5

30.12.2017

Bochorer sesh likha likhchi, ami jani. Ekhon to ager moto ashai hoina. Bestotar owshud diye kolijar khotoke ghum pariye rakhar apran cesta cole. Tao rokte mangsher sorir ta majhe majhe bbidroho kore Amar dingulite amake firiye niye ashe. Aeivabe colche, hoyto colbe . . .

Ekti bochor. Amr Babu k chara katiye dilam, Amar moner songinike robotic vabe songho diye gelam. Abeg, onovhuti, srity sob kichu ekpashe rekhe somoi aj 1 year pore ene daar koriyeche. Ami aei ekti bochore shudu hariyechi. Pothome tumake, Tarpore nijeke, Erpore Ammuke, R ekebare seshe ese Babake. Sesher haranu manushta onekta tumar motoi. Prithinite ache tobu ekta durotto. Sob shune i bola jai aei bochor take? Amar aei jiboner ekta omor bochor, hahahaha.

Shuye shuye vabi R hashi. Sotti, age cokher kone pani cole ashto. Edaning Nah taro besi, vabte vabte hashi ashe thoter kinarai. Etake ki hashi bole? Tumi amake micka bolta, tahole micka hashi e hobe taina? Amar aei hashir araler dukkho keo bujbena, kaoke bujateo jaina. Dukkho golo shudu ekar hoi, khushi golo sobar. Tumake diye jei koster shuru ta to sesh hobar noi. Aei betha j amake boye berate hobe ammur kache jabar ag porjonto.

Ek somoyer amar jonno etto valobasha, etto kosto, sob korte para, shudui srity aj. R amar khetre? Kichui na korte para aj sob kichui korate pare amake diye. Ami ekhon hashte hashte tumake vebe jibon dite pari, somoi amake aj emon jaigai eneche. Kintu,sei manushta to aj onek dure. Aei ekta bochore amar theke se dure jabar pothe egiyeche R ami tar kache ashar pothe aei vindeshe somoi khepon korchi. Love and War e kokhono sesh bole kichu nei, shudu aei ashatei abar shurur opekkhai achi. Na hok, tao ekta asha na thakle to tumar sei Coward hoye jabo. Koto kichu vabte hoi amake!!!

Ekta bochore dekhechi onek kichu, hariyechi, praptir khatai kichui nei. Amar jiboner may be aei ekta year e shudu hariyechi. Vangar khelai ami pore gechi, Gorar khelai porboto aei jibone? Nah ta to hobar noi. Page of Sorrow < tar pristhai shudu dukkho thakbe aei j nijeri ojante likha hoye geche amar maddome. R Smiley Babu ta hoye geche bastob. Hahahaha :D

Morovhumir majhe jokho dula jhor othe, cokh khula rakha jaina. Mukher samne khabar niyeo khaoya jaina. Amar jibon tao murovhumir jhorer agahte osprisso hoye geche, dora chuyar baire cole geche. Nishi rat Baka chad, chupi chupi R gaan gaina, Ganer pakhi seto ekti bochor hoye geche, amake opekkhai rekhe cole geche. Etai amar niyoti, sob mene niyechi. Opekkhai korchi. Matro to ekta bochori gelo. Aei poth sesh hote onek deri, ami jani ammu. Ami ashbo . . . amar j r kichui valo lagena. Bachte hobe bolei beche thaka, bochor ghure fire dekha. 

Valo thakuk sobai. Sobar jonno valokichu kore jaoyar broto niyei to pore achi. Seita hok familyr jonno, kingba tumar jonno. Sobai valo thako, bidai 2017 :'(

4

05.12.2017

Onekdin pore ashlam. Koto kichu gote jai, koto srity ashe jai cintai cetonai, tar kichui bola hoina. Khub besi sick na hole, asole Amar Dinguli vasha khuje paina. Shudui paliye beracchi, tai ekhane dora diteo mon sai deina.

Goto kichudin dore kub sick ami. Tarsathe mon tao vishon kharap. Tumar sathe share korte jai, kintu tumi to sei tumi nei etai mone thakena. Sei jonnoi bolte jeyeo fire ashi barebar. Jokhoni valo ekta mon niye goto koek mashe giyechi tumar kache, tumar kotha kingba kucha amake r o mormahoto kore amari adhar jibone achre feleche.

Khub tension e achi. Tumar cintar sathe r ekta cinta jug hoyeche. Ammu cole jaoyar pore basai khub jamela jache, ami ekhan theke kichui korte parchina. Shudu shune jai, r amar pressure er lokocuri khela kheli. Tumake bolle hoyto ektu relife petam, sei sujug tumi daona. Tumake bolbo keno - emon kothao bolte charona amake!

Mojar bisoy ki jano, ekhono sei paglamigolo amar majh theke jaini. Age bole kortam paglami, r ekhon bolar to way nei, sei jonnoi niribili paglami kore nijei abar bichanai pore thaki. Tumi amake hurt kore kotha bolo, r ami ager motoi kaj kori, shudu bola hoina. Na kheye kingba na rest niyei cole jai poroborti muhurtogolo. Jai hok, kosto deyar jonnoi to ami achi, R tumi dite didha korona. Kosto deya neya niyei amar jibon colbe. Page_of_sorrow hobe kivabe amar dinguli.

Ekta year kete gelo taina babu. Tumar kache hiseb nei, R amar kache potita din hoye ache ek ek ta bochor. Ki dusshoho dinguli amake opohar diyechile, ekhono diccho. Cokher samne theke amar sopnogolo kere niye amader sopnoke tumar ekar sopno kore niyechile. Santona dite jeye ekbaro vaboni keno oke niye ami emon korchi, ami to oke cini, ami to jani amar jonno o ki korte pare. Na eto vaboni, vabar ecchei chilona, taito aj tumar din kete jai kono hiseb chara. R amar, se to bollami.

Ami k kingba ami kemon korchi, ta ask kori ami nijeke. Kokhono kokhono answer paina, tokhon mone hoi ami budhoi asolei sonnashi hoye gelam. Eto porisrom koreo, buker vitor eto kosto niye kingba sorire bethar cinho niyeo tumar kachei sokol sukh pai. Tumar deya santona dekho aj amake kothai ene daar koriyeche. Tao pratthona, tumi valo thako.

Sedin bolechila, 20 years keno 10 years o bachar somvabona nei amar. Hoyto tumi thik. Amar jekono din saak cole ashte pare. Aeivabe more theke beche thaki kingba sotti e cole jai, sorbabosthai bolbo, babu tumi valo thako. At least tumi sukhi hou amader majh theke.

Amar ekla jibon, aei vindeshe cole jabe. Ekhane taka hole sob paoa jai, so cole jabe ekhon jemon jacche. Shudu caoa ektai, tumake emon valobasha jeno sesh muhurto porjonto bese jete pari. Ektai amar tumi chile jake valobeshe sob charte pari, ta jeno sesh somoi porjonto proman kore jete pari.

