Abar atongko, Abar Vhoi

01.03.2016

Valo somoigolor sthayitto onek kom hoi. Abar ta ter pelam. Besh to dingolo kete jacchilo, duijoner hashi anonde. Kintu, sei sukh abar dukkher kalo meghe dekhe geche. Abar onishchoita, songshoi amar mone.

Tumi oikhan theke ashar por theke niyomito Nimbuzz, Whatsapp, Viber, Imu te kotha hocchilo. Emonki tumader basha theke oi barite ashar poreo. Thik jokhoi tumi bashai fire jaba koekdiner moddhe, tokhoni jamela ta hote dekhlo? Ouff, probem asolei amader duijonke charbena.

Goto 28th February, sokaleo valo kore kotha bollam. Ami lunch korlam derite cause tumi lunch koro 3 tai. Lunch kore eshe ektu bed e shuyechiam, R tar moddhei tumi nimbuzz e janala, Ora ter peye geche. Mobile diye ashte bolche and tumi ferot dite caccho. Abar kosto, abar dui cokher kone asru.

27th February, rate 12 tar dike amra johon kotha bolchilam Skype e, tokhoni se call diyechilo. Asole se dekhchilo, tumi phone ta doro naki. Jeheto doro nai, seheto sokale othei oita niye jamela. As a result mobile niye gelo. SOb e to bujlam, kintu, tumake imu te online dekhacche keno?

Tumi emon bokami ta keno korla? Mobile dite jaccho valo kotha, sim ta keno dite gela? R mobile jeheto dibai, deyar age Nimbuzz, Whatsapp, Imu, Viber, Skype golo delete kore dite parla na? Ouff tumar vhuler jonno sob somoi amake extra tension korte hoi. Dekho, viber theke message pelam, "Vedo Call Koro". Emonki amar Robi number e o same sms. Pore gelam confusion e. Viber e Dubai number theke call ashlo, Dekhei bujlam eta se. Tai dorlam na. Aei je ekhono tumi Imu te online e, eta k tumi nah onno keo? Kichui bujte parchina, R tai knock o korchina.

Viber e pothom jokhon call dilo, ami dorlam. Oi pash theke kotha bolchilona, onek pore Hello Hello bolchilo kintu oi voice ta tumar mone holona. Sei jonno amio kichu na bole chup kore roilam. May be sei jonnoi pune 12 tai oi dubai theke phone korechilo GP number e.

Ekta bar ki amake bola jaina, asole k mobile number ta calacche? At least amar tension or vhoi ta dhur hoto. Jodi tumi calao, tobe tarmane ki tumi take niyomito video call korcho? Sokal 12 tai, bikel 5 tai and now rater sare 10 tai online dekha jai. Tobe ki tumi e taar sathe kotha bolo? Amake ki ekta text kora jaina?

Dekho, matro dui diner bebodhanei ami sick hoye porechi. Onek jor amar, r moddhe diary likhchi. Ektu porpor mobile ta hate niye dekhchi, tumi jodi ekta text dao. Ouff, kotota osohai lagche. Pressure bere ache. Matha dore ache. Tao opekkha korei jacchi, ekta text daona na babu :'(

Somoyer sathe amio chutchi . . .

15.02.2016

Onekdin pore abar likhte boshlam. Asole tumi pase, kache thakle r likhar taronata ashena. Somoigolo valo jacche bidai, likha hoina. Jake vebe dairy likha, sei manushtai to amar kache . . .

Tumar sathe dekha kore ashar por theke, kemon jeno lagche. R matro 4-5 mash, tarpore ki hobe aei vebe sarakkhon tense thaki. As a result, bed e shuye or car deyaler moddhe nijeke bondhi kore somoi par kori. Tumar sob test, checkup, emonki aj T.T. injection ow deya sesh. Allahor rohomote sob ok, ahh shanti. Ekta futfute chele ashche, ouff vabtei koto anondo hocche. Amar sathe cricket khelbe, amra ghurte jabo kingba ek sathe bose cartoon dekhbo, sei dingolor jonno opekkha.

