11

28.04.2019

Sorir ebong mon ek sathei onek kharap. Besh kichudin thekei colche emon. Janina etodin bade keno mone abar jhor oteche. Sorirer kotha to bole r lav e nei.

Chele houyata o asolei jamelar. Aei koidine seita besi feel korchi. Buker kosto golo asru hoye jorate parle valo hoto, seita o parchina. Khub dom bondo lagche, khali dirgosash ashche. Oxyzen er ovab, tumar ovab. Tumi ager basai esecho koidin hocche. R amar shudu sei srity golo mone porche.

Hoyto tumaro mone porche. R tai aei kodin amar theke budhoi aei karonei r o besi dure dure thakcho. Tumar basar samne shudu chute jete mon caiche. Mone hocche, ami cailei pari, sondha bela thik ager moto tumar basar samne hatahati. Tumi janalar pase ese bosba, R ami dur theke tumake dekhe cole jabo amar sei room e. Mone ache tumar, ami nich theke tumake thiki dekhtam but, ami ondhokare thaktam bole tumi amake dekhte petana. Aj sotti ami ondhokare hariye gechi. Tumake sob somoi dekhi, tumi amake dekhte kingba feel korte parona.

Nijeke khub osthir lagche. Ekhaneo shantite nei. Jamela amake charena R tumar kosto seto amar nitto songhi. Manush je eto pressure niye tikte pare, ami nijeke diyei vabi. Ki chilam, ki korchi or ki porinotir dike ami jacchi. Doctorer kache giyechilam. Koekdin dore blodd jacche, test korate bollo. Janina abar ki news opekkha korche. Hoyto sesher bashir sur ashte shuru koreche. Tumake bolbo ki, na thak. Shuru te tumi chila, majeo tumi chila, amar seshe na hoi tumi naiba thakle :'(

Valo thako babu, emon kore amake ignore kore sukhi hou.

*aj oboseshe amar location ta share kore dilam tumar sathe.

10

05.04.2019

Jacche dinguli ebong amio bechi achi. Eta janan ditei amar diary er buke fire asa. Asolei to jacche dinguli. Vore theke rat R amar jibon theke ekti diner somapti. Ocena jibon amar.

Maje maje amar puranu dinguli amake nara dei. Jake poti rate vebe gumate jetam, ekhono jai. Kintu, ek onimises durotte se nijeke niye geche. Se cailei sob pare. Eta to ajker bisoy na. Sei shuru thekei se ja ceyeche tai korte pereche. R ami? Borabori or kotha vebe nijeke kosto diye gechi, ekhono dicchi. Ami buji, tothapi tar kotha vablei nijeke change korar kono ecchai jagena. Taito colche ek pa ek pa kore sesh diner dike amar nisthur somorthoner proyash gonona kora.

Onek kichu vabi ami. Sei onek age thekei, sad gaan gulu amake khub nara dito, ami shunteo like kortam. Kingba ami jokhoni kobita likhtam, seita dekha jeto sad kono poem hoye geche. Kotobar tmk sunate jeye boka sunechi, mone ache tumar? Aj sei tumi 2nd wicket er opekkhai acho. R ami shudu dirgosash fele tumar jonno shuvo kamona kore jai. Asolei odvhut. 

Jano, ekhon ektai kotha vebe nijeke santona diye rakhi. Seita ki tumi jano, valobaso tumi amake. Din palte geche, tai nijeke khub jotone palte niyecho. Ami e parlam na, khoti ki. Ami chele bolei probem nei, hmm eta ekdin tumi e amake bolechila. Sob bujo tumi, shudu aei amakei bujlana. Kosto, onek kosto hoi, etai amake aghat kore potiniyoto.

Valo thakuk sobai. Tumar agami sopno puron hok. Er cheye besi ki r bolte pari?

Ekhon nijeke shudu eka lage!

Caridike baronto sopnora hase
Bimutro rat kade nil batase.
Here gechi aei ami
jiboner kache
Duronto potivara
pore ache nice.
Hese bole sagorer nil jolorasi
Nobojatoker mukhe jodi pai hasi.
Mrito kono bayuler
atta ta kade
Hotashai bukh badha
amar buke.
Cayer cup hate potidini vabi
Jibonta chai makha akasheri chobi.

9

03.03.2019

Goto kichudin jor jacche amar opor diye. Notun company, notun location, notun working hours, sob miliye ek navissash obostha. Vaggish aei koidin sorir ta kaj korar moto chilo. New kaj ta sikhte hoyto r o ek week lagbe. Ki j hocche r kun pothe jacchi ami?

