14

Sironamhin - 14

R o ekta bochor katiye dilam tumake chara! Hmm babu, k boleche parbona? Tumi ami dui jonei t boltam,dekho thiki perechi. Tumar jiboner gotir samne R caini speed braker hoye bada dite. Taito din k din nijeke kosto diye tumake aj tumi banate ceyechi. Sofol to hoyechi, taina?

Maybe etai amar aei bochorer sesh amar buker majher kotha share kora. Aj sokale ghum theke otheo hotati anmone vabchilam, kivabe katiye dilam ekti bochor. Goto bochor November e maybe Unar biye hoyechilo, tarpor theke duijonei r o dure sore gelam. Aei choto bontar jonno kingba or kotha vebei to tumi samne agiye ashte paroni jedin ami tumar kache tumar ami hoye hath bariye diyechilam. Khub mone pore sei dingolor kotha.

Mone pore tumake pothom moner kotha bolar rater kotha, tumar sathe pothom dekha or sesh dekha, sobi ajo cokher samne vese othe. Hoyto ami tumake niyei achi bidhai amar emon hoi. Tumar to aj sei somoi or ecche nei, tai to nijer sei ager chobi khujo nijeke ager moto kore jodi ektu vabte paro tai. Sedin dibo vebeo deini, amar sobto muchei felecho, aei pic golo deya maneto ekhane ese ekbarei hariye giyeo amar poticchobi khuje nebar cesta korba. Ami jani boka, valo korei tumake cini. Taito ruge-suke bethai nil hoyeo tumake valo dekhte ceyechi.

Janina porer bochor ki hobe. Hoyto r o dure cole jabo amra, amari dinguli shudu britha asfalon korei jabe jotodin dehe pran thakbe. Amar to kosto r o prappo ache, cokhe na dekhi shune holeo kosto amake peyei jete hobe. Khuriye khuriye buk vora dirgosash niye rutine mepe amar jibon aeivabei katabe boleito nimisei amake sopner ochu pahar theke aei morur prantore achre felecho, taina babu?

Nah ekhono 5 ti bochor o hoini, r o baki. 5-10 bochor to tumar kono problem chilona jokhon amake kotha diyechile kingba jokhon pothom deshe aso. Mone ache tumar? Nah mone rakhleto aj tumi emon hotena, amakeo sonnashi hoye jete hotona. Bochor sesh, tai sesh korchi onujug. Porer bochor jodi na bachi kingba agamikal.

Theke theke buker majkhane cincine betha jokhoni tumar kotha vabi, ekbare na parlei tumake soron kori. 4-7 din pore ekbar hoyto chat hoi, aeivabei to ekti bochor katiye dilam, taina babu? Aei digsash kingba buker bethar kono sesh nei, colche colbe typer.

Valo thako Babu. Z & T k niyei onek valo thako. Ami amar moto korei dur theke tumar sukh dekhe sukhi thakar apran cesta caliye jabo.

13

19.10.2019

Dekhte dekhte din kete jacche. Kotodin holo aei moru prantore. Nijeke morovumir oter moto ek klanto kongkalashar lage. Moner majhe osposto sritygolo sarakhon kure kure khai. Keo nei, tumi nei  sei tumi r amake niye ektoko cinta korte. Emon keno holo amar sathe?

Goto masher 12 tarikhe notun othiti eseche tumar vhubon jure. Shune jotona kushi hoyechi, taro besi shanti peyechi tumi valo acho eta shune. Hokna eto obohela amake, valobasi bolei ekhono shuneo happy hoi. Hoyto ebar r tumar char nei, ekahne ashtei hobe.1 year er majhei. Valoi hobe r o kache tobu onek dure eto jabo, tao shanti tumi thakba eki sohore. Vhul korei hoytoba kono ekdin tumake dekhe felbo kono ek jaigai. Amake to cinte parbena, kintu feel ki korte parba ami achi ase-pase.