Jani, eto sopno sotti hobe jodi tumi cao. Borabori, amar hate kichui thakena. Tumar paro sob korte, abar tumi paro amake ek muhurte ager jibone firiye nite. Amar life ta may be aeivabei jabe jodi ebar ager moto kichu hoi. Barbar to tumake jontrona dite parina nijer sukher kotha vebe. Sei jonnoi onek vabi, diner por din, rater por rat, shudu vabi r nijeke bisonno kore rakhi.

Dhakar basa ta chere dicchi. Vabchi, kichudin comillai thakbo. Tarpor tumar plan onujayi settle hobo. So, sob tumar kache. Ami time pass korchi class niye, student der kaj sikhiye kingba blogging kore. Ekbar vhabi somoigolo jayna keno? ABar boli, jodi abar oplta palta kichu koro, so aste astei somoi jak. Acho to ekhono amake vebe, amar hridoy jure, aeivabei thako.

14 tarikh valentines day chilo. R oidin e tumar sathe sara din-rat ovhiman kore katalam. Korte caina, kintu kora hoye jai. Sorry babu. Beshi valobashi to, tai hoye jai emon :(

Onekdin pore ektu valo somoi

07.02.2016

4th February theke class neya start korlam. Ekdom individually, eka amar opor bass kore new class. Khub tensed cilam.

Prai 6 mash. Ettogolo din kete geche majkhane. Tarpore tumar dekha pelam. Ouff, ki je proshanti aei mone. Tumake abar dui cokh vore dekha, hath diye sporsho kora, kaner kache fishfish kore bola - I love you Babu.

Onek onek kotha jomiye rekhe goto 5th February, bikeler bus e tumar oikhane gelam. May be rat 9 tai pouchlam and sei hotele othlam - room number 107. Manager er assistant er mukhosto hoye geche, ami gelei oi room dibe, bed e new cador, lef er new cover, room clean kora, pani deoya. Emonki amar nam tao oder mukhosto! So, jaoar pore cabita niyei room e cole jai R room e shuye shuye sokaler jonno opekkha.

Halka shite ghum ta valo holona. Taropor moshar koel er dhuyate cokh jalapura. As a result, sokal sokal othe boshe thaklam r wait korchilam. Oboseshe ghorite 10 ta bajlo R ami ber holam.

Tumar collage er vharandhai 1 hour dar koriye rekhe ashla. Dekhlam tumake bohudin por. Sei ager motoi acho. Chobite ektu mota lagleo ager motoi acho. Shudu oi poriborton toko chara. Ektu kotha bolei cole gelam duijone ricsha te ghurte. Tarpor tuktak kotha bola, tumake kache paoa, moner vitore shantir bonna. Ekta porjonto chilam pashapashi. Shuya ekta abar alada houya. Janina, abar kobe hobe dekha, tobe asha kori hoye jabe abar hut kore.

Babu, tumake onek valobashi. Tumi kache ashba bolei caridike amar bestota, amader prithibita sajanur juddho. Ami sofol hobo tumi ashle. R jodi abar same gotona gote, tobe ebar hoyto r fira hobena aei life e. Abar hariye jabo sei hotash jibone, jekha theke r fire asha hobena. Sei jonnoi mone mone onek vhoi amar. Tumake dekhai nah. Ekhon tumake shudu tensionhin rakhte hobe, happy rakhte hobe.

Jano babu, ami onek cinta kori. Kintu, tumake bolina. Aei j kichukhon age bolla, oni next month ashbe, dekho shunar porei abar ami vhoye kucke gechi. Abar haranur vhoi. Abar ki tumi fire jaba, jani ebar harale tumake na pabar chance ekebarei bere jabe. Abar ki sob mene niba? Ouff, keno j emon hoi. Ekdom valo lagena.

Jokhoni vhabi ektu budhoy sosthi pabo, tokhoni notun kore jamela shuru hoi. Dekhi ebar ki . . .

Abar sopno dekha . . .

31.01.2016

Aj prai der mash pore likhte boshlam. Nijer sathe potiniyoto juddho korchi, R vabchi, shudhui vabchi. Kivabe ebar kono vhul na kore sopno take bastob kora jai. Khub cesta korchi, khub mon diye caichi. Ami jani, ebar na parle ami r konodin parbona. Ami hariye jabo, ebar r firar rasta thakbena amar.