Valo thako Babu, Onek valobashi tumake ajo. Kolijar tukra to tumi, valibashi tai ettogula :-)

3

08.10.2017

Onekdin por ashlam. Amake jhor elemelo kore diyeche. Jhorer aghate ami aj r o mritoprai. Janina aei nishtur prithibi amake niye keno emon korche. Sob kosto golo shudu amar jonnoi budhoi alada kore rakha. Taito eker por ek aghat amake manoshik rugi na baniye charbena. 2010 kingba 2012 teo konodin ki vebechilam aj amake emon ekta din dekhte hobe?

17.09.2017 < Amar ammu prithibi chere cole gelo. Aei prithibite amake niye cinta korar sesh manush tao cole gelo. Amake ekebaresikhor chara kore diye gelo. Aei ekta manusher jonnoi hoyto fire jetam kono ek somoi. Kitu, nah amar kopale Na firai likha hoyto. Sei jonnoi nijer mayer sesh mukh tao dekhte parlam na. Ohh aei j ki kosto, ki tribbo jontrona keo bujbena. Se cole jaoyar por, aei mayer sathe koto onai korechi, kotha shunini, kothar obaddho hoye ekhane cole ashlam. Aj der mash pore se nei, aei kotha likhar jonno budhoi :'(

Amar ammur kotha bolte gele ekta boi e sesh hoe ki? Ekta manush kotto porisrom korte pare tar sontander valo rakhar jonno, ta dekhechi potiniyoto. Kaj korte korte sorire eto ruger basha baniyechilo j seshe kono owshud e kaj kortona. Shunechi tana ghumato owshud kheye, last jedin amar sathe video call e kotha hoi, sedin clear dekhte parini. Janalar opposite side e boshechilo khate, ak adhar oboyob dekhechi. Sesh dekhatao clear chilona, ohhh Allah ami j r parina :'(

Nijer sorir tao edaning valo jacchena. Gonogono problem hocche, aj aeita kal aeita.Amar to ekhoni owshud khete valo lagena, tai budhoi problem golo barche. Tao mone thakle khai, amake mone koriye debar manushtao nei. Oi j 2 jon manushi chilo, amake niye cinta korto. Tarao nei, amaro oguchalo jibon colche elemelo vabei. Vebechilam doctor dekhabo. Tarpore kajer cape R noito doctor er nam nile sorir valo hoi, pore abar sei. Aeivabe jacche, kaj r mon kharaper jontro, ami.

Onek kotha likhar chilo aj. Kintu, likhte boshlei matha theke sob hariye jay. Tumar kotha! Nijeke niye hoyto valoi acho. Hoyto bolchi karon ager moto kotha bola hoina, tai kothar marpeche kichui ber hoina. Ohh ekta kotha mone porlo. Kichudin agei jante parle amar sei accident er kotha. Mojar bisoy, abar sei sondheho tumar mone. Kintu, nah ami r kichui tumake proman korte caibona. Onek to hoyeche, eker por ek proman diye ki peyechi? Santona kingba du-shopno. Jar nirmom porinoti aj amar jibon.

Khub bolte ecche kore, tumar ki ektu lojja hoina amake ekhono obissash korte? More geleo hoyto sobaike ask korba, asolei ki se moreche? Vaggish sedin ami thakbona, aei drissotao dekhte. Old memory vhulte giye nijer sotta k fele diyecho. Tao valo, tumi valo acho. Aei sudur mile dure, ekhono to aei ektai prottasha kore jai.

Sarakkhon mathai gure berao, etto dakadakir shobdo tumake chui na. R tai ami nijei nijer sathe kotha boli, ager sms pori, buk pocket e tumar chobi niye guru, ektu betha pele ohhh babu bole tumake daki, bed e shuye babu amake joriye doro bole kanna kori, sob ami eka ekai kore jai. Amar sei ekaki onuvhuti golo tumake chuina, tumi acho digital life with analog home life niye. Jake etto valobashi, jar jonno koster pahar nieyo hashi mukhe bolte pari, babu valo achoto, tar jonno noyto emon vabei life cole jak. Aei achi, valo achi. Sukhi hok se.

Tumi, Ammu amake maf kore dio. Tumader kosto diyechi bolei aj ami return pacchi. Ta chara r kono answer paina. R tai eta vebei nijeke santona dei. Hmm tumar moto santona dite parina, taito kostogolo majhe majhe bicchinno kore fele tumar kach theke. Owshud kheye abar fire ashi, abar valo thakar ovinoy korte, tumar valo thaka life dekhte.

Matha vonvon korche. Ki likhechi etokhon nijeo jaina. Shudu jani, ami valo nei. Din k din klanto hoye porchi. Amake ami hariye felchi shudu . . . .

2

01.09.2017

Dekhte dekhte almost 3 mash hoye gelo. Aei ek odvhut jibone nijeke maniye nicchi. Potiniyoto kajer majhe nijer asol ostitto k nijei osikar korchi. Aj eto dure ese srity er patagolo shudu dirgonissash hoye ase thik moner majkhan theke. Ceye dekhi opolok r nijei boli, aei jibon to amar noi, amake deya hoyeche.

Rat din somane kaj kore jaoya R pain killer kheye beche thakar sarthokota kothai? Nijer exam nijei deoya? Hmm hoyto sei jonnoi din par hoye mas, tarpore bochor gure hudu mone koriye dibe, aei exam diye jetei hobe. Ekahne asar somoi nijeke thokanur apran cesta korechilam, deshe thekei to ami na thakar moto thakte partam. Kintu, nah answer ashlo, deshe thakle hoyto abar paglami kore tumake tumar moto thakte deya hobena. Jani, bolba ebar to ami ager motoi nei. Kintu, tao jani ami hoyto ektu holeo achor felte partam. Nijer jonno noi, abaro tumar kotha vebe cole elam dure. Jani coward bolba or ajaira dhong. Tumi jemon tumake jano, amio amake buji. Shuru thekei jei paglami, tar sesh hoini ekhono. R noito keo eto taka koroch kore ese emon ekta life kataina. Tao sosthi pai, take tar moto thakte dite perechi aei vebe.

1

20.07.2017

Desher baire pa bariyechilam musafirer moto. NIjeo jantam amar gontobbo ki, amar jonno asole ki opekkha korche. Desher baire ashatai chilo oddessho and hoyeche. Shudu ovinoy theke mukti caichilam. Ektu valo kore kostogolo opovug korte ceyechilam. Opovug!!! Hmm koster majheo sukh ache jokhon kosto deya manushta hoi valobashar manush. “Jiteo j here jai sei eto asol bijoyi” onekta seirokom. Take jitiye diye ami ekhane ese nijeke bijoyi vabte ceyechilam. Kintu, nah. Matha vorti eto eto srity amake kore tolche r o osostho.

