Sesh Lorai Colche .....

30.12.2014

Dumketur moto hotat hotat asha-jaoa ki shuru holo? Shudu tumar khetre noi, hoyto amar khetreo hobe shuru. NIssho houyar jukita niye nilam. Ami r parchina. Hoi ekebare rastai boshbo noito ja ceyechi, tar kachakachi jabo. Kintu, tiltil kore ami morte parbona.

Babu, sedin phone kore Rummon er sathe kotha bolar nam kore naki amake phone korechile, erporer din call diba boleo dilana. Jani, manage korte paroni. Kintu, sei din theke shudu tumar phone er opekkhai achi. Amar opekkha sesh hoina, hobe ki kokhono? Hmm hobe jedin sob chere cole jabo. Janina, she din ta kobe ashbe.

Goto 3-4 din khub tension e achi. Tumar vabna niye buk vora kosto, R tumar name dora sesh baji. Harle ekebarei sesh, R jitleo temon kichu hobena. Tobe, hobe kichu ekta. Kintu, tumake bolbona. Tumake bole ami ja kichui kori, ta r finishing touch chute parena. Sei jonnoi, ebar end houyar porei tobe tumake janabo. Janabo??? Vebe dekhte hobe.

Ebar r somoi katchena. Ek ek ta din jeno katcheina. Sotti, somoi e jacchena. Buke je koto kosto, koto betha, keo bujena. Amar kosto bujar ekjon manush, R se to tumi. Amar valo-mondo bujar ekjon manush, se tumi. Sei manush tar buke jokhon eto kosto, nijer kolijateo kapon ashe sei bethar. Ouff, 10 tarikh kobe ashbe. Amar babuta ektu sosthi pabe!

Tumar dingolo kemon katche? Ager theke ki ektu savabik hoyecho Naki sei ager motoi? Amake ki ager motoi valobasho naki aste aste r o sokto hoccho? Potibar emon kore amader majhe ekta biroti pore, R tumake ami notun rupe dekhi. Sei jonnoi aei mone onek vhoi. Ebar abar temon kichu gotte jacchenato?

Janina, ki hobe. Shudu jani, tumar songsporsho kingba tumar pashe thakar sujog jototoko pabo, sui hath vore nibo. Tumar mukhe hasi futanur jonno, buke pathor cepe tumake hashabo. Tumar mon kharap dur korar jonno, ami valo achi dekhabo. Tumake thikmoto khaoya-daoya koranur jonno, khaoya niye aei ekta mitthe caliye jabo. Sob valo hok tumar, sostho thako babu :'(

Valo achoto Tumi?

25.12.2014

Aj jotota na tumar kotha vebe kharap lagchilo, taro beshi tumar voice ta shunte ecche korchilo? Mone hocchilo koto bochor tumar sei golar sor, misty hashita shunina. Aj sondhai tumi bashai eshecho. Amar kosto golote owshud lagiye dile, jontrona ta 5 ta minute er jonno vhule gelam. Kintu, tumi valo achoto?

Tumar voice ta kemon jani laglo? Valo kore jiggesh ow korte parlam na, Ki hoyeche? Kichu ekta hoyeche, eta ami sure. Sei jonnoi jante khub ecche hocche. Oni deshe eshechen sei 18 tarikh and aj 25 tarikh. Etodin oi barite chila, kichuto nischoi hoyeche. Tumake niye je amar boddo cinta hoy. Aei buker majhe jodi konodin joriye dori apon kore, tao sei cinta sesh hobena. Eto beshi valobashi, etto etto je tumake peyeo hoyto tokhono harabar vhoi ghire thakbe amake.

Ki korbo, bujte parchina. Oni 10 tarikhe cole jabe. Tar age amar oikhane jaoya ki thik hobe? Jabona bolei to ctg cole ashlam. Kintu, thakte to parchina. Agamikal comilla jete pari, Robibare dhakai jete hobe. Janina, comillai jaoyar por nijeke control korte parbo naki.

Babu re, amar je vishon kosto hocche. Tumake bolte parina, vitore vitore soite je amar r o beshi kosto bere jai. Tumar kache sob boli, R tai nijer koster kotha bolte jeyeo bolte parina. Jani, ete tumar kosto r o barbe. Ouff, eto bukhe betha kore keno? Eto kosto theke to more jaoa valo, Morina keno? :'(

Tumi R 2 din thakb may be, but phone korte parba naki ta sure na. Ouff, khub osthir lagche. Ecche korche ki je kori :@ Ekdom sojjo hoina :'( :'(

Eto Kosto keno Babu?

23.12.2014

Babu, ami je R parchina. Kichutei nijeke control korte parchina. Ecche korche ekkhoni abar tumar oikhane cole jai. Ohhh, ki j kosto, ki je jontrona, keo nei bujar. Amar je vishon kosto hocche. Babu, amake khoma koro, ami bece thakte tumake emon kosto pete dekhte hocche. Allah, emon sasti keno dile amake?

Jani tumi valo nei. Khub kharap acho. Sarakhon bukta jolche, tumi valo nei bolei. Tumar sathe je amar attar badhon, tumar kichu hole ami thik ter pai. Jokhon tumi amar kotha beshi vabo, ami bujte pari. Eto valobasho amake, R tai eto kosto tumar. Ouff keno je tumake valobasha sikhate giyechilam. Tahole aj tumar jibonta emon hotona. Sob amar dosh. Nijeke ami konodin khoma korte parbona. Sotti babu, ami emon caini. Amar sob sopno, amar sob future plan, sob kichutei tumi chile. R aj sob venghe amar cokher samne tumar emon kosto dekhte hocche. Bolo, ki kore ami valo thaki?

Ami jani, baki jibon kanna koreo, eka thekeo aei paper sasti hobena amar. Tao ami emon sasti pete raji, jodi tumi emon na thako. Tumake emon manai na, sei jonno goto 6 ta bochor tumar mukhe hashi futanur apran cesta kore gechi. Jani ami bertho, tao kharap rakhini eta ami jani. Ami cai, tumi valo thako, shudu happy thako. Aei jibone r kicchu caoyar nei. Tumake na pai, tumi valo thaklei amar sei kosto kichu holeo kombe.

Sob buji, mon to bujena. Ki je osojjo jontrona hocche. Ouff babu, ekti bar tumake joriye dore jodi kadte partam, ekti bar tumar mukh ta dekhte partam :'( 

Allah, amar babutake emon koste rekhona :'(

Kemon acho babu?

20.12.2014

Kemon acho babu? Khub kosto hocche taina? Ami ki kosto pacchi, ami jani amar ceyeo tumar beshi kosto hocche. Ami tumar emon valobashar manush, ceye ceye dekhchi tumar kosto. Tumake ciniye anar sahosh toko amar nei. Tumar opor jur korbo ki kore? Tumake ciniye anar kotha vablei tumar oi kotha ta mone pore jai "Ami jodi ashte na chai, tumi parbena amake jur kore nite"

Babu, kothai acho tumi? Tumar barite naki Habiganj e? Khub jante ecche hocche. Ishh tumake khub dekhte ecche hocche. Kosto cepe rakha je ki kosto, keo bujbena jotokhon se emon situation e na porbe. Shuye shanti nei, khabar mukhe jaina, sarakhon tumar cinta. Ki korcho tumi? Thikmoto khaccho to? Ishh ektibar jodi phone dita, tumar voice ta shuntam. Tao hoyto ektu sosthi petam. Kintu, jani sei souvaggho amar nei.

Aj sokale comilla theke ctg cole ashchi. Besh bujte parchilam, ami jodi comilla thaki tobe must 2-1 diner moddhe ami abar habiganj e cole jabo. Tumar jonno oi more sarakhon opekkha kortam. Ek polok dekhar jonno. Abar tumar kosto golo ami dighun kore ditam. R emon korte caina bolei ctg cole eshechi. Tao jate tumi ektu holeo valo thako. Kosto se to amar nijeri toiri, so amakei ekaki purte hobe, kadte hobe.

Babu, ki korbo ami? Ami j parchina. Vishon kosto hocche, vishon :'(

Pura Gondho Pacchi ....

18.12.2014

Aj sei 18 tarikh. Ajke tumar oni BD te eshechen. Ekhon tumi onar sathe. Hoyto, kichu age eksathe dinner korecho. Hoyto, duijone or sobai mile ekhon kotha bolcho. Kingba, onnora jur kore tumader ghumate patiye diyechen. Jani tumar cokhe ghum nei. Tumar majhe shudui ekta atongko, ekta vhoi. Sei jorota tumake sob kichu theke odhasin rekhei coleche. R tai tumar kosto golo shudu mukti pete caiche.

Vitor ta pure jacche. Pocondo betha hocche buke. Ouff, eto kosto keno? Tumake eto valobashi, tao emon drissho amake dekhte hocche. Tumar cokhe asru and mone vishon kosto, emon situation e tumake dekhte hocche. Ouff, sojjo kora jaina. Valobashar manusher emon cehera dekhar khomota kono premiker nei. Jodi thake, tobe se asolei valobashe ni. Ami to tumake procondo valobashi, kokhono bujate giyechi, abar kokhono nije kosto cepe mone mone valobasha jomiye rekhechi.

Babu, kemon kore ami thakbo? Amar je vishon kosto hocche. Mone hocche, amar vitore agun jolche, sob pure jacche. Kemon kore thakbo ami? Na parchi tumake kache ante, na parchi tumar kache tumake vikkhe caite, na parchi tumake emon situation e dekhte, na parchi ....... Ouff.

Aei 20 kingba r o beshi din amar ki emon korei jabe. Ami ki emon cotfot kore jabo. Bethai kokabo kintu kaoke bujteo dite parbona. Allah, emon sasti keno dile amake? Onek beshi pap kingba onnai hoyto korechilam, tar sasti Allah emonvabe dicchen amake. R papir sathe thakle valodero sasti pete hoi. Tumio paccho. Amar oporadher sasti tumio paccho, boloto eta kemon kore mani?

Kosto hocche

khub kosto hocche

eto kosto

onek kosto

sob kichu tumake eto valobashi bole :'(

Tao cai, tumi normal jibone fire jao. Amar jonno tumar jibon ta nosto korona. Onek valo thako babu :'(

Kosto shudu berei coleche ......

16.12.2014

Goto dui din dore ami comilla te. Ami comilla te esechi, tumar sathe dekha korar jonno! Othocho tumakei janaini. Tumar sathe dekha korte esechi bolei, tumake etobar request korechilam Tumi ki ber hoba naki? But, tumar problem R tai mukh fute bolte parchina. Bolte parchina bolei comilla te boshe achi.

Khub ecche korche Hobiganj e jai and abar sei tumar poth ceye boshe thaki. Kintu, onek koste nijeke control korchi. Bukta jole jacche, tao nijeke atkiye rakhchi comillar flat e. Ami caina, tumar moner kosto golo r o bariye dite. Amake dekhlei tumi r oshanto hoye porbe. Gotobar jei vhul korechi, dekho ebar R ami sei vhul korbona.

Jano, jedin rate tumi bolla oni 20 diner chutite ashche, Shunei koste kede othechilam. Vebechilam, tumi R 20 din porei onar sathe cole jaba. Sei jonnoi R o beshi kosto hocchilo. Saradin koto kosto peyechi, hoyto kedechio janina. Jokhon gotokal sondhai shunlam, ekhon just passport ready hobe. Jete jete r o 2-3 mash lagbe, shune keno jani ektu sosthi lagche. Koto kharap ami dekhecho, tumi R o BD te thakba shune ami koto happy! Kintu, ki korbo? Tumi eto dure cole jaba, R ami ekhane ki kore thakbo?

Janina, agami 20 ta din amar kivabe katbe. Besh to amake bujala, dore nao amar problem, tai contact korte parchina. Hmm dorei nite hobe. Dore niyei kosto vhular oshomo lorai caliye jabo. Ouff, eto kosto keno? Abar, sei der masher kosto shuru hobe, hoyto baki jiboner jonno.

Goto dairy post e tumake bolechilam, tumar ami exam nibo. Valobashar exam. Kintu, vebe dekhlam, etao thik hobena. Tai, ami ekhon cai, tumi exam e fail koro. Tumi onek sukhi hoye amake happy koro. Tumar mukhe jate ovinoy kora hashita na dekhi. Sabolil hashi, jei hashi ami dekhe esechi goto 6 year .....

Babu, agamikal tumi oi barite cole jaba. Aei matro call dila, but phone back korte parlam na. Porita kanna korche, tai sobai sojag and birokto. Sei jonnoi tumar sathe kotha bolte parlam na. Ouff, kosto r o bere gelo. More jete ecche kore khub. R noito ekhan theke onek dure cole jete. At least shantimoto kadte parbo, tumar kotha vabte parbo, kosto golo niye nijer majhe thakte parbo. Kobe je sei somoi ashbe amar jibone ...

Jani, tumar onek kosto hocche. Amar thekeo tumar kosto beshi. Kintu, tao cai tumi valo thako, onek valobashi tumake :( 

Count Down Start .....

13.12.2014

Amra sukh khub olpo somoyer jonno pai and dukkher somoita hoi dirgo. Aei kothata ageow bolechi tumake, aei diary te. Goto 1 masher opor onek sosthite chilam, tumi pashe chile bole. Tumar voice ta poti rate shunte petam bole. Tumar hashigolo amai chuye jete bole. Tumar jonno opekkha ta tumake peye purnota peto bole. Kintu, sukher somoye Joti porte jacche.