Tumi abar amar jibone fire ashar potisroti diyecho. Sei jonno amar amake guchacchi valo kore. Tumar dayitto netar age, amar je sob guchiye rakhte hobe. Onek kosto peyecho, tumake r kosto pete dibona. Jedin bolecho, amar kache fire ashba, sedin thekei porisromer matra geche bere. Sokal bikal sondha , shudhu chutachuti. Ekhane class, oikhane project er kaj, oikhane building er plan, oikhane seminar, aeivabe katche. Motamoti sofol, safe income source create korte perechi. EKhon shudu tumar opekkha.

Goto 25 tarikh tumi BD te eshecho. Janina, jei sopno amra dekhchi, ta bastob hoe naki. Tobe, ami achi pashe and sob somoi ready. Just tumar ekta ishara. Tarpor, jodi hoi tumar amar pashe thaka, hath dore baki jibon cola. Hobe to?

Opekkha korchi, Din gunchi. Dekhi babu amake r kadai naki koster jibon theke mukti dei?

Another turn . . .

21.11.2015

Abar poriborton, abar sopno dekha. R ektibar kannar sagore vashar age, r ektibar pran vhore hasha. Etai budhhoi amar jiboner role hoye geche. Jokhon vhabi sob sesh, jokhon nijeke sesh korar juddhe nami, tik tokhoni tumar majhe poriborton ashe. Amar jonno feelings ashe!

Sei 15th October, last amar sathe valo kore kotha bolechile. Erpor shunechi sei kotha, sathe dekhechi tumar ariye jaoya, amake aghat korar potijogita. Deyale pith teke jaoa manushtake Allah ektu sosthi dilo. Tumi abar amar sathe hashle, abar fire ashle sei babu'r sorupe. Odvhut bepar holo, jedin theke ami sei kajta kora start korechi, tumar majhe poriborton ta sedin e ashlo. Sukria Allah. Tumake emon korei pete ceyechilam babu, na hole etodine r on onek kichu hoye jeto.

Tumi abar amar kache fire ashba, abar promise korla. Janina, ebaro ki amai mitthe assash dibe naki. Tobe, tumi asha na dile je ami beche thakar kono mane paina. Sei jonno jibone jesob kaj korini, ta korteo didha hoina. Self respect, seto tumar biyer porei hariye felechi. Se onek kotha, jante pare kono ekdin. Tobe, moner majhe ekta kushi kushi vhab. Saradin kaj kore esheow dekho, ektuow tired lagchena. Tumar mukher kotha, oi hashi, r kotha sesher kichu fixed word, amake jibon niye vabte help kore. Sei jonnoi tumake amar oxyzen boli.

Babu, kichu kotha bolbo bole likhte boshechilam. Kintu, nah. Aj r likhte ecche hocchena. Valo monta ekhon valoi thakuk, tumio valo thako. 

Life is really peculiar!

16.11.2015

Jiboner ek ekta din jacche, ami jeno totoi tumake notun kore abiskar korchi. Mathar vitor pokata shudu bole jai, kivabe parle tumi? Ki nirdidhai bole jao, upcoming days and your future plan er kotha. Sobceye mojar bishoi, tumar sathe jokhon oi topics ta niye kotha hoi, amar dui cokh beye toptop kore pani pore. Vaggish video call korina! Majhe majhe ekdike hashi, onnodike tumar kotha shune dui cokh beye pani pore. Aei jonnoi bollam, life is really peculiar.

Aj theke dui year age ki vebechilam, emon hobe or tumi emon korba? Aeito beshina, 2 mash ageow to kolpona korini emon kotha shunbo tumar theke. 2 mash age tumake deshe pathabe. Tumi ceyechile February te ashte, kintu kuttar baccha ta March e jete bole. R ekta mojar kotha, tumi take amar samne kuttar baccha bolo. Otocho tari future niye tumi eto concern, dedicated, aimed, strict. Koto jotno kore rakhcho nijeke, khaoa - daoya korcho thik moto, r ekjonke ante, onek ke happy korte. Tumar safe house hobe se, jake diye tumi nijeke protect korbe kuttar baccha theke. Ha ha ha vablei hashi ashe abar cokh ow vijhe jai. Boroi odvhut onuvhoti.