Ekhane asar pormane new company te, old company takei valo mone hocche. At least eto porisromer kaj chilona. Tao gor pura goru jedikei jai, megh neme ase, thik temni amr kopale aei kosto e budh hoi likha ache. Taito shudu chute colechi, gontobbohin vabe.

Aei jaiga ta onek thanda. Gotoal r o ekta suyetar kinte baddo hoyechi. Ekdom sagorer sathe kaj. Thik tmr basa theke hospital er samner moto durotto. Sarakhon hu hu kore batash boi, r amake hi hi kore konkoniye jomai. Amaro maybe tmr problem peyeche, shit amake narani dei besi. Taito tmakei besi dakchi ekhane asar por theke.

Khub tmk, ammuke and amar past mone pore. Ki holo amar sathe, somoi golo kivabe koi niye aslo. Hote partam onek kichu, hote parto onnorokom. Aj amai kothai ene ki life lead koracche. Vaggo kemon kore jiboner gotipoth palte dei.

Ektu olos somoi pele aeisob cinta mathai oki dei R amak tmr kotha, tmk dakar kotha shoron koriye dei. Bam cokh tate betha, fule ache. Tao likhchi. Asole kichui to amar dingulite likha hoina. Amar dingulito tmk chara kobei biborno hoye geche. Aei sorir namok kacha niye shudu jibon take boye beracche. Khub osohai lage tmr kotha vable. Taito tmk sei cena name deke deke shanti khuje berai. Ekhoni ki bujo tmi tmk daki ami?

Valo thako, sobai valo thakuk. Jei poth ami beche niyechi nijei, sei pothe amar pothcola r o doirjoshil hok :(

8

24.02.2019

Onekdin por asha holo. Asole aei majher dinguli kivabe keteche ta nijeo janina. Kaj othoba hospital e chutachuti. Tar sathe owshud namok ek jontrona to joriye ache bai jiboner jonno. Kromosho nijer thekeo nije hariye jacchi. R taito amar dinguli o amake kromoso haracche.

Keno janina, sob somoi barebar amar sathei hoi. Jokhoni vabi aei hoyto ektu sosthi elo jibone, thik tokhoni tumar jhore abar nijeke chonnochara, dishehara kore feli. Ek ekta news jotota na dukkho boye ane, tarceye besi koster pagol hashi ontor theke mukhe niye ase R bole valobasha emoni hoi. Jotoi ami boli, na situation emon tai emon hoyeche, tokhoni mon bole r koto, r koto nijeke probodh dibo. Ami nijeo janina, tai hoyto sob elemelo hoye jacche caripasshe.

Sotti, khub vabi aei tmk R amar sei tmk. Sob srity golo klano mone ekhon r anonder bristy joraina. Caridike shudu dirgosash, cokher jol o furiye geche, shudu akash gono kalo meghe dekhe thake. Aei mone hoi bristy hobe, hoina ekhon r. Cokhgolo rokto cokkho hoye tarao klanto janan dei. Sobai ek somoi pichiye jai, ami keno emon vabei agiye colechi?

Amio vabi, tumar moto. Ami jid dore boshe achi. Nah, amai asole etatei ovvossto hoye porechi. Saririk kosto golo amake jotona betha dei, manoshik kosto amake vitore vitore potiniyoto pain diye jacche. Ekhono tumake chara kichui vabte parina. Kintu, ebar r tumake ami didhai or dumona korte caina, jodio jani tumio nei sei tumi. Kintu, tao ami maneito ek moho, kokhon abar ki hoi, taito onek tai dure thaka. Kache na thekeo je soda songsporshe thake, take to virtual jogote bibroto korar mane hoina. Amio jani, tao jokhoni na pari tokhoni dak deoya hoye jai.

Ami abar sei 25 bochorer dosshi balok hoye jai tumar obohela pele. Eta budhoi amar rokte mishe geche. Taito goto etogolo din nijeke r o besi jamelai niye chutachuti korchi. Tao tumake kichui bola hoina. Tumi acho tumari majhe, aei valobashar manush tar kotha e hoyto mone porena ekhon r. Emono hobe or hoi, vabtei obak lage. Ami nijei soda nijer poti obak hoi, kemon kore ekjon manush pare pura life style change kore dite. Na, bujbena tumi. Keo bujena, bujbena.

Onekdin por ashlam, tai prolap boke gelam. Tumi sostho thako, new manush j asbe sei sostho thakuk, tumar mukhe hasi r o bsitriti koruk. Hoyto ami nao thakte pari, tumar jonno sorboda shuvo kamona thakbe. R amar jonno pratthona korbe, amar moto jate r karo na hoi jibon.

