebar ghame vijte hoto. Tar majhe cotfot kortam, kokhon tumi online e ashba. Tumar sathe kotha bolbo. Ouff, sei dingolo . . .

Thak, aj r oishob niye kotha bolbona. Amake mitthe anondho dite tumar valo lage R ami gadha tao asole sob jeneow anondho nei/pai. Gotokal tumake ask korechilam, tumar oikhane jabar bepare ki holo? Tumi answer dila, jaoa hobena. Oni naki tumake ekhanei rakhben. Shune je amar ki holo. Onek kushi hoye gelam. Sotti, eta hole amar theke kushi r keo beshi hobena. Sotti jodi eta true hoto. But, ami jani hut kore ekdin bolba, babu amake cole jete hobe. Aei kothar voye dindin tension berei coleche. R ami abar osostho hoye porchi.

Joto kichui hok, tumar jonno valo thakte hobe amake. Tumar jonno amake jeivabei hok opekkhar prohor ghune jete hobe . . . 

Kichu ekta hocche amar majhe?

10.04.2015

Thik buje otte parchina. Kintu, feel korchi ek capa ososthi kingba kosto. Sotti, onek kharap lagche. Matha jam hoye ache, sorire betha korche, R mon se nijeo janena tar ki hoyeche. Eto kosto hocche keno? Dom bondho hoye ashche, eto tension ami je R nite parchina.

Ouff, eto kosto, eto manoshik bikar, etto etto cinta . . . ami je r parchina. R parchina ami ovinoy korte, R parchina amar sei stong power "Doirjo" dore rakhte. Mukhe kulup ete boshe achi, karon aei mukh khula mane bashai ekta agun lagbe. Rager mathai ki na ki bole hulsthul badiye dibo. Caropasher problem amake frustration e dubiye diyeche R ami shudhui nishphish kore jacchi.

Babu tao khub cintaci ache. Bashai boleche se Rujar pore chara oikhane jabena, eta niye naki khub somossa hocche. Goto 4-5 dine valo kore 10-15 minute tar sathe kotha bolte parini. Ki hocche, amake khuleo bolchena. Shudu aeitoko bujchi, babu valo nei. Ouff, tumar kosto dekhle je amar mathat r o beshi nosto hoye jai. Ki korbo ami?

Ajke nana bari giyechila. Janina, kotha hobe naki tumar sathe. Jodi hoi, ami jani staright problem somporke jante caile, tumi ariye jaba or mon kharap kore felba. Sei jonnoi tumake kichu ask korina kingba amar bepare kichu kichu jinish bolina. Tumar mon kharap hoi emon kichu korte je amar vishon badhe. R tai tumi jemon cao, temon behave kore colechi tumar sathe . . .

R valo lagchena, aj r likhte parbona ... boddo kosto hocche buktate 

4 mash pore dekha . . .

06.04.2015

Dirgo 4 mash pore tumake dekhlam. Dirgo 4 mashe tumar majhe ki ki poriborton esheche ta bujhar onek cesta korlam. Tobe, amar samne jotokhon chila, totokhon kichui bujhte parini. Bolte paro, tumake dekhle ami hipnotized hoye jai. Tumar sob kichui amar valo lage (shudu ragta chara). Aei j tumar dike takiye thakle, tumi cokh bondho kore felo kingba amar dike takate bolle, lojjai mukh nichu kore felo, sob kichutei onek onek valo laga joriye ache.

Dirgo 4 ta mash. Sei November er 16th day te tumar sathe amar sei soronio dekha houyar por oboseshe gotokal. Jano, ebar dekha houyar ag porjonto ami sure chilam na, adho ki dekha hobe? Karon sei 16th November er por theke tumake ami jotoi dekhechi (shunechi), totoi nijer majhe vhito hoye porechi. Amar babuta ke hariye felar vhoi, ekek din jai, R tar majhe shudui driota dekhe ami vitore vitore nishpish korchilam. Kintu, gotokal tumake dekhar por, bolte paro kichu sosthi peyechi.