Ki kotha theke ki bolchi. Asole ek geye jibon theke hotat amar dingulite ese ager ami jege othchi. Ager ami jagroto holeo sei tumi to nei, tai ager amar o value nei. Shudu vabi,ki theke ki holo, ki shuni dekhi tumar kach theke. Amar bisshoyer sesh seto bohu agei hoyeche, jedin tumi bolechile ami abar Pgnt. Bissash korte kosto hocchilo, onicchakrito theke ecchakrito vabei ebar amar kobor hoyeche. Hahaha.

Na, valo lagchena, valolagena. Kichui sojjo hoina. Ondokar roomer majhe shudu lukiye thakatai valo lage, tai niye din kate, katbe and sob sesh hobe kono ekdin. Totodin valo thakar kotha shuniye dekhiye jao babu, valo thako.

12

24.05.2019

Din to jacche, tar sathe moner kostogolo kingba ososthota golo barche. Er budhoi kono sesh nei, taito vhule thakar apran cesta. Tobou din seshe sei abar puranu srity der sathe lukuchuri colchei . . 

ব্যস্ততা আমারো আছে,
তবু সারাদিনের কাজ শেষে
নিজের একান্ত মুহূর্তটাতে
জানতে ইচ্ছে হয় -
তুমি কেমন আছো?
ক্লান্তি আমারো লাগে,
তবু হাজারো ক্লান্তির পরেও
দেখতে ইচ্ছে হয় -
তোমায় নিয়ে লেখা
উপাখ্যানটার কতোদূর হলো?
অভিমান আমারো হয়,
তবু সব ভুলে গিয়ে অন্তরালে
ফোনটা হাতে নিয়ে দেখতে ইচ্ছে হয়
তোমার কোনো ফোন কল অথবা
এস এম এস যদি পাই।
অভিযোগ আমারো আছে,
তবু আমি এটাই ভাবি
প্রানের চেয়ে প্রিয় মানুষটাকে
নিয়ে কার কাছে অভিযোগ চাই?
শুধু নেই যেটা তা হলো - অনুশোচনা;
সত্যি আমার কোনো অনুশোচনা নেই,
কোনো আফসোস নেই,
নেই কারণ- তোমাকে ভালোবাসার
কোনো কমতি নেই।
আমি মন ভরে আমার সবটুকু দিয়ে
তোমাকে ভালোবেসেছিলাম,
তাই নিজের আয়নায় নিজের কাছে
নিজে নিরেট স্বচ্ছ,
আর তোমার যে প্রতিচ্ছবিটি

সেটা অনেকটা ঝাপসা আর অস্পষ্ট!

Japsa hoye asha srity golo kostogolokeo ki osposto korte parena? Tumar moto valo thakar ovinoi korate assist korte parena? Ouff!  

11

28.04.2019

Sorir ebong mon ek sathei onek kharap. Besh kichudin thekei colche emon. Janina etodin bade keno mone abar jhor oteche. Sorirer kotha to bole r lav e nei.

Chele houyata o asolei jamelar. Aei koidine seita besi feel korchi. Buker kosto golo asru hoye jorate parle valo hoto, seita o parchina. Khub dom bondo lagche, khali dirgosash ashche. Oxyzen er ovab, tumar ovab. Tumi ager basai esecho koidin hocche. R amar shudu sei srity golo mone porche.

Hoyto tumaro mone porche. R tai aei kodin amar theke budhoi aei karonei r o besi dure dure thakcho. Tumar basar samne shudu chute jete mon caiche. Mone hocche, ami cailei pari, sondha bela thik ager moto tumar basar samne hatahati. Tumi janalar pase ese bosba, R ami dur theke tumake dekhe cole jabo amar sei room e. Mone ache tumar, ami nich theke tumake thiki dekhtam but, ami ondhokare thaktam bole tumi amake dekhte petana. Aj sotti ami ondhokare hariye gechi. Tumake sob somoi dekhi, tumi amake dekhte kingba feel korte parona.