Mone ache tumar, last dekhai ki bolechila amake? Valo theko, ami ashbo kintu kobe janina. Amio janina, adho tumi r ashbe naki. Tobe eta thik, tumi amake mitthe bolona bolei aeita believe korechi, ashai achi. Aj khub ecche chilo, ekta jinish tumake bolbo. Pore dekhlam, na thak. Babutar mood off kore lav nei, ami nijeow osostho. Jor, sordi, kashi. Gotokal tumar kache ekta PP ceyechilam, daoni olto rag kore phone e rekhe diyechile. R tumi valo korei jano, emon korle ami ki kori. Jeneo tumi emon korecho. Amake kosto dite tumar onek valo lage ekhon. Amar ja kichui hok, tumake ta kosto deina. Sei feelings tai nei. Amake kosto tumi koto dite paro, sei exam diye colechi. Gotokal rat 11 tar dike room e dukechi. Onek thanda baire, room e o kichu nei je gaye dibo. Kapte kapte bed e shuye tumake eto dekhechi, shunte pao? Jani, sei dak r tumake hecki othai na, bicolito korena. Anicchakrito vabe amar sathe kichukhon kotha bolo. Sob kichui aj dai sara vabe. Aei ki amar babu?

Tumar bashai again probem. Tumar boro vhai, again bashai problem korche. Ammur kotha shunena. Onnora tai voye kichui bolena. Bashai jamela colche, tumi tension korcho jani. Mone ache tumar, ekdin tumake bolechilam, Aj tumar vhai-boner jonno amar sathe emon korla, ekdin erai dibe kosto. Hmm tumar biyer koek din age bolechilam. Tumake onek kore biyeta stop korte bolechilam, shunoni oder kotha vebe. Sylhet theke johon bashai ashla, mone ache tumar ki bolechila? Ami r kaor kotha vabbona. Amar kotha vabbo, amader kotha vabbe. Ouff ki sopno dekhiyechile. Amake sopner fanushe vashiye, onake bolechila, na amar bideshe ashte kono problem nei. Hahaha, kadchi r likhchi, 10 year exam tumar kothai gelo? Amar jonno 10 year wait korba, R 4 masher moddhei oi Kuttar bacchar future niye boshe acho. Odvhut jibon, vablei ga kepe panir fuyara ber hoi dui cokh diye. Amar babu, sob pare!

Babu, eto comfortable life chere ahste tumar boddo vhoi taina? Dekho, tumar jonno ami sob chere, sob hariye, odvhut jibon japon korchi. Ki korchi, ta bolbona. Tobe khub kosto hoi, age kokhono korini. Eto kosto koreo jodi tumar age prithibi theke jete pari, tobei kosto sarthok hobe. Tumader sathe new keo, sojjo korte parbona. Keno emon korle amar sathe - pokata amake sesh kore felbe bolte bolte. R tumi besh achi, ami keor na, onno sob jahanname jak - aei kotha nijeke bole valo thakar ovinoi kore jeo. Valo theko lokkhi babu. 

Aeivabei colbe tobe . . .

13.11.2015

Nijeke niye vaba chere diyechi. Amar jibon, tumar ecchemotoi colbe. Ami ja ecche ta kori kingba jahanname geleow problem nei tumar. Sei jonnoi goto 2 weeks dore onek kichu cepe jacchi. Thanda mane kahista cepe rakhar moto noi, tai prokash peye jacche. Jodio amar ja kichui hok, ete tumar kono agroho nei.

Goto kichudin dore onek cesta korlam, tumake ager moto kore pete. Tumar sb kotha shunechi, shudu tumar mukhe ektu hashi anbo, sei khilkhil kora hashita ektu shunbo. Vaggo kharap, ami ekai jhur kore heshe gelam. Result zero. Tobu, tumake ektu hoyto normal korte perechilam. Kintu, samanno wish ja shudu tumar kachei asha kori, sei kotha kingba pp r paina tumar kache. Boddo miss kori. Tarceyeo miss kori tumake onek din dore na dekhatake.