Amar aei dairy ta amar (kingba pore hobe tumaro) sritir vandar. Tumar amar jibone ja kichui gote, cesta kore ekhane likhe rakhte. Hoyto, kono eksomoi srity boka banate pare, take khuje petei ekhane sob likhe rakha. Jodio jani, kono ekdin jodi tumi eta poro, amar kopale dukkho bohugun bere jabe.

5th April, tumar sathe dekha korlam. Amar kolijar sathe dekha holo. Ouff tumake dekhlei buker majhtate ek shnati boye jai, tumake chartei ecche hoina. Ecche kore buk tate joriye dore rakhi.

Shuru thekei boli. Tumar amar plan onujayi ami gelam Shonibare tumar oikhane. Sei sokal 11 tar bu e othe tumar oikhane jeye pouchlam, pone 5 tai. Jothariti amar sei puranu hotel e othlam. Ora room rent bariyeche. Rent baranur karone naki janina, tobe ebar theke valo legeche. Room e shuye chilam, tumar sms pelam. Tumar kothamoto sondha 7 tar ektu age tumar oikhane gelam. Giye dekhi amar babuta janalar pashe boshe ache. Ouff eto sundor lagchilo, seita ki bujanu jabe! 1 bar dekhe mon vorlona, r o ekbar ghure tumake dekhlam. mathai cinta, keo dekhbenato. Jai hok, tumake dekhe Shimur aunty'r bashai gelam. Bidhi bam, dorjai ek tala julche. Niche namar somoi ek aunty k ask kore sure holam, onara achen but may be aei muhurte onno kothao ache. Plan edit kore thik korlam, sokale r ekbar try korbo. Aei vebe oikhan theke hatte hatte Library te dukhlam.

Tumar jonno 7ti nilpoddo, mane 7 ti boi kinlam. Ecche chilo, rat jege sobgolo boi pore felbo. Kintu, ami ashlei budhoi tumar aeikhane current er problem beshi hoi! Sondha theke current nei, r tai Sumonto aslamer boigolow pora holona. Tumar jonno ekta aunty kinbo vablam. Kintu, hotat mone porlo, aei muhurte amar kache eto taka nei. Shimu taka dicchena, sathe selim ow guracche. R oidiker sare 3 er problem to colchei. Manushke help korte jeye ekhon amar nijeri help nebar proyojon hoye poreche. Jodio jani, amar problem hobena in sha allah, tumar doa ache + amar nijer exam to sesh hoini. Amito ekhono exam diye colechi tumar kache kingba tumi amar kache.

Jai hok, rate tumi sms dila sokaler plan janiye. Ami seivabei ready hoye tumar campus gate er pasher hotel e wait korchilam. Tar majhei tumi phone kore confirm korla, tumi ashtecho. Ouff shunei khub sosthi pelam. Karon, etokhon tension e chilam, tumi ashbato. Jai hok, kichukhon pore tumi ashla but borka pore. Pothome to ami cintei parini. Tarpore tumar pichone pichone department e gelam. office e jeye MBA admission er khobor nilam. Tarpore, tumi ami hariye gelam.

Tumake niye gurte laglam Lakhai road e, tarpore bus stand er road e, tarpore city er main road e. Emon ekta ricsha driver nilam, ja mone thakbe bohudin. Tumar sei hashi, sei chani amake shudu bolchilo, tumake r beshi valobashte cai babu. Jate kokhono tumar valobashar kache amar harte na hoi. Tumake ador korlam, tumio amake. Onek valo lagchilo, jotokhon thako pashe shudui mone hoi, keno thakona sob somoi emon kore?