Nijeke khub osthir lagche. Ekhaneo shantite nei. Jamela amake charena R tumar kosto seto amar nitto songhi. Manush je eto pressure niye tikte pare, ami nijeke diyei vabi. Ki chilam, ki korchi or ki porinotir dike ami jacchi. Doctorer kache giyechilam. Koekdin dore blodd jacche, test korate bollo. Janina abar ki news opekkha korche. Hoyto sesher bashir sur ashte shuru koreche. Tumake bolbo ki, na thak. Shuru te tumi chila, majeo tumi chila, amar seshe na hoi tumi naiba thakle :'(

Valo thako babu, emon kore amake ignore kore sukhi hou.

*aj oboseshe amar location ta share kore dilam tumar sathe.

10

05.04.2019

Jacche dinguli ebong amio bechi achi. Eta janan ditei amar diary er buke fire asa. Asolei to jacche dinguli. Vore theke rat R amar jibon theke ekti diner somapti. Ocena jibon amar.

Maje maje amar puranu dinguli amake nara dei. Jake poti rate vebe gumate jetam, ekhono jai. Kintu, ek onimises durotte se nijeke niye geche. Se cailei sob pare. Eta to ajker bisoy na. Sei shuru thekei se ja ceyeche tai korte pereche. R ami? Borabori or kotha vebe nijeke kosto diye gechi, ekhono dicchi. Ami buji, tothapi tar kotha vablei nijeke change korar kono ecchai jagena. Taito colche ek pa ek pa kore sesh diner dike amar nisthur somorthoner proyash gonona kora.

Onek kichu vabi ami. Sei onek age thekei, sad gaan gulu amake khub nara dito, ami shunteo like kortam. Kingba ami jokhoni kobita likhtam, seita dekha jeto sad kono poem hoye geche. Kotobar tmk sunate jeye boka sunechi, mone ache tumar? Aj sei tumi 2nd wicket er opekkhai acho. R ami shudu dirgosash fele tumar jonno shuvo kamona kore jai. Asolei odvhut. 

Jano, ekhon ektai kotha vebe nijeke santona diye rakhi. Seita ki tumi jano, valobaso tumi amake. Din palte geche, tai nijeke khub jotone palte niyecho. Ami e parlam na, khoti ki. Ami chele bolei probem nei, hmm eta ekdin tumi e amake bolechila. Sob bujo tumi, shudu aei amakei bujlana. Kosto, onek kosto hoi, etai amake aghat kore potiniyoto.

Valo thakuk sobai. Tumar agami sopno puron hok. Er cheye besi ki r bolte pari?

Ekhon nijeke shudu eka lage!

Caridike baronto sopnora hase
Bimutro rat kade nil batase.
Here gechi aei ami
jiboner kache
Duronto potivara
pore ache nice.
Hese bole sagorer nil jolorasi
Nobojatoker mukhe jodi pai hasi.
Mrito kono bayuler
atta ta kade
Hotashai bukh badha
amar buke.
Cayer cup hate potidini vabi
Jibonta chai makha akasheri chobi.

9

03.03.2019

Goto kichudin jor jacche amar opor diye. Notun company, notun location, notun working hours, sob miliye ek navissash obostha. Vaggish aei koidin sorir ta kaj korar moto chilo. New kaj ta sikhte hoyto r o ek week lagbe. Ki j hocche r kun pothe jacchi ami?

Ekhane asar pormane new company te, old company takei valo mone hocche. At least eto porisromer kaj chilona. Tao gor pura goru jedikei jai, megh neme ase, thik temni amr kopale aei kosto e budh hoi likha ache. Taito shudu chute colechi, gontobbohin vabe.

Aei jaiga ta onek thanda. Gotoal r o ekta suyetar kinte baddo hoyechi. Ekdom sagorer sathe kaj. Thik tmr basa theke hospital er samner moto durotto. Sarakhon hu hu kore batash boi, r amake hi hi kore konkoniye jomai. Amaro maybe tmr problem peyeche, shit amake narani dei besi. Taito tmakei besi dakchi ekhane asar por theke.