Amar monta jei voye etodin vitore vitore gumre morchilo, sei somoy cole esheche. Count DOWN sesher dike. Oni agami Brihospotibare (18.12.2014)ashtechen and 20 diner chutite. Gotokal rate tumake confirm korlen and tumi amake. Shunei kokhon jeno cokher kon beye ek rashi somodrer deo chute ashlo. Parlam na phone ta dore rakhte. R line kete dilam. Tartari thik kore nijeke abar phone dilam. Tumake ami amar kono kosto dekhate caina. Shudu cai, tumi vabo Ami valo achi.

Tumar kache R kokhonoi mukh fute kichu caibona. Tumi ja dibe tai nibo. Tumake R kosto dibona. Tumake R bolbona fire asho amar kache. Amar valobasha jodi sotti hoi, tobe kono ekdin tumi ashbai, etai amar driho bissash. Dekhi, tumar ekta exam niye. Jei exam er kotha tumi janbena. Jei exam colbe uito moner majhe. 10 year keno, ami sara jibon opekkha korbo sei exam er result er jonno. Khub je ecche korche, tumi sei exam e pass koro.

Ami jani, ebar oni ashle tumake sotti change hote hobe. Karon, ebar kono masher basis e tumi onar sathe thakte jacchona. Ebar jaccho, masher por mash, hoyto sara jiboner jonno. Jetai hok, shudu cai tumi sukhi hou. Ami tumar jiboner 9 ta mash nosto korechi, R eki vhul korte caina. Ebar ontoto cesta korbo, tumake kono ku-montrona na dite. Cesta korbo, Habiganj e na jeye thakte. Tumi jaoyar por jabo. Abar hariye jabo sei sob dingolote. Amar shurur diker diary er likha golo porle jante parbe, tumake vhule thakte amake koto kosto korte hoi. Tao parina, ami here jai.

Onek vabi, and nijeke onek boka dei. Ami caina, tumake amar future plan or amar somporke kichu bolte. Amar kostogolo amar kachei rakhte cai. Kintu, tumar sathe phone e kotha bollei sob vhule jai. Kothar fake fake nijer kosto, osukh etc etc bole feli. Pore eto rag hoi. Ami jani, tumi amar thekeo beshi kosto paccho. Tumar mone eke amake niye cinta, taropor onno r ekjoner oposthiti. Kintu, janina er solution ki. Khub cai tumake aei obostha theke oddhar korte. Ishh ami jodi mara jetam, tahole somadan hoto. At least amake niyeto R vabte hotona. Ami more giye tumake hoyto ektu sosthi diye jete partam.

R matro koekta din, tarpor tumar R amar poth ki alada hoye jabe? January mashe tumi cole jaba amar theke onek dure. Ami ki amar kotha rakhte parbo? Tumake je ami kotha diyechilam ekta. Parbo to ami rakhte? Kintu ki vabe? Taka golo fire pacchina, onno kono way ow dekhchina. Kintu, jani amake partei hobe. In Sha Allah ami parbo. Tumi cole gele oi ekta plan niyei je amake beche thakte hobe.

Onek onek mon kharap babu amar. Sotti, khub kanna pacche. Shuye shuye tumar kotha vabchilam. Vablam, ektu dairy likhi. tai aei ratei boshlam. Babu, phone e to bolte parbona, tai ekhane boli. Babu, bukhta fete jacche, ami kivabe thakbo tumake chara ..... :'( :'( :'(

Ekta prosner answer pelam

09.12.2014

Abar sei eki pain hocche buker vitor. Abar sei eki vhoi, eki kosto kora narche amar jiboner dorjai. Ebar R tar sesh nei. Er sesh kothai ami janina. Tobe, amar mritto chara er sesh nei eta ami bujechi. Janina, sei dinti kobe ashbe amar jibone. Tobe jedin e ashuk, buker majhe ek na bola kosto niye prithibi teg korte hobe. Jante cao, seita ki? Amar valobasha niye tumar mone prosno. Aj etogolo bochor poreo ami tumake bujate parini, tumake kotota valobashi. Ajo tumi driho konthe bolte parona amar moto, Ami jani babu tumi shudu amake valobasho. Tumi ja korecho, er ceyeo boro sasti holo eta amar jonno.

15,16,17 << 3 probable days when your ONI will came to BD. Tarpore janina tumar sathe amar jogajog hobe naki R jodi hoy ow ami sostho manusher moto R tumar sathe kotha bolte parbona. Ekhoni to amar puranu rug golo matha cara diye othche. Aei sorir niye ami ki parbo ager sei life e fire jete, Habiganj er life e???

Saradin shuye-boshe eki cinta kure kure khacche. Ki hote jacche samner dingolote. Oni 20 diner chutite ashbena and tumio ekhan theke cole jete parlei baco!! Hmm bachba, R karo theke noy Kompokkhe amar theke. Amar sathe jugajug bondho korle, tumar jonno Habiganj er bashar samne jabona, Tumar dulavai er sathe dekha korar jonno Sylhet jabona, Kingba tumar soshur bari Nasirnagar e ow jabona. Sobceye boro kotha kaner kache eki penpen korbona, fire asho amar jibone. Ishhh ami kotota kharap. Tumar eto sundor jibon ami din k din nosto kore dicchi. Majhe majhe nijer opor eto ghenna hoy bujate parbona.

Gotokal Shimur bepare tumar sathe share koratai vhul hoyeche. Shimur obostha dekhe tumar nishcoi mon r o kharap hoye geche. Asole tumar mon kharap korar moto ami kichui bolte chaina. Tao, mukh foske ber hoye jai. Ki korbo bolo, sara somoi to aeisob vabna niyei pore thaki. R tai kothar vhir theke hut kore era cole ashe.

Ami jani and buji, amar thekeo tumar kosto beshi hocche. Jei kajta tumi juker mathai korecho, sei kajta tumar mon mene nite parchena. R tai sei manushtar khoti cao. Keno jani mone hocche tumar moner caoya ta puron hobe, tobe tumar manushtar khetre noy, tumar Bautar khetre. Jodi tai hoi, tobe amar ceye kushi r keo hobena. At least tokhon to dhire dhire eksomoi savolil hoba. R jodi amar kichu hoi, tobe amar aei kothagolo to kokhono jante parbena. Tai vebe dekhlam, tumar FB ID te aei blog er linkta diye rakhbo. Aj na hoi Kal, kingba 1 year pore holeo to tumar cokhe porbe amar dairy ta. Sedin tumi jante parbe, ami moteo valo chilam na. Tumake valobashar name koto potarona korini. Goto prai 8 mash til til kore jolchi and koster agun k songhi kore Nirbashito ekta jibon japon korchi.

Jedin e dairy ta poro, shudu ektai caoya thakbe, amake vhul bujona. Aei dairy er potiti kotha jemon sotti, temni Amar valobasha niye kono sondheho rekhona. Tumar Tarzan tumar chilo and tumari thakbe jotodin beche thakbe. Tumake fire pabar ashai thakbe. Hoyto R konodin mukh fute bolbena fire asho. Aeita tumar opor chere dilam. Valo thako sob somoi, and amake khoma kore dio jodi tumar jibon theke tumake na bolei hariye jai.

Sotti ki hariye Jabe?

07.12.2014

Ekekta din jacche R ami vitore vitore mushre porchi. Monta bikkhipto hoye othche manoshik cintai. Hut kore hoyto shunbo, ami R may be tumar sathe jogajog korte parbona regular. Sotti, emonti hobe ami jani. R sei jonnoi tumake haranur vhoi amake ghire doreche.

Onek cesta kori, tumake valo ekta future dibar jonno. Cesta kori bolte, onek kotha. Kichui bola hoina nijer kotha vebe. Tumar sathe kotha na bole, tumar oi golar shor na shunle ami osthirotai vhugi. Tumi hoyto sotti bolo, age tumake eto valobashi bujte parini. Bujar kono proyojon ow chilona. Karon, bissash chilo, din seshe tumakei pabo amar pashe. Tumar amar joto kichui hok, tumi amar jonnoi opekkha korbe. Kintu, oi ekti ghotona paltiye diyeche sob kichu. Ami nijer majhe peyechi, tumar valobashar ghobirota. R tai ekhon proyojon nei jeneo barebar sei valobasha jahir kori R tumar koster tribrota bariye dei. Khoma chai vitore vitoe. Sahosh kore bolte parina, tate jodi r o kosto pao. Tumar cokhe jol ami j sojjo korte parina. Otocho ami jani, potidin vitore vitore amar jonnoi kanna korche tumar mon.

Goto porshu nanu bari giyecho R tai dui din kotha bondho thakbe (tumar sms er text onujayi). Dekho, koto osthir lagche. Mone hocche kotodin tumar voice ta shunini. Ouff kivabe ami thakbo. Ki kore tumi buker moddhe pathor capa diye acho?

Aei jibone onek pap kore felechi R tai Allah amake sasthir opore rekhechen. Valoi hoyeche ek dike. Aei prithibitei sasthi peye jacchi. Porokaler sasthi to R o voyanok. Ekhon sasti diyeo jodi tini amake khoma kore porokale tumake amar kache den, tobe sukriya janiye sesh korte parbona. Jodi emon kichu hoy tobe sotti ami r o onek kosto pete raji achi. Tumake ami kichui dite parini. Shudu kosto, opekkha R mitthar vandhar chara. Boddo beshi chilo ojuhath. Jiboner sobceye kothin decision ta jokhon nile, tokhono ojuhath dekhalam, tumar family k happy koro. R dekho, sei sasthi ami koto nisthur vabe peye jacchi. Prithibite er ceye nisthur R kichu hote parena. Nijer Babuke onno karo sathe thakte dekha!

Hariye jabe amar kach theke? Jodi sotti jao, tobe ektai caoya thakbe, tumi tumar otit vhule jao. Nijeke happy koro. Tuni jodi happy thako, tobe kosto holeo sei kosto nisthur hobena. Amar pashe thakleo to happy hota. Tumake happy rakhar jonnoi to amar pashei rakhte ceyechi. Seita na hole onno karo pashe theke hola, khoto ki. Valobashar kono mandondo hoina. Valobashi valobashi bole jotoi cikkar kori, kono tar ghobirota tumi bujte parbena. Ami nijeto sei ghobirotai hariye jacchi. Amito satar janina, so seikhan theke othe asha amar pokkhe somvob noi. habudubu kheyei amar jibon kete jabe ......

Valo thako lokkhi babu. Jekhanei thako ektu valo theko amar kotha vebe.

Eshe gelo shei kalo mash .....

01.12.2014

Abar shei cirosotto ta amar samne otthapito hote jacche. Abar ami ceye ceye dekhbo nisthur shei chobi. Abar hridoyer gohine potiti din roktokhoron hote thakbe. Ebar r sesh hobar noy. Ebar shei jontrona shuru hobe sara jiboner jonno. Jotodin beche thakbo, potiti din ami beche thekeo mara jabo abar er porer din shei kosto pabar jonno.

December month shuru holo, buker heart bit ta abar bere giye bethar sristy korche. Aei mashei hoyto tumar sathe amar jugajog bondho hobe, hote pare ta sara jiboner jonno. Majhe majhe vabi, ami keno aeirokom? Jake beshi valobashi seto ekhono amar bepare confused, tobe ami keno tar jibonta nosto kore dicchi? Keno ami barebar take amar kache ashte boli, amar moddhe ki lojja bolte kichu nei. Kotota nilojjo hole barbar eki jinish caoya jai r ekta manusher kache, jar kache caoya-paoyar kono manei hoina. She to dibbi sopno dekhe buri hoye jabe, sontan thakbe, eksomoi take pashe rekhei mara jabe. R ami eki korchi? Til til kore nijeke kosto dicchi. Ami jani, BD theke cole gele sei koster matra r o onek bere jabe, and aei jibonta sei manushtar jonno songhihin katiye dite etotoko didha hobena. Kintu, keno? Amar valobashar jur to khubi durbol. Aei halka tan diye ki ekta pathor hridoy k ami konodin narate parbo?

Majhe majhe amar manushtar opor khub rag othe. Se amake valobashe, R amakei sei bole baki jibon emon korei katiye dibe tar sathe. Ekti baro bolena, ami ashbo tumar kache. Koi, nimbuzz e jokhon kotha bolte, tokhon to bolechile, Ami tumar jotoi valobashar exam nei, tumi harba na. 10 year pore holeo amar kachei fire ashba. Eki vhul r korbena. Aj sei tumi koto sohoje sob mene niyecho. Tumar apuke dekho. Onar hubby kharap chilo, sei karone oni janni. Oni onar jide otol chilen and oni seita perechen. R tumi, oni valo bole emon korte parbena. Tar mane ki ami kharap? Kingba onar valor kache aj amar valobasha ke tumi hariye dila? basha theke ashteo tumar onek vhoi. Gramer ekta meye je sohorer kichui bujena, se cole jete pare, R tumi parona. Goto rate eta shune mone mone khub hashi pelo, but tao kichu bollam na. Bole ki hobe, tumi ki cao tumi ekhon nijei tao janona. Ami ekhon jai boli, tumar ek kan diye jabe AND onno kan diye ber hoye jabe. Tumi onar sathe thakba, Dubai jaba, eta dorei niyecho. Joto taratari jete paro, totoi tumi kushi. Kadbo na hashbo tumar emon kotha shune, bujina. Aei meyetakei ami pagoler moto valobashi!!!

Jani aei masher kono ekdin theke tumar sathe amar jogajog bondho hoye jabe. Tarpor theke shudui opekkha, kokhon tumi ekti bar amar sathe jogajog korba. Tumar korunai ekta bimorsho manush shanti pabe. Sei koruna tokow hobe naki tumar, ta vebei ami sondhihan. Tumar kaner kache jeivabe valobashi valobashi shuru koreche, hoyto sotti konodin TARZAN er jonno valobasha odhao hoye jabe. R ami Jenir jonno Valobashar vandhar niye opekkhai kore jabo .....