Dupur 2 tar dike campus e fire eshe sirite dariye tumi borka khulla. Tumake aei dress ta te onek sundor lagchilo. Tumake jei dress e dekhi, seitai valo lage. Hoyto tumake beshi valobashi bole. Sirite kichu pic tole tumi amake bidai janiye cole gela. Tumar pichone gate porjonto ashlam and tumar cole jabar dike taike roilam. Sathe sathe ekta ricsha niye pichone pichone ashlam kichudur. Kintu, nah ekti bar pichone fire takale na. Monta khub caichilo, ekbar pichone takao. Tumar oi mukhta r o ekbar dekhar sujog kore dao.

Bikel thik 3 tar bus e othlam. Eto pocha garite maybe tumar oikhan theke ashar somoi r kokhono othini. Thik rater 9 tai bashai duklam. Sara sorire betha, kaoke kichu bolteo parchilam na. Eto bethar majhe ekta sukh kingba sosthijonok onuvhoti. Amar babutake kichu somoyer jonno holeo pabar proshanti.

Janina, abar kobe dekha hobe. Tumar opor depend korche. Tumi bollei abar chute jabo, amar attar tan je tumar sathe. Eto valobashi tumake, tumake chere thaka je koto koster, ouff. Janina, tumi amake aei koste fele dile, tao kono ovijog nei. Shudu onurod, amar kache fire esho kono ekdin. Kono ek boroshai, kingba kono ek ojjoltomo dine, amake r o ekti bar bacar sopno dekhate. Totodin tumi valo thako, sostho thako Babu.

Countdown shuru hoye gelo . . .

29.03.2015

Kichukhon age (sare 9tai) tumi dhaka theke esecho. Fire eshecho sei news niye, jeitar voye goto koek mash dore ami vitore vitore shudui jolechi. Tumake ektuo bujte dei nai, tumake to r kichu bujate jabona. Specially, amar kosto golo shudu amari thakbe. Tumi bolona, tumi amar keo na, to tumake keno bolbo ami? :'(

Embassy'r kaj sesh kore eshecho, 15 din, 1 mash or 2 masher moddhei tumi cole jaba amake chere onek dure. Jeikhane jaoyar suovaggo amar hobe kina janina. Tobe, tumake kotha jokhon diyechi, ekdin na ekdin jaboi. Hoyto, tumi tokhon vhulei jaba amake. Tao khoti nei. Tumi amake kora sob promise vhule giye aj onar sathe thakar jonno oikhane cole jetei paro, tumar vashai etai naki vaggo. Kotha deyar somoi amra eto emotional hoye jai, pore oishob promise golor kono manei thakena. Tumar deya promise golo sarakhon amar mathai jontrona dei R tumar aei notun rup dekhe ami shudui bisshito hoi.

Janina, amar vagghe ki ache. Tobe eta thik samne amar onek kosto ache. Tumi cole gele ami nijeke control korte parbona, eta ami jani. Tumar pashe onake dekhlei je kingba ache vablei je, amar matha nosto hoye jai. Ami tokhon ki kori mathai thakena. Mone pore jai, goto year er sei dingolor kotha. Abar dekho ghure-fire sei eki somoye arekti jhor amar jonno opekkha korche. Tobe ki March mash ta amar jonno opoya!

Babu, sarata din aj kivabe keteche, koto kedechi, shudu tumar jonno. Amito voi e peyechilam, naki embassy's kotha bole tumi cole gecho. Babu, na gele hoina. Kothai tumar sei rag? Bolte parona, ami kothao jabona. Koi, onar gramer barite tumi jaona, eta to tumi na giyei thakte paro. Tobe keno bideshe jaoata off korte parchona kingba parlena?

Koto question moner moddhe. Tumake ask korte vhoi hoi. Tao majhe majhe kore feli, R tumi pash katiye jao. Hoyto, kono ekdin aei amakei pash katiye cole jaba future er kotha vebe. Jai koro tumi, sob ami mene nibo. Ami je tumar opekkhai thakbo, ami je dekhte cai tumi amake koto kosto dite paro. Kotodin onar sathe theke amake emon jontrona diye jete paro. Etai hobe valobashar porikkha. Keo naki emon porikkha dite caina. Ami na hoi dilam. Tumake valobashe opekkha kore gelam ....