Shohor theke onek dure achi ami. Ekhane aeigoloke gram bole, jodio eta amader desher ekta city er moto. Niribili, sob kichu koto guchanu. Shudu groom ta onek beshi. Normal temperature 40 degree er opore. Aei goromei amake sei vor theke sondha obodhi baire kaj korte hoi. Sorir tar vitore jei koila jolche, aei tapeo sei koilar kichui hoina. Minus Minus naki Plus hoi, tobe eteo ki ektu thanda hote parena sei khoto. Sondhar por room e ese ranna banna and tarpor jokhon ghumanur kotha, amar tokhon bichanai epash opash kore rat kate. Aj almost ek mash hoyeche, ekti din o tana 3 gonta ghumate parini. Cokher niche kalo dag pore geche, sorrier kotha nai ba bollam. Taka nei tai net o kinte parchina. Mash seshe beton pele hoyto kinte parbo. Kotodin Babur sathe kotha hoina. Mobile e call dibo vebechilam kintu, Jodi mobile silent na thake tobe to problem hobe. Aei vebe pichiye esechi onekbar. Ashar somoi valo kore kothao bolte parlam na.Othocho se jokhon desher baire jai, koto kotha, koto promise, koto kanna, koto asha niye kotha hoyechilo. Amar belai shudu shunnota, solpota . . .

FB te dukte parchina. Coz wifi diye ashle Jodi ID tar problem hoi, sei voye wait korchi nijer net connection er jonno. Jani, ami ashar pore amar jonno ami jototoko tumake vebechi, tar 10% o tumi vaboni. Vabar somoi kothai tumar. Koto cena manush, koto frnd, koto anonder opolokkho tumar. R aj dekho, amake tumi ek bicchinno dip baniye diyecho. Amar kono frnd nei, poricito munush nei. Amar sob kotha bolar manush ekjoni ekhon. Aei diary, amar dinguli. Jekhane likhbo bole ashi onek kotha, pore kichu bolei likhar r kichu khuje paina. Sob kotha jeno tumi kere niyecho, shudu digosash kingba hotasha golo amake diye gecho. Tao valo anondotoko to tumi niyecho. Happy thako, sobaike happy rakho.

R koekdin pore ekhan theke cole jabo. Tumar r o kache. R o koster kaje. Dekhi, ami koto porisrom korte pari, koto kosto tolerate korte pari. Aei jibon to eto sohoje jabena. Kata diye kata tulte hoi Jodi tobe kosto diyei koster jibontar nash hobe. Tumi dekho, hotat kore 1 year aei diary er buke r o kono likha ashbena. Tokhoni buje niba, oboseshe amar nash hoyeche. Tumake r kosto deyar keo nei. Ami joto ososthoi thakina keno, amar koster kingba japito jiboner rosh tumi ekhanei khuje paba. Shudu pran na thaklei aei amar dingulir somapti hobe.

Bed e shuye chilam ghumanur jonno. Nah, ghum tao kere niyecho tumi amar. Tumar sob kichui ekhon amar. Kosto, ghum, nirob kanna, amar sompotti ekhon. Othe bose abol-tabol likhchi R wait korchi Fazar er azan er jonno. Namaj porei cole jabo kaje. Abar jokhon kostogolo amake hash-pash korbe, ashbo chute amar dingulite. Depression katanur aei ekta way khula ache amar jonno. Dekhi samne ki hoi. Abar ashbo janate, jani setao hotashar deo hoye achre pore amar dingulir buke.

Valo thako babu. Sobaike valo rakho. Miss u so much. Love u a lot.

Notun vhubone amar shuru

02.07.2017

25th June, thik sokal 5 tai ami land korlam. Onekkhon delay hoyechilo. Janina keno, hoyto amakei charte caichilona amar desh. Hoyto keo bujte na parleo se bujeche, amar matrivhumi bole kotha. Se bujeche, tar ekta sontan cole gelo take chere ekebarei. Jar jonno gelam, seki kedeche?

Ekhane pa diye shunlam, aj ekhane eid. Middle east er sobai eki din eid palon kore. Amake je nite eshechilo, oni eid er namaj porar jonno ekdom ready hoye eshechen. Amake bollo, colen age eid er namaj pore ashi tarpor rume jabo. Otoyeb bag somet eidga te hajir and namaj porlam. Pothom abaiskar korlam, amar desher eid r ekhaner eid onek parthokko. Eid mane anondo, sei jinistai nei. Sobai ki amar moto abeg fele esechhe naki? Amar sokol anondo to ami take diye eshechi. Se nishchoi notun jama pore, gurte ber hobe, koto anondo korbe. Hmm tar oi occhol hashir jonnoi to eto kichu. Ki odvhut bepar tar anonder kotha vebe cokh duita pani aslo keno? Eri nam ki valobasha?

Sokal belai eto tap? Amar desher highest tapmatra! Ouff mone hoccchilo, rokto togbog korche.  Namaj seshe onar room e ashlam and r o onek bangali pelam. Amake koekdin naki ekhane thakte hobe, amar albab eid er chutite naki kothai geche. Shunei vitore vitore uneasy laga shuru holo. Jei ami ekai ekta flat niye thaktam (jodio Babuke vebei niyechilam), sekhane etojoner sathe thakte hobe. Kichui korar nei, oikhanei thaklam. Adjust kora matro to shuru.

Amar albab asche gotokal mane 1 tarikh. Lomba forsha. Ceherai ekta nurer avha. Jobba pore thake. Onek sundor lage. Arabi te kotha bole. Ami kichui bujina. Ami English e bolle se abar kichu bujena. Porlam moha jamelate. Allahor rohomote Hindi abcha abcha buje. Amar sei hindi-bangla boli, ja shunle tumi hashte. Dhur gadha ki bole, eta chilo tumar common dialog. Hahaha. Ekhon Albab Dekhte valoi kintu kaj chara kichu bujena buja gelo. Ajke amake niye asche medical korate. Ekhane naki niyom, eshei medical koranu lage kaje jabar age. Ohh work permit o naki lage. Aj medical hole tarpor amar work permit ber korbe. Ki sob notun niyom ber koreche. Jai hok, sim nai, net nai, sathe takao besi nei, R tai Free wifi peye aei dairy likhchi. R o kichukhon lagbe, tarpor ajke albab or basai niye jabe. Oikhanei amar thakte hobe. Ki kaj korbo ekhono sure na, tobe bolechilo or naki dates er company ache, oikhane plus or kaj o korte hobe. Vari kaj na holei holo, pet e betha kore oi operation er por theke.

Hospital ta onek sundor. Guchanu. Kono hui hollor nei. Mone mone vabchi, etatei ki tumi esechila? Hahaha. R o Ekta kotha mone porlo. Baby asle, oita kutta ta amar kache r ashbena, valoi hobe. Aei kothata bolechile, mone ache tumar? Aj amakei sei pranita mone hoche R hashi ashche. Pagol hoye jacchi naki ami!