Ja kichui hok aei mashe, shudu ektai pratthona tumi happy hou. Tumar emon complex life amar ekdom sojjo hoina. Ami kosto pete raji, jodi tumi happy thako. Namaj pori R allahor kachei pratthona kori, Babutake ager moto kore dao. Se jodi amar jibone nai ashe, tobe tar mon theke amake muche dao. Ami caina tar pother kata hoye thakte.

Janina, R kotodin tumar konther sei misty surta shunte parbo. Oi sur, oi manush, oi mon sob je shudu amar. Tumi bolo, kemon kore ami ta onno kaoke dite pari? Majhe majhe ecche kore suicide kore feli. Tao parina porokaler kotha vebe. Ouff, janina samner dingolo amar kivabe jabe. Abar ki Habiganj e sei peshai fire jete hobe? 

Sob amari dosh chilo

28.11.2014

R koekta din. Tarpor sesh hobe amar R tumar soronio ekta mash kingba kicui manoshik shanti paoya ekta masher. Shuru hote jacche hoyto asol khela. Tumar R amar alada hoye jabar nisthur somoi ta ki ghoniye ashlo? December er 10-15 tarikh oni ashben and next month er moddhe tumi cole jaba bohu dure! Sotti ki hariye jaba amar jibon theke bohudure?

Tumake onek bisshas kori, ageo korechi and samneo korbo. Bissash kori bolei ekhono moner vitor theke keo ekjon bole othe, tumake fire pabo jibone. Jodio tumar sathe jokhon kotha hoy mobile e, moner aei bissash ta hariye jay. Kokhonoi tumi aei bepar ta serious vabe niye kotha daoni amake. Ariye giyecho barebar. Tai vhoi hoy abar vhoy niyei tumar opor bissash rekhe colechi. Keno jani mone hoy, tumi parbena amake chere thakte. Abar vabi, tumi thik e bolo. Hoyto notun kono somossa tumake sob mene nite baddo korbe. Sob buji jokhon tumi bolo, and oi bujatei sesh. Jokhon nijer sathe kotha boli ekla eka room e, mon bole tumake ashtei hobe. We made for each other ....

Edaning kotha kothai bolo, amar doshei eto kichu hoyeche. Tumi thik, ami all time wrong chilam. And, samneo thakbo ete kono sondheho nei. Ami all time wrong bolei, ekhono tumake wrong pothe ashte bolchi. Kotota kharap dekhecho. Nijer jonno tumake cacchi. Nije thakte parbona tumake chara, R tai barebar tumake amar kache cole ashte boli. Ouff control korte parina kichutei.

Ja bolchilam. Tumar basha theke refuse houyar por sotti ami onek venghe porechilam. Mathai shudu ekta plan e chilo, je korei hok amake onek money earn korte hobe. And, khub druto. Tokhon oDesk e kaj o chilo amar onek. Rat-din kaj korechi. Tumar sathe 30 minute kotha bolar somoi ow chilona. Din golo kivabe katchilo kolponao korte parbena. Sara sorir betha hoye jeto kaj korte korte, tao kaoke kichu boltam na. Mathai je amar oi plan. Tumakeo boltam na, tumi bada diba. Porisrom kom korte bolba. Tokhon karo kotha shunar moto obosthai chilam na. Onek vebei oi cinta ta korechilam. Eto porisrom britha gelo, jokhon tumi biyete raji hoye gela. Sotti bolte, ami konodin kolponao korini tumi emon ekta decision niba. Onek venghe porechilam. R tai tumar valor kotha vebe tokhon meneo niyechilam. Kintu, joto tumar biyer din ghoniye ashchilo, totoi ami pagol hoye jacchilam. Janina tumi kivabe oi dingolo par korecho. Tobe amar tokhon gumiye keteche gumer owshud kheye. Eta chara r kichui korar chilona. Somvhoboto tumar biyer 3 din pore sondhai sojag hoye tumake sms korechila (jei sms tumar ammu porchilo - pore shunchilam). Tarporer gotona sob tumi jano.

Hmm amar vhul chilo. Sob kichur mule ami. And, ekhono amari vhul. Tumi amake eto valobasho, R ami tumar jonno ki korchi? Tumar jibonta elomelo kore dicchi, tumar sundor somoi houyar muhurtotake kosto diye vhore dicchi. Eto vhul kori keno ami? Mathai ekta plan gurche. Dekhi eta kore tumar jibonta ami settle kore dite pari naki. Kosto jodi pete hoy, ami e pai. Tumake diner por din aeivabe kosto dite ami parbona. Allah please ektu help koro, oke onek valo rakho. Oi misty hashita sob somoi jate dite pare, temon ekta situation create kore dao. Amin.

Vhoi amake gire dorche

24.11.2014

November mash ta ki sesh hoye elo? Hmm, taito dekhchi. R matro koek din pore Decmber month cole ashbe. Etai ki hobe amar jiboner r o ekti soronio mash? Ouff vabtei ekhon thekei vhoi amake gire docrhe. Ki hobe amar? Ki korbo ami? Eto vhoi hocche keno amar?

Nijeke niye ami khub hotash. Ami keno emon vhul korlam? Tumar family k valo rakhar jonno, ami tumake firiye diyechilam. Tumar choto sister er problem er jonno amra dui jonei sesh porjontoi tokhon sob mene niyechilam. Kintu, aj abar emon gotona? Sotti, mante parchina. Tumar choto sister er opor amar onek rag. Or jonnoi tokhon tumi amar dake amar kache ashoni, biye korechile. Mone ache tumar? Aj sister er jonno again tumar bashar sobar matha kharap obostha, emonki nijeder bari chere cole jabar cintao korte hocche. Ouff, shune eto kharap lagche. Kisher jonno sedin ami emon Gadhamita korlam???

Potidin rat 12 tai tumar sathe kotha hoy. Saradiner kosto golo vhule jai, tumar golar aowaz ta shunar sathe sathe. Sosthi kingba valo laga buji ekei bole. Amar manoshik jontronar cikissa hocche oi somoitoko. Oi somoitar lovhe sarata din katiye dei bishonno mon songhi kore. Kintu, r koidin tumi amake emon kore aei owshud ta diba? Aei owshud ta chara je amar beche thaka hobe Mrito manusher moto. Ki ek odvhut jontronai achi ami. Jani, tumio valo nei. Tumakeo kure kure khacche eki jontrona. Tao, kono solution ami dekhina. 10 tarikhe ekta kotha bolechila, amar opor tumar bissash ache? Jodi bissash thake, tobe vebe nio ami firboi. Aei ashatei beche thakte ecche kore. Joto kostoi pai, tao tumake jodi pore pai tobe ami sob kosto sojjo korte parbo.

Janina, samne amar jonno ki opekkha korche. Khub manoshik jontronai achi. Bashai hocche eker por ek mejaj kharap korar moto kahini. Sob kharap kichu ek sathei gotche. Janina kobe sob chere chure dure kothao hariye jete parbo. Hoyto, sedin tumake ektu shanti dite parbo. Amar sathe jogajog thaka manei tumar jibonta settle na houya. Tumake manoshik ekta jontrona diye jaoya ..... R valo lagchena :(

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Sopnogolo khub alpo somoi thake keno?

18.11.2014

Sopner ceye sundor somoigolo keno eto alpo somoi thake? R kosto golo jeno sesh e hote caina. 100 din koster por jodi vhul kore 1 hour sukh paoya jay, tobe oitai jeno hoy onek paoya. Nijeke nije prosno korchi, 2 din age asolei ki sukh peye chilam? Ki dorkar chilo emon sukh paoyar, jeita koster matra k digun-tingun kore dicche? Vitor ta jaliye dicche, ouff!

16 tarikhe jibone eshechilo onek sukher somoi, R thik 2 din pore ami just bipodostho. Gotorate tumar sathe kotha bolar por theke, monta again depress e acchonno hoye ache. Saradin keteche amar emon kore, hoyto shuru holo amar sei koster dingolo ....

Next month, tumar oni ashben. May be 1 month er chuti niye ashben. Kintu, tumi cao jate chuti kom hoy, 15 diner moto hole tumi shanti paba. Joto taratari ekhan theke jete parba, tumi totoi kushi. Onar kotha tumi khub vabo, taina babu? Oni onek valo, R tai onar sathe thakte tumar apotti nei. Sarata jibon par kore dibar ow sahosh rakho. Oikhane gele R deshe ashba nah. Oni R tumi oikhanei settle hoye jaba. Somoyer srote montao settle kore niba. Amar jonno miche vabo tumi. Ekhon amar sathe kotha hoy bolei, tumar mathai eto vabna amake niye. Oni ashar por, ekhan theke cole jabar por dekhba aste aste amake vabna kora theke hariye jaccho. Jani, tumi ekhon bolba, eta amar vhul darona. Kintu, amar mon bolche, ebar oni ashar por sotti ami tumake ekebarei hariye felbo. Amar opekkha kokhonoi sesh hobena, tumi sesh korte caibana.

Babu jano, tumar opor amar respect onek bere geche. Keno? Eta tumake bolte giyechi onekbar. Kintu, mukh diye ber korte parini. Jani, ekhon bolleow tumi kharap vabbe. Tai na bola thakuk aei kotha ta, aei ekti kotha joma roilo sei diner jonno jedin tumi amar life e ashba. Jodi aei dinti na ashe, tobe na bolai thakbe aei kothati. Ami sotti onek lucky tumar valobasha peye. Ishh sotti ami onek GADHA, r tai vaggolokkhike peyeo dore rakhte parini. Vhul kora budhoy konodin ow amar jabena.

Tumi amake blackmail kore onek kichu korate cao. But, tumar sathe aei ekta bepare ekhon amar mitther asroi nite hoy. Ki korbo bolo, amar pokkhe je somvob noy savabik jibone asha. Tumi ekhan theke cole gele again oguchalo jibone fire jabo. Hoyto Jobbar vaiyer oikhane. Jobbar vaiyer kotha mone porate R ekta kothao mone porlo. Accha, Jobbar vaiyer oikhane jaoyar por tumar mathai kono prosno asheni? Ami onake ki kore cinlam? Onar Rocshar garage ta dekheow ki kichu ach korte paroni? Ouff, ja ekta tension e chilam aei beparta niye. Jobbar vaiye nished korechilam, jate vhuleo amar sei dingolor kotha na bole. Onar wife ow jate bole. Onader barite onar wife jokhon ager kotha bolchilo, amito nervous feel korchilam. Aei buji bole diben sei diner kotha. Jak, tumar mathai emon kono prosno asheni etai valo hoyeche. Ami j tumake janate caina, tumar jonno sorry tuamke valo rakhar jonno ki korechilam sei der mash.

Babu, tumake ami onek kosto dicchi. Onek cesta korchi, tumake r o valo rakhar jonno. Tumar sob kotha rakhar vhan kore tumake valo rakhar jonno. Aei ekta bepare tumar sathe ovinoy kore jete hobe amar. Kintu, mitthe bole shanti paina. R tai ektu sothir jonno ekhane sottigolo bole dei. Jodi kopale thake, kono ekdin to sottigolo jante parba.

NIjer kotha ki bolbo. Tumar sathe dekha kore ashar por theke, buke pain hocche BAM pashe. Sob somoi hoina, hotat hotat. Na, eta ager betha noy. Buker ektu niche. R cokher problem ta abar bereche. Tumar samne cosma porleo asole ami cosma porina. R tai cokh diye again pani porche. Ja eccha hok, r parchina. Joto aei mash ta sesher dike jacche, totoi ami again crazy hoye porchi. Janina, ebar ki korbo.

Joto kichui hok, tumake amar valo rakhtei hobe. Tumi jeivabei valo thako, tai korbo (proyojone mitthe bole). Tumake onek valobashi, onek. Emon valobeshe jete cai, jate somoi amake paltiye na dei.

RED LETTER Day in my life

16.11.2014

Sopner ceyeo sundor ekta din. Na, sopnokeo har mananu ekta din chilo aj. Emon hobe kingba amra korte parbo, eta dekhai jekhane vhul kingba vhoi chilo, seikhane amra sopno k chariye ta bastobe korechi. Ekhono mone hoccche, asolei ki emon korechi? Sotti ki amra hariye giyechilam adim sei sukh anonde? Buker pajor jure ki mishe chilam amra?

Sara din vor eto natokiyotar por ami perechilam babur sopnotake sotti korte. Tar moner supto eccha take bastobayito korte. Eta ki shudui babur ecche chilo? Na, amaro chilo. Ami kokhonoi babuke sahosh kore bolte parini kingba amar valobasha amake barebar pichone tene doreche. Ektai vhoi kaj koreche, jodi babur poti amar valobasha kingba akorshon kome jai. Ami je babuke sarajibon onek valobeshe jete chai, take na peleo eki rokom valobeshe jete chai. Tar mukhe ektu hashi futanur jonno onek kichui korte pari. Aei ekta manush ke valobeshe, pashe thakte parle amar MON namok jinishta proshantite hoyto moreo beche thakbe tar kache.

Babu, amra perechi, ami perechi, tumi perecho. Amra buker jalata besh kichudin vhule thakar owshud ta nite perechi. Sotti bolchi, buk tate ekta shnati shanti vhab biraj korche. Nissash nicchi sabolil vabe, mukher majhe ekta sukhi sukhi vhab. Ami tumake sukh dite perechi. Jei sukh tumi kokhonoi paoni, and amar mone hoi konodin pabao na. Aei sukh ta je shudu amari debar khomota ache tumake. Buke joriye janina abar kobe sei sukhi manush banabo tumake!