Future niye etoi acchonno hoye porle, ami sei future e nei. Valobasha jinishta ki - aj mukh fute bollam, pelam na tobe sesh? Babu, ami onno 10 ta cheler moto tumake valobashte parini. Tumar aei tarzan ta tumar poti kokhonoi serious chilona bole amake shudu vhul buje gecho. Tumi je sobsomoi amar mon jhure chila and acho. Tumi onar sathe life settle kore nile kingba amar kotha na vable jodi ami tumake vhule jai, tobe eta abar kemon valobasha holo? Tumi nei, tai bole ami tumake vhule jabo? Na babu, ami emon nah. Tumake 1st jedin propose korechilam, sedin thekei aei monta tumake diye diyechi. Aj etogolo bochor pore sei valobasha shudu bereche. Tumi kosto dao, R ami ekaki cokher pani feli. Tumake fire pabo bole baki jibonta emon kore dibbi katiye dite parbo. Amar kotha naiba vabla, ekdin to bujte parbe kotota kosto diyechile aei amake.

Ekhono 4 mash hoini, tumi oikhane gyecho. 4 mashei tumi etota change, etoboro news dila amake. Kake niye ami etto sopno dekhechilam, ke amake etto promise korechilo? Tumi na amake mitthe bolona, sei ashai ekhono opekhai achi fire ashbe bole. Na, tumake mukh fute bolbona, shudu dekhe jabo. Mukh fute bole ki lab? Goto soptahe onek kichui to bolechi, kono side effect chilona. Majkhane na bola kothagolo bole dilam. Ekhon ja korchi, ta na bollei holo. Asole majhhe majhe eto emotional hoye jai, tumake sb bole dei. Vabi, hoyto amar kotha ektu vabba. Kintu, nah. Amar jonno tumar r kono feelings e nei. Kotha bolcho, he na, kheyechi, ghumiyechi etc. Ami na kheye thakleo kichu jai ashena. Eta ki amar sei babu?

2 masher vara advance dibar moto capability nei kingba kichu kinar. Sob kichui ami hariye felechi. Tumake boddo akre dorar cesta kore jacchi, r vitore vitore harabar vhoi. Potiniyoto mone hoi, aei buji agamikal phone dorba na kingba r kotha bolbona eta bolba. Jani, etao amake shunte hote pare. Jedin shunbo, sedin amar mone ja ache, tai kore jabo. Na, tumake dakbona. Ekhon adhare ek pa bariyechi, tokhon dui pa niyei hariye jabo. Aei sotto toko tumar kache ojana thakbe. Tumar kache thekeo thakbona. Shuye shuye ami future life niye vabi. Bed e shuye tumar chobi dekha, recording er voice shuna, aei amar kaj. Eto porisromer por oitai amar medicine.

Mathar moddhe sarakkhon ekta poka gan geye coleche, Kivabe parle tumi? Ekbare to hoini, amar kotha ektuow vable na. Tumar majhe mishe achi, R amakei aeivabe hurt korte parle tumi? Sobar sathei valo, amar khetre eto badha, apotti. Sobar kache valo thakar montro path kore amake diye jaccho kosto. Boddo siter moddhe emon ekta life lead korte hobe, etajemon kolpona korini; temni amai na kheye achi shuneow tumi dibbi khaoaya daoya korte paro, vaba jaina. Asole tumi sob paro babu.

Janina, tumi deshe ashte ashte tumar sathe amar jogajug thakbe naki. Jodi na thake, tobe vebe nio, tumar babu sei jibone hariye geche. Tumar ekhane thekeo ocena hoye roibo. Tobu tumar ekhan theke jabona, dur theke tumake dekhar aei sujog ta harate parbona. Ajkal cokh golo auto hoye geche, again shudu pani pore. Cosmar power bereche, kintu cokh jacche rosatole. Jak, aei dui cokhe tumake onar pashe na dekhlei holo. Ekta to caoya chilo, r sei caoyata tumi r o na houyar apran cestai acho. Tao valo thako, dirgonisshash golo amar - tumar jonno kosto noi, shuvo hok. R parchina likhte . .