Ohh valo kotha. Albab amake tar phone ta diyechilo kaoke phone korar thakle korte. Koekbar vebechilam tumake ekta call kori. Tumi hoyto cinta korcho. Abar vabi amar jonno cinta korte tumar time kothai. Tao phone korte jeyeo korini. Jodi mobile silent na thake, Jodi tumi jamelai poro. Abar mon bole phone korle to bideshi or unkown number othbe, so problem hobena. Abar boli, tao Jodi problem hoi. Sesh mesh eto kichu vebe phone kora holona. Barbar bollam tumar phone number ta dite. Dilena. Ami ki sei ager ami achi naki, tumar problem bujbona. Aei tarzan ekhon r shudu nijer kotha vabena, tar thekeo beshi tumar kotha vabe. Seita ki bujo tumi?

Amar serial asche. Abar kobe sujug hobe net e ashar janina. Work permit na houya porjonto sim o dibena. So out of network. Ekhan theke suja albaber barite. Seita kothai ekhono janina. Pore janabo amar ami k. Aei dairy ta chara amar kotha bolar kingba shunar manush to keo nei. Babu shunbe? Hmm shunbe kintu mouno thakbe. Amader kotha je ekhon mone mone hoi. Ami besh bujte pari. Babu ami dakchi, shuncho tumi? Valo thako. Love you so much kolija.

Hariye gelam oboseshe . .

24.06.2017

Ajker dinta amar jonno khub special. Aj oboseshe In Sha Allah ami doito ovinoy theke mukti pete jacchi. Etokichu kora kingba sorbosho ojar kore baire jaoyar reason to etai. Ami j valo thakar ovinoy korte korte aj boro klanto. Mukti caichilam. Cena manushgolo theke onek durer pothe hariye jaoyar opekkhai chilam. Aj r kichukhon porei se pothe jatra shuru hobe. Adhare noi, nijeke bichinno ek dipe hariye khujar apran cesta . . .

Aj 24th June, 2017. Aj theke thik ek bochor ageo amar pashe tumi chile valobashar manush hoye. Amar kostogolo, dukkhogolo tumake chuye jeto. Amake sopno dekhate ashar. Jodio ta mitthe sopno chilo pore jenechi. Tobu asha dekhate bolei khub jotne kosto cepe opekkha korechi. Sob ayojon kore dhire dhire sopnota sotti hobe vebe, tumake surprise dibo bole nijeke guchiyechi. Zero theke bangle cenemar moto ek sathe duita nijei office korlam. Dhaka office er pashe ekta flat vara nilam. Kotto ayojon. 23rd October tumar birthday er thik porer din e abiskar korlam, amito morovumite pani ceye dikbidik chute jacchi. Amar sara jibon prosno theke jabe, aei ek diner moddhei tumar ki emon holo, tumi amake NA korei nimishei change hoye gele? Hotat ki emon holo ta janar ek trisna theke jabe.Tumar R amar onekgolo plan er moddhe hotat kore tumi emon tumar kun plan k samne niye ashla, khub jante ecche hoi. Ohh na plan kore tumar to naki kichui hoina, tobe ki bolbe etao plan chara chilo?

Aj aei deshe amar sesh din hoyto. Aei deshe sesh aei jonnoi bolchi, amar r fire ashar ecche nei. Ekebarei jacchi. R kichukhon badei ami ber hoye porbo. Tai aj sob bole jai. Tumake lukanur nei amar kichu, sei valobashar shuru thekei. Jani tumi osikar korba. Kintu, ami sob bole gechi, sathe sathe R noito mouno theke pore somoi buje. Jani ekhono bolbe, mitthe kotha. Babu, tumar kache kichu lukiye ami shanti paina, bolbona boleo bole feli. Ajo tai. Sei November theke aj obodhi amar jibone ja ja gote gelo aj bidai belai sob bole jai. Karon, amar kotha shunle ekhon r tumar mone jhor othbena. Tumar prithibi ekhon shanto, occhol, ek valo lagai joriye acho tumi. Amar kothagolo jodio ba ektu achor kate, tobuo jhor tulbena. Ektu bataser beg bariye hoyto du ek futa bristy jorate pare, er besi kichu noi. Amar jonno to shudu koruna toko obosishto rekhecho, seita last year e bolecho. Sei korunar jaiga theke Jodi ektu bristy ashe, bidai belai khoti ki.

Sotti bolte tumar amar majhe ami kokhonoi alada kore kichu vabini. Tumi jemon amake amar moto thakte dao bolte paro, ami temon kore kokhono cintao korte parini. Sob somoi vebechi amra ek atta. Tumar betha kingba kosto hole ami jemon bujtam, amio vebechi tumaro thik emoni lage. Sei jonno valobashar etogolo bochor periye geleo borabor tumake amar ekta ongsho vebechi. Valobashar sei shurute jake bissash kore mon diyechilam, konodin vabini sei manushti amar jibon ta emon kore dibe. Sotti tao tumar poti amar rag, ovhoman kingba grinna ashena. Ami jani, December e jokhon sei masnuhta deshe eshechilo, tar sathe tumi chobi tule post korechile amar majhe grinna or rag anar jonno. Hmm sathe sathe onek rag hoyechilo and may be FB te kora ekta message pathiyechilam. Tatei sesh. Tarpor elo sei ratri.

Amar borabori buker ba dike betha korto. Specilally tumar sathe jogra hole. Tumi eta jante and pore prai amake sorry bolte. Tumake majhe majhe ami prai boltam, ekdin tumar jonno sure amar heart attack hobe. Tumar biyer koidin ageo boltam, hoyto ami sorbo konisto manush hobo aei age e heart attack kore. Kintu, na oi kosteo amar kichui hoini. Kosto peyechi onek sei rate. Jei rate dekhlam, sei rume jei rume bose tumi amake video call diyechile, Valobashar kotha bolechilam amra. Duion pashapashi hobo bole sopoth korechilam. Jei hashi shudu amar jonno chilo. Jar chaya o tumar sojjo hotona, sei manushtar pashe dariye jokhon tumi family picture dila. Sotti mone hocchilo kolije ta keo efor ofor kore dilo. Rager mathai tumake text likhe - r o dilam sei jontrona bariye. Sei ratei amar Minor Heart Attack hoi. Rumei porechilam. Jamal vai, amar room mate. Dekhte peye amake hospitalized kore. Tarpor kete gelo onekgolo din. Amar bece thakar ecche chilona bolei amake sarate r o beshi time laglo. Onekgolo din par kore jokhon ashlam, tokhon dekhi almost 1 mash hoye geche. Ami jokhon hospitalized, tumi tokhon besto family picture FB te share kora niye, nijeke sukher michile hariye jabar basona niye. Obak holam R vablam, eta amar Babu taina? Amar jonno se sob pare? 5-10-15-20 year pore holeo se ashbe? FB te Sob dekhlam, tobu bindu matro rag or grina aslona. Asbe ki kore? Ami j aei manushtake onek valobashi. Amake kosto diye, sobaike niye Jodi se sukhi hoy, tobe tai hok na.