Oboseshe amar plan mafik ekta kaj ami korte parlam. Plan ta 100% kaj koreni, kintu sesher dike kaktolio vabe plan ta success holo. Sesher ongshotoko amar plan e chilona. Hoyto, Allah ceyechilen duiti manusher aei eccha ta puron kore dei. Jodio, moteo valo kaj noi eta. Tobuo, Allahor kache oshonkho sukria amader k emon ekta din opohar deyar jonno. Tumar mukhe Gadha Gadha shunte besh kharap lagchilo, R tai risk amakei nitei holo. Ami successfull hoyechi, tumake happy korte perechi, ouff shanti shanti :-)

Dintir kotha ektu likhe rakhi. Hoyto kono eksomoi likha golo porle potiti gotona mone porbe tumar R amar, jeigolo boyosher vahre ek somoi muche jete pare. Tumar kothamoto Shonibare 15.11.2014, tumar oikhane cole ashlam bikel 5 tai. Eshei room e bag ta rekhei Bojlur vaiyer kache chute gelam. Onake sob bollam khule. Oni raji holen, onar barite amader daoyat korlen. Rate tumake sob bujiye bollam. But, tumi bolla, tumar sathe ke ashbe kingba ber hote parba naki sure na. Mejaj ta eto kharap holo. Tobuo tumake kichu bollam na, tumar sathe ekhon r ami mejaj dekhai na. Tumar sob kichui mene nei ek kothai. Sara rat valo kore ghum holona tumar oi kothar jonno. Opekkha korchilam kokhon sokal 10 ta bajbe. Sokale nasta ow korlam na tension e. 10 tai tumar department er samne boshe roilam. Tumi ashle and ekai ashla. Ouff tension theke bachlam.

Tarpor, campus e tumake niye gelam and tumi change hoye duijone Bojlur vaiyer kache gelam. Riksha niye gelam onar barite.Onar baite gelam jei jonno, kichui holona. Bari dekhei tumi R ami shanti hoye gelam. R onar meyer kotha shune to r o shanti :D Tumi to vhoi peye giyechila, tumar face dekhe bujechilam. R tai oikhan theke cole ashlam. Kintu, majkhane mulloban 2 ta gonta somoi nosto holo. Tarpor!!!

Bojlur vaiyer sathe dekha korlam. Onar thekei Alif and * er sondhan pelam. Tarpor holo amar asol porikkha. Ouff tumar theke aei pothom ekta valo idea pelam. Oi Bag ta kinatei kaj 80% easy hoye gelo. Bela 1 tai 402 @*, dream puron holo. Nah, dream nah, tar thekeo beshi kichu. Sumaiya er sathe poricoy oikhane :D (wink). Situation critical hole, tumar mathai kothin kichu buddi ashe, good babu :D

Tumar buke ami, amar buke tumi, duijoner buke shanti.Tumar buke ami, amar buke tumi, duijoner buke shanti. Bela 2 tai buker majhe shantir vandar niye, ber holam pothe. Araitar dike duiti mon proshanti niye fire elam ager jaigai. Amar sathi holo dirgo ek jouney, R tumar bashai eshe nijeke cimti kete dekha "Asolei ki babuke peyechilam". I love you, tumar kane hajar bar aei kotha tai bolte ecche hocche. Tumake emon kore jodi sarajibon valo rakhte partam, tumar oi mukhe hasitake bodhi kore rakhte partam, tobe ami hotam happy ekjon manush.

Rate kotha holo. Tumar naki ekhono beileive e hocchena, asolei emon ekta din katiyechi amra. Tumar onek valo lagche. Aei pothom tumi ekrash sukh niye mone thik 12 tai ghumate ashla. Sotti onek valo lagche. Emon kore tumake sostho ekjon manush hisebei ami dekhte cai. Tumi hoyto vabbe, ki bepar sarakhon tumar valo legeche, sukh peyecho etc bolchi. Amar ki valo lageni? Hmm onek valo lagche. Onek onek onek......

Janina, abar kobe dekha hobe. Dekha jedin e hok, aei dinti konodin ow vhular noi. Keno jani mone hocche, etai sesh dekha. Tumar to r scope nei basha theke ber hobar. Taropor oni next month e eshe porbe tumake neyar jonno. Ouff aei kotha ta mone porlei monta chupse jai. Thak, aj r eshob kotha mone korbona. Aj valo lagate niyei valo thaki and tumake valobeshe jaoyar sokti ta mone poshe rakhi :-)

Khub Oshantite Achi ......

14.11.2014

Khub manoshik jontronai achi. Sobkichu amar biporite cole jacche. Khub beshi pap kore felechi budhoi. Tar sasti pacchi. R tai tumar sathe Sunday te meet korte ecche hocchena. Abar meet na koreo thakte parbona. Karon, ami jani er pore dekha korar agei oni cole ashbe Dubai theke. Kingba, er pore dekha holeo hoyto etota apon kore tumake r pabona. R tai jabo. Ek pa agacchi, abar nijei mone mone picacchi. Tumi ja caccho, jodi ta hoi TOBE tumi ki amake vhule jaba? Keno jani mone hoi, tumi paltiye jaba. Tumar moddhe ekta self satisfaction cole ashbe, Babutar mone to kono afsos rakhoni eta vebe.

Amar mathai khub jontrona hocche. Eto cinta r mathai nite parchina. Dirgo 4 mash dore gurar por, Bahrain e jabar plan ta bad e dite holo. Amar medical report er date cole geche goto 9 tarikhe. So, again medical korte hobe. Again sob kaj korte hobe. Tar opor etogolo taka oi lok cheat kore amar theke hatiye niyeche. Now, oi taka fire pabo naki etai sondheho. Ki korbo kichui buje otte parchina. Amar je desher baire jetei hobe. Amar family er sathe thakle, amar nijer moddhe lukanu eto kosto ami sojjo korte parbona. Dire dire ami manoshik rugi hoye jacchi, mejaj ta khitkhite hoye porche. Baba-mar sathei gola coriye kotha boli. Ki korbo bolo, kaj-kormo korina. Alos  mostisko to soytaner addhkhana.

Gotokal rate phone e kotha bolar somoi amake ask korechila, amar ki hoyeche? Ki bolbo tumai. Emni tumi onek koste acho, amar eshob kotha shunle tumi r o kosto paba. Tarceye amar kosto amar moddhei thakuk. Tumake amar happy rakhtei hobe babu. Shudu ektai pratthona, jate amar kora promise ta ami rakhi pari.

Ajke choto aunty ke bashai deke analam. Onar cele bideshe thake, oke diye jodi kichu kora jai. Dekhi aunty ki kore. Amar je aei masher moddhe ekta destination thik korte hobe. Dorkar hole 2 mash pore jabo, tao ekta aim niye agate hobe. Tumi to cole jaba in sha allah January te. Ami ki korbo? Ki niye thakbo? Tumi acho bole aei deshe ekhono achi, mon ta thakte cai. But, tumi cole gele amar ki hobe? R tai othe-pore legechi baire jabar jonno. Dekhi ebar ki korte pari.

Babu, tumar cinta korte korte vitore vitore ami sesh hoye jacchi. Koto kosto je aei buke, ta keo bujena. Sarakhon ekta valo mon, sotho manusher ovinoy kore jete hocche. Family chere paliye jete parchina. Cause, family er support na pele amar bairer bepar ta samne agabena. Tar opor cokher problem ta abar bereche. Owshid khaina, cokher drop tao deya hoina. Cosmao porina. Laptop er samne boshtei parina. Ouff Allah keno je eto sasti dicchen amake ..

In sha allah, agamikal tumar ekhane ashbo. Sondhar dike Jobbar vai er sathe dekha korbo. Janina, phone e jeivabe kotha hoyeche, bastobe emon korei amar kotha shunbe naki. Tao dekhi cesta kore. Tumar eccha and amar caoya ta jodi puron hoy. Jibone to onek vhul korlam and tai afsos ow kori. Tumi r caona ami afsos kori, R amio caina tumar sathe mishe jabar hatchani firiye dite. Hoyto onek deri hoye jabe, jokhon tumake pabo. Kintu, valobasha ta kokhonoi old hobena eta sure ....

Sunday te amader dekha korar plan. Janina sob thikmoto hobe naki. Oikhan theke eshei likhbo, ki holo. Jodi beche thaki, tobe nishchoi valo kichu shunate parbo. Valobashar sagor theke babu ke niye dub diye otte parbo. Fi amanillah

Fire eshechi Shanti niye

11.11.2014

Sosthi kingba shanti ki ekei bole? Janina, tobe jeitai hok Gotokal dinti chilo shudui shantir. Buker jalatake komanur moto ekta din. Etota valo legechilo bujate parbona. Shudhu cikkar kore bolte ecche korche, Shanti, Shanti and Ommm Shanti.

Ajke abar jaoyar kotha chilo amar shantir pakhi Babutar kache. 13 tarikhe or exam. So, onekkhon babutar pashe thakte partam. Or kache gelei sob kosto kothai jeno cole jai. Cokher somossa, kashi, jor sob odhao. R mathai take niye ekrash cinta dur hoye shnati shanti ekta vhab thake. Ajkeo tar kache abar chute jete mon caichilo. But, onek koste monke baddo korlam na jete.

Babu, tumake je ami boddo beshi valobashi. Tumi amake sob dite cao, ami jodi ta niye nei Ta kivabe hoy. Tumi jototoko diyecho oitai to amar neya ochit hoyni. Tumake eto valobashi je, shudu tumake amar pashe pelei ami hobo sukhi manush. Gotokal rate phone e bollana, amar jate kono afsos na thake, sei jonno tumi amake tumar sob kichu dite cao. Aei kotha tai mathai gurche. Ami ki tumar sorolotar sujog nicchi? Suja banglai, ami ki tumar sorirer jonno emon kori? Na babu, tumar sathe amar bondon ta holo mone. Oi mon jure jotokhon ami thakte parbo, oitai hobe prapti. R kichu caina ami. Aj abar gele, agamikal hoyto abar tumake ador korbo. Tumio jani kichui bolba na. Tobuo, ami je ta caina. Jedin tumake amar pashe pabo, sedin e tumake poripurnovabe ador korbo.

Aj sei sokal 7 tai othechi. Ekhon dupur 2 ta. Sokal 7 ta theke 11 ta porjonto bed e shuye shudu nijer sathe, moner sathe juddo korechi. Amar jaoya thik hobena. Tumi jao ekto sokto hoccho, abar ami tumake emotional kore dicchi. Ajke abar jaoya mane, r o ekta din tumake sopno dekhabo. Ami j parbona, tumar jibonta nosto korte. Tumake valo rakhtei je amar nirontor cesta. Tobuo vebechilam, tumar moner eccha ta puron korte amar jaoa ochit. Kintu, ajto poribohon dormogot. Tai, kono bus charchena Sylhet er oddesshe. Bujhlam, amar mon tahole thik siddhantoi niyechilo. Kosto lagche ekta kotha vebe, tumi sondha 7ta theke 8 ta porjonto hoyto sara rat amar jonno opekkha korbe janalar pashe. Amar ashar poth ceye mon kharap kore boshe thakba :'(

10.11.2011 < tumar sathe dekha holo prai mashkhanek pore. Ki korecho nijer? Mukher obostha, sorirer obostha! Samna samni dekhe kichu bolini. Keno nijeke aeivabe kosto diccho. Tumi janona, tumake emon dekhte amar sobceye beshi kharap lage. Ouff tumake pothom dekhe vishon kosto lagchilo. Tarpore, ami tumar majhe hariye gelam. Duijonei hariye gelam onno ek vhubone. Eke oporke ador korlam. Eto valo lagchilo bujate parbona. Jokhon tumar chule hat bulalam, tumar hate amar hat rakhlam, ami hariye gelam tumar majhe. Erporer somoi ami chilam sopner vitore. Konodin ki tumake purnagngho vabe amar pashe emon kore pabona? Janina, kopale ki ache. Shudu jani, tumar jonno opekkha kora chara amar r kichui korar nei.

Bus terminal er samne eshe tumake ekta question ask korlam. Sotti tumi amar jibone ashba to? Tumi bolle, bissash jeheto koro amake, obosshoi ashbo. Sotti babu, tumake onek bissash kori. Ondher moto bissash kori bolei, ekhono asha kori, tumake amar jibone paboi.

Goto rate kothar fake ekta kotha ask korechilam. Tumar plan ki? Tumi bolechila, apur and choto apur biye hole, tobe kichu ekta korba. Tachara onno kono opai nei. Mane at least 3 ta year tumi onar sathe thakba. 3 ta year amar buke roktokhoron hobe, ghum vengbe cikkar kore. Kadteo parbona, cokher problem. Ami ki kore katabo etogolo din. Aei 3 ta bochore ki tumi emoni thakba? Tumi paltiye jaba. Vhule jaba aste aste amake. Tumi joto kichui koro, tumi used to hoye jaba. R tai amar jibone ashte caibana, ami jani. Ami jani bolei, tumi amake sob deyar pore ami nite caina. Tarpore niye fellam gotokal! Ouff vabtei kharap lagche. Ami amar majher oi manush take domiye rakhte parlam na tumake peye. Sorry babu, amake khoma kore dao. :'(

Tumake gotokal r o ekta kotha bolechilam. Tumi jekhanei thako, ami seikhanei jabo. Janina, kotha ta rakhte parbo naki. Jodi na pari, tobe vene nio Tumar tarzan ta r beche nei. Jotokhon aei dehe pran thakbe, tumar chaya hoyei ami thakbo. Hoyto kokhono samne ashbo, kokhono lukiye tumake dekhe jabo ...... 