Khub tmk, ammuke and amar past mone pore. Ki holo amar sathe, somoi golo kivabe koi niye aslo. Hote partam onek kichu, hote parto onnorokom. Aj amai kothai ene ki life lead koracche. Vaggo kemon kore jiboner gotipoth palte dei.

Ektu olos somoi pele aeisob cinta mathai oki dei R amak tmr kotha, tmk dakar kotha shoron koriye dei. Bam cokh tate betha, fule ache. Tao likhchi. Asole kichui to amar dingulite likha hoina. Amar dingulito tmk chara kobei biborno hoye geche. Aei sorir namok kacha niye shudu jibon take boye beracche. Khub osohai lage tmr kotha vable. Taito tmk sei cena name deke deke shanti khuje berai. Ekhoni ki bujo tmi tmk daki ami?

Valo thako, sobai valo thakuk. Jei poth ami beche niyechi nijei, sei pothe amar pothcola r o doirjoshil hok :(

8

24.02.2019

Onekdin por asha holo. Asole aei majher dinguli kivabe keteche ta nijeo janina. Kaj othoba hospital e chutachuti. Tar sathe owshud namok ek jontrona to joriye ache bai jiboner jonno. Kromosho nijer thekeo nije hariye jacchi. R taito amar dinguli o amake kromoso haracche.

Keno janina, sob somoi barebar amar sathei hoi. Jokhoni vabi aei hoyto ektu sosthi elo jibone, thik tokhoni tumar jhore abar nijeke chonnochara, dishehara kore feli. Ek ekta news jotota na dukkho boye ane, tarceye besi koster pagol hashi ontor theke mukhe niye ase R bole valobasha emoni hoi. Jotoi ami boli, na situation emon tai emon hoyeche, tokhoni mon bole r koto, r koto nijeke probodh dibo. Ami nijeo janina, tai hoyto sob elemelo hoye jacche caripasshe.

Sotti, khub vabi aei tmk R amar sei tmk. Sob srity golo klano mone ekhon r anonder bristy joraina. Caridike shudu dirgosash, cokher jol o furiye geche, shudu akash gono kalo meghe dekhe thake. Aei mone hoi bristy hobe, hoina ekhon r. Cokhgolo rokto cokkho hoye tarao klanto janan dei. Sobai ek somoi pichiye jai, ami keno emon vabei agiye colechi?

Amio vabi, tumar moto. Ami jid dore boshe achi. Nah, amai asole etatei ovvossto hoye porechi. Saririk kosto golo amake jotona betha dei, manoshik kosto amake vitore vitore potiniyoto pain diye jacche. Ekhono tumake chara kichui vabte parina. Kintu, ebar r tumake ami didhai or dumona korte caina, jodio jani tumio nei sei tumi. Kintu, tao ami maneito ek moho, kokhon abar ki hoi, taito onek tai dure thaka. Kache na thekeo je soda songsporshe thake, take to virtual jogote bibroto korar mane hoina. Amio jani, tao jokhoni na pari tokhoni dak deoya hoye jai.

Ami abar sei 25 bochorer dosshi balok hoye jai tumar obohela pele. Eta budhoi amar rokte mishe geche. Taito goto etogolo din nijeke r o besi jamelai niye chutachuti korchi. Tao tumake kichui bola hoina. Tumi acho tumari majhe, aei valobashar manush tar kotha e hoyto mone porena ekhon r. Emono hobe or hoi, vabtei obak lage. Ami nijei soda nijer poti obak hoi, kemon kore ekjon manush pare pura life style change kore dite. Na, bujbena tumi. Keo bujena, bujbena.

Onekdin por ashlam, tai prolap boke gelam. Tumi sostho thako, new manush j asbe sei sostho thakuk, tumar mukhe hasi r o bsitriti koruk. Hoyto ami nao thakte pari, tumar jonno sorboda shuvo kamona thakbe. R amar jonno pratthona korbe, amar moto jate r karo na hoi jibon.

Valo thakuk sobai, prithibi tumi sobaike valo rakho, kosto paoya manush golo doirjo dore mrittur prohor gunar opekkhai na rekhe hotat niye jao :'(