Etodin kothai chilam, ki hoyeche koekbar ask korecho? Borabori ektu ososto bole ariye gechi. Tokhono medicine colchilo. Amar depression karone doctor guess korechilo hoyto abar major heart attack hobe. Nah, abar life pelam, sostho hote laglam. Jano babu, 1st heart attack ta amake ektu palte diyeche. Sei jonnoi er porer koekta mash koto sohoje tumar sathe savabik vabe kotha bolte perechi. Ami sure, 2nd heart attack tao tumar jonno hobe and keno hobe setao jani. Aj bolbona. Jai hok, medicine kacchilam R Tari majhe tumar notun vuboner sathe nijeke mananur apran sadhona korchilam. R o ekbar jibon peye gure fire sei drisso koekbari dekhlam. Hashita zoom diye dekhlam. Nah eta sotti hashi, amar pashe dariye jei hashi diyechila thik setai. Decision nilam, onek hoyeche. Tumake tumar motoi thakte dei. Sei jonno dirgo ek mash pore eshe khub savabik vabei tumake FB te knock korlam. Kichui hoini amar, all is well typer. Kintu, na. Amar jibonta tumi amol paltiye dile. Amar diary er buke onek bar amar promise and tumar promise golo bolechi. Sob tumi vhule gele. Nijer promise golo vhular sathe sathe amar golow vhule gele. But, ami vhulini. Taito shuru korlam plan B niye din katanu.

Tumi jokhon desher baire chila, tokon ami kothai thaktam, ki kortam tumi janta. Tokhon tumake ami bolechilam, ami basha khujtechi. Hotel chere dibo. Bolechilam tumader basher kachei ek room er ekta basha peyechi. Hmm ami sei bashatate othechilam. Tumake bola hoini. Cause, tar kichudin porei tumar kothamoto ami kaj niye besto hoye pori. Tumake amar ekta promise chilo, ebar Jodi tumi seshe eshe abar ekta jamela pakao tobe mone rekho tumi nij hatei amake mere fella. Ami abar amar ager jibonei fire jabo. Onek kothar vhire tumi aei kotha tao vhule gele. Heart attack er pore – r o kichudin por jokhon sostho bud korlam ami abar cole ashlam promise rakhte. Ohh, oi bashata ami charini mashe mashe vara diye gechi. Keno jani mon agei bolto, tumi emon kichu korba. Sei bashatai thaktam r sondha hobar opekkhai thaktam. Tumar basar samne diye duita cokkor deya amar main kaj hoye gelo. Mone ache, prai boltam, tumar nisshaser khub kache amar nisshash, tumi ki bujte paro. Ekdin tumi nasta korchile, ami khhub canacur khaoyar jonno tumar sathe argument korlam. Tumi ca khele R ami tumar basar samne dariye chilam. Aeivabei Ami chaya hoye gelam. Na ebar r oi kaj korini, kono kharap kaj. Sorir to ager moto nei. Tumar pashe Jodi naiba thakte pari, tobe tumar chaya hoye thakatai amar ekta promise chilo. Sob somoi tumar kache thekeo chilam ami chaya. Ekdin tumake dekhlam, na samne ashini. Oi j chaya manob ami tai. Tumar sathe amar jokhoni kotha hoto, ami dhakai noito comillai thaktam. Tai tumar oikhane ami nei, ami mitthe bolte hotona. Dhakai tokhon majhe majhei jetam visa processing er jonno. Sob holo jedin, tokhon theke tumake bolte shuru korlam, r kichudin amar ottachar sojjo koro. Ami vebe dekhlem aei kopale eto sohoje mitthu nei, tumi amake kosto dibe kivabe jodi mara jai. Etoboro osukh theke je nistar pete pare tar jibone tumar deya r o kosto ache. Sei jonnoi cole jacci. Kosto golo ke niyei to amar bachte hobe. Jodi konodin amake deya promise rakhar eccha jage tumar mone, sei khino ashai. Majhe majhe mone hoi, nah ekdin obosshoi tumi tumar promise rakhba. Amake Jodi sotti valobeshe thako, obosshoi sedin ashbe. Hoyto sedin ami r thakbona. Tao tumake request korte ecche kore, aei ekta promise rekho. Tahole moreo shanty pabo. Hahaha pagoler paglami chara e request r ke korte pare! Tai ki vabcho tumi?

Jano Babu, khub ecche chilo, jabar age tumar sathe ekbar dekha korbo. Chaya manob theke ektibar tumar samne ashbo. Koekbar bolte ceyechilam dekha korar kotha. Nah pore vablam thakna Babu ta valo ache. Happy ache. Tumar sukh eto amar kache onek boro. Jei valobasha shuru hoyechilo amar pash theke, jei valobasha mishe ache aei attai, ta ekanto amari thak. Jani nekami or cinema dialog kingba teenage premikader kothar moto shunai, tao jai hok amra amrai to. Tumake valo rakhar jonnoi to etto kichu, sob mukh buje sojjo kora. Noito, amio partam tumake blackmail korte kingba tumar sopnotake jhorer aghate elomelo kore dite. Emni tei to age bolte, ami tumake blackmail kori. Nah babu, boddo valobashi tumake. Ekhane thaka mane tumake joto kach theke dekhchi amar durbol mon olta-plata idea dei. Sei jonno cole gelam onek dure. Virtual jogote hariye gelam. Sorry Babu ettogolo kotha cepe rekhe aj eksathe bissforon korar jonno. Amra amrai to, tai rag korona. Tumar tarzan ta tumari thaklo. Kono mohe kingba onno sopno take tumar kach theke dure sorate parlona. Valobashi onek tumake. Valo thako sob somoi.

Amake khoma koro, tumake etto kosto deyar jonno. Sotti onek kharap lage, sei jonnoi emon ekta onishcit jiboner pothe pa baralam. Jekhane amar jonno keo cinta korbena, amar pressure bere jabe bole tension korte mana korbe, amar jor hobe bole chata niye ber hote bolbe, amar sorir kharap korbe bole khete jete bolbe – sei manush take vishon miss kori. Etotokoi to ceyechilam tumar kache. Sob to mene niyechilam, amar aei caoyatao vishon barabari hoye porlo – tai etota durer pothe aj hariye gelam. Tumake r o valo rakhte, tumar pashe caya manob hoye thakte.

Sun raha he to, Ruhh raha hei hum

Sun raha he to, Ruhh raha hei hum . . .

Aei sesh ashrugolo amar onek sukher. Sotti ami onek kushi. Ami hariye jabar anonde khushi, cena manushgolor sathe r amake valo thakar ovinoy korte hobena, tumake guchanu ekta prithibite dekhe ami khushi. Valo thako sob somoi. Valobashi Babu, onek tumake. Onek onek miss kori tumake. Oumma Babu, Allah Hafiz.

Oboseshe holo tahole . . .