Etai ki hobe sesh dekha?

08.11.2014

Kichukhon age Babur sathe kotha holo. In Sha Allah agamikal sokale sylhet jabo. Amar babur sathe dekha korte. Hote pare etai sesh dekha. Sotti ki tai hobe?

Goto kichudin dorei or sathe dekha kora niye alocona hocche. But, amar nijer jonnoi shudu date picacchilo. In Sha Allah agamikla gele er porer din babur sathe dekha hobe. Kintu, mone ekta ashonkha. Babur sathe ki Apu ashbe? Tahole je babutake valo kore dekhtei parbona. Ishh Apu jodi na ashto tobe babur hat ta dortam. Oi hat ta dorlei bukher jalata komto, ami sure. Kintu, sei sujog ki ami pabo?

Janina, ek onishchoita niye abar babur oikhane jaoa. Potibar emon ekta obostha thake. Dekhi, mohan allahopak kopale ki rekhechen. Onek rat hoye geche. Jai shuye pori. Sokal sokal otte hobe. In Sha Allah oikhan theke gure eshe likhte parbo ki hoyeche. Janina valo mon niye boshte parbo naki amar diary ta niye......

To be OR not to be

31.10.2014

Aj soronio sei October masher sesh din. Onno karo kache aei masher kono mane thakte na pare, but amar onek onel sritymoi ekta mash. Koto kichu bolar moto ache aei mash jure.

Aei mashe amar Rajkonnar jormodin. Aei amshe amar Jeni ta nijeke tar aim thik kore neyar sahosh fire paiye diyeche. Aei mashe eshe amar babutar mone holo, ami tar life complicated kore tulchi. Aei mashei Babur Ammu, Vhai, Dulavai theke corom opoman holam. Oops Dulavai er bepar ta r clear kora jabena. Aei mashei Pori hath and Matha pure gelo gorom dud pore. Aei mashe khub baje ekta comment shunlam r ekjon theke ja amar mejo vhabi amar somporke bolechen. Aei mashe eshe bujhlam, amar family er sobai etodin amake use koreche and now sobar valo cinta kore jar jar aim niye besto hoye poreche. Aei mashei onek taka loose khelam. Aei mashe, r ki? Mone porche na, tobe joto toko likhechi tate aei mash take baki jibon mone rakhar motoi.

Khub ososthi hocche. Aj k amar agent er sathe kotha holo, bollo Budbarer dike FLIGHT date dite pare. Jodi tai hoi, tobe tumar sathe dekha korbo kivabe? Som and Mongol bar to hortal. Ki korbo bujte parchina. Ouff, tumake na dekhe ami je konovabei aei desh theke jete parbona. Karon mon bolche, etai hote pare tumar sathe amar sesh dekha. Jodio, abar mon bolche, amar promise ami rakhboi, tumi amar jibone fire ashbai. Sarakhon matha betha or ghar betha kore. Besh bujhte parchi, pressure bere ache. Regular Gorur mangsho khacchi. Cokher doctor ow bolche alergy jatio khabar na khete. Amar naki alegy problem ache. Cosma ta porte khub kosto hoi. Uneasy lage. Eta hate nilei mone hoi, tumi mukh tipe hastecho R amake siyal pondit boltecho. Sei jonnoi r o cosma ta pora hoina.

Babu tumake promise korte amar khub kharap lage, cause sei promise amar pokkhe amar rakha somvob noi. Mone ache tumar, tumar biyer 4 din age ami bolechilam, tumake age kora promise golo ami konodin ow vangte parbona. Kintu, aj theke tumar r kono kothai ami shunbona. Tarporeo, tumake happy korar jonno amar promise korte hoi. Hoyto, tumi thiki bujhte paro ami aei kothagolo shunbona. Tao cetsa koro amake line e anar. Kintu, jei line tumi olot-palot kore diyecho, tumake chara ta r konodin ow thik hobena. Hoyto ashbena amar jibone, tao opekkha kora. Opekkha jinish tar moto kharap r kichui nei.

Aei bashai amar dom bondho hoye ashche. Kotota osojjo lagche, tumake bujate parbona. Nijere baba-ma ke kharap lage, bujo tahole ami koto psycho hoye gechi. Shudu count down kore jacchi, kokhon ekhon theke jete parbo. Khub niribili thakte parbo. Keo amake dakadaki korbena. Shantite tumake niye vabte parbo, tumar chobigolo dekhte parbo, recording golo shunte parbo. Aeigoloi to amar baki jiboner patheo.

Jani, aj theke 1 year porei TUMI r tumi thakba na. Ekhon jao amar sathe ektu kotha bolo sojug pele, tokhon moneo porbena. Songsharer bestotai vhule jaba. Tumi-tunir songshar theke tumar moto lokkhi Allah kaoke diben jake niye tumar beche thakata hobe anondomoi. Ishh oi dintar jonno ami mukhiye achi. Tumi valo acho, mukhe hashi emon ektibar tumake dekhe jodi amar moron hoto. Kono ovinoy noi, tumar pran theke asha ekta hashi, ja proshantite voriye dibe tumar hridoy. Jekhane bosobas shudui amar, sei proshanti amio pabo, pete cai ........

Allah sob kichu thik rakhle in sha allah abar ashbo fire, aei AMAR DINGULI te. Valo thako tumi, valo rakho sobai ke ...... Valobashi lokkhi amar.

Ekta prosno kori, dekhi paro kina. Boloto nicher chobite ami kunta :D

Etai ki sesh soptaho aei deshe amar?

26.10.2014

Mathar neuron golo aste aste cinta korar manoshikota hariye felche. Din din ami kemon jani hoye porchi, sostho manush aeivabe beche thakte parena. Jodio ami moteo sostho nei. Tobuo bajjik dik diye to sostho, tobe amar majhe emon hocche keno?

Rat 12 ta baje. Tumar phone er jonno opekkha korchi. Jani tumi phone korba, eta amar bissash. Jodio aei bissash tumake ageo korechilam, ajo kori. Etotoko norcor hoini sei bissasher moddhe. Asole kaoke nijer thekeo bissash korte hoi, R amar sei manush ta hole tumi. Jake ami ondher moto bissash kori. Ekhono mon ke bujai, Tumi poristhitir cape baddho hoye emon korecho. tumar opor blam dile je amar nijeke ossthito osikar kora hobe. Tumar jonnoi to beche achi. Tumi amake r o kosto diba, sei kosto goloke sojjo kore tumar future life er sathe Chaya hoye mise thakbo.

Tumake bolbo na, bolbo na bole sob bole feli phone e jokhon kotha hoi. Kemon jani hoye pari. Jotoi cesta kori tumake r future plan er kotha bolbona, tao mukh diye cole ashe. Tumake joto kosto na diye kotha bolbo vhabi, totoi mukh diye tumake aghat korar moto kotha bole kosto dei. Ouff, etota kharap ami. Tumake kadai, tumar oi dui cokhe jol ene nije shanti pai. Etto golo kharap ami .....

Asol kothai to bola hoini. Aj onekdin por likhte boshlam. Monta khub bikkhipto hoye ache. Goto koekta din khub manoshik jontrona hocche. Ami sruter dike sorir vashiye diyechi, ekhon shudhu veshe jacchi. Hoyto in sha allah, aei soptahe veshe jabo aei desh chere onno kothao. Oder sathe emoni kotha hoyeche, aei soptahe amake na nite parle R ami jabona. Ami jabo, just oagent k cape rakhar jonno. Dekhi ki hoi. Amake cole jete hobe. R o 2 masher opore tumi deshe thakba, ami r same vhul korte caina. Tumi savabik houyar cesta kore jaccho, abar ami tumake sei 6 masher moto koster somoigolote felte caina. Tumar life ta ami R complicated korte caina. Tumar mukher kothai, "Ami tumar life ta complicated kore felchi". Ami aei koidin aei kotha tai shudhu vebechi. Ami keno emon korchi? Amar to ochit tumar valor jonno dure thaka. Somossa holo, sobi bujhi. Kintu, amar mon take bujate parina. Valobeshi khub, R tai nijeke domiye rakhte parina. Ouff, aei jontrona amar aei jibone sesh hobena.

Goto 23 tarikhe tumar jormodin chilo. Allahor kache lakh lakh sukriya, tumake ami wish korte perechi. Mone ache tumar, tumi amar jormodine aei pothom wish koroni. Otocho, ekhon tumi jei situation e acho, tar theke onek valo obosthai chila. Tarpore amake wish koroni. Khub kosto peyechilam. Tumar jormodine wish korte pere sei kosto cole geche. Isshhh koto sopno chilo, birthday er dine tumake dekhbo. Sob plan okejo hoye gelo, bidesher bepar tar karone. Tachara hoyto valoi hoyeche othoba Allah can nah tumar sathe amar r dekha na hok. Jodi tai hotobe onar kache pratthona kori, jaoyar age ektibar jate tumar mukhta dekhe jete pari. 

Janina aei vagghe ki ache. Likha shuru korar age vebechilam onek kichu likhbo, kintu likhte boshe kichui mone porchena. Matha ta majhe majhe shunno mone hoi, bokar moto takiye thaki opolok vabe. Jai hok, likhbo r ekdin thanda mathai. Onek gotona gotche, ekhanei likhbo sob. Amar kotha shunar to keo nei. 

Kosto capar Mission

16.10.2014

Post er title thekei aj kotha shuru kori. Kosto capar mission shuru korechi. R joto kosto e ami pai, tumake ami kichu bolbona. Tumi to onek ovinoy korecho, ebar amio shuru korlam. Duijoner prithibi hobe ekta moncho, duijonei amra ovhineta. Tumi ovinoy kore jabe ettogolo manusher sathe, R ami shudhu tumar sathe.

Gotokal rate prai may be 3-4 month er pore tumar sathe phone e eto kotha bollam. Jodio kotha shuru hoyechilo ekta sad environment e. Tarpore so how eksomoi tumake happy korar shuru korlam. Tumar mukher hashita je onekdin shunina. R tai tumake hashanur jonno shuru korlam amar sei puranu dustami. Kintu, buker moddhe colchilo, ek osojjo jhor. Tumi r ashbena amar jibone, tumi seita clear kore bole dila. Tumi onar sathe regular phone e kotha bolcho, ami tumar jibon take complicated kore tulchi. Kotha ta ariye geleo buke tirer moto legeche. Tumake ektu valo rakhbo bole Dubai er bepar ta tumar sathe share korlam, just tumar ovhibekti ta bujar jonno. Tumi ki amake seikhane except koro naki. Dekhlam, tumi kushi hobe. So, ami aei chance ta nibo. Tobe, ekhon na. Tar age je amake onek kichu guchate hobe, nijeke bujanur sesh cesta korte hobe, tumar life ta jate ami complicated  na kore tuli. Janina, ami to shudu vhul kori, abar ki vhul korbo?

Amar main somossa holo, tumake chara ami thaktei parbona. Seita tumi jeikhanei jao, amar je seikhanei jete hobe. Dorkar hole Dubai teo jabo, tobe ekhon na. Age tumi r o nijeke guchiye nao. Jate amar jonno tumar kono khoti na hoi. Ami thakte parbo, amake niye. Amake niye vabar ekjon ache, seita hoccho tumi. Eta vebei shantite thakbo. Abar kosteo thakbo eta vebe, amar kolijar tukra r ekjoner sathe thakche. Kichu korar nei, tumar valor jonno amake je sob sojjo korte hobe.

Babu, prithibite amader ayu jotodin ache totodin amra bachbo. Amar cokher samne tumi r ekjoner sathe thakba, vabtei matha betha shuru hoye jai. Ekta manusher doirjo bole ekta kichu thake, jeita amar ektu beshi. Sei ami eto r doirjo dore tumar samner dingolor kotha vabte parchina. Hoyto, tumar deya aei kosto vhulte amake fire jete hobe puranu sei peshai. Tumake gotokal phone er ek porjaye ekta kotha bolechilam, Amar r Attosorman bole r kichui nei. Kotha ta tumi bujhte paroni. Bujbe 24 tarikher por. . . . .

Allahor kache sesh ekta pratthona. Jormodiner dine mane next Brihospoti bare jate tumake ek polok dekhte pai. Hoteo to pare, r kokhono dekha hobena. Aei wish ta jodi puron na hoi, tobe r ekbar amake Afsos korte hobe. Kintu, aei afsos ki amar konodin sesh hobe? 

Vhuler ki sesh nei?

15.10.2014

Vhul ki amar pichon charbena? Ami jeita valor jonno kori, seita keno sesh porjonto vhul bole promanito hoi? Sotti, eto vhul aei half life er jibone asholei mana jaina. Ekekta vhul aj amake kure kure khacche. Emon vhul korechi, ta shudranur rasta aj bondho, indirectly Babu bondho kore diyeche. Kichutei amar pokkhe somvhob na jodi se agree na hoi. Kintu, mon bolche sei asha kora gure-bali. Se to r nei ....

Aj saradin khub kharap keteche. Sarakhon nijeke bokaboki korechi, aei ami ki korlam? Ami janina keno ami emon korlam. Gotokal rate abar tumar sathe kotha holo. Kotha bolar ek porjaye abar tumake request korlam, amar kache cole ashte. Kintu, tumar pokkhe naki ta somvob noi. Sei kotha vebe aj saradin bishsoye katiyechi. Aei sei babu, jar rag komate amar koto ki korte hoto. Shiter rate mathe shuye thaktam campus er, bus stand er chipai jeye kotha boltam, na kheye thaktam, osostho holeo owshud khetam na .... shudhu ekta bar tar mukhe hashi shunbo bole. Nije vhul na koreo sorry boltam, tao jate kokhono apart hoye na thakte hoi tar theke. Sob chilo valobashar potirup, aj sei amar valobasha niye confused!!!