Valo thakuk sobai, prithibi tumi sobaike valo rakho, kosto paoya manush golo doirjo dore mrittur prohor gunar opekkhai na rekhe hotat niye jao :'(

7

29.12.2018

Onek din por ashlam. Beche achi ta janan dite - amar dingulite. Dekhte dekhte r ekta bochor sesher dar-prante ami. R o ekta dirgo-nissash niye katiye deya 365 diner somapti. R koto baki?

Keno megh ase, Hridoyo akashe,

Tumare dekhite deina;

Majhe majhe to bo dekha pai,

Cirodin keno paina?

Asolei aei topto surjer deshe majhe majhe megh hoye tumi aso, amake vijiye abar cole jao. Amake r o ekta grissho trisna niye beche thakar prerona dite hoyto. Janina aeivabe kivabe katbe or katacchi. R koto?

Sobai valo thakuk, er ceye samner bochore caoyar moto to kichui nei amar. Ami chonnochara, aei jibon to amari beche neya. Ososthotar sathe lukiye -bachiye jotodin jaoya jai, tai jete thaki. Kinto r koto ta janina?

Tumake khub mone porche, emon mon kharaper somoi tumake ekhono thik ager motoi daki. Shunte ki pao? Valo achoto? Valo thako, sobai valo thakuk cena-jana sobai.

Valo acho to?

23.08.2018

Onekdin por somoi holo amar kichu likhar. Diner por din mathai eto kichu jome, tao ekhane likha hoina. Amito hariye gechei, tai amar kthagulu Amar Dinguli theke kromosho hariye jacche.

Aei moruvhumir buke amar 2nd eid katalam. EID mane jodi hoy anonndo, tobe janina aei kemon eid amar jibone ami par korchi. Special day mane to amar kadhe sokol puranu srity ra vhir kore. Kaj nei, tai amio tader naracar kori, laptop e chobigolo dekhe nijeke depression er kinarai niye jay. Cokher koner panira cholchol kore, nirobe jore pore. R keo nei amar asru kingba kosto hole ter pabe, Jiggesh korbe, ki mon kharap?

Duty Room > Room Duty = etai amar jibon. Shudu kaj amake baciye rekheche. Aei j kaj nei bole, koster vhut amake chepe dore ache. Taito shudui besto thakar apran cesta kori. Tumi amake prai bolta, ajaira thako j taito amake vabo, kaj koro. Tayat jokhon holo, tokhono bolta. Sob ekhono amar cokher samne vashe. Koto sopno, promise, sob amra ki sohojei vhule jai!

R koek mash pore kingba porer mashei main city te amar cole jabar kotha ekhan theke. Mone ache tumr park e berate giyechile ekdin tar sathe. Amar khub ecche sei park e, sei bench ta ektu chuye dekhar. Hoyto sigroi chute parbo. Kingba oi market, jeitate tumar pichu niye chilo ekta chele, amake bolta R hasta. Sokal, bikel balcony te kingba bed e shuye call dita, mone ache tumar? Sob vashche mathar opore amar.

Accha, tumi sotti valo achoto? Naki amar moto tumio soda valo acho amake dekhate cao? Age jao tumake kichu boltam, kintu sedin mana korar por tao off kore diyechi. Amar kono ovijug, ovhiman nei. Tumi, tumra, sobai valo acho eta dekhei ami koster majheo sothi feel kori. Taito ekhon r kotha baraina, besi kotha bolina. Tumar wish amr valo thaka, amio tai valo thakte try kori ami ekanto tumake niye. Amar r caoyar kichui nei.

Jeivabe amar din jacche, hoyto konodin nai hoye jabo. Hoyto bidai bolar somoi tokow pabona. Shudu sarthoka etai thakbe, tumake valo acho dekhe jete parchi kingba valo acho ta janbo. Jai hok amar, tumi valo theko. Valobashi ajo thik ageri moto. Tumar opoman kingba obohela soye jaoyar sokti pai oi valobasha theke. Jeita tumi kokhono bujoni kingba ami bujate parini Babu.

Cokh golo bidroho korche. Janina abar kobe ashbo kingba adhou asha hobe naki. Valo thako, sobai valo thakuk.

6

21.04.2018

Onek din por fire elam amar vubone. Koto kotha, Koto gotona bolar thake. Kichui r bola hoina. Sukhi manush kingba vabuk manush poricoye poricito ami sobar kache. Aei vindeshe ager ami k khuje paoa khub duskor aj!

Nah, r bolbona kichui. Beche achi etai thakuk ajker srity hoye. Sobai valo thakuk, se valo thakuk, sobar valo thakate jiboner sarthokota khuje neyar apran sadhona kore jacchi, jetei thakbo.