17.05.2017

10th May, amar jormodin chilo. Jiboner 28 ta bosonter kete jaoya dekhechi, kostoder vhire sukh peye valoi keteche. Kintu ebar? Aei bosontota amake diyeche du-hath vhore shudui kosto. Kostoder vhire ami mango people hoye ami shudu chute beriyechi Dhaka, Comilla, HbGJ. Sukh kothao nei amar jonno.  Sob sesh, shunno ami shudui chute berai golper sei brommachari manush hoye.

Ebarer jodrmodin ta tumar ekhane katanur plan chilo. But, hotat sei news ta asate fire gelam bashai. Jabar age tader sathe sesh jormodin ta kore jai. Nijeke khub oporadi lade jano! Nijer vhule sob chere ajke amake aei pothe hariye jete hocche. Onek cesta korechi promisegolo ekpashe sorate. Parini! Ami tumar mote hote parini! Ami coward o hote parini! Sei jonnoi aei plan B niye hariye jacchi sobar theke. Hoyto jiboner sesh nissas porjonto.

Jormodin niye bolchilam. Sei rat thekei tumake vabchilam, dakchilam. Tumi sms korla, even sondhai call dila. Etai chilo amar jormodiner opohar. Sotti bolte etar jonnoi opekkha korchilam. Jormodin ta par kore r o koekdin theke, sobar bishonno mukh dekhte dekhte oboseshe abar beriye porlam. R to koita din. Ja dekhar dekhe nei, aei pothe r jodi sotti r na fera hoi. Khub miss korbo kichu kichu place, Tumar college, kingba Sei room golo jekhane onek sopno bunechilam amra.

R o kichu kotha jodi pari bole jabo tumai. Jodio tar r ortho nei, tobuo sob kichui to tumake bola hoi. Aeigolo bad jabe keno? Tumi to ekhono amar sob, tumake valo rakhtei to nijeke eto gutiye rakha, dure dure thaka, R ekhon ekdomi frame er baire nijeke niye jaoyar apran cesta. Shudu tumi valo thako. Valobashi to tai ekhono paglamigolo roye geche. Boyosh ta sei 25 e atke ache, crazy queen Jeni esechilo valobasha hoye jokhon. Ek rash sopno niye amake bissasher dolai hariye dite . . . 

Nei Sucona . . .

27/4/2017

Aj r nei kono niddisto kichu bolar. Karon, oboseshe holo sesh. Gontobbo amake dekeche. Ami jacchi . . .

Last year aei din take mone porche. Aj mobile dora pora, sei barite, sei room e - jei room take kichudin age dekhechilam onno kaoke tar pashe. Tarpor fire asha abar aj aei dine sei dinke mone rakhte. Somoi pare, rat k din korte, sopno k vanghte. Promise dite, vangte abar keo tene niye jete diner por din . . .

Roye gelam sei pothe

19.04.207

Notun ekta bangla bochor. Notun plan niye shuru korche sobai. Sobar majhei ekta notunotto. Tar majheo hoyto. Seto nijeke nije chariye jabar mission caliye jacche, nijeke kotto notun kora jai. Amio caichi. Nijeke amar kachei notun vabe ante. Pichoner sob srity soho notun pothe pa barate. Notun pothe, sathe thakbe tar deya promise, r amar nijeke notun kore cenar bestota. Khub sigroi ta hobe in sha allah.

Pohela boishak chilo koekdin age. Special day asha manei to take vebe r o besi koste dube thaka. Tar mone pore kina janina, but, amar nijeke ekta room e aboddho kore tar kotha vebe katiye deoya. Amar kostora asru hoye bichanai lutiye pore. Kosto golo emoni hoi. Karone-okarone sob mone koriye dei. barebar pichone tene niye jai. R tai ami eka manush, ekaki sei pichoner dorja diye pichone hete berai. Valoi hoi, valobasha golo tokhon koster sathe jogra kore, sukh sritygolo cokher pordai niye ashe. Koster majheo sukh khuje pai. Mone hoi, amar jono etai beche thakar mane.

Ekta odvhut bepar kheyal korlam. Ami jokhon tumake khub kore daki, tokhoni tumar osthitto amar samne ase. Lakhai er samner road kingba Jony der sei raod, amar gondho khuje berate ecche jage. Mone hoi, bochorer por bochor aei pothe hete jai R sei gran ta nake leghe thakuk. R to kichudin. Tarpor aeisob chere colei jeheto jabo, joriye nei tader. jemon kore seshbar amar mukher dike takiye bolechile, babu r ektu thako. Ekhon jabona. Kingba ricshai other age, ami tumar sathe jabo. Tokhon jantam emon kichu hote pare aj ja hoyeche amar sathe. Kintu, valobashi bole valobashar manushtar khoti na korte sedin o bolechilam, r to kichudin. Tumi jeivabe ceyechile, seivabei niye jabo. 

Hmm boye beracchi kostogoloke. Bolechilam na, aj theke amar jonno r kichui caibona. Tumar sob osukh, rag, ovhiman, ghumer somossha sob ami niye ashbo amar kache. Dekhoto ami ja bollam oigolo tumar majhe ache ki? nei, sob kichutei ekta poriborton kheyal korecho? Hoyto korecho, kintu bolbena. Somoi jacche tumar douriye, r amar kocchop o hoyto tarceye drutu hate. Vaggoke r dosh dibona kingba tumakeo. Amra amrai to. Tumi r amar majhe kono difference ajo dekhina.

Valo acho, valo thako. Ki jeno bolo tumi, jibon to ektai. Asolei! Sei jonnoi budhoi kaoke aghat koreo eto sohoje amra valo thakte pari. Ki jeno bole, parte hoi. Kichui bolar nei. Thik tai, sobai parena. Jara parena, tader jonnoi somossa. Amar jonnoi joto somossa. Somadhan ami peyechi. Shudu opekkha r kichudiner. Aei opekkha shobdo ta choto holeo er bepti onek koster, allah r kaoke na dek.

Abaro, miliye jai sei rastai. Lukuchuru khelai nijeke haranur michile. Somoi bole dibe kono ek somoi - amra amrai to. So, all is well.

Kichu Kotha Bolte Mana

09.04.2017

Shhh! Asolei kichu kotha bolte mana. Sob janle problem. Ke jeno bolechilo, besi jana britha, matha nosto. Kotha ta thik. Sei jonnoi kichu jinsh lukayito rakhai valo. Obossho lukayito boltao vhul. Sob kothar vhire ta to agei bole diyechi. Just pick koratai holo asol.

Shhh! Kichu na bola kohar vhire, kichu ashar prapti likuye thake. Oi j bole, keo kheye nache, R keo na kheye. Amio taderi ekjon. Na bole lukiye baciye shanti khuje firi. Nissaser kache thekeo carbon-di-oxide hoye ure cole jai dure. Chaya songhi kingba tumar oi dusopner Chaya hoye gure firi nisiddo onchol jure.

Shhh. Bolbona bolbona bole ki kore jeno oprostut obosthai pore jai. Bola jabena kichui abar sob to takei bola jai. Sob to boltei cai. But, sostho hoye ni. Tarpor sob chere cole jabo, tumake relax kore. Tumar oi kothatar moto, amake amar moto thakte dao. Taito dicchi R opekkha korchi.