Mul kotha theke dure sore jacchi. Kothar ek porjaye tumi prosno korla, biyer age keno ami emon korini. Jobab dilam, jani sei jobabe tumar mon vhoreni. Vhorbeo na r, tumi je paltiye gecho babu. Jei babu, amake chara onno kono cheler kotha vabte partona, sei babu aj onar sathe life par kore debar cinta kore. Ekta baro mukh fute bolena, Apur moto amio korchi, kichu diner bepar. Etai to chilo tumar kache amar sesh request. Jani ami jolanjolite geleo tumar r kichui jai ashena. Tumar family tumar kache important. Otocho aei family e tumi sojjo na korar kotha.

Amar vabte r o obak lage. jei jaigai tumi tumar family k dislike korar kotha, olta ami amar family theke paliye beracchi. Tader kaoke amar sojjo hoina. R tai ekhane eshe osostho hoye pore achi. R tumi family er jonno amake kosto diccho, dao joto kushi. Mritto chara tumar pichone chuta amar bondho hobena.

Barbar kothai kothai bolo, amake vhule jao. Amar pokkhe r somvob noi. Kivabe paro eta bolte? Ektibar ki bolte ecche korena, tumi emon korona. Tumi jokhon bolba ami tokhoni cole ashbo. Ouff shudhui obak hoi. Sarakhon mathai bishsoyer ghur lege thake. Majhe majhe ecche kore, ami nij theke tumar onake phone kore sob boli. Kintu, abar pichone fire ashi.Kar jonno korbo, je kina amake jiggesh kore, AMI ASHTE NA CAILE KI JHUR KORE ANBA NAKI? Bah, amar kotha bolatai off kore dila. Thikito, tumi ashte na caileto amar pokkhe ana somvob noi tumake.

Kothar majkhane hotat JC er kotha ask korla keno eta bujhlam na. Amito nervous hoye gelam, JC abar ki boleche. R tai mukh foske ekta mitthe bole felechi, sotti eta ecchakrito chilona. JC er sathe amar FB e kotha hoi, amito MIG er password e vhule gechi. Kintu, keno MIG er kotha bollam tokhon!!! Tumi ekta tacchiller hashi dila, valoto bolla. Eto kharap lagchilo, na parchilam again sotti ta bolte tai. Saradin ekta ososti kaj koreche. Vebechilam pore phone e kotha hole sotti ta bolbo, but sotti bolte gele tumi abar mone korba, ekhono ami tumar sathe mitthe boli. R tai vebe dekhlam, kono ekdin jodi amar aei online dairy ta poro, tobo sotti ta jante parba.

Mathai ekta plan gurche. Kintu, r tumar sathe kono plan share korbona. Share korlei, sei plan tumi venghe dao na jenei. Shudu etotoko boli, ami budhoi tumar sathe r beshidin contact korte parbona. Ami nissho hoye gechi etogolo taka loose kheye, hoyto ekhon amar laptop+phone sell kore felte hobe. Tumar aeikhane achi ekhon mehman er moto, tumar jormodiner por thekei to ami change hoye jabo. Aei mone kosto peyechi Sylhet e jeye, sei kotha r ekdin bolbo jodi bece thaki.

Nijeke niye vhoi hoi, ekhon jodi ami cole / mara jai tobe to tumar eto kotha jana hobena. Ekjon bisshosto manush dorkar, jake ami aei blog er link ta dite parbo. Rezuan k deya jete pare, JC k to obosshoi. But, tara keo jodi aei diary ta pore tumake kingba amake onek kharap vabte pare. Ami sei sujug ta dite chaina. Tao hoyto na caileo dite hobe. Tumar moto onicchakrito ......  

Shitol Chuya ....

14.10.2014

Ami ekta jinish kheyal korlam, jokhoni ami ekdom venghe pori Tokhoni tumi amar pashe eshe darao. Amar mone shantir porosh buliye dao. Ek onabil proshantite monta vore jai. Kintu, tumar songsporsho ami pai khub olopo somoyer jonno. R tai, ek poshla bristy hoye eshe tumi borong sei buker tribo jalata r o bariye dao potibar.

Ekaki ekhane pore achi, ek othoibo jor podharter moto. Ektoko sokti nei tumar bashar samne jeye tumake ek polok dekhar cesta korbo. Ami sorboshanto hoye porechi. Ekekta din jacche r vhoi amake r o ghire dorche, ekekta din jaoa mane tumar aei desh theke cole jaoyar din ghoniye asha. Ami to ekhon nissho, tumar kachakachi amar ki r thaka hobe? Janina, aei kopale ki ache, r parchina etai sesh kotha.

Gotokal saradin tumake vhebe katiyechi. Rate r sojjo na korte pere Facebook gelam, tumake ekta sms pathabo bole. Likhlamo kichu text, porokkhone BACKSPACE er capai sob kotha delete kore dilam. Edaning aei ekta notun rug hoyeche. Tumake jokhon khub miss kori, tokhon onek kotha likhi sms korbo bole. Kintu, likhar pore mone hoi, na pathanuta thik hobena. 

Ek somoi bed ashlam, mobile niye vabchi tumar ki ekta bar amar sathe kotha bolte ecche korena? Etota nishthur tumi kivabe hola? Tumar number golor dike takiye chilam. Emon somoi (11:49 PM) dekhi, Aunty'r number theke call. Amito vhoi peye gelam, abar ki holo? Kintu, dekhlam MISSCALL. Buktate dhop kore ashar prodip jole othlo. Tumi na to !!! Sathe sathei call back korlam (12:29 sec. kothao bollam), but vhoye kotha bolchilam na valo kore, jodi Aunty hoi. Tumar golatao shurute kemon jeno chilo, bujte parchilam na. Oboseshe bujhlam, hmm eta amar babu. Ouff ki je shanti. Kotodin pore amar Babur voice ta shunlam. Shuna matroi, Musarof Karimer moto "Abege Kandailaichi" :D ......

Etota emoitional hoye porechilam je, tumake abar ku-montrona deya shuru korlam. Asole oigolo chilo amar moner kotha, kintu tumake to janate caini. Isshhh sob bole dilam, tumake r o kosto dite. Tumar ammu, Shoyeb vai er kotha bolla and tader jonnoi tumi emon korcho eta amake janala. Na, amar kono rag nei. Keno rag korbo, tumi valo thako etai to cai. Sob dosh oi mon er. Aei montai kichutei mante caina.

Tumar sathe dekha korte cailam, kintu tumi naki eka ber hote parbana. Apu or Ltl.Apu thakbe sathe. Jei thakuk tate kono somossa nei. Ami shudu dur theke tumake ekbar dekhte cai. Kotodin dekhina tumake. Ami jani, thikmoto na kheye tumi abar sukiye gecho. Friday te tumi dekha korba bolla, pore amake confirm korba. Ekhon shudhu opekkha korchi. Tumake dekhte parbo to??? 

Vhule Jaoa ki Etoi Sohoj !!!

12.10.2014

Kosto j kotota voyanok jontronadayok hote pare ta ami aj besh bujhte parchi. Sarakhon mone hoi, aei buker moddhe jolche, dom bondo kora betha, majhe majhe vahbi eto kosto niye keno beche achi? Emon ek kosto ja vuktovhugi chara r keo e bujhbena. Mojar bepar hocche, amake sei kosto sara jibon boye berate hobe, jemon kore amar babu bole "Shara jibon onar sathe katate hobe, kichui korar nei"

Vabte khub obak lage, ekta manush ke eto valabashar poreo kivabe se bole amar valobashai khut ache! Kivabe se manush ta pare, valobashar manusher kotha na vebe onnoder kotha vabte? Asolei aei juge sobai practical hoye geche. Ami e kebol ekhono emotional roye gelam. Kintu, tai bole amar jonno kono tan thakbena, ekta baro amake bolbe na, ami tumar kachei fire ashbo. Doirjo doro. Minimum aei kotha ta bole ki ekta manush k sopno dekhiye sostho thate deya jaina?

Jedin babur biye holo, dorei niyechilam take ami haralam. Kintu, nah abar ami sopno dekhlam amar babur kotha shune. Shei babu, aj amake abar bole vhule jao amake. Sotti, kaoke sopno dekhanu sohoj. Kothai jeno porechilam, "Kaoke Odhikar diye sei odhikar kere neoyata Nisthurota". Asolei tai, amar sathe tumi nisthorota korecho. Tobu, kichui bolar nei. Tumake je ami valobashi, tumar jonnoi j ami baki jibon opekkha korbo. Sopno na dekhle ami je sesh hoye jabo. Jodio sesh hobar r baki nei. Ami decision niye niyechi.

Babu, tumar jormodin tar jonno opekkha korchi. Oi din tumar aei prithibite agomon hoyechilo, r er porer din tumar Tarzan name manush take r keo khuje pabena.

Tumar mone ache, biyer age tumi family er kotha bole biyeta korechila. Ami tumake onek mana korechi, shunoni amar kotha. Biyer pore aj 6 mash pore abar sei family er dohai diye onar kachei fire jaccho. Bolte paro, ki dorkar chilo etogolo din tumi kosto paoyar? Shimu to dibbi ache, tumio tai thakta. Ishh, amari vhul hoyeche. Hobiganj e amar thakatai thik hoini, aei jonnoi nijer poti r o genna ashe. Er sasti to petei hobe. Tumi to janoi, ami sorir k kosto diye vhuler praschitro kori. Ebaro tai korbo. 24 tarikhe tumake sob bolbo.

Nijeke ami hajar bar jiggesh kori, babu ke ami ki valobashlam eto bochor dore? Hajar bari ottor ashe, tumar valobashar manush ke tumi bujate paroni she tumar jiboner ki. Aeito October mash r kichudin pore sesh hoye jabe, dekhte dekhte December cole ashbe. Babu, onar hath dore cole jabe amar theke onek dure. R ami Tarzan ta bokar moto tar poth ceye thakbo ..... Hoyto vor dupure mathai ekrash Gham niye tar cinta kore tokhono. Attosorman bole kichu nei r, sei kotha onnodin likhbo :'(

Aj Ami Boroi Nissho

11.10.2014

Prithibite, beche thakata oneker sopno, abar oneke joto taratari pare cole jete cai. But, dui pokkhoi to manush. Kintu, vaggho namok jaigai emon kichu likha thake, ja tader jibon take sukhomoi or durbishoho kore tole. Aj ami keboli ekjon nissho manush. Amar pashe keo nei, beche thakata nirotthok. Majhe majhe vabi, koto imporatnt manush mara jai, R amar moto ekta jongal cole gele to shudu prithibir na, Babur prithibitao shantipurno hoto. Khub dishehara hoye pori jokhon aeivabe cinta kori.

Valobasha niye ajkal vhabi. Valobashar jonno manush koto ki kore. Oneke mukhe bollei, onnojon sei valobasha bissash kore ney. R oneker jonno jiboner soto sopno bishorjon diyeo valobasha prove kora somvob hoina. Jemon, aj amar mone hocche sotti valobashar nikot aj ami porajito holam. Dirgo 5 year dore ekjon k valobasha bujate parini, Goto 6 mash doreo parini, ekhono parchina. Ekhono tar mone hoi, amar valobashate KHUT ache. Mitthe noi, valobashate khut ache, R tai sei valobasha k 100% pure korte baki jibon ami Praschitto kore jabo. Mrittor ager dineo jate ekbar shuni, Na tumar valobasha mitthe chilona. Eta chara je aei jibone amar r kichui caoyar nei. Ami buje gechi, ami decide kore niyechi amar porinoti.

 Amar bepare vebechi cesta korbo, joto kom kotha bola jai. Karon, noito pore aei lekha golo pore ami nijei onek kosto pabo. Koster kotha srity korte nei, srity keboli jontronamoi. Amar dirgo 5 year srity aj amake kurekure khai. Nijeke grina koreo charte parina, khun kore felte ecche hoi. But, Allah may be amake r o shasti deyar jonnoi baciye rekhechen. So, mukh buje sojjo kora chara amar hate r kichui nei.

Tumar sathe naki JC er onek kotha hoyeche. Tumar aei change er pichone naki karon ache, but amake bollona. Bollo, vaia shudu eta jeno tumar babu valo nei, abar tar kichu koraro nei. Tobe, amar naki corom berthota, tumake ajo ami amar valobasha bujate parini. R tai tumar majhe ekhono amar valobasha niye sondheho, amar jonno vableo hoyto amakei r caona. Amio vebe dekhlam ekta jinish. Eto valobashi tumake seita jodi nai bujhate parlam, tumake eto jontrona dicchi keno ami? Keno barbar tumake fire pete cacchi jekhane tumi decide kore niyecho Shara jibon onar sathei thakba. Jani, eksomoi tumi vhulei jaba tumar jonno kono ekta manush diner por din opekkha kore, kostokor ekta jibon japon korche. Ortho, pachurjo manushke dukkho vhuliye dei.

Tuimi naki decide kore niyecho Oi barite jaba and oni ashle Dubai ow cole jaba. Oikhane oni r tumi aste aste maniye niye notun jibon shuru korba. Saradin onar jonno ranna korba, tumader baby er jotno niba, aste aste songsharer mayai joriye jaba. Amio cai tai hok. Ami r tumake kichui na bolar try korbo, dekhi amake tumi koto kosto dite paro kingba ami koto kosto sojjo korte pari.

Koto kichu likhbo vebechilam. Kintu, nah cokh amar kotha shunche na. Edaning cokh duita kokhon j eto pani niye ashe, ter e paina. Thiki to lukiye lukiye koto kadha jai. R tai bashar keo dekhe felle bolte hoi, na Cokhe problem, khali pani ashe. :D

Valo thako tumi, valo rakho tumar family k. Ami kokhonoi tumar attar manush hote parini. So, amar jonno noi, tumar family'er jonnoi tumi cinta korba etai pottasha kori. Tarzan gele somossa nei, tumake songo deyar jonno r ekjon ache. Tumar family ache, orai tumake sokti dibe, sob vhuliye dibe. Amake tumi sesh porjonto hariyei dila :'(

Kosto nibe, Kosto?

06.10.2014

Aj Kurbanir Eid. Aei pothom, tumar wish pelam nah kono Kurbanir eid e. Eta jotota na aj saradin kosto diyeche, tar beshi kosto aj 3 din dore pacchi tumar oi sms paoyar por theke FB e. Kichutei mante parchina tumar aei poriborton. Sarakhon mathai tumake niye cinta, ki kore tumar sathe ektu contact kora jai.

Aj gramer bari theke ashar somoi, Mezo vabi hotat ask korlo amar ki hoyeche? Karo sathe kotha bolini. Bashar sobai mejo vhabi k dayitto diyeche, eta janar. Amar j ki holo, tuta pakhir moto sob bole dilam. Tumar eto kosto sojjo kora, amar ekhon obodi cetsar kotha sob. Ami vebechilam, vabi react korbe. But, nah. Vhabi amake ki bollo jano? Bollo, tumake biye kore felte. Bakita on R mejo vaiaya dekhben. Amar R tumar eto kosto sojjo korar kono mane hoina. Ami keno etodin eta bollam na, tai bokao dilen. Bashai dorkar hole janaben na, pore jananu hobe.

Ami ki korbo, bolte paro? Tumar sathe konovabei ami contact korte parchina. Shimu k call korechilam, o CTG te, Dhakai back kore pore amake call korbe. Ouff, ki j osthir lagche. Tumi kivabe parcho, amar sathe kotha na bole thakte? Emon ekta eid e, tumi parla amake call na kore thakte? Tumi ki etoi change hoye gecheo Babu?

Tumake amar mejo vaia k niye jei vhoi ta chilo, oita ekhon r nei -Ta bolte parchina. Babu, please ekta bar amake call dao or FB e sms dao. Dekho, ami ki kori. Amar opor ektu astha rakho. Tumake potarona korar kono wish amar nei, tumake je ami vishon valobasji. Tumi hoyto parbe, ovinoy kore jete. But, ami ki korbo? Eka ekta manush ke sarata jibon tumar kosto dite valo lagbe?

Ami ekta decision niyechi. Aei October er moddhe tumar sathe amar contact na hole, ami oita korbo. Hoi Suicide or onno r ekta jinish. Ami parbona tumake onno karo sathe thakte dekhte. Tumar jemon 2 mashei doirjer vadh venghe geche, amaro temon. Ami aei jibon R rakhbona :'(

Kono ottor paina ....

05.10.2014

Keno amar sathei shudhu emon hocche? Keno, bolte paro babu? Koste bukta fete jacche. Cikkar kore kadteo parchina, sotti vishon dom bondho kora kosto hocche. Shudhu mone hocche, ebar budh hoi tumake ekebarei hariye fellam. Sara rat bichanai epash-opash kore etai vebechi. Tumi to oi barite now eka, partena amake ekta call korte?

Babu, tumar opor vishon rag hocche. Tumi amar sathe emon korte paro!!! Tumi keno amake bolechila nicher kothagolo?

1. Eki vhul ami r 2nd time korte caina,

2. Tumake chara amar pokkhe onno karo sathe thaka somvob noi,

3. Ami to bolechi oi barite ami r jabona, dekhi ki hoi,

4. Apur moto ghotona aei family te abar hobe,

5. 3 tarikhe amar hath chuye bolechila, shudhu amari thakba,

6. Tumar sontan hobe amar (sorry kharap kotha tao bollam),

7. 1 year keno, 10 year pore holeo tumi amar jonno opekkha korba,

8. Ami daklei tumi cole ashba, tumi valobashar exam e harbana.

etogolo promise kingba kotha keno bolechila amake, jeigolo tumi rakhte parbena? Keno amake sopno dekhala? Amito besh chilam, kosto vhulte Hobiganj e RICKSHA caliye besh to din katiyechi. R o noi katatam, dorkar hole sara jibon katatam. Tao, tumake to dekhte partam. Sotti kichutei mante parchina tumar aei hotat poriborton. Amar potio ki tumar r kono maya hoina? Naki, tumar kothata now olta hoye geche? karo jonno R maya hoina, eta ekhon sobar jonnoi maya hoi shudu Tarzan chara.

Jano, amar jonno Jessi koto kosto korche, tumar onar sathe FB e she kotha bole shudhu information nicche. Kintu, tumi naki Phone number kaoke dite mana korecho, R tai aei ekta jinishi se ekhono ber korte pareni. Sotti bolchi, tumar sathe ami ekbar kotha bolte cai, shudhu ekbar. Tumar nijer mukh theke shunte cai, tumi ki sotti onar sathei thakba? Amar dake sara diba na R? Ami dakle ashbana? Hmm shudhu etai.

Agamikal Eid. Oi barite eid korba. Vhul kore holeo ki amake ekta phone diba? Ami je khub cacchi shudhu ekta bar tumar sathe kotha bolte. Eid er 2-3 din por tumi Habiganj e back korba, taina? Sobai k happy kore felecho, oi barite jeye. Amar moto ekta manusher mon vangle kar ki? Tumar ki? Kokhonoi to amake bujte parlena. Kharap shunaleo, sotti kotha holo, tumi vebecho kamona puroner jonnoi tumake cacchi ami. Specially 3 tarikher gotonar por tumar etai mone hoyeche, ami besh bujte parchi. Vebecho, ami jeta ceyechi, seita amake diyecho, so ebar tumi tumar life niye vabtei paro, taina?

Babu, jano tumake eto beshi valobashi je tumi jodi amar theke sotti aeivabe cole jao, tobe sara jibon amake emon boba kanna kede jete hobe. Ekhon amar to r kichui korar nei. Dekhi, Dulavai er sathe sesh dekha kore. And, tumar bashar samne sesh barer moto podo duli rekhe. Jodi aei vagghe tumake sesh dekhar suvaggho toko hoi :'( Dukkho shudhu ektai, amake kichu bolar sujug ta tumi dilena, ekta sms pathiye sob sesh kore dila :'(

Sesh Plan ta Ki kaj Korbena?

04.10.2014

Babu, tumi eta ki korla? Amar sesh plan take ekebare elomelo kore dila? Manush change hoi, but etota changed hut kore!!! Ki kore parle tumi? Sotti, ektu age shune obek lagche. Ekhono amar bissash hocchena, ja shunechi ta sotti!!!

Ekta sms pathiye tumi tumar dayitoo sesh kore fella? Matro 2 mashei tumar sob cesta sesh, tumar potirodh sesh!!! Tumi sobkichu mene niye Soshur bari cole gela Eid korte? Kivabe tumi eta parla? Tumi j amar sesh plan take sesh kore dila. Ouff babu, koste bukta fete jacche. Kivabe parla tumi oi barite jete?

Tumake FB e sms pathalam, ora eid e ashle oder corom opoman kore diba, R tumi kina oder barite jeye boshe acho EID korte!!! Tumake aei eki kotha 2 mash age bolechilam, but keno tumi oder bollena? Tobe ki tumi age thekei cacchila, tumar shushur barir rasta jate thik thake? Amar sathe thakar try korba, but jodi na paro than jate oidiker rasta ta bondho na hoye jai??? Amar vabtei to obak lagche!!! Tumi kivabe parla, babu tumi amake r kotobar marba?

Bolte paro, ekhon ami Dulavai er sathe dekha kore ki bolbo? Amito vebechilam, Dulavai k voi lagabo oni jodi kichu na koren tobe tumi r sojjo korbana. Olta-palta kichu ekta korba. And, ami jantam kaj hole etatei hoto. But, tumi sob sesh kore dila :'(

Na, ami here jabona tumar moto eto sohoje. Ami Dulavai er sathe dekha korboi. Ki bolbo, ta niyei vabte hobe. Ekta kichu korboi. Ami tumake kokhonoi kichu dite parini. Ami jeivabei hok, tumake amar jibone anboi. But, ki kore? Tumi potibar amar sob plan elomelo kore dao :'( Keno emon koro? Ektu doirjo dorona, kosto to korecho, r ektu koro. Amake ektu plan onujayi kaj korte diba, please :'(

Koto technique khatiye Dulavai er address and tumar sob update information collect korte hocche, ta to tumi janona, kotojoner hath-pa dora baki rekhechi. Tumi j amar dhen gen, amar sokol somoi tumar kotha vabte vabte kete jacche. R tumi acho tumar future life niye? Bah valo, aei na hole amar babu. Amake aei jibone na peleo, porer jibone cao aei valobasha niye? Aei valobashar sokti tumar? 2 mashei sob promise, sob doirjer badh venghe gelo? Hashbo na kadbo kichui bujte parchina.

Ja kichui hok, ami jei koidin achi amar saddomoto cesta kore jabo. Dorkar hole tumake ami bideshe jeye ciniye niye ashbo. Eta amar promise. Tumar moto hole to amar colbena :'(

Eto promose korchi, but jake ante jabo She ashbe to??? :'(

He Allah, amake r ektu sahajjo koro :'(

Kichui Bolar Nei .....

02.10.2014

Tirther kaker moto tumar khobor janar jonno opekkha korchilam. Ajke janalam, but emon kichu shunbo!!! Babu, tumi etota palte gela 2 masher moddhe??? Na, nij theke kichui bolbona, Aeita to amar sritir vandar. So, tumar amar kothagoloi ekhane likhe rakhi Facebook theke ....

2:09 am

Babu

kmn achi ta na hoy na e bollam, kokono r jibone valo thakbo kina ta o janina. Etodine ekta kotha bujte parsi j vaggo jodi khrp hoy taile evbei hoy. Ami tomake kuno excuse dibo na, coz tmr r amr rltn houar por thke tumar sate kichu nia rag ba jhogra hole tmi bolta j amr kase sob somoy sob kisur jonno ekta excuse thakei so r kuno excuse nai. Tmi onk try korso amk paite, amio j ekdom e korinai tao na. Korsi bt tmr thke kom hoyto. Tmr r amr jura allah banay e nai hoyto tai amdr ajk ai obosta. Koto kisu korlam tao kuno kaj hoyna tar mane amdr kopale eksate thaka likha nai. Ontoto ai jibone. Amdr dure thkei koshto korte hobe aita bujhe nio r ki bolbo. Amk tmi kuno din o map koirona, joto bod dua ase dio, emne o hppy hobo na, temne o hobo na. Shes kotha ektai j ai life e to tmk paua holona bt morar por jodi kuno din allah oi shujug dey j tar pochonder manusher shate thakar taile oidin ami shudu tmkei chaibo r kauke na. Akn shudu morar opekkha kore kore din katabo. Onk koshto kore apur mbl thke net a duklam r sms ta dilam. Valo thko. R tmr jonne ja valo hoy tmi tai koiro Alwys. Tc

7:50pm

Eta ki tumi likhecho? Tumar text pore pothomei jei question ta mathai gurche, eta ki amar shei babu? Eto taratari here gelo, changed? Amar cesta to ekhono sesh hoini. Ami sesh cesta kore dekhbo, ami Dulavai er sathe dekha korbo. Tumar ammuke phone korechilam, but oni amake khub bokaboki korlen. Tumi shunechila? Disha k phone korechilam, 29 tarikhe tumar last exam er din tumar sathe dekha hole jate amar sathe ekbar kotha bolai. But, disha kotha rakhe ni. Phone ta porjonto r doreni. Sobai mukh firiye nicche. 27 tarikhe tumar oikhane giyechilam, but tmk ektu ow dekhte parlam na.

Babu, vebechilam kichu bolbona. But, moner kotha golo bolei feli. tumi na amake promise korechila, tumi shudu amari thakba? Tumi r 2nd bar sei eki vhul korte caona? Dorkar hole eka thakba? Ekhon tumi aei kotha bolcho? Tumi final exam. dila, othocho amar sathe ektibar contact korlana? 3 tarikhe keno amake sopno dekhala? Tumi shudu ekbar bolo, basha theke cole ashba. Ami dekhbo ki kore amader alada kore

Jani, tumar onek kosto hocche and korecho. Tumi cestar kono komti koroni. Kintu, tumi jodi sotti eka thakte chaita, tobe oder family member der bolta, amar dara somvob noi, ami r ekjon k valobashai. Apnara amar sathe r contact korbana. Amar mone hoi, eta korlei beshi kaj hoto. Eid er somoi to ora ashbe, parba eta korte? Parba na, karon tumi vhoi pao. Onar sathe tumar kotha hoi ekhon, onake ektibar bolecho tumi cao aei relation vangte? Goto 2 mashe tumi etota change hoye gela je amake tumi firiye diccho? Ekti baro vablena, tumake chara ami amar valo kokhonoi chaibona. Parbena tumi, ami jeita bolechi seita korte? Tumar opor etota manoshik jontrona deya hocche, tumi er potibade aei kothagolo onar family and onake cikkar kore bolte parbena? Tumi shudu ekbar bolo, tumi eta korba. Ami j tumake chara thakte parbona. R koto kadabe amake? Amake sara jibon emon kostokor jibone chure felte tumi parba?