Shhh. Kichu kotha thak lukayito. Sondhar lamp post er arale ekta caya tumar janalar pashe ese oxyzen khuje berai, Khujuk na se, kaoke to bolechena. Adharei to miliye jabe, kichu srity boye beriye se jodi shanti pai, tobe pak. R to kichuidin. olpo kichudin . . . 

Kotodin pore . . .

26.03.2017

Onek age ekta somoi chilo thik ajker moto. Koto somoi keteche ejker moto. Koto bikel sondha rat keteche ajker moto. Ajker moto chilo sob kichui, shudu ajke ekta shunnota chilo sob kichur majhe. Shunnota bolte buk vanghe tobu mukh futena type er. Ki sundor pari amra emon korte taina!

Tar sathe jokhon kotha boli, prithiba onek sundor jemon lage, thik temni nisthur o lage. Ki chilona amader majhe ta khuje firi. Etto golo bochor eksathe par kore debar por jokhon nijeke emon ekta obosthai khuje pai, sotti Coward hote ecche kore. Abar tar kotha vebe sei pothe pa barate didha hoi. Amake je partei hobe, emon ekta tarona ashe. Se hoito bujteo parbena konodin, othoba ami take r bujate jabona. Ajke ekta sujog chilo, aj oekdin por onekkhon kotha holo. Jodio etake kotha na bole tar sathe amar sei X kothopokoton bola jay.

Prithibite hoyto ami emon kopal e niye esechilam. Valobasha jinisti kaoke ojar kore diye tar opekkhai valobasha fire pete somoyer dike takiye thakbo. Tumi sedin thiki bolechila, amar life ta to emon houyar kotha chilona. Amra sobai nijeder dosh dekhina. Asolei tai, sei jonnoi nijeke always right vaba jai etto sohoje. Ami right kingba wrong, kunta ami nijeo janina. Tobe may be ettota wrong chilam na je tar kach theke etota shoch paoyar opojukto chilam. Jodio kosto sei dei je onek valobashe, sei sutro mene colle emon r o hazar kosto bochorer por bochor mene nibe je keo. Eto kache tao bujte na deyar kosto, rater adharer oi nikosh kalo jane sei adhare koto shobdohin kannar lona jhol jome porche.

Ajke sei somoyer prekkhapote etotokoi bola jai, take bissah koranu ta keno jeno majhe majhe amar kache nijer day mone hoi. Kintu, sei bujte caina. Jotoi vhabi jaha bolibo sotto bolibo, tar kache - tar samne orthohin hoye jay. Tobuo cestar kom thakena, jokhon dekhi choto choto kothagolo tar mone ache. Ecche korei baniye puranu kichu bolle, se line to line bole dei na eta kotha chilona. Promise ta emon chilo. Tokhon shudui vabi, simple aeigolo jodi mone thake, tobe 2015 er october kingba 2016 er March, April, May, June, July, August, September er promisegolo kothai gelo? Jani tar answer nei. Mobile e ekta sms gele je MAIR khete parar sonka niye bose thake, tar kache ettogolo masher promise mone rakhato to incident.

Khub ecche korchilo, kingba ber hoye jacchilo, oops bole ja katanu giyechilo. Hoyto ajke eto caoyar majhe kichu caoya opurno rekhe amritto pushe rakhar bebostha kora holo. But, amito take always happy rakhte ceyechi. Jokhon jevabe boleche, promise keep korechi. Tobe amar sathe keno hobe? Keno amar kach theke soriye rakhbe? Kokhono to bolini, oikhane jeona, eta korona. Boroncho, October 2016 teo nirobe mene niyechi amake eka thakte dao kothata. Tobu keno ajke ami emon behave pabo? Ki oporad chilo amar? Keno ami ajke Coward word shunte hobe tar kache je amake aei possition e dar koriyeche? Etto kenor answer ektai, ami emoni - tar vassho eta.

Ajke 2 hours + (5:48PM to 7:54PM) somoye ekta jinish ceyechilam, ta blank hoye roilo. Tateo khoti nei. Oi shunnosthan shudu amar hoye ache, etotoko bujte somossa hoini. Promise golo rakhte jeye jodi ami sostho thaki, savabik thaki, tumi ashbeto, aei kothata ask kora orthohin hoto, tai pash katiye jaoya. Kingba rege giye mood off kore fela - amar jonno, amar sathe etato common drissho. Barebar jokhon bolo, ki promise rakhtecho ta to dekhchi, lojja lagena kharap lagteche bolte. Monouta dekhiye shudu ektibar shunte ecche kore, sei promise er kothata. Jotobar tumi bolo, ami promise rakhina, totobari mone pore, tumar mone ache aei promise golo. Valo laga ase, destination tumi jano. Tumar diary er na bola kothagolo konodin pora hobe naki janina, shudu jani oi diary er potita patai amar jonno onek valobasha royeche. Sei valobashar karonei lojja na rekhe babu bole deke bose tmake bibroto kore tuli.

Se jotoi cai amake onnoder katare niye ashte, parbe se? Ami ki parbo? Kopal bole oikhane eta cross kora ache, tai jokhoni fire ashi, sei ceherai, sei matha kharap manush hisebe. Amar hridpinder volume tumake janan ditei thakbe, keep your promise. Jotoi ignore koro, jodio ba na thaki, se tumake alarm diyei jabe. Tumake emon ekta koto dite khub kharap lage, but, oi j likhar shurur kotha - amra amrai to, ekjon betha pele r ekjoner majhe vhumikompo hobei. Etato proved, etake osikhar kora jabena.

Sarirk kharap lagata jodi limitless hoye thake, tobe kostogolo ki?  Tader kintu limt ache, jekono somoi result ashe. Ami jodi tumar promise rakhi, kostogolor limit sesh kore tumi result niye ashbeto 10-15 years kingba r o pore. Jani mukh fute r bolbena. Matro 6 month amar absence, tumake janan diye dibe - tarzan r nei jemonti se kono ekdin diary er patate likhe diye giyechilo. Onek ceyechilam # ta, daoni hoyto aei voye. O na mair khaoyar voye. Hoyto duitai. Ajker sondheta asolei roye jabe diary te onek ajaira kothar vhire soronio hoye.

Sesh kobe ekhane tumake valobashi bolechilam, sotti mone nei. Tobe may be somoi jodi thik hoi, tobe aj bole jetei hobe. Etto bochoreo jemon tumake amar valobashar depth bujate parini, temoni ajo jani bujate parbona, sotti tumake deya kono promise ami vanghi ni. Khub ecche kore 5-10-15-20-25-30 years opekkha kore tumar promise ta fulfill korte. Valobashi to tai, valobashar manusher aei j nirob ovhiman bujte pari. Kintu, je adhare ami nijeke gutiye niyechi, tumake alo te rakhlei sarthokota. Jani ekhon tumi sojag, tao lukiye bachiye kothagolo amar adharei chure diye gelam.