Jodi decision niye thako, baki jibon onar sathe katiye diba, than amar kothagolo kane niona. Ami sorry aeigolo bolar jonno. Oni to December er dike ashben tomake nite, cole jeo. Hoyto, oni parben tumar sob kosto vhuliye savabik jibone niye ashte. Borolok manush, dubai te thakba, aei amake mone porbena. Hoyto eksomoi vhule jaba, keo ekjon tumar opekkhai ache, jodi vhul kore holeo kokhono take tumar jibone fire pete cao. Jani, emon cinta ashbena tumar mathai. 2 mashei to sei cinta matha theke jhere felecho. Vebechilam, tumar sathe r ektibar dekha kore jabo. But, amar sei babu to amar jonno r nei. She monosthir kore niyeche aei niyoti. Valoi korecho, duijoni unhappy hole kivabe hobe? Ami na hoi eka, so amake niye keo vabbena tumar moto kore. Majhkhane tumar etogolo din oguchalo kore dilam. Amake khoma kore dio, valo hok tumar agami dingolo. Shudu ekta kosto niye baki jibon ekaki katate hobe, R seta holo tumar pashe je onno kaoke ami sojjo korte parbona. Shudu ektai caoya chilo, tumi eka thako jodio bujchi ekta meyer jonno eta kora onek kostokor. Kintu, ki korbo, tumake je onek valobashi. Tumar jonno amar cokher potita jol, hoyto tumake kokhon decision change korate parbena. But, asha kori tumar mongol boye anbe.

Onek boro text likhe fellam. Ki korbo, ami j r parchina. Tumi to jano, tumake chara ami koto chonnochara, osthir. R allah jate tumake amar age prithibi theke na nei aei doa kori. Tumi morbe keno? Tumar sobai ache. Amari taratari cole jaoa dorkar. Sarakhon tumari cinta, ghumer owshud kheyeo ghumate parina. Janina samne ki hobe. Shudhu pratthona kori, tumi jate amake vhule jete paro songsharer bestotai. Tumar onagoto dingolo sundor hok. R ami jate tumake emon kore sara jibon velobeshe jete pari. Somoi thakte to tumake bujate parini, r ekhon bujiyeo lav nei. But, self satisfaction er jonno tumake emoni valobeshe jabo. Hat jur kore ektai onurod, jokhoni dekhba R parchona, ekbar deko. R ami kichu vabbona. Onar sathe tomar kagoj potrer relation thakuk. Tao ami tumake niye hariye jabo dur ojanai. Pore ja hobar hobe. Tumi ekhoni chaile, ekhoni. 10 year pore chaile, tokhono. Onek beshi valobashai, valobashi, valobashi Tumi j amar Kolijar tukra

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Aj eta ki shunlam ami? Oporer text ta likhechilam tumar sms paoyar porei. But, aei ki shunlam ajke? Ekta sms pathiye tumi tumar dayitoo sesh kore fella? Matro 2 mashei tumar sob cesta sesh, tumar potirodh sesh!!! Tumi sobkichu mene niye Soshur bari cole gela Eid korte? Kivabe tumi eta parla? - Khaoa daoa na kore, - Kotha na bole, - Mukh fute amar kotha bolei tumi onek kichu kore felcho?

Aei shobe kaj hobe tumi eta vable ki kore? Tumar ochit chilo, tumar oi barite and onake tumar amar bepar jananu, hole etatei kaj hoto. But, tumi sei barite eid korte cole gecho? Tumi j amar sesh plan take sesh kore dila. Ouff babu, koste bukta fete jacche. Kivabe parla tumi oi barite jete?

Tumake FB e sms pathalam, ora eid e ashle oder corom opoman kore diba, R tumi kina oder barite jeye boshe acho EID korte!!! Tumake aei eki kotha 2 mash age bolechilam, but keno tumi oder bollena? Tobe ki tumi age thekei cacchila, tumar shushur barir rasta jate thik thake? Amar sathe thakar try korba, but jodi na paro than jate oidiker rasta ta bondho na hoye jai??? Amar vabtei to obak lagche!!! Tumi kivabe parla, babu tumi amake r kotobar marba?

Bolte paro, ekhon ami Dulavai er sathe dekha kore ki bolbo? Amito vebechilam, Dulavai k voi lagabo oni jodi kichu na koren tobe tumi r sojjo korbana. Olta-palta kichu ekta korba. And, ami jantam kaj hole etatei hoto. But, tumi sob sesh kore dila. Na, ami here jabona tumar moto eto sohoje. Ami Dulavai er sathe dekha korboi. Ki bolbo, ta niyei vabte hobe. Ekta kichu korboi. Ami tumake kokhonoi kichu dite parini. Ami jeivabei hok, tumake amar jibone anboi. But, ki kore? Tumi potibar amar sob plan elomelo kore dao Keno emon koro? Ektu doirjo dorona, kosto to korecho, r ektu koro. Amake ektu plan onujayi kaj korte diba, please

Koto technique khatiye Dulavai er address and tumar sob update information collect korte hocche, ta to tumi janona, kotojoner hath-pa dora baki rekhechi. Tumi j amar dhen gen, amar sokol somoi tumar kotha vabte vabte kete jacche. R tumi acho tumar future life niye? Bah valo, aei na hole amar babu. Amake aei jibone na peleo, porer jibone cao aei valobasha niye? Aei valobashar sokti tumar? 2 mashei sob promise, sob doirjer badh venghe gelo? Hashbo na kadbo kichui bujte parchina.

Ja kichui hok, ami amar saddomoto cesta kore jabo. Mejo vaia and Vhabi k raji koriyechi, tumake ami biye korte. Tumi cailei ami ekhoni tumake habiganj theke niye ashbo. Amake tumi poro jibone noi, aei jibone paba. Just tumi amar sathe ektu contact koro please. Tumi jodi cao, Dorkar hole tumake ami bideshe jeye ciniye niye ashbo. Eta amar promise.

Babu, vishon obak lage ki kore tumi amar sathe contact na kore thakle? Oi barite to kono problem chilona, tumi partena amar sathe contact korte? Tumar phone er pottikkhai koto rat nirgum katiyechi jano? R tumi onar sathe phone e kotha bolo!!! Aei, tumi take and tar poribar ke sojjo korte parona, taina?

Jai hok, Tumar moto hole to amar colbena Tumar paye pori, tumi emon korona, shudhu ami ja boli ekto koro, aeivabe amake hariye diona. Tumi janona, tumi jodi amar sathe contact na koro, ami ki korte colechi. Tumar paye pori, just ekbar amar sathe phone e contact koro. Aei bashai problem hole, oi barite jao. Than amake kichu bolar sujog dao. Please. eto koste sob ready korechi, tumi amake hariye diona :'(

Mitthar Asroi Nilam

01.08.2014

Vebechilam aei blog er kono post e kokhono aei shobdota ke probesh korar sujug dibona. Kintu, sotti ta ber korte jeye amar je Mitther asroi na neya chara kono opai nei. Deyale pith theke geche. September month purata keteche tumar sathe jogajoghin. Ami je sotti r parchina.

Na, tomake jontrona debar jonno noi. Tumi jodi decide kore thako, onar sathe tumi baki jibon katiye diba, ami tomake kichui bolbona. Kintu, amar j aei kotha ta tumar mukh theke shuntei hobe. R tumar mukher kotha shunar jonno ami aj vhul poth diye sothik pothe dukar cestai nemechi. Vabcho, ki ami korechi, taina? Ekhon bolbona, jodi kajta sothik hoi, tobei bolbo ekhane. Obossho britha holeo ekhane share kora chara to moner cinta golo srity korar amar r jaiga nei.

Ki j hoyeche amar. Shudhu mone hocche tumi valo nei. Kothai jeno porechilam, "Amra jokhon kaoke khub miss kori, amra vebe nei shei manuh tao amake same miss korche. Beparta amader sompornu omolok darona". Asole ki tai? Tumi ki amake thik emon vabe miss korchona?

Jano, namaj pore shudu ekta doa e kori, Allah amar babu take valo rakho. Or mukhe sei hashita firiye dao. R ekta doa ow kori. Ami aei desh theke jabar age jate kompokkhe ektibar tumar sathe kotha bolar souvaggho hoi amar. Jodi sob kichu plan-mafik hoi, tobe in sha allah aei pothe sei sujug paboi. Now shudhu opekkha eid er porer dingulur jonno. Amar hate je khub olpo somoi . . . . . 

Babu, ekta bar ki para jaina amake just ekta miss deya or sms diye jananu, amar problem. Ami pore tumar sathe contact korbo. Tumi cinta korona. Jeita korechile gotobar. Naki, sei 3 tarikher kotha vebe sotti tumi nijeke gutiye niyecho. Vabcho, ami tomake vhule gechi. Ami jemonti vabi tumi amake vhule gecho, temonti tumio vabte paro, etai savabik. Ki j kori, matha ta purai nosto hoye jacche. Goto sara rat shudhu tumar sathe jogajog korar jonno ki ki pothe ami agate pari, tai vebechi. Matha jim mere ache, tao aei cinta sesh hocchena. 

Allah please ekta bar tar sathe amar kotha bolar sujug kore dao. Jani, ami onek pap korechi, tao aei papi ke r sasti diona. Amar jonno r ekjoner jibon ta nosto korona. Amar thekeo ami je take beshi valobashi. She amake deoa promise vhule geleo problem nei. Shudhu cai, she valo thakuk :'( 

Sob Cesta Britha Holo

30.09.2014

Manush jokhon kono ekta jinish khub miss kore, tokhon she onek crazy hoye jai. Savabik cinta-vabna tar majhe r ashena. She hoye pore bikkhipto, ja kora ochit na - ta korteo se didha korena. Jemonti ami goto koekdin dore korechi. Amar pokkhe j somvob hocchena, tumar sathe jogajog kore na thaka. Eke eke sob cesta je britha hoye gelo.

29 tarikh, rate ghum holona, kokhon sokal hobe. Sokal holo, kokhon tumar r Dishar exam sesh hobe. AMi j aeikhane opekkha korchi. 1 ta beje gelo, kintu Dishar kono khobor nei. Oke sms/call ow korte parchina, ami j oke promise korechi R or sathe contact korbona. Baddho hoye, sesh porjonto sms pathalam. Kindly jate amake ektu janai tumi eshecho naki exam dite, dekha hoyeche naki? Sms e r o bollam, etai amar last sms. R disturb korbona. But, Disha kotha rakheni. Se amake kono response dei ni. Ami promise korai, R sms ow pathate parlam na. R o ekta dorja bondho hoye gelo. Eke eke sob poth amar bondho hoye jacche.

R ki kora jai, tai vabchi. R j kono poth amar jana nei. Ektai poth ache, abar Hobiganj e jaoa, ekbar jodi janala diye tumake amar oposthiti bujate pari. Hoyto tumi contact korba amar sathe. Na, ami chaina tumar future planning change korte. Just eta bujhate chai, tumar Tarzan tumar bola sob kotha bissash kore ekhono tumar opekkhai ache.

Babu, tumi ki sotti onar kachei fire jaoyar sidhanto niyecho? Fire geleo ami tumake konodin eta niye kichui bolbona. Shudhu koekta prosno tumar kache. Keno bolechile amai, eki vhul tumi r ditiobar korbena? Keno amake abar sopno dekhala? Keno bolla, tumi amari thakba? Ami j sob bissash kore tumar opekkhai boshe achi. Tumi shudhu ekbar bole dekho, tumake niye ashar jonno. Ami sotti bolchi, tumake niye hariye jabo. R eto kichu vabbona. Eto kichu vabte jeye aj ami j ekdomi valo nei.

Ki hoyeche amar? Aei oshukh niye ki amar baki jibon katate hobe ekaki? Sarakhon tumari vabna. Tumake etobar daki, tumi ki amar dak shunte pao? Mone ache tumar, age phone korar age emon hoto, ami call deyar age tumi e phone kore dita or ami vabchi, tumake phone korbo R tumi phone kore dila! Hmm jani ekhon tumar emon hoina. Karon, jodi hoto tumi partena prai 2 mash amar sathe kono jogajog  na kore thakte. Tumi exam jeheto diccho, tar mane tumi nijeke guchiye niyecho.

Ami jani, tumi hoyto vabcho 3 tarikher bepar tar karone ami satisfied. So ami tumar sathe r jogajog rakhar cesta korchina. But, etaki vebecho, ami kiivabe jogajog korbo? Ishh tumar Dulavai er number ta jodi tokhon save kore rakhtam. Ki j bokami kori majhe majhe. Onar celer number save korlam, but now kajer somoi take pacchina.

Ja hobe hok, eid er pore ami ashbo again tumar ekhane. Sesh cesta korbo, tumar sathe contact korar. Amar shudu ekbar Dulavai er name and address ta dorkar. Ami tar sathe physically dekha korbo. Tumi hoyto bolba, ekhon r dekha kore ki hobe? But, kichu na hok, at least keo ekjon tumar opekkhai ache, tumar ekjon relative to janbe. Tarpor onake ektabar request korbo, tumar sathe kotha boliye debar jonno. Ami tumar mukh theke ekbar shunte chai, tumi amake mitthe sopno dekhiyechile :'(

Babu, ami j R parchina. Buk ta chire jodi tumake ekbar dekhate partam. Tumi onno karo sathe thakba, eta vablei je bukta bethai kokiye othe. Ki korbo ami? Ekbar bole jao amake :'(