Khub ecche chilo ekta muhurter. Ki sei muhurto? Bola hobena r. Onek na bola kothar vhire tara lukiye thakbe R tumake obiram bibroto korbe, ki ceyechilo? Tumake ragate jemon valo lage, jograkorte jemon valo lage, temni bakruddo murti banateo valo lage. Ekta sotti kotha bolbo, babu sotti onek valobashi tumake. Valobasha valobasha shunte shunte tumar to oruchi hoye geche, tai aeisob r tumake bola hoina. But, ajke boltei holo. Amar dingulite etai hote pare bolar opojukto muhurto. Noito, aji keno emon hobe, hoyto aeivabe likha chilo.

Valo thako sob somoi, nijer plan o baby niye plan. Fisfis kore boli, kotodin pore tumar mukhe hashi dekhlam. Kokhon hasla??? Mone kore dekhoto. Sotti, oi hashitar jonnoi to CTG theke 1st tumar oikhane jaoa. Tarpore ta hoye ache amader valobashar romio-juliet er final touch :-) Love you so much Babu, oikhane bola hoini, tai amar astanai ami Baag hoye valobashar gorjon kore gelam. Oumma kolija.

Mounota . . .

21.03.2017

Mounota! Nirob attosamorpon. R ki bola jay? Mathai aschena. Mathai kichui thakena, medicine diye jodi r o kichu kora jeto, r o valo hoto. Abcha abcha thakar ceye na thaka valo. Kichu ekta vablei mone hoy, ami jani. But, mone porchena, R eta vabte vabte r o sesh. Aei j olta palta likha shuru korechi ta r ekta proman.

20.03.2017 - at 5:30 PM, ki mone kore tumi phone korla! Beche achi naki ta check korla taina? Othoba onno keo dorle jante caita more giye amake oddhar kore geche naki? Nah, tumake deya promose rakhte jeye kichui olta -palta hoina amar sathe. Boroncho seigolo 100% fulfill korar cestai ache amar somoi, amar kopal. R Sei jonnoi tumar deya phn ta receive korei golar sor ta savabik rakhar apran cesta shuru holo, who care ekta vhab. Aeidike aei ekta voice shunar jonno kotto rat balish vijiyechi, deke deke rat par korechi, korchi, korbo. Amar khobor neyar somoi holo tumar? December, January te kothai chilo aei abeg? Tokhon to khub proyojon chilo aei sor, voice toko amar.

Kono kotha shunina or na bujar vaan kori, aeigolo amar name fixed hoye geche. Sei jonnoi r jege jege ghumanu hoina. R tai ebar kore dekhate hobe, sei jonoi sesher patai ekta amar dingulir perfect ending anate hobe. Just kichu somoyer opekkha. Opekkha korte raji or nijeke sesh kore dibo, emon kotha to sobai bolte pare. But, koijon pare. Duitar ekta to kore jete hobe. Promise to sobai korte pare, rakhar mentality niyei hete jai amar dingulike niye . . .

Na bola kothagolo opekkha korche sei dintir jonno. Shudui opekkha, Mounota . . . . . . . . 

Shesher Patagulo . . .

02.03.2017

Shes hoiyao hoilona sesh. Asolei tai. Prodiper alo shudu kapche, aei buji off hoi sei voyei budhoi r beshi elomelo, oguchalo sobkichu. Sheser patagulite joriye thakbe na bola onek kotha, onek prosno, onek sopno vongher jontroa. Ami gaan gaibo bollei jemon gaan gaoya jaina, thik temni vhule jao bollei ki vhule thaka jai? Sheser patagolo thiki shurur srity niye ashbe barebar.

Aj aei dintar ekta specialty ache. Last year aei dine ekta bolar moto gotona gotechilo. Kintu, na bolar kothar vhire take vasiye rakhi. Kuno ekdin sheser patai veshe othbe hoyto.

Etodin kothai chile? Nijeke nijei gaane gaane shudhai R oceton sorirer nishfol, nishobdo kannagolo veshe othe samne. Asolei ki ami sei ami? Jiboner 7 ta bochor takei bujate giye aj nijekei nije bujte parina. Ami keno onnoder moto holam na? Amake onnoder sathe compare korbena bole bole aj jei manush goto arai mash dore dibbi onnoder moto hoye jete parlo, R ami? Nah, afsos nei, ache shudu onek onek nil bedona. Sheser patagolo sei bedonake vashiye niye jak.

Hmm, boiyer seshe cole eshechi R tai shudu sesher patagolo bolchi. Jei patagolo porbena keo, nishiddo shobo-vandhar hoye robe web er jogote. Amio shudui miliye jabo - oneker maje nil bedona hoye.

Valo thako, shudui valo thako. Asolei tegei sukh, goto 1ta mash teg kore r o strong kore dilam tumake. Kache thaklei bedona, eta to tumi amake sikhale. Kacher manushder jonnoi sob. R o dure jete hobe, onek dure, jekhan theke sobdo ashleo vhoi pabena tumi Thik totodure . . .

Amar ekta bikkhato kobita chilo, mone ache tumar? Kobitar naam chilo "Shudu Mone Rekho". Kobita ta jedin tumake pore shuniyechilam, onek kedechile tumi. Ami ki sob cai-pas likhi bole onek boka diyechile. Sei abegi kanna, aj abeg hariye shudui mounota hoye geche. Sei jonnoi sesher patai kichu sesh dag diye jacchi . . .

Miracle . . .

30.01.2016

Mirakel. Hmm jokhon proyon chilo kaor, tokhon se paini. R aj ami na ceyeo peye boshe achi. Hut kore etoboro ekta osukh hobe R ami jiboner seshe dariye ceyechi, tumi valo thako. Sei mirakel er jonno aj 1 mash pore abar likhte parchi. Jodio etake sostho maush bola jabena. Ekhono thik hoini. Sorir take sesh kore felechi mone hocche. Ki jeno bolechile, mash khanek age? Aei sorire r valo kichu nei. Amake peye ki korba? R aj amio same. Kintu, tmk bolar sujugta amar nei.

Hospital er bed e jokhon shuye chilam, tokhon vebechi hoyto r tmk dekhte parbona, aei buji sesh. R tmi tokhon new life e FB e sukh srity biliye beriyecho kacher manushder sathe. Kacher manush! Hmm aei ami hoye gelam durer manush! Etodin khobor nei dekheo mone bindumatro jante ecche hoini, kemon ache? Vhoi peyecho, taina? Abar contact korte jeye jodi hite biporit hoi. Sei jonoi sob vhule theke family reunion niye busy chila. Valoi korecho. Goto kichudin jabot amio vebchi, valoi korecho. Sob valoi koreco. Sedin ami more gele valo hoto. R ektuo vabte hotona, mathai ashtona amar kotha. Ki korbo, mirakel ta ami peye gelam j.

Aj off jai. Valo lagle ektu, abar likha jabe. Valo